Still Jaded (Jaded #2)

I made it to the science building in record time and found Miss Connors alone in her office. When I knocked on the door, she looked up from her computer. Her eyes widened in surprise. "Sheldon? We don't have class until next Tuesday."

I shut the door and plopped down across from her. I ignored the mess of papers spread out on her desk and really ignored something that looked like an exam. "I need you to counsel me again."

"What?" She fell against her plush chair and ran a hand through her hair. It was her thing. She did that when she was scrambling.

"Bryce's agent hates me. He thinks I'm a bad influence, so I need to learn how to be nice. I trust you. And I want you to help me with this."

"Oh." She pushed her glasses higher up her nose and blinked again.

"Say something." It shouldn't be surprising.

"I'm just surprised, I guess."

I narrowed my eyes and leaned forward. "You don't want to counsel me? You don't want to hear about my mess of a life?"

"No. No! No, Sheldon. It's not that. But this is sudden. What brought this on?"

I snorted. "Why the questions? Do you or don't you want to be my counselor?"

"Sheldon," Miss Connors fought back a smile, "you realize that you need to put up with questions if I'm going to be your counselor. It's what we do. We ask questions. We ask hard ones."

I waved a hand to the side. "Oh come on. Just talk to me about my anger. That's all you need to ask about. I figure if I get rid of my anger, I'll be a nicer person. Simple, right?"

"Sheldon," Miss Connors shook her head and stood up. "I don't think you're ready for this, at least maybe not with me."

Wha—huh? I stood up as she rounded the desk. "What are you talking about? You don't want to counsel me?"

"I don't think I'm the best fit for you anymore."

I was dumbfounded.

"I think you need someone new, someone who has a fresh set of eyes and can hear what I can't anymore. I'm too emotionally invested in you. I can't trust myself to be objective. I'm blind to things that someone else could help you with."

"That makes no sense," I sputtered out. Was it me? Did she not want to help me anymore?

"I want to help you, Sheldon. And I think it's great that you are seeking further counseling, even if you're a bit coerced. That's good. You need it. You went through an awful thing, and I know it's still affecting you. Bryce is right. He's good for you, Sheldon. He's very, very good for you."

I frowned. "I already know that. It's why I love him. But I need someone to help me with this anger stuff. If you can't, who then? I trust you."

"And you'll trust someone else. There are plenty of great counselors out there."

"Who are all idiots! I know you."

Miss Connors patted me on the shoulder as she smiled. "I will find someone that is a good fit for you. I promise. And this is a good thing, Sheldon. I'm proud of you."

"I feel like a two year old. Put a star next to my name."

Miss Connors ignored me as she opened her office door. "I will have a name for you by Tuesday. I promise. And it'll be someone who you'll trust and who I'll trust."

I started past her but turned back around. "Are you moving? Is that why you don't want to be my counselor?"

"I'm not moving. It really is because I feel you need someone new."

New could go to hell. I didn't want someone new.

"Fine," I growled. I stepped out into the hallway and stalked away. As I neared the bathroom, I looked back once and was surprised to see that Miss Connors had already closed her door. That was new. In the past she would have waited until I looked back and then given me a reassuring smile, but her door was closed now.

I didn't like it. That was new.

"Hey."

I turned around and gasped in relief when I saw Corrigan. I smacked him on the shoulder. "Don't do that to me."

Corrigan caught my hand and squeezed it before he let it go. Then he chuckled. "Sorry. I just wanted to talk to you and to ask if everything's okay."

"What?"

"You and me. Are we okay?"

"Why wouldn't we be?"

Corrigan's face twisted in frustration. "I don't know, Sheldon. Maybe because I dealt you a low blow last night and you physically attacked me. Maybe that's why." He rolled his eyes. "I have no idea."

I drew upright. "We're not going to be okay if you keep that attitude."

He rolled his eyes. "Look. I didn't get to say what I wanted last night. We had an audience, you know."

Oh boy, did I know.

I stiffened as I waited.

He took a deep breath. "I'm sorry about Grace. I really am. I did think I had feelings for her when I slept with her, but afterwards I knew it wasn't right. I did it because things were screwed up with my girlfriend at that time. And it's no excuse. I was a dickhead."

"That apology isn't for me. You should say that to Grace."