Chapter Seventeen
I was tired, deep in the bone tired, and when, a day later, we reached Robin’s Caves, an old outlaw hideout in the heart of Sherwood, the first thing I did was sleep for several days. But while I was restoring my muscles and sinews, and allowing my bruised face to heal, with lazy days spent pottering around Robin’s sprawling camp and long nights on a comfortable over-stuffed straw pallet inside the main cave, Robin was busy.
He invited friends, and fellow outcasts from Sherwood, and men loyal to King Richard from all over the north of England to join us in a feast under the stars in the Greenwood – and to hold a council of war. The country was on the verge of outright civil war, Robin told me; small groups of supporters of John had clashed with those of Richard in pitched battle on several occasions in the past few months, and Richard’s men had had the worst of it. Now they came to us, in their hundreds – poor men, knights, even a minor baron or two – to sit at a huge circular table in a clearing near Robin’s Caves, around a huge roaring fire, and gorge on roast venison, and wild boar, and mutton, on stews and puddings, and pies and autumn fruit, and cheese; all at the outlaw Earl’s expense. Vast quantities of ale and wine were drunk, too, but by and large the company remained orderly. The feasting lasted for several days, and there were games and competitions, wrestling and foot races, for those sober enough to participate.
Father Tuck turned up – coming all the way from London; deserting his mistress the Countess Marie-Anne for a few days but bringing her love and affection to her husband. He had messages too for Robin’s ear from Queen Eleanor of Aquitaine and her senior counsellors Walter de Coutances and Hugh de Puiset. Even William of Edwinstowe, Robin’s older brother, came for one day. He and his men-at-arms kept themselves to themselves and ate and drank sparingly. William and Robin had a long, intense conversation at the back of the main cave, which I was not privy to, but it seemed to have a satisfactory conclusion, for they embraced stiffly after the talking was done, and soon afterwards, William and his men rode away towards the south, heading for London, according to the gossip around the campfires.
One day while we were sitting alone, indulging in yet another massive bout of gluttony, I plucked up my courage and directly asked Tuck for news of Goody.
‘Oh, she is very well. And I think she must be happy, too. She has a gentleman admirer who calls on her every day bringing flowers and sweetmeats, costly silks and perfumes.’
‘What did you say!’ Suddenly I felt sick and pushed away my plate, still piled high with rich food.
‘I said young Goody now has a gentleman admirer,’ Tuck repeated calmly, and then he drew my platter towards him and, with dainty fingers, he picked up and took an enormous bite from a crisp slice of a suckling pig.
‘And who is this lecherous bastard? Some scabby, rat-faced, turnip-muncher, I make no doubt!’ I realized that my voice had grown rough and loud and my cheeks were glowing hot.
Tuck leaned his head back and regarded me over his big red nose as he chewed. When he had finished his mouthful of pork, he said: ‘He is Lord Chichester’s eldest boy, Roger. A handsome lad, and quite refined – the ladies all say so.’ And he grinned at me.
‘All the ladies say so! I’ll wager they do. And you let this philandering, over-bred, chinless stripling get close to my Goody! How could you, Tuck? He’ll be smarming all over her, trying to weasel his way into her bedchamber with pretty words – sweetmeats, silks and perfumes, indeed! I hold you responsible, Tuck. God’s bones, I’d like to meet this horny little rich boy. If he has so much as laid a hand on her, I’ll cut his balls off, I’ll …’
‘Calm yourself, Alan! Do calm down. Why don’t you ride down to London yourself and you can meet this boy Roger. You will find that he is a very chaste and God-fearing fellow, mild-mannered …’
‘Chaste and mild-mannered, my arse,’ I muttered. ‘Nobody called Roger has ever been less than a full-blooded whore-mongering lecher …’ And then I stopped. I knew I was making a rare idiot of myself, but perhaps Tuck was right. Perhaps it was my duty, as Goody’s friend and honorary older brother, to pay a visit to this Roger person and make damn sure that he understood a few basic rules of gentlemanly behaviour: like no touching Goody, no fondling, no kissing – in fact, no speaking to her alone, or gazing at her longingly from afar, or sending her little scented love notes …
It was clearly my week for making a fool of myself. I brought up the prospect of a southern journey with Robin the next evening after a late supper. Most of the guests had departed by then and there were only about thirty of Robin’s senior men gathered around a table in the main cave finishing a modest meal of soup and bread and cheese. To my surprise, Robin thought it a good idea.
