'Another what?' Her fingers pressed against the side of her neck, rubbing hard. 'Another blackout? Another trance?'
'Both,' he said. 'The sparrows again first. I wrote a lot of crazy shit on a piece of paper while I was knocked out. I threw it away, but her name was on the sheet, Liz, Miriam's name was part of what I wrote this time when I was out . . . and . . . '
He stopped. His eyes were widening, widening.
'What? Thad, what is it?' She seized one of his arms, shook it. 'What is it?'
'She has a poster in her living room,' he said. He heard his voice as though it were someone else's - a voice coming from far away. Over an intercom, perhaps. 'A poster from a Broadway musical. Cats. I saw it the last time we were there. Cats, NOW AND FOREVER. I wrote that down, too. I wrote it because he was there, and so I was there, part of me was, part of me was seeing with his eyes . . . '
He looked at her. He looked at her with his wide, wide eyes.
'This is no tumor, Liz. At least, not one that's inside of my body.'
'I don't know what you're talking about!' Liz nearly screamed.
'I've got to call Rick,' he muttered. Part of his mind seemed to be lifting off, moving brilliantly and talking to itself in images and crude bright symbols. It was this way when he wrote, sometimes, but it was the first time he could remember ever being this way in real life - was writing real life? he wondered suddenly. He didn't think it was. More like intermission.
'Thad, please!'
'I've got to warn Rick. He may be in danger.'
'Thad, you're not making sense!'
No; of course he wasn't. And if he stopped to explain, he would appear to be making even less .
. . and while he paused to confide his fears to his wife, probably accomplishing nothing but causing her to wonder how long it took to get the proper committal papers filled out, George Stark could be crossing the nine city blocks in Manhattan that separated Rick's apartment from his ex.wife's. Sitting in the back of a cab or behind the wheel of a stolen car, hell, sitting behind the wheel of the black Toronado from his dream, for all Thad knew - if you were going to go this far down the path to insanity, why not just say f**k it and go all the way? Sitting there, smoking, getting ready to kill Rick as he had Miriam -
Had he killed her?
Maybe he had just frightened her, left her sobbing and in shock. Or maybe he had hurt her - only on second thought, make that probably. What had she said? Don't let him cut me again, don't let the bad man cut me again. And on paper it had said cuts. And . . . hadn't it also said terminate?
Yes. Yes, it had, But that had to do with the dream, didn't it? That had to do with Endsville, the place where all rail service terminates . . . didn't it?
He prayed that it did.
He had to get her help, or at least had to try, and he had to warn Rick. But if he just called Rick, called him out of a clear blue sky and told him to be on his guard, Rick would want to know why. What's wrong, Thad? What's happened?
And if he so much as mentioned Miriam's name Rick would be up and off like a shot to her place, because Rick still cared for her. He still cared a hell of a lot. And then he would be the one to find her . . . maybe in pieces (part of Thad's mind tried to shy away from that thought, that image, but the rest of his mind was relentless, forcing him to see what pretty Miriam would look like, chopped up like meat on a butcher's counter).
And maybe that was just what Stark was counting on. Stupid Thad, sending Rick into a trap. Stupid Thad, doing his job for him.
But haven't I been doing his job for him all along? Isn't that what the pen name was all about, for Christ's sake?
He could feel his mind jamming up again, softly closing itself into a knot like a charley horse, into a cluster f**k, and he couldn't afford that, just now he couldn't afford that at all.
'Thad. . . please! Tell me what's going on!'
He took a deep breath and grasped her cold arms in his cold hands.
'It was the same man who killed Homer Gamache and Clawson. He was with Miriam. He was . .
. threatening her. I hope that's all he was doing. I don't know. She screamed. The line went dead.'
'Oh, Thad! Jesus!'
'There's no time for either of us to have hysterics,' he said, and thought, Although God knows part of me wants to. 'Go upstairs. Get your address book. I don't have Miriam's phone number and address in mine. I think you do.'
'What did you mean, you knew it almost from the first?'
'There's no time for that now, Liz. Get your address book. Get it quick. Okay?'
She hesitated a moment longer.
'She may be hurt! Go!'
She turned and ran from the room. He heard the quick, light pad of her feet going upstairs and tried to get his thoughts working again.
Don't call Rick. If it is a trap, calling Rick would be a very bad idea. Okay - we've gotten that far. It's not much, but it's a start. Who, then?
The New York City Police Department? No - they would be full of time-consuming questions