“I don’t agree with that,” he muttered, and then he spoke to Jamie. “You probably ought to get to school. It’s better that we get everything back to normal as soon as possible.”
Jamie groaned. “Sharon will be a nightmare today.”
Ian grinned. “Time to take one for the team, kid. I don’t envy you.”
Jamie sighed and kicked the dirt. “Keep an eye on Wanda.”
“Will do.”
Jamie shuffled away, casting glances back at us every few minutes until he disappeared into another tunnel.
“Here, give me those,” Ian said, pulling the bin of dishes from me before I could respond.
“They weren’t too heavy for me,” I told him.
He grinned again. “I feel silly standing here with my arms empty while you lug these around. Chalk it up to gallantry. C’mon—let’s go relax somewhere out of the way until the coast is clear.”
His words troubled me, and I followed him in silence. Why should gallantry apply to me?
He walked all the way to the cornfield, and then into the cornfield, stepping in the low part of the furrow, between the stalks. I trailed behind him until he stopped, somewhere in the middle of the field, set the dishes aside, and sprawled out on the dirt.
“Well, this is out of the way,” I said as I settled to the ground beside him, crossing my legs. “But shouldn’t we be working?”
“You work too hard, Wanda. You’re the only one who never takes a day off.”
“It gives me something to do,” I mumbled.
“Everyone is taking a break today, so you might as well.”
I looked at him curiously. The light from the mirrors threw double shadows through the cornstalks that crisscrossed over him like zebra stripes. Under the lines and the dirt, his pale face was weary.
“You look like you’ve been working.”
His eyes tightened. “But I’m resting now.”
“Jamie won’t tell me what’s going on,” I murmured.
“No. And neither will I.” He sighed. “It’s nothing you want to know anyway.”
I stared at the ground, at the dark purple and brown dirt, as my stomach twisted and rolled. I could think of nothing worse than not knowing, but maybe I was just lacking in imagination.
“It’s not really fair,” Ian said after a silent moment, “seeing as I won’t answer your question, but do you mind if I ask you one?”
I welcomed the distraction. “Go ahead.”
He didn’t speak at once, so I looked up to find the reason for his hesitation. He was staring down now, looking at the dirt streaked across the backs of his hands.
“I know you’re not a liar. I know that now,” he said quietly. “I’ll believe you, whatever your answer is.”
I waited again while he continued to stare at the dirt on his skin.
“I didn’t buy Jeb’s story before, but he and Doc are pretty convinced.… Wanda?” he asked, looking up at me. “Is she still in there with you? The girl whose body you wear?”
This was not just my secret anymore—both Jamie and Jeb knew the truth. Neither was it the secret that really mattered. At any rate, I trusted Ian not to go blabbing to anyone who would kill me over it. “Yes,” I told him. “Melanie is still here.”
He nodded slowly. “What is it like? For you? For her?”
“It’s… frustrating, for us both. At first I would have given anything to have her disappear the way she should have. But now I… I’ve gotten used to her.” I smiled wryly. “Sometimes it’s nice to have the company. It’s harder for her. She’s like a prisoner in many ways. Locked away in my head. She prefers that captivity to disappearing, though.”
“I didn’t know there was a choice.”
“There wasn’t in the beginning. It wasn’t until your kind discovered what was happening that any resistance started. That seems to be the key—knowing what’s going to happen. The humans who were taken by surprise didn’t fight back.”
“So if I were caught?”
I appraised his fierce expression—the fire in his brilliant eyes.
“I doubt you would disappear. Things have changed, though. When they catch full-grown humans now, they don’t offer them as hosts. Too many problems.” I half smiled again. “Problems like me. Going soft, getting sympathetic to my host, losing my way…”
He thought about that for a long time, sometimes looking at my face, sometimes at the cornstalks, sometimes at nothing at all.
“What would they do with me, then, if they caught me now?” he finally asked.
“They’d still do an insertion, I think. Trying to get information. Probably they’d put a Seeker in you.”