‘You can escort a packhorse train of silver to London for me,’ he said. ‘You’ve been sitting about for too long now. It’s been – what? – three, four weeks since we pulled you out of Nottingham. I reckon it’s about time you did something useful. Take at least twenty men with you, and be very, very careful. I’ve just heard that you have been formally declared outlaw by the shire court – it’s Prince John’s doing, of course – and there’s a price on your head: a pound of finest silver. Congratulations!’
I beamed at him. I felt a strange kind of pride to be an outlaw; I had been too insignificant to be properly outlawed when I was last living wild in Sherwood. Now I was a dangerous, wanted man with a price in silver on his head. And I rather liked it.
Robin continued: ‘Take heed, Alan, and be extra vigilant. Any man may take your life now and claim the reward, and if word gets out that you are carrying large quantities of specie, half the footpads in England will be lying in wait for you. And if you lose that money, I will be extremely displeased.’ And he gave me a cold, hard stare.
Then his expression softened. ‘When you get to London you can give my love to Marie-Anne, and little Hugh – and to Goody, of course.’ And he smiled at me, with a glint of something knowing in his odd grey eyes.
Despite his warning, I was feeling very pleased with myself. A pound of precious silver for my life – it was a goodly sum. I thanked Robin, and was about to leave the cave when a thought struck me and I turned back to my outlawed lord. ‘What is the price on your head now, Robin? Tell me honestly, I beg you.’
For a moment my master seemed almost embarrassed. Then he looked straight at me: ‘I’m told it is up to a thousand pounds by now.’
I felt instantly deflated. ‘A thousand pounds! A thousand pounds!’ I said the words too loudly, almost shouting – in that company, nobody raised his voice to Robin – and a tense silence descended over the supper table. But for some reason I couldn’t stop myself: ‘And what about John Nailor?’ I demanded of Robin, once again too loudly, and nodded over to the giant form of my blond friend who was watching us, grinning evilly from the far end of the table.
Robin coughed: ‘Ah, um, I think it is five hundred pounds of silver at present!’ He smiled mockingly at me. ‘And I believe even Much the miller’s son is worth ten pounds – and that’s dead or alive, of course.’
‘This is outrageous!’ I was suddenly very angry. ‘Why am I only worth one paltry pound of silver? That is nothing – nothing but a damned insult! I’ve a good mind to complain …’
‘To Prince John?’ said Robin, with a straight face, and the whole table – thirty big, tough, dirty outlaws – erupted in a deafening wave of laughter. I flushed a deep red, turned on my heel and stalked out of the cave with as much dignity as I could gather around me, while a cascade of boozy laughter and crude half-heard jests swept me out into the chilly night.
I rode south on a blustery October day with twenty heavily armed, mounted men at my back; half Welsh archers and half men-at-arms, guarding five packhorses each with two stout wooden chests strapped to its back. Beside me rode Hanno – and Thomas ap Lloyd. The dark Welsh boy had told me that he wished to become my squire, and train to be a fully fledged warrior one day, and while at twelve summers he was a little old to begin training, I felt he had promise, and that I owed him something for showing me the wrestling trick that I had used to defeat Milo. So he came, too, trotting along on a pony that was as brown, quiet and well mannered as he.
When he asked if he might serve me, I had asked him one crucial question in return.
‘What do you know of your father’s death,’ I said, looking directly into his calm oak-brown eyes.
He looked right back at me, his gaze perfectly level, and said quietly and soberly: ‘I know that he was offered money by Sir Ralph Murdac to kill the Earl of Locksley. I know that my life and the life of my mother were threatened by Murdac to encourage my father to comply. And I know that, instead of attacking our lord, he attacked you in the dark in the Earl’s bed-chamber, by mistake, and that you fought and killed him.’
‘Do you blame me for his death?’
