Enigma (Angel's Promise) - By Leslie Drennan
CHAPTER 1
Why was I so tired today? Nothing out of the ordinary happened. Last night I actually got to bed nearly half an hour earlier than I normally do. Only reason being last night I’d worn myself out cleaning until my hands felt like they would fall off at Sharon’s. Sharon was my legal guardian for all intents and purposes. When my parents died three years ago and I didn’t have any other relatives, Sharon Mumford, my parents’ supposed friend from several years ago, whom I’d never even met, stepped up to take responsibility for me. That is a laugh, though. Sharon was probably the most irresponsible person I’d ever come to meet. To this day, I am convinced the only reason she stepped up was that she thought there would be money involved from my parents’ assets.
Unfortunately, she could not have made a worse assumption. As it turned out Sharon was always broke because she could not even keep a minimum-wage job due to her own self-destructive lifestyle. She was always with sleazy men who only wanted favors while drinking to the point of stupidity on the cheapest form of liquor or beer available.
It didn’t take me long to realize I was not about to spend the remainder of my teenage years with someone I didn’t know, much less someone who was about as useful and pleasant as cancer. Sharon was always crying over some skeezball who had done her wrong, broken a promise, stole from her, or left her. She could not pay her bills and often asked me for money once she figured out that her “man for the moment” never intended to take care of her to begin with.
The one thing that made my life a little easier was that Sharon could care less that I now lived with Lena Montgomery, my best friend, as long as she received her monthly check from Damien Montgomery, my best friend’s father. Feeling sorry for me about my parents and having to go live with a stranger, he struck a deal with Sharon so that I could move in with them instead. Even if I had gone to live with Sharon permanently, I knew she couldn’t have cared less where I went, when I came back, what I did, or who I did it with. Unlike my over-protective parents, who kept me on a tight leash, Sharon Mumford only cared about how she was going to get her next fix and how to catch her next man.
Since she was technically my legal guardian, she did feel it necessary to give me what she referred to as the only two rules in life: Rule One: Don’t ever get arrested! She proclaimed that if I ever got arrested, I would just have to stay there, because God knew she didn’t have the money to come get me out, and just getting into trouble with the law would put her under their microscope.
Rule Two: Don’t ever get pregnant! She kept going on and on about how she knew what girls who looked like me were up to. I was barely okay with kissing a guy, much less anything else!
Lena was always poking fun at me about my lack of knowledge when it came to the subject of guys, even at our early age of thirteen. I was one of those who always believed in romanticism and love. You know, the kind you see in the movies where the man and the woman realize they can’t live without the other and end up sharing a phenomenal kiss in the rain. I had no desire to go around leaving a trail of broken hearts or risk having my heart broken, much less ruining my life and the life of a child by bringing it into the world far before I could handle it.
Lena, on the other hand, did have a reputation for being what I called “the boyfriend bandit.” If she came with her own background music every time she made an entrance, people would hear Another One Bites the Dust. Lena was my best friend, but we couldn’t be more different if we tried. Where I always tried to do the right thing, Lena did what felt good at that particular moment. She lived for the excitement of the here and now, as if tomorrow didn’t exist. Lena Montgomery was the girl every guy wanted to be with and every girl hated but secretly desired to be friends with at the same time because they wanted to be her. Lena had it all—the looks, the life, the cars, the clothes, the money, the house; there wasn’t much Lena Montgomery didn’t have. Come to think of it, I couldn’t think of a single thing Lena didn’t have except for one thing—her mom. She told me her mother ran out on her and her dad and they had never heard from her again. She cried a single tear, wiped it away and never spoke of it again.
Sharon Mumford was so different from my parents I could not imagine how they were ever friends. We were never in need of money, food, basic needs, or shelter. Granted, we were not nearly as well off as my best friend and her father, but we were wealthy enough. I never had to want for anything. Our house wasn’t huge, but it was one of the nicer homes in town.
My mom worked as the president for a local charity that provided meals, food, clothing, and shelter to anyone who could not provide it for themselves or their families. She loved her work, and she truly had a heart for those she had the opportunity to help—never turning a single person in need away. She was always humming old hymns and never had a shortage of hugs.
I could tell if she was home just by breathing when I walked into the house. Her scent was subtle, light, and just smelled clean. I remember the little pink bottle it came in that sat on her vanity and how I’d watched her put just the right amount on hundreds of times. My dad had been the best criminal defense attorney in the state, so when the news of his death was made public, it was a huge deal. He took all of the most controversial cases that generally involved a lot of press time and earned him the reputation of being a true devil’s advocate. Whereas I looked at my dad as being the most loving man in the world, almost everyone else that didn’t know him on a personal level looked at him as a money-hungry liar who got the most notorious bad guys off the hook for crimes that called for severe consequences. It is no secret that being a criminal defense attorney has a stigma, but there were a great deal of people who literally hated my dad for being so good at his job.
I can’t count the times he received threatening hate mail, obscene messages on the answering machine, or had angry individuals confront him at the most inopportune times. Oftentimes he would stay at his office for hours, putting cases together, and then be out the door again the next morning before I even got up for school. Once he was at home we never discussed his work. It was a topic that was not welcome beyond the front door. He was so protective against me hearing evil things in the world that he rarely even turned on the news. Even being so busy, it was obvious to everyone that he loved me and my mom more than anything in the world by the way he protected us, even if I did think he was a little over the top about it.
My parents’ death came as a complete shock to everyone. After all, they were both well known in the community and had what seemed to be close to perfect life. No one could believe it when the news announcers on every channel had their brutal deaths as the breaking story. At first, because of the brutal scene, it was thought that perhaps someone who was seeking revenge on my father lost their mind and took matters into their own hands before the police released details about the crime scene. Eventually when the lead detective, Joe O’Donoly, released a statement it was described as a murder suicide. At the crime scene—my house—they’d found a note. I never saw it; I couldn’t bring myself to view any of the evidence collected from the scene. Evidently my dad had been planning the event, considering the will had been changed recently, leaving everything solely to me.
He had added a clause that determined that a generous set amount would be available to me every month if something should ever happen to him and my mother. Everything was so unexpected. This didn’t even seem like something my father could be capable of. He loved my mom, and everyone knew it; they never even argued! I wasn’t about to accept the possibility. From newspapers to television, my dad was being painted as a murderous, greedy, ill-tempered maniac who slaughtered his wife and then killed himself. Every time someone saw me, whether they knew me or not, they couldn’t resist telling me how it was a miracle I wasn’t home that night because he would have killed me too.
Of course I got glares from some who thought our accountant and I were working together to set up the entire thing to benefit from the money since my parents had left me everything and named their personal accountant, Allen Hearsch, to be responsible for overseeing all financial matters from that point until I turned eighteen.
The day of the funeral had to be the worst.
I never could bear the idea of cremation as it seemed to me like a preview of hell, so I settled on a combined closed-casket funeral. I couldn’t believe how many people came. Aside from the people from our neighborhood and several students and faculty from the school showing respect for me, it was obvious that most were there from the charity my mom was president of. Everyone from workers to volunteers, and even those who my mom had helped through the years all came to lay roses on her coffin.
Lena, Damien, Sharon, and I all went to the graveside, where I bid my