- absurd as it might be - pained his heart.
He thought the Suburban now looked enough like the other wrecks to pass muster..Thad started walking up the row. He turned right at the first intersection, heading back toward the gate and the retail parts shop beyond it. He had seen a pay telephone on the wall by the door when he drove in. Halfway there he stopped walking and stopped singing. He cocked his head. He looked like a man straining to catch some small sound. What he was really doing was listening to his body, auditing it.
The crawling itch had disappeared.
The sparrows were gone, and so was George Stark, at least for the time being. Smiling a little, Thad began to walk faster.
3
After two rings, Thad began to sweat. If Rawlie was still there, he should have picked up his phone by now. The faculty offices in the English-Math building were just not that big. Who else could he call? Who the hell else was there? He could think of no one. Halfway through the third ring, Rawlie picked up his phone. 'Hello, DeLesseps.'
Thad closed his eyes at the sound of that smoke-roughened voice and leaned against the cool metal side of the parts shop for a moment.
'Hello?'
'Hi, Rawlie. It's Thad.'
'Hello, Thad.' Rawlie did not seem terribly surprised to hear from him. 'Forget something?'
'No. Rawlie, I'm in trouble.'
'Yes.' Just that, and not a question. Rawlie spoke the word and then just waited.
'You know those two' - Thad hesitated for a moment - 'those two fellows who were with me?'
'Yes,' Rawlie said calmly. 'The police escort.'
'I ditched them,' Thad said, then took a quick glance over his shoulder at the sound of a car rumbling onto the packed dirt which served as Gold's customer parking area. For a moment he was so sure it was the brown Plymouth that he actually saw it . . . but it was some sort of foreign car, what he had taken at first for brown was a deep red dulled by road-dust, and the driver was just turning around. 'At least I hope I've ditched them.' He paused. He had come to the place where the only choice was to jump or not to jump, and he had no time to delay the decision. When you came right down to it, there really wasn't any decision, either, because he had no choice. 'I need help,
Rawlie. I need a car they don't know.'
Rawlie was silent.
'You said if there was anything you could do for me, I should ask.
'I'm aware of what I said,' Rawlie replied mildly. 'I also recall saying that if those two men were following you around in a protective capacity, you might be wise to give them as much help as you could.' He paused. 'I think I can infer you chose not to take my advice.'
Thad came very close to saying, I couldn't, Rawlie. The man who has my wife and our babies would only kill them, too. It wasn't that he didn't dare tell Rawlie what was going on, that Rawlie would think he was crazy if he did; college and university professors have much more flexible views on the subject of craziness than most other people, and sometimes they have no view of it at all, preferring to think of people as either dull (but sane), rather eccentric (but sane), or very eccentric (but still quite sane, old boy). He kept his mouth shut because Rawlie DeLesseps was.one of those men so inner-directed that Thad could probably say nothing at all which would persuade him . . . and anything which came out of his mouth might only damage his case. But, inner-directed or not, the grammarian had a good heart . . . he was brave, in his way . . . and Thad believed Rawlie was more than a little interested in what was going on with Thad, his police escort, and his odd interest in sparrows. In the end he simply believed - or only hoped - that it was in his best interest to keep quiet.
Still, it was hard to wait.
'All right,' Rawlie said at last. 'I'll loan you my car, Thad.'
Thad closed his eyes and had to stiffen his knees to keep them from buckling. He wiped his neck under his chin and his hand came away wet with sweat.
'But I hope you'll have the decency to stand good for any repairs if it comes back . . . wounded,'
Rawlie said. 'If you're a fugitive from justice, I doubt very much if my insurance company will pay.'
A fugitive from justice? Because he had slipped out from under the gaze of the cops who couldn't possibly protect him? He didn't know if that made him a fugitive from justice or not. It was an interesting question, one he would have to consider at a later date. A later date when he wasn't half out of his mind with worry and fear.
'You know I would.'
'I have one other condition,' Rawlie said.
Thad closed his eyes again. This time in frustration. 'What's that?'
'I want to know all about this when it's over,' Rawlie said. 'I want to know why you were really so interested in the folk meanings of sparrows, and why you turned white when I told you what psychopomps were and what it is they are supposed to do.'
'Did I turn white?'
'As a sheet.'
'I'll tell you the whole story,' Thad promised. He grinned a little. 'You may even believe some of it.'