Chapter SIX
Chase knew he had to find Ty, but he had no idea where to look. He’d never seen her or her cousins before, and they’d given no indication of where they’d come from or where they were going. Still, Ty had said she was sure they would run into each other again soon, so she had to be around somewhere.
Chase wasn’t going to wait for fate to intervene again—he was taking matters into his own hands.
On Saturday, he scoured the old mall, dodging last-minute Christmas shoppers and exploring stores he’d otherwise avoid like the plague, hoping to catch a glimpse of Ty’s wild red hair or to hear her tinkling laugh. Later that night, he drove by Fitzroy’s and down Ascension’s strip of chain restaurants, scanning the parking lots for the maroon Lincoln.
He couldn’t let her slip away. He needed to see her. It was an ache in his muscles, an itch in his skin, a desperate, drumming feeling in his blood. For the first time in years, he thought of one of the last times he’d seen his dad. It was after a two-week-long binge. He was carted home by the cops.
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Chase watched his father slink inside: skinny, stinking, half dead. When he woke up, the first thing he’d demanded was a drink.
“I need it,” he’d said, looking up at Chase with eyes full of desperation. Chase had backed away, revolted.
Weirdly, Chase now understood what his dad meant. What that need felt like.
After driving by the grocery store for the second time, he stopped at Dunkin’ Donuts for a coffee and to collect his thoughts. Where would a mysterious, beautiful woman spend the day before Christmas? He drove to the downtown plaza that held a nail salon, a hairdresser, a Reel Time movie theater, and Pete’s Pizza. He took a deep breath and walked into the nail salon, craning his neck to see who was sitting at each station.
No luck.
A surly woman at the counter sized him up and asked, “You need a manicure, handsome?”
“No, I was just looking for someone,” Chase said, turning and walking out of the store. This was ridiculous. There was no way he was going to find Ty. But still the need was there, stronger than ever. A need he couldn’t explain. It was stronger than any crush he’d ever had. She was unlike any other girl, and he couldn’t shake her from his mind. She haunted him.
“Hey, Singer—getting your nails done for Christmas?”
Chase turned to see Andy Barton, Sean Wagner, and Nick Toll, fellow juniors on the football team, walking toward him. Chase noticed the place was called Princess Nails. Perfect.
“No, a*sholes. Just looking for . . . my mom,” Chase said.
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“She got a job here now? Upgrade!” Andy laughed. Chase did not.
“Too bad you never upgraded from sitting on the bench, Barton,” he said, thrusting out his chest ever so slightly. The others snickered. “I gotta go. See you guys later,” Chase said, already walking toward the station wagon.
He could hear the boys still laughing as he got into his car, but just before he closed the door, he heard Sean call out,
“Merry Christmas, princess!” He rolled his eyes and gave them the finger as he drove away.
Chase woke late the next day, and read a note on the counter from his mom.
Merry Christmas, sweetie! Sorry I had to work today, but you know I can’t resist the overtime! Don’t touch your presents until tomorrow, like we agreed, okay? We’ll have a special Day-After-Christmas celebration. Xoxo, Mom. PS—here’s some cash for Chinese food.
Chase stared at the thirty dollars and felt guilty. For as long as he could remember, his mom had worked shitty hours at shitty jobs. He knew it was all for him—so that he could go to school and play football and not worry about getting a part-time job. But thirty dollars was too much for Chinese food—it was like she was trying to prove something to him. It was just depressing.
The afternoon moved slowly. There was nothing on the three channels that came in on the trailer’s tiny TV, and Chase didn’t want to go out and risk being seen alone on Christmas Day. He avoided the computer.
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It was hot in the trailer, so he wore just sweats. He stared at his chest in the mirror for a minute, to see if all the working out he’d been doing this fall was getting him anywhere. Then he did a hundred push-ups on the cluttered living room floor.
Finally, he was so desperate for entertainment that he flopped onto his bed with Macbeth, which had been assigned as winter break reading.
When shall we three meet again?
Good question, Chase thought.
In thunder, lightning, or in rain?
And then, out of nowhere, there was a knock on the door.
Chase jumped a bit, surprised that anyone would be visiting on Christmas. He bet it was their neighbor Mrs. Simpson, who asked for Chase’s help every time her pilot light went out.
“Coming,” Chase called out, tossing Macbeth to the ground.
When he opened the door, Ty was standing on the trailer’s sagging stoop, smiling and holding a steaming Styrofoam cup.
She was wearing a dress the color of the snow, which made her brilliant hair stand out like blood against the landscape.
“Merry Christmas,” she said. “Look! I come bearing gifts.
