“Of course I am.” She smiled at him. “I thought it would put you at ease.”
He laughed, that dark, appreciative laugh she’d come to adore. “Touché, my dear.”
For a second, they stared at one another, her will matching his.
“Just the paper, now,” he warned. “No letters.”
It was a victory of a sort, that she’d made him tell that lie. He clearly knew it was a lie; he gave his head an annoyed shake.
And then he rubbed a hand through his hair and looked away. “I own a metalworks in Toulouse,” he mumbled.
“Why, Mr. Clark, that sounds surprisingly respectable.”
He raised an eyebrow at her. “Don’t make too much of it. I’ve only had it a few years. And you’d best not ask how I got the money to start it.” He smiled tightly. “For that matter, don’t ask how I got the first references I needed so that business would start coming in.”
“Does this metalworks have an address?”
He wrinkled his nose at her. She smiled calmly in return while her heart raced. Then slowly, ever so slowly, he took a sheet of her paper and scrawled a few lines.
“I won’t write back,” he told her.
He was such a dreadful liar. Let him lie, if that’s what he needed for the moment.
He didn’t take hold of her, didn’t even touch her. He simply stood and strode to the door. “You have my best wishes, Free. Now and always.”
And then he turned and left.
Chapter Sixteen
EDWARD HAD KNOWN WHEN he gave Free his address that he might as well have given up right then. The last thing he could withstand was a sustained correspondence. He managed to let the first of her letters pass without a reply. The second was harder. She told him about construction on a new home, about how her suit against his brother was prospering—well—and the public response to the revelations they’d jointly engineered at that soireé—even better. Her advertisers were returning, her subscribers were more loyal than ever, and her subscription numbers were up ten percent and still growing. Everything was looking up, she told him.
Everything, she said, but one little thing. She didn’t specify what that was, but he didn’t need to ask.
It took all his willpower to keep his silence.
But then two weeks passed—two weeks in which her newspapers arrived without any personal notes at all. That circumstance should not have had him grumbling in complaint.
Still, when he saw a scrap of paper attached to his paper one morning, he grabbed for it.
Apologies for the silence, she wrote. I’ve been busy. See attached.
He read through her piece. His heart beat faster as he read; his fists clenched on the paper. And when he reached the end of it, he didn’t just give up on the notion of chivalrously ignoring her; he grabbed for his own paper and scrawled a response.
May 14, 1877
Good God. Are you trying to stop my heart? Nothing from you for all that time—and then only one brief note. I had thought you’d given up doing investigative work personally. You understand that when you go into a very dangerous mine that you are putting yourself in danger?
You could have died. You almost did.
I won’t stand for—
Edward stopped, and imagined himself saying that to Free in person. She’d make a rude noise—and all too well-deserved. He crossed that off, too, and stared at the paper a long while before trying again.
Even if you think nothing of your own safety, think of—
That wasn’t any better, to imply that she hadn’t thought about the consequences of her actions. He scratched that through.
Tell me, do you imagine yourself invulnerable, or—
He took a deep breath. It was almost as if he could hear her responding, taunting him. He scratched dark lines through this, too. After a long while, he wrote again.
I have sat in one place crossing lines off this letter for far longer than I should. It’s almost as if you are sitting over my shoulder, offering your sarcastic thoughts in response to my most protective impulses. You’re obviously intelligent enough to understand the risks you’re taking, and you’ve decided they’re worthwhile. I know better than to argue with you on that score.
So I will swallow all my other worries and end with this: I have sat with you at night and felt your fear. I do not know how you face it again and again. It is more than I could do.
You bewilder me.
Edward
It would be foolish to send the letter. It sat on his desk for days while he argued with himself. Finally, he slipped it into the mails, and was even more annoyed when that did not feel like an act of weakness.
It was a matter of days before he heard from her again.
May 20, 1877
Dear Edward,
It was nothing. All in the name of reporting, really. It was rather fortuitous, in fact, that I experienced a cave-in. Under such circumstances, I could…