‘No, sir, I do not,’ he said, and I was certain, as certain as I am of Damnation or Salvation, that he was telling me the truth. ‘My father was forced to do what he did by Murdac, and you killed him in self-defence,’ he continued. ‘He died by your hand, but his death is not to be laid at your door. You were protecting yourself, and your lord, which is right and proper. I blame Sir Ralph Murdac for my father’s death – and if I ever have the opportunity, I shall have my vengeance upon him.’ He said these words quietly, calmly and with an incredible conviction for one so young. I believed him utterly.
‘Then we shall get along very well,’ I said, and took him into my service.
We had ridden no more than ten miles south of Robin’s Caves, and our horses were only just getting into their stride for the long journey, when one of the scouts who had been ranging ahead of the column rode back to me and reported that there was a strange woman, apparently alone, chanting nonsense by an old stone preaching cross a mile or so down the road. I had told the scouts that they were to report anything out of the ordinary to me directly they saw it – for I went in mortal terror of a well-laid ambush or some ruse by Prince John’s men that would rob me of the silver hoard the packhorses carried.
As we approached, I saw a small figure, hooded and swathed in heavy black wool, with her arms stretched out sideways in imitation of Our Lord’s Passion, standing beside the cross which stood on a mound of earth next to the highway. It seemed that she was speaking to that holy symbol. And with a shock that was like a plunge in an icy mountain tarn, I realized that she was speaking in the Arabic tongue.
Suddenly the woman turned her body towards us and swept off her hood. I held up my hand to halt the column but I believe the whole cavalcade would have been stopped by her appearance alone. She had a truly hideous face, mutilated so much that it was almost beyond recognition as belonging to a human being: the nose was missing, leaving two large holes in the centre of her face, surrounded by ridged scars, like a truncated pig’s snout; I saw that her ears, too, had been hacked off crudely, and her lips were gone as well, so that her narrow yellow teeth showed in a dreadful skull’s grimace. Her hair – grey and long and matted into rats’ tails – was whipped about her gaunt white face by the wind, and two dark eyes glowed in their sockets like the black-burning fires of Hell. She looked like a witch from a child’s nightmare. From behind me I could hear the frightened muttering of the mounted men. And yet, for all her cruel looks, I knew she was no hag; in truth, I knew that she was not yet twenty summers old.
You see, I recognized her. This wreck of a young woman, this demonic personification of ugliness, with a face that would curdle fresh milk, had once been my lover. I had once smothered that terrible visage with my kisses and received them, too, from her now absent lips. For this was Nur, the once-exquisite Arab slave girl that I had met on the long journey to Outremer. There was a time when I had been entranced by her beauty – by her midnight hair that spilled like dark oil down her back; by her huge brown eyes and snow-white skin; by the soft, generous curves of her body and the way she gave it up so joyfully for my pleasure. But then my enemy, Malbête, had taken her and his men had abused her brutally before hacking away her luminous, radiant looks with their blades; desecrating her perfection to punish me. She had shown her mutilated face to me, one dark night when I lay in a sickbed in Acre, and I had screamed in horror at her disfigurement – and she had fled. That had been two years ago, and I’d not seen her since. Yet here she was before me, in Nottinghamshire, as real as the rough stone cross on the grassy mound behind her.
‘Nur,’ I said. And then was lost for words; pity and shame welling up inside me in equal parts.
‘Alan, my love, we meet again,’ she said, holding out her arms as if to embrace me.
I flinched at her use of the words ‘my love’. And I tried to ignore the invitation in her open arms. With her beauty gone, I had been forced to face the truth: that I was a shallow man, interested only in the outward form of a woman. I discovered that I was a man who could not love, truly, deeply, with the heart and not just the eyes, as women claim to do. I had behaved most ignobly – for, although she had run from me, I had not searched for her. It was my fault that she had come to look this way, yet I could not even make amends by giving her the love that she surely deserved for all her suffering.
‘Nur – what are you doing here?’ I said, trying to sound as if I had just encountered an old acquaintance in a tavern – and hating myself even as I spoke. ‘Why did you leave your homeland? We all thought you must have gone back to your village, to your family. But here you are!’
