Unraveled (Turner, #3)

“You won’t see me in your hearing room again,” she murmured. “I…you’re right. You and Jeremy both. I have to walk away from that. And Robbie is old enough to make his own decisions.”


“If I did see you again,” he said, “I’d not render judgment. I believe I’ve misplaced my impartiality in regard to you.”

“Will I see you at all?”

He shook his head. But he couldn’t yet make himself move away. He was unwilling to relinquish his hold on her, unwilling to say that final good-bye. He held her for a minute, then two, then three, simply holding her and committing to memory what he could not have in life. There was a sweet, comforting scent to her.

His memory was very, very good, but she was better.

He only loosened his grip when he feared he might not be able to let go of her at all.





Chapter Nine




FOR ANOTHER MAN, THE memory of Miranda Darling might have faded over the days that passed.

But Smite’s memories never faded, and he found himself strangely reluctant to push thoughts of her from his mind entirely. It was easy to withstand loneliness when the alternative was to saddle himself with some doe-eyed innocent who could not follow his conversation, and whose only experience in deprivation amounted to a few hours of boredom. It was harder to resist thoughts of a wary, green-eyed woman who knew Greek plays and made her own way on the streets.

He could call to mind what it felt like to have her walking next to him in the rain, her cheeks pink with exertion, that wide smile on her face as she teased him about his name. He woke some nights, not from one of his usual nightmares, but hard with want, the memory of her skin swimming through his mind.

No matter how he tried, he couldn’t remember her scent—just that it had calmed him—and that failure was driving him wild.

He tried to tell himself it was nothing but lust. Except that he didn’t only think of the heat of her mouth, her response to his kiss. He lusted after her smiles. After the easy way she teased him. It was deeply irrational, that want. But then, it had been a long while since a woman had laughed at him, and he couldn’t help but treasure the memory.

There was nothing to do about such thoughts—nothing, that was, except to hope that she was eating well, and to send his clerk off to seek word of George Patten. But Palter had found nothing from the men in the gaol; days ago, he’d gone in search of those who’d been released since then. The inquiries were taking time.

This morning started as any other morning would. Palter brought him a summary of the prior day’s dealings: licenses issued, hearings held.

Midway through the morning, a constable came in. “I’ll need a warrant issued to hold a man until the Assizes,” he said.

Across the room, Jamison, a fellow magistrate, spoke without looking up from his reading. “I’ll sign,” he offered. “Give the papers over.”

“You can’t just sign,” Smite interjected. “You haven’t heard the evidence. The man hasn’t even been charged, and besides, there’s a bail hearing to be had.” He was long past feeling appalled at the lax way in which weighty matters of law were decided. He wasn’t past arguing, though.

“What’s the point?” Jamison shrugged. “The constable wouldn’t have brought the man in were he not guilty, and if he’s guilty, he’ll just run.”

“It’s almost an insult, sir,” the constable said, nodding his head. “When you ask all those pointed questions. It’s like saying that you don’t trust my judgment.”

Smite met the man’s eyes. “This has nothing to do with your pride or your integrity or any of your finer personal feelings. It is not about you at all. It is about fidelity to the duty demanded by the laws that we have both sworn to honor. Adhering to the requirements of the law is never a personal slight.”

“I see,” the constable said with a frown, “but still, it’s my judgment you’re questioning.”

Smite sighed and rubbed his forehead. “The law demands that an impartial observer consider the evidence.”

Jamison exhaled noisily behind them. “Then you consider it,” he said, turning a page of his newspaper. “I’m busy.”

Smite had had similar conversations any number of times in his tenure as a magistrate in Bristol. He always felt as if he were fighting a losing battle with his colleagues. How hard was it to listen? To truly think of the requirements of justice, instead of mechanically signing whatever came their way?

Apparently, it was next to impossible.

“You haven’t any family to speak of,” Jamison continued. “If you did, you’d not be able to devote the hours you do. The rest of us, well, we’ve found it useful to accept that some of the legal technicalities can be set aside. No point in being slaves to formality.”

“I have a family,” Smite said quietly. The man who was being held out there might have one, too. “That’s why I consider it imperative to discharge my duty to its utmost.”