CHAPTER Twenty
I walk into the club, Anaya by my side, the both of us dressed to kill. Friday night came around quickly, and I told Grayson I would meet him here. Of course, he didn’t like that; he wanted to pick me up, but I told him Anaya was driving so there was no point. He grumbled, but surprisingly gave in. I spot him instantly at the bar with his sister. Anaya links her hand in mine as we walk toward them. I know the second Grayson sees me, because he turns his head and stills. I hide my smile as I stop before him. Before I can speak, he cradles my face in his hands and kisses me. He then puts his lips at my ear and says, “You look breathtaking.”
I blush. I’d chosen a dress of Anaya’s, a blue chiffon dress I fell in love with the moment I saw. I go to introduce Leah and Anaya, but the two of them are already talking and introducing themselves. Oops. I throw Grayson a look, like it’s his fault I’m appearing rude. He grins wolfishly, like he knows exactly what I’m thinking.
“You don’t need to baby her,” he says into my ear, looking amused. “Do you want a drink?”
“Yes please,” I say, turning to Anaya and Leah and asking them what they want. Grayson orders for us, and then pulls me to the dance floor.
“I know you have some moves,” he whispers into my ear, pulling my ass against him. “I was so angry that night, but I was also so f*cking hard.”
We start to dance, nothing too raunchy. He has his hands on my hips, and we move together in time with the music. A few songs later, we return to Leah and Anaya who are doing a shot of something green. Leah smiles when she sees me and grabs my arm, pulling me next to her.
“There are so many hot guys here tonight!” she gushes, glancing around. I follow her line of direction. I hadn’t even noticed any hot guys besides Grayson. “Do you want to dance?” she asks. I nod. The three of us head to the dance floor, leaving Grayson alone at the bar. When we return, he’s not alone.
“Shit. I had no idea she would be here,” Leah says. Grayson is inching away from Dylan, who is trying to get as close as she can to tell him something. I walk up next to him and his arm comes around me instantly.
“Forget my invite did you, Leah?” Dylan sneers, throwing a look at her friend. Leah rolls her eyes.
Grayson scoffs. “Not exactly.”
“Seriously? Just because she comes along I get thrown out of the group? Replaced?”
“That’s not what happened and you know it. Leave us alone, Dylan,” Grayson says, bringing me closer and kissing me on top of my head. Dylan storms off, re-joining the group of girls she must have arrived with.
An hour later, I walk into the ladies’ room. There are a few girls talking amongst themselves by the sinks.
“It’s not like I like going down on a guy, but it’s just common courtesy to reciprocate,” one girl is telling her friend. I hide my smile at their conversation. When I exit the bathroom, I come face to face with Dylan. Just what I need right now.
“He’ll come back to me, you know. He always does,” she says, pouting her red lips.
I shrug. “If he does go back to you, then I wouldn’t want him anyway,” I say, walking away before she can talk more shit. Walking back to our spot, I laugh when I see Grayson dancing with his sister, playing around and doing some silly dance moves. Leah is slapping his arm, possibly telling him to stop embarrassing her going by the redness of her face. Anaya is on her phone; I’m guessing texting Paul. She wanted him to come out tonight, but he had to work. I smile at Grayson—who is waving me over. I walk onto the dance floor and save Leah from him.
“I love you,” he says to me.
“I love you too.”
When I get home that night, I see my sister has left me a text message.
I’ll be there next week. What’s your address?
Shit.
*****
I run home, panting, my bag swinging on my arm. London is coming today, and I forgot. I forgot. I received a message saying that she has landed and is catching a cab to my apartment while I was in class. So she might already be there, if not, could be arriving at any second. Grayson is there, probably still asleep in my bed since he didn’t have an early class. I run up the steps, pull out my key and unlock the door.
“Grayson?” I call out, throwing my bag on the floor and walking straight into the kitchen. I stop as I see him, bare-chested, wearing nothing but a pair of worn jeans, low on his hips, button undone.
“Hey, babe, how was class?” he asks, stalking over to me and dipping me backwards with a welcoming kiss. When he lifts me back up, I forget what I was going to say. Oh, right. My sister.
“London is coming today! Like now! Any second now,” I ramble.
His brows lower. “That’s today?” Looks like I’m not the only one who forgot.
“Apparently so.”
“Okay, so don’t stress. You know I could have picked her up from the airport, right?” he says, not for the first time.
“Don’t worry. She can manage.”
“I can pick up something for dinner,” he offers.
“That would be great,” I say, tying my hair on top of my head in a messy bun. I don’t know how I feel having London visit. She’s a troublemaker and an opportunist. I don’t mean to be rude, but I really don’t want her staying here. I told her she can stay for a couple days until she figures out whatever she wants to do. There’s a knock at the door and dread fills me.
“Paris?” she yells, opening the door. I didn’t even lock it in my haste. I walk to the door, stopping when I see her. She looks the same. Blond hair, a few shades darker than mine, the same blue eyes, and pale skin. I give her a hug.
“Hey,” I say.
“You look the same,” she says, grinning.
“So do you.”
“How was your flight?” I ask, helping her with her suitcase.
“Babe, let me grab that,” Grayson says.
“Grayson, this is London. London, this is Grayson,” I say. Grayson shakes her hand, touching it for only a second before stepping back, as if her touch burned. London tilts her head and looks at him, deep in thought as he takes her suitcase and drags it into the lounge room.