Like one of the wise men.” She held out the cup.
Chase was so surprised, he couldn’t move or speak. Ty giggled. “Go ahead, take it. It’s hot chocolate.” She winked at him. “Promise I didn’t even spike it.”
“Um, hi. I mean, thanks,” Chase managed finally. Their fingers touched as he took the cup, and a small electric shock went through him.
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breezed past him, into the tiny living room. Chase cringed, seeing it all through her eyes: the lumpy presents underneath the fake tree, the peeling linoleum floor, the tacky “family portrait”
of him and his mom hanging over the secondhand couch.
But Ty didn’t seem to mind. She wasn’t looking around, judging it—she was watching him, waiting for him to say something. She seemed to be radiating light, light that made the cramped space seem bigger, cleaner, and less embarrassing.
“I, uh, wasn’t expecting anyone,” Chase said, motioning to his sweats and bare chest. He’d been sweating all morning, and now this. . . . Well, at least Ty got to see his pecs. Although, unlike other girls, she didn’t seem to notice or care.
“Oh, that’s fine,” Ty said. “I know it’s weird for me to come by on Christmas, but . . . I don’t really celebrate it. Doesn’t look like you’re celebrating too much either.” It might have sounded like an insult from someone else; but in that moment, Chase just felt Ty understood him.
“Anyway,” she breezed on, “I’ve been tracking you down ever since you helped me and my cousins with our car. I wanted to properly thank you.”
Chase must have been staring at her like a gaping idiot because she added, “I want to take you out.”
He couldn’t believe it. Ty was doing all the work for him. It was the best Christmas present he could have asked for. All he had to say was yes. And he did—practically falling over himself in the process. “Um, sure. I think I’m probably free,” he stuttered, looking around the trailer. “I mean, yeah, I’m totally free. So, yeah.”
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Any game that he’d ever had was gone. In a strange way, he kind of liked it.
Chase darted into his bedroom and changed as quickly as he could, flustered as he struggled with his inside-out jeans, smacking a fist against the wall when he realized he had no freshly steamed shirts. He tried to brainstorm conversational topics that would interest Ty; his gaze fell on Macbeth, and he wished he’d read more of it.
As they left the trailer, Chase looked around for Ty’s car.
“I walked here, actually,” she said as if it was no big deal.
No big deal that she’d trekked through the freezing air and six-inch snow to the trailer park on the outskirts of Ascension.
She looked at him sideways. “I hope you don’t think I’m stalking you or something.”
Chase had to stop himself from saying he wouldn’t mind it.
“How did you find my house?” he asked.
“I have my ways,” she replied coyly, winking at him. His stomach was filled with warmth. “I know my way around here.”
“Oh, really? How?”
“My family used to live here . . .” She trailed off vaguely.
“In Ascension? That’s cool. What brings you back to the area?”
“I’m taking a year off before I start college,” she said, turning to him and offering a wide smile. Her lips were so perfect. “I wanted to come back and see how the place had changed. It’s kind of like . . . an extended road trip, for me and my cousins.”
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“That sounds awesome.” Chase tried to play it cool. So she was older. “Your cousins—what are they up to tonight?”
“They’re coming with us,” Ty said with a girlish clap, like it should be obvious. “They’re at the Wash-N-Fold down by the drive-in movie theater,” Ty told him. “I was hoping we could take your car and pick them up?”
Chase was momentarily disappointed that he wouldn’t have Ty all to himself, but two more hot companions wouldn’t be too hard to deal with.
When they pulled up at the dingy laundry center a few minutes later, the other girls were sitting on a bench outside, Meg with her wavy, wheat-colored hair, tiny features, and signature scarlet ribbon tied oddly around her neck; Ali with her striking blond hair and Scarlett Johansson body. They were both in tiny dresses, as though they were having an impromptu summer picnic. Maybe they were from Alaska or something, and the Maine winter seemed warm. They slid into the station wagon, greeting Chase as if they were old friends. Chase hoped that meant Ty had been talking about him.
In the backseat, Ali shoved aside a pile of Chase’s school books and papers to make room for her giant purse. An English paper fell out of the stack, and Ali picked it up.
“Ooooh, e. e. cummings . . . he’s one of your favorites, right, Ty?”
Ty turned halfway around, so that Chase and Ali could both see her face. She seemed electrified by the mention of the poet, who, truth be told, Chase had thought was kind of lame.
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like everyone else? If Chase turned in an English paper with no capital letters, he’d get a failing grade.
“I love him. ‘Nobody, not even the rain, has such small hands,’” she recited. “I would die to have a poem written about me.”