‘I followed you, my love’ – I flinched once again at those words – ‘I followed you halfway across the world, through storm and drought, through pestilence, fire and battle; I followed you hungry and shoeless …’
As she spoke, my mind traced her journey. I could only dimly imagine the hardship and dangers she must have faced, a woman alone, travelling so many thousands of miles of wild and lawless road.
‘But why?’ I said. ‘Why follow me? What do you want from me?’
‘Did you not promise, when you held me in your arms aboard that Frankish ship, to love me for ever? Did you not vow it? I have come to you. I followed you to prove that, despite my misfortune, despite my ugliness, I am worthy of your love. My darling, my true love – I have come back to you. We can be united once again.’
My stomach felt as if it were filled with clay. I had promised to love her for ever; I had said so many things in the heat of passion, then – but now I could not even bear to look at her, let alone touch her; the idea of kissing her made my belly squeeze tight up into my chest.
How could I tell her that I would never love her again, that I could never love her again?
‘But why were you waiting here, on this spot?’ I asked, still in the same jolly tavern-acquaintance tones.
‘I have been waiting for you. And while I waited, I have been talking to your Christ God,’ she said, indicating the stone cross behind her with a dirty, bony finger. ‘I have been telling Him about my troubles and asking Him to heal my wounds.’ Here Nur waved a dirty hand across her poor tortured face. ‘And he spoke to me!’
I could feel all the men behind me crossing themselves. Out of the corner of my eye, I saw young Thomas straining forward in his saddle to get a closer look at her deformed face. But Nur had not finished.
‘He spoke to me – your Christ God! And He promised to heal me, and He has promised me that we shall be together. You and I, Alan, my love, together at last.’
I could not help noticing that her command of English was much improved since I began teaching her our tongue on the voyage to Outremer two years ago. But I also felt an almost uncontrollable urge to run from her, to gallop far, far away so that I would never have to see her poor mutilated face again or feel the shame that it aroused in my breast.
‘I think we must be married soon, my love; your Christ God has decreed it,’ Nur continued. And behind me I heard a manat-arms snigger and I stiffened in my saddle. I had to tell her once and for always that I did not love her.
‘I am afraid that cannot be, Nur, my dear,’ I said, trying now to sound like a kindly uncle. ‘We may have shared our lives in Outremer, but here I am a different man. I can never be with you. I am not the marrying kind, alas. And I cannot linger here chatting either, for I must ride south this day on important business. Here, take this,’ I said, and, feeling like Judas’s paymaster, I plucked a small leather purse containing a dozen silver pennies from my belt and held it out to her. ‘Take this purse and follow the road north from here, and you will be stopped by two armed men. Say that you come from me and that you are to be given food and shelter. Robin of Locksley is there; you remember him. Go to Robin and he will shelter you until I return.’ I threw the purse to her and her bony hand, snaked out and snatched it out of the air.
‘I must come with you, my love, wherever you go. We are one, you and I – we must never be parted again,’ said Nur in a weird sing-song voice. It was as if she had heard nothing of what I had just said. The purse had disappeared somewhere inside the folds of her black robe.
‘It was very pleasant to see you again, Nur, after so long. But much as I would like to hear the tale of your travels, I cannot take you with me. You must go north to Robin; he will care for you until I return. Try to understand …’
‘No, it is you who must understand, my love.’ Nur’s voice had changed; it was higher in pitch, louder and dangerously approaching a shriek. ‘You belong to me! Your Christ God has told me this, today! He spoke to me here, in this place. You belong to me now. You have always belonged to me; and you are mine now and for ever!’
‘Stand aside, Nur!’ I said, trying to sound soldier-like and forceful, not like a man pleading for sense from a madwoman. ‘Stand aside, for I must ride on and I cannot take you with me. We will speak some more when I return. Go north to Robin. And may God be with you!’ And at that I spurred my horse onward, and the convoy of twenty mail-clad men-at-arms clattered after me.
Out of the corner of my eye, I saw Nur step backwards to avoid being trampled by the moving column of horses. She retreated up the mound on which the cross was set and began to curse and scream in Arabic at the men riding past her. I understood only a little of her speech; I had been taught a smattering of it by my friend Reuben, who came from those parts, but I believe she was wishing that their bladders be afflicted with red-hot maggots, their eyes filled with tears of fiery acid, and damning their souls to be dismembered and roasted for eternity in the seven hells of Jahannam – or some such vicious gibberish.