“He’s your boyfriend?” she asks.
“Yes, why?”
“No reason. Cute place you have here,” she says, looking around.
“Thanks. Can I get you something to drink?” I ask her as we walk into the kitchen.
“Yeah. Do you have any juice?” she asks, plopping down in one of the chairs. I nod and pour her some orange juice. Grayson doesn’t come back out so I go to my bedroom and find him sitting there, head in his hands. He looks up as soon as he hears me.
“Are you okay?” I ask him.
“Fine, just have a headache,” he says, forcing a smile.
“I’ll get you some pain killers,” I say, kissing him on the top of his head before heading into the kitchen to find some paracetamol.
“Everything okay?” she asks, sipping on her juice.
“Yep. You can sleep in my roommate’s bedroom. She said she will stay at her boyfriend’s for a few days.”
“That’s nice of her,” she says absently.
“Are you going to tell me why you’re here?” I ask, cutting to the chase.
She pouts. “Can’t a girl visit her big sister?”
I sigh. “Cut the shit, London. What do you want?”
She purses her lips. “My boyfriend broke up with me and kicked me out of his house. I have nowhere else to go, and no money. I messaged you when I first sensed something was going on. He met someone else,” she says, looking down, her hair covering her face like a curtain.
“Weren’t you working?” I ask her.
“No. He was supporting me. He was completely rich. All I have left is the jewellery he bought me when we were together.”
I look up and see Grayson standing there, leaning on the doorframe listening. His body is tense, his face drawn.
“Sorry, Gray. Here,” I say, handing him two pills and a bottle of water.
“Thanks, babe,” he says, taking them from me. “Can we talk for a second?”
“Sure,” I say, walking into my room. He closes the door behind us.
“We said we would be honest and truthful with one another,” he starts.
“We did,” I say, nodding for him to continue.
“When we met,” he says, looking broken. His voice is raw when he continues, “You looked so familiar.”
“What do you mean?” I ask, frowning.
“Once, when I went to Melbourne on business with my dad, I met a girl in a club. I brought her back to my hotel room, and then the next morning she was gone.” He pauses. “I thought you were her.”
I open my mouth and snap it shut. What?
“I don’t understand,” I mutter, shaking my head in confusion.
“When you were a virgin, I realized you weren’t her. That’s why I was so confused, and I walked out. I didn’t get it—you looked like her. Of course, it didn’t matter really—I was in love with you. I didn’t care that you weren’t her. I didn’t even know her. I just slept with her once. I didn’t even know her name or anything,” he says, wringing his hands together. “F*ck, I’m doing a shit job at trying to explain this. Bottom line is, I thought you were her. When you weren’t, I didn’t give a shit. I was just confused about it, because you looked so much like her. I didn’t even think about it again. When you mentioned you had a sister, I hoped that it wasn’t her…”
When it all hits me, my heart breaks. The pain in my chest is overwhelming, spreading throughout my body like a disease.
“You slept with London?” I whisper so quietly, I don’t even know if he heard me. London does look like me; there is no denying that. She’s younger by a year but we look the same age. “That’s why you chased after me? You thought you already had me? And what? I was playing a game?” I ask, my voice getting louder.
“I thought you were pretending, and then I thought you didn’t remember. When I found out you were a virgin, I realized I was completely wrong, but I was happy, because I’d found you…”
I rub my forehead, unable to believe this is happening to me.
“You wanted me to be her?” I say, blocking out all his other words.
“No! No, that’s not it at all. I love you. You’re beautiful, kind, and smart. You’re everything I could ever dream of in a woman. She’s… I’m so glad I met you, Paris. You’re the best thing that’s ever happened to me.”
“You slept with my sister,” I say in a small voice.
“Before I ever knew you existed,” he says, trying to take me into his arms to comfort me. Why does he always try to comfort me from pain he’s caused? Why does he do this to me? I wanted honesty. I demanded it from him. My secret came out and now his has. Except I don’t know how to take it. I don’t know how to react. I feel… broken.
“Paris, can you please listen to me?” he begs, going down on his knees before me. He leans his head against my stomach, silently pleading with me. He wants me to touch him. Body contact. Reassurance. I can’t offer him either. I take a step back, breaking the contact between the two of us.
“It’s in the past, Paris,” he says, his voice breaking.
“I know it’s in the past, but you chased after me thinking I was her. That means you wanted her again, not me.”
“I knew it wasn’t her after we made love!”
I crumble, the first tear falling. Grayson stares at my face, watching me. His expression mirrors my own.
“F*ck,” he curses. “Don’t cry, love, please don’t cry.”
“I. Want. To. Be. Alone,” I say, emphasising each word. I turn from him, unable to look at him any longer.
“Don’t do this, babe,” he pleads.
“Can you just give me this? I just want to be by myself. Please.”
I feel his heat behind me. His arms circle my waist from behind. “I love you. You. I know you, inside and out, and I love everything about you. You’re the one I fell for. I just had one night of sex with her. That’s it. Sex. No emotion.”
“Must have been good sex if you came back for seconds,” I snap.
“I don’t know how to get you to understand,” he mutters. “She pales in comparison, Paris. I love you, and I hope you can forgive me.”
He buries his face in my hair for a few seconds, places a kiss on my head and then walks out.
I slide into bed and start sobbing.