“That guy from Bowdoin gave you a book of his poetry, right?” Meg said in a teasing voice. Chase grimaced. Some other dude was giving Ty poetry.
Ty nodded and shrugged. At least she didn’t seem that into this guy, whoever he was.
“That was so romantic,” Ali and Meg said, practically in unison. Ty nodded again, but didn’t add anything else to the conversation. Chase made a mental note: Ty loves poetry.
“So, where are we going, ladies?” Chase silently thanked his mom for having filled up the gas tank.
“Benson’s Bar,” Ty said, as her cousins in the backseat giggled and hooted.
“That place out on Route twenty-three?” Chase couldn’t believe that a shitty biker bar was where they wanted to spend their evening, but they seemed set on it. Maybe it was the only bar that would be open on Christmas.
“Benson’s is our little secret,” Ty said, reaching over to squeeze his hand. Chase felt chills up and down his spine.
When they arrived, the parking lot was full of Harleys and Suzukis. Chase braced himself to be harassed by the tough bikers. He was practically begging for a fight, a preppy boy walking around with three hot girls. But weirdly, instead of going in the front door, Ty, Ali, and Meg marched around to the 76
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back of the bar, where dim lights barely illuminated the snowy back-lot gravel. Chase looked around, but saw no one. The girls, meanwhile, sauntered up to a chalky black door, one that looked rusted shut but that sailed open at the slightest touch of Ty’s fingers. A reddish glow fell onto them.
“We’re going . . . in there?” Chase hoped he didn’t sound as nervous as he felt.
“You’re going to love it,” Ty said, grabbing his hand and pulling him toward a pale-faced bouncer. This place had a bouncer?
Chase could swear this club had never existed before. But the guy waved them by, and then Chase and Ty, with Ali and Meg behind them, were descending down velvet-covered stairs. The carpet felt mossy and spongy under Chase’s feet, like he was about to be sucked into it. The last two steps turned around a corner, revealing a dark underground club full of bumping music, flashing lights, and jaw-droppingly beautiful people.
The air smelled sweet and thick, full of a red haze; Chase had the distinct impression of having entered another world.
It was hot. Chase didn’t know where to look—at that couple who seemed to be performing a circus act in the middle of the dance f loor, or at the bare-chested bartender, covered in dark tattoos of snakes and ravens and feathered things. Where had these people come from? And on Christmas! They were definitely not from Ascension. He felt completely out of his element, in a good way. Chase wondered brief ly if he had wandered into some kind of cult situation. He didn’t even care. It was like being around Ty, but multiplied by ten. It was the coolest experience he’d ever had.
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“You want a drink?” Ty leaned in close to his ear so that he could hear her above the music. Chase nodded, and she was off, instantly gobbled up by the crowd. Chase stepped forward to follow her into the red haze. I would follow her anywhere, he thought as the club’s smoke enveloped him.
Knock-knock-knock.
“Chase, are you in there?”
He raised his head groggily from his pillow.
His mom’s voice came from the other side of his locked door. “Chase? Good morning, sleepyhead. Come out and open presents. I made pancakes.”
Chase looked left, right, down, and up. He was in his own bedroom. His head was pounding. He felt like he was emerging from the deepest dream of all time.
“Chase?” She knocked again.
“Yeah, Mom, I’m up. I’ll be out in a few minutes.”
“Hurry if you don’t want a cold breakfast.”
Chase rolled over and stared at the ceiling. What had happened last night? He remembered entering the bar through the hidden door; slowly, more memories came floating back to him. He remembered looking around while Ty got his drink.
He’d seen golden snakes inscribed on the vaulted ceilings; in the bathrooms, the faucets had been snake heads. He remembered dancing so close to Ty that her sweet-rain smell seemed implanted in his nostrils; he remembered getting totally turned on as he watched Ty and her cousins twisting and undulating together on the dance floor, shimmying in their little dresses.
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Or was that the snakes on the wall, which had been slithering and intertwining? The images got confused in his head.
He didn’t remember driving home. He must have been wasted. Chase felt a shot of panic—how would he find Ty again? He swung his feet to the floor and walked to his dresser, hoping to find a scrap of paper with a phone number on it.
Then he saw himself the mirror: a ten-digit number was scrawled in red lipstick on his face. He felt heat creeping up his neck. He was thrilled he had Ty’s number, but really, did she have to make him look like such a freak?
And then another memory went tumbling through his mind. How he had tried to kiss her in the smoky light. How Ty had touched his face and smiled, sending a chill down his spine as she whispered, “You’ll just have to wait. I have plans for you, you know.”
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