She paused and lifted her head. “Wait, you thought of doing what with my plants?”
“It’s a fantasy!” he protested. “If we’re really going to pick it apart, I don’t think that a table made of wood planks and sawhorses could withstand the torque exerted by pounding at that particular angle, either.”
She sniffed. “Well. I suppose. But pick another one. I’ll get distracted thinking about the details.”
He laughed softly. “Do you remember our train ride out to New Shaling for Robert’s wedding?”
She nodded.
“You were ignoring me. Talking to Minnie the entire time. The only time you weren’t talking to her was for about ten minutes, when you stood up and went to the hall. I think you said you wanted to stretch your legs. I could see you every minute or so, as you paced in that corridor. I thought about getting up. Going to you.”
His words sounded dark and dangerous.
“I thought of simply putting my hand over your mouth. You would have known what I wanted.”
She felt herself growing wet at the very idea. She leaned down and took him again in her mouth. He was harder still, hard and huge against her tongue.
“I’d have turned you against the wall, right in that one spot where you’d not be visible to any of the other passengers.” His hands came down on her shoulders; his hips flexed almost involuntarily.
“I wanted to take you just like that,” he whispered. “Like that, Violet. Where I could slide one hand around you to cup your breast, the other farther down.”
His breath was growing erratic; he had begun to thrust into her mouth.
“And God, you would feel so good around me.” His voice was lower than she’d ever heard it. “You feel so good around me. Oh, God.”
He was like steel in her mouth, steel heated almost to burning. His c**k slid in and out, harder, more insistent. And Violet had never felt quite so powerful as in that moment. He was shaking, shaking so hard, and yet so insistent.
“I’d make you come three times,” he said, “until by the end, you would have to bite my hand to keep from screaming.” And then he pulled away from her. His hand wrapped around his cock; he gave it one, two short little jerks. And then he produced a handkerchief and wrapped it around the tip, a bare moment before he groaned and came hard, his face contracting into a grimace.
“God, Violet.” He took a deep breath. “Holy hells, Violet.” Another breath. He pulled her up from her knees to sit next to him, his arm wrapping around her. His kiss was deep and intense; she felt it through her entire body.
And in that moment, she realized how much he’d been holding back—how much raw want he’d stored up. Because even now, even after he’d spent himself so thoroughly, she could feel it. She could feel it in the hand that crept down her bodice, cupping her breast. When his thumb made a slow, expert circle of that peak, her own insistent desire flared up to a burning point.
“Trust me,” he murmured in her ear. “Trust me not to hurt you.”
Easy to nod yes. Easy, when all she felt was pure want.
He slid to the floor, on his knees in front of her. His hand pressed against her stomach, a hard, powerful pressure. She looked at him, suddenly unsure of herself. Her heart slammed. But that want hadn’t slipped away. It filled her, too. She simply looked up at him, unable to speak, unable to do anything but balance on that edge between fear and desire.
But he wasn’t holding her in place. He wasn’t hurting her. He slowly lifted her skirts, letting the cool air touch her limbs. She was quivering in place, desperate for that first touch, and yet still nervous for it.
He sat back on his heels, and then slowly, ever so slowly, he spread her legs. She felt open and exposed, vulnerable. She could hear the echo of her husband’s voice.
You’re selfish.
She wasn’t selfish. She deserved this.
“Clever Violet,” Sebastian said. “Lovely Violet. Sweet Violet. The best Violet in the entire world.” He slid his hands up her thighs and she gasped. “Beloved Violet,” he said softly. “What are you thinking about?”
“You,” she said. “And me.”
“Do you have any particular fantasies you want to confess?”
She’d tried for years not to have any at all. The moment one intruded, she’d quashed it ruthlessly, refusing to give way to it. She breathed out.
He knelt between her legs. “Or shall we give you one to remember?”
“Just the one,” she whispered. “The one I never could eradicate.”
As she talked, he spread her legs farther and leaned forward. She could feel his breath on her thighs, moist heated air that made her clench her hands in urgency.
“Keep talking,” he murmured. “Tell me more.”
“But you’re…you’re…”
“Ah, ah. Keep talking.”
“It seems so foolish, so juvenile, in comparison to yours.”