I turned around in the saddle to remonstrate with her for these curses and saw, just as the last horse was riding past her position on the cross mound, a small black figure launching itself at the rearmost archer in an attempt to climb on to the back of the man’s saddle. The archer, a big, brawny fellow, stiff-armed her away in mid-air and she landed sprawled in the mud behind the horse’s tail. I gave the order to trot and, with a deep feeling of shame burning in my heart, I led the column swiftly away from the stone cross and from the shrieking, bawling, raggedy, mud-smeared figure in black – huge nostril-holes gaping, teeth permanently bared, grey rat-tail hair snapping in the breeze – as it howled blood-chilling threats of eternal damnation in our wake.
The rest of the journey south was mercifully uneventful. In the late afternoon of the third day after my disturbing encounter with Nur, the cavalcade trotted along Watling Street, through the city wall at Newgate and into the noisy crowded streets of London. Ahead of us the tall spire of St Paul’s Cathedral seemed to beckon us to journey’s end, and in no time at all we were dismounting in the cobbled courtyard in Paternoster Square outside the huge old church and calling for stabling, grooms and porters to help us carry the heavy chests of silver down into the crypt, where the rest of the ransom hoard was being stored under the seals of Walter de Coutances and Queen Eleanor of Aquitaine. A clerk noted the amount of silver we had brought him, a little over five hundred pounds, on a vellum scroll with an air of total ennui – and I realized how little he or any London folk cared about our contribution.
I understood the clerk’s indifference when I caught a glimpse of the inside of the crypt over his left shoulder as he stooped to make a note of our delivery: the vast space beneath St Paul’s was filled to the roof with chests and barrels and heavy sacks of silver coin. We had been amazed by the wealth of Prince John’s treasury in Nottingham – but this was of another order entirely. It seemed as if all the wealth of the kingdom had been gathered here, every peasant’s half-penny, every merchant’s shilling had been collected; every miser’s purse shaken out, every baron’s money chest emptied, every church altar stripped. And not just money from England – King Richard’s overseas possessions had played their part too: Normandy, Anjou and Maine had sent silver by the cartload; his wife Queen Berengaria had organized the collection of taxes in Aquitaine far to the south. I realized later that I had been staring, over the back of that bored clerk’s rough woollen robe, at piled-up treasure with a value of about 100,000 marks – more than sixteen million silver pennies – a staggering thirty-three tons of bright metal. It was truly a king’s ransom!
Queen Eleanor herself received me that same evening in her chamber off the great hall of Westminster. As always, she was gracious and ordered wine and sweetmeats to be served and thanked me in her warm husky voice for bringing Robin’s silver safely down from Sherwood.
She made a point of being kind to me, asked after my health, and mentioned once again my exploits in Germany with flattery, charm and gratitude. For all that she was the most powerful woman in Europe, the wife of kings, the mother of kings, I found myself talking to her almost as if she were my own mother.
‘And how is my disreputable Lord of Locksley? Still causing trouble in Sherwood, I’ll be bound.’ The Queen laughed to show that she meant him no ill, and her smoky purr, as always, sent a delicious tingle down my spine.
‘I’ll wager he’s having the time of his life,’ said a figure lounging in a dim corner of the chamber that I had not noticed before. His face was in shadow, but I could see that he cradled a lute in his arms, and gracefully he struck a chord and sang a few lines of poetry – my poetry, to be precise.
Oh, the merry old life of an outlaw bold,
Offers more reward than silver or gold.
There’s women and feasting, and wine to be poured
And battles aplenty – you’ll never grow bored …
Perhaps poetry is not the right word. Doggerel, you might call it. It was one of many simple songs, set to simple tunes, that I had composed for the outlaws of Sherwood in my younger days. These ditties celebrated the life and deeds of Robin Hood, although not always with a firm allegiance to the truth, and they had spread across the country in the past few years being sung in alehouses and taverns, in hovels and manor houses from the Pennines to Penzance. Robin pretended to be indifferent to them, but I knew that he secretly loved being so celebrated by the common people of England.
