“Anjan,” Emily heard herself say. “Are you asking me to marry you? Because…”
“No, of course not,” he replied. “It’s too soon for that. We haven’t known one another very long, which I hear is important for you English. And I have not heard from my parents, which is important to me. I’m just telling you a story, that’s all.”
A story. A story. She swallowed, trying to envision the story that would follow. It wouldn’t be an easy life, that much she knew. He rarely talked about how he was treated, but she hadn’t received the impression that many people were kind. Quite the reverse. And that would be what she entered into? That would be what her children would experience? She felt too young for children, let alone for a decision of this magnitude. She wrapped her arms around her waist.
“Here’s another story,” she said quietly. “I’m not of age. My uncle hasn’t even let me come out because of my fits. He would never let me marry.” Least of all you, she thought, but she didn’t want to have those ugly words said. “No matter what happened, I would have to wait until I turned twenty-one. And that’s a year and a half away.”
“Would you?” he asked. “Would you consider the wait, if we were in a story?”
But as much as she’d pretended this was an escape, this wasn’t a story.
“Every day we meet, I tell myself I shouldn’t come,” Emily said. “I’m afraid my uncle will find out, that he’ll start thinking of me as he thinks of Jane—well, never mind that.” She shut her eyes. “How can I consider the rest of my life when I can scarcely contemplate tomorrow?”
He drew back. “I’m sorry.”
“Don’t be sorry. It was a story. A story and a rhetorical question.” She looked at him and felt a wash of sadness. “The strange thing is, I think that if our parents had arranged our marriage, I would be happy with the prospect. Isn’t that daft? It’s only because I have a choice that I’m fretting.”
He took a step toward her. “You’d have a choice,” he said softly. “Your mother would love you. After we met, she’d come to you alone. ‘How did I do?’ she’d ask. ‘Do you like him?’ A parent offering her beloved child a precious gift and hoping that it finds favor.”
Emily thought of her father—the one who hadn’t even visited every year. She thought of the mother she didn’t even remember, one who had brushed off her inconvenient children, seeing them only as an audience to listen to her complaints about the country life her husband had forced on her. She thought about Titus’s sad little pout when she and Jane had driven off that horrid Doctor Fallon with his foul-smelling jars.
“No,” she said, trying not to choke on the words. “That isn’t what would happen. He’d say, ‘nineteen-year-old girls are given guardians because they cannot choose for themselves.’”
Anjan didn’t speak for a moment. Then he lifted his hand and slowly, ever so slowly, touched her cheek.
“This part isn’t a story,” he said. “This part is just the truth. If he won’t hold you precious, then I will.”
It was just his hand. It was just her cheek. Her eyes stung. She didn’t move away, didn’t try to hold back the liquid that burned her vision. She couldn’t say anything in response, and so she just stayed with him—long enough that a cloud slid lazily across the sky, casting them in shade, and then passed on, putting them in sunlight once more.
“I’ll consider your story,” Emily finally said huskily. “For all the difficulty I see in it, it would have its rewards.”
Chapter Thirteen
The evening of Bradenton’s gathering came all too quickly. After a few feverish days of planning, Oliver found himself in Bradenton’s home once again. This time, though, the house was packed with the marquess’s allies in Parliament, and so the rooms were rather too warm. There were more than twenty here tonight—a smattering of lords, Members of Parliament, and accompanying wives.
“Marshall.” Bradenton made his way to Oliver through the gathered group, looked about, and leaned in. “I have to say I’m disappointed. Disappointed and surprised.” His voice was low, scarcely audible in the din of conversation. “Everyone is here, and yet Miss Fairfield’s reign of ridiculousness continues unabated. I had expected better of you.”
Too bad Oliver’s own expectations had intervened. He smiled faintly. “Oh ye of little faith,” he intoned. “You said tonight, and tonight I plan to deliver.”
The marquess, who had been shaking his head, paused. “Really?”
They’d gone through the plan inch by painstaking inch. Across the room, Hapford caught Oliver’s eye. His fists clenched, and he looked away.
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