Seven or eight miles up the coast road, just outside Hampton Township, they found a restaurant called The Lobster Chateau. Jack had given a very sketchy account of his day - already he was backing away from the terror he had experienced on the beach, letting it diminish in his memory. A waiter in a red jacket printed with the yellow image of a lobster across the back showed them to a table beside a long streaky window.
'Would Madam care for a drink?' The waiter had a stony-cold off-season New England face, and looking at it, suspecting the resentment of his Ralph Lauren sport coat and his mother's carelessly worn Halston afternoon dress behind those watery blue eyes, Jack felt a more familiar terror needle him - simple homesickness. Mom, if you're not really sick, what the hell are we doing here? The place is empty! It's creepy! Jesus!
'Bring me an elementary martini,' she said. The waiter raised his eyebrows. 'Madam?'
'Ice in a glass,' she said. 'Olive on ice. Tanqueray gin over olive. Then - are you getting this?'
Mom, for God's sake, can't you see his eyes? You think you're being charming - he thinks you're making fun of him! Can't you see his eyes?
No. She couldn't. And that failure of empathy, when she had always been so sharp about how other people were feeling, was another stone against his heart. She was withdrawing . . . in all ways.
'Yes, madam.'
'Then,' she said, 'you take a bottle of vermouth - any brand - and hold it against the glass. Then you put the vermouth back on the shelf and bring the glass to me. 'Kay?'
'Yes, madam.' Watery-cold New England eyes, staring at his mother with no love at all. We're alone here, Jack thought, really realizing it for the first time. Jeez, are we. 'Young sir?'
'I'd like a Coke,' Jack said miserably.
The waiter left. Lily rummaged in her purse, came up with a package of Herbert Tarrytoons (so she had called them since he had been a baby, as in 'Bring me my Tarrytoons from over there on the shelf, Jacky,' and so he still thought of them) and lit one. She coughed out smoke in three harsh bursts.
It was another stone against his heart. Two years ago, his mother had given up smoking entirely. Jack had waited for her to backslide with that queer fatalism which is the flip side of childish credulity and innocence. His mother had always smoked; she would soon smoke again. But she had not . . . not until three months ago, in New York. Carltons. Walking around the living room in the apartment on Central Park West, puffing like a choo-choo, or squatting in front of the record cabinet, pawing through her old rock records or her dead husband's old jazz records.
'You smoking again, Mom?' he'd asked her.
'Yeah, I'm smoking cabbage leaves,' she'd said.
'I wish you wouldn't.'
'Why don't you turn on the TV?' she'd responded with uncharacteristic sharpness, turning toward him, her lips pressed tightly together. 'Maybe you can find Jimmy Swaggart or Reverend Ike. Get down there in the hallelujah corner with the amen sisters.'
'Sorry,' he'd muttered.
Well - it was only Carltons. Cabbage leaves. But here were the Herbert Tarrytoons - the blue-and-white old-fashioned pack, the mouthpieces that looked like filters but which weren't. He could remember, vaguely, his father telling somebody that he smoked Winstons and his wife smoked Black Lungers.
'See anything weird, Jack?' she asked him now, her over-bright eyes fixed on him, the cigarette held in its old, slightly eccentric position between the second and third fingers of the right hand. Daring him to say something. Daring him to say, 'Mom, I notice you're smoking Herbert Tarrytoons again - does this mean you figure you don't have anything left to lose?'
'No,' he said. That miserable, bewildered homesickness swept him again, and he felt like weeping. 'Except this place. It's a little weird.'
She looked around and grinned. Two other waiters, one fat, one thin, both in red jackets with golden lobsters on the back, stood by the swing doors to the kitchen, talking quietly. A velvet rope hung across the entrance to a huge dining room beyond the alcove where Jack and his mother sat. Chairs were overturned in ziggurat shapes on the tables in this dark cave. At the far end, a huge window-wall looked out on a gothic shorescape that made Jack think of Death's Darling, a movie his mother had been in. She had played a young woman with a lot of money who married a dark and handsome stranger against her parents' wishes. The dark and handsome stranger took her to a big house by the ocean and tried to drive her crazy. Death's Darling had been more or less typical of Lily Cavanaugh's career - she had starred in a lot of black-and-white films in which handsome but forgettable actors drove around in Ford convertibles with their hats on.
The sign hanging from the velvet rope barring the entrance to this dark cavern was ludicrously understated: THIS SECTION CLOSED.
'It is a little grim, isn't it?' she said.
'It's like the Twilight Zone,' he replied, and she barked her harsh, infectious, somehow lovely laugh.
'Yeah, Jacky, Jacky, Jacky,' she said, and leaned over to ruffle his too-long hair, smiling.
He pushed her hand away, also smiling (but oh, her fingers felt like bones, didn't they? She's almost dead, Jack . . . ). 'Don't touch-a da moichendise.'
'Off my case.'
'Pretty hip for an old bag.'
'Oh boy, try to get movie money out of me this week.'