‘That will do, Bernard,’ rasped Queen Eleanor, with just a suggestion of a chuckle in her voice. ‘If you wish to indulge your taste for low entertainments, I suggest you take the young Lord of Westbury off to one of your vile dens of iniquity – some cheap tavern where both of your … ahem …’ the Queen cleared her throat delicately, ‘musical talents will be properly appreciated.’
Bernard de Sezanne set down his lute and came out of the shadows, a smile wreathing his ruddy, handsome face.
‘As ever, Your Highness, your slightest wish is my command. Come, Alan, I know just the place for us: the food is almost edible, the drink is very good – and the girls are simply unbelievable!’
I bowed low to the Queen, trying not to grin too widely, and left the royal presence with my old friend – to seek out wine, women and low entertainments.
I awoke the next morning with an aching head, and a gritty feeling in my mouth, but with my spirits unaccountably high. I felt a sense of freedom that I had not enjoyed for many a month. Bernard had been on excellent form the night before, taking me down the river in a barge and over to the other side to a disreputable house owned by the Bishop of Southwark where we had guzzled wine and Bernard had besported himself with three young girls who began the evening dressed as novice nuns – I did not believe that they were really novices, destined one day to become Brides of Christ, but you could never be too sure with the bawdy Bishop of Southwark’s girls.
I have never quite felt comfortable in my bones paying for the love of women – although I will not condemn those who do – and so I confined myself to watching Bernard as he cavorted with his three lovelies, passing the odd cup of wine to him when he felt in need of refreshment, and passing ribald comments when I felt they were called for.
Once Bernard had quenched his lust – and I must say that, for a man in his late thirties who loved to complain so much about being aged and infirm, he had a prodigious amount of stamina – we paid off the girls and fell to talking of recent affairs of the kingdom.
‘You know, they nearly have it,’ Bernard said to me, wiping his sweaty face with a towel. ‘A hundred thousand marks – I never thought they’d do it. But by hook or by crook – by crook mostly – the Queen, may she live another thousand years, has gathered the first tranche of the money together for Richard’s ransom. The Emperor’s ambassadors are coming next week to collect it.’
‘The first tranche?’ I said, surprised. ‘I thought a hundred thousand was the full price for his release.’
‘No, no, my boy,’ chuckled Bernard. ‘Never underestimate the greed of princes. Emperor Henry has decided to squeeze Richard until he squeaks – he’s upped the price. Now he wants a hundred and fifty thousand marks in cash, or the equivalent in well-born hostages.’
‘But that is impossible – the country has been bled dry. There is no more money in England – anywhere. I know, I did a good deal of the bleeding!’
‘They’ll do a deal, Alan. They always do. But the important thing is that the German ambassadors are coming and, once they’ve got their money, they’ll have to set a date for Richard’s release. And once that has happened, the tide will turn in our favour.’
‘What do you mean?’
‘For the past year, all the knights and barons of England and Normandy have been trying to divine who will win this great struggle between Richard and John. Obviously, they all want to be on the winning side. When Richard was in prison, and John triumphantly capturing castles left and right all over England, everyone looked at John as the eventual winner. The longer Richard was locked up, the more our King’s support melted away – apart from a few staunch fellows such as me, you and your outlaw friend Robert of Locksley, of course.’
Bernard paused, took a swig of wine, and went on: ‘Once a date has been set for Richard’s release, all the fighting men in England will have to reconsider their positions. When Richard comes home he’s unlikely to look kindly on those who supported his brother’s bid for the throne. He’s more likely to waste their lands, slaughter their soldiers and dispossess their children. So everything is in flux right now. People are already beginning to switch back to Richard’s side. Things are looking up for us.’
I pondered Bernard’s words the next morning as I sluiced my aching head at the pump in the courtyard outside Westminster Hall, while Thomas stood behind me with a towel and a clean shirt. Bernard was right, I concluded. Things were indeed looking up. But I had another reason to be cheerful that day. I was going to be paying a visit to my master’s wife Marie-Anne and her baby son Hugh – and I’d also get a chance to see my lovely Goody. And there was something in particular, something very special indeed, that I was planning to ask her.