When Nettle saw Polly's white, puffy face and haggard eyes, her own fears, which had gnawed at her like sharp weasel's teeth as she walked over, were forgotten. She didn't even have to look at Polly's hands, still held out at waist level (it hurt dreadfully to let them hang down when it was like this), to know how things were with her.
The lasagna was thrust unceremoniously on a table by the foot of the stairs. If it had gone tumbling to the floor, Nettle wouldn't have given it a second glance. The nervous woman Castle Rock had grown used to seeing on its streets, the woman who looked as if she were skulking away from some nasty piece of mischief even if she was only on her way to the post office, was not here. This was a different Nettle; Polly Chalmers's Nettle.
Come on," she said briskly. "Into the living room. I'll get the thermal gloves."
"Nettle, I'm all right," Polly said weakly. "I just took a pill, and I'm sure that in a few minutes-" But Nettle had an arm around her and was walking her into the living room. "What did you do? Did you sleep on them, do you think?"
"No-that would have woken me. It's just. She laughed.
It was a weak, bewildered sound. "It's just pain. I knew today was going to be bad, but I had no idea how bad. And the thermal gloves don't help."
"Sometimes they do. You know that sometimes they do. Now just sit there."
Nettle's tone brooked no refusal. She stood beside Polly until Polly sat in an overstuffed armchair. Then she went into the downstairs bathroom to get the thermal gloves. Polly had given up on them a year ago, but Nettle, it seemed, held for them a reverence that was almost superstitious. Nettle's version of chicken soup, Alan had once called them, and they had both laughed.
Polly sat with her hands resting on the arms of the chair like lumps of cast-off driftwood and looked longingly across the room at the couch where she and Alan had made love Friday night. Her hands hadn't hurt at all then, and that already seemed like a thousand years ago.
It occurred to her that pleasure, no matter how deep, was a ghostly, ephemeral thing. Love might make the world go round, but she was convinced it was the cries of the badly wounded and deeply afflicted which spun the universe on the great glass pole of its axis.
Oh you stupid couch, she thought. Oh you stupid empty couch, what good are you to me now?
Nettle came back with the thermal gloves. They looked like quilted oven mitts connected by an insulated electric wire. A plugin cord snaked out of the left glove's back. Polly had seen an ad for the gloves in Good Housekeeping, of all places. She had placed a call to The National Arthritis Foundation's 800 number and had ascertained that the gloves did indeed provide temporary relief in some cases. When she showed the ad to Dr. Van Allen, he added the coda which had been tiresomely familiar even two years ago: "Well, it can't hurt."
"Nettle, I'm sure that in a few minutes-" -you'll feel better," Nettle finished. "Yes, of course you will.
And maybe these will help. Hold up your hands, Polly."
Polly gave in and held up her hands. Nettle held the gloves by their ends, squeezed them open, and slipped them on with the delicacy of a bomb-squad expert covering packets of C-4 with a blast-blanket.
Her touch was gentle, expert, and compassionate.
Polly didn't believe the thermal gloves would do a thing... but Nettle's obvious concern had already had its effect.
Nettle took the plug, got down on her knees, and slipped it into the baseboard socket near the chair. The gloves began to hum faintly, and the first tendrils of dry warmth caressed the skin of Polly's hands.
"You're too good to me," Polly said softly. "Do you know that?"
"I couldn't be," Nettle replied. "Not ever." Her voice was a trifle husky, and there was a bright, liquid shine in her eyes.
"Polly, it's not my place to tell you your business, but I just can't keep quiet any longer. You have to do something about your poor hands.
You have to. Things just can't go on this way."
"I know, dear. I know." Polly made a huge effort to climb over the wall of depression which had built itself up in her mind.
"Why did you come over, Nettle? Surely it wasn't just to toast my hands."
Nettle brightened. "I made you a lasagna!"
"Did you? Oh, Nettle, you shouldn't have!"
"No? That's not what I think. I think you won't be up to cooking today, or tomorrow, either. I'll just put it in the refrigerator."
"Thank you. Thank you so much."
"I'm glad I did it. Doubly glad, now that I see you." She reached the hall doorway and looked back. A bar of sun fell across her face, and in that moment Polly might have seen how drawn and tired Nettle looked, if her own pain had not been so large. "Don't you move, now!"
Polly burst out laughing, surprising them both. "I can't! I'm trapped!"
In the kitchen, the refrigerator door opened and closed as Nettle put the lasagna away. Then she called, "Shall I put on the coffee?
Would you like a cup? I could help you with it."
"Yes," Polly said, "that would be nice." The gloves were humming louder now; they were very warm. And either they were actually helping, or the pill was taking hold in a way the one at five o'clock hadn't. More probably it was a combination of the two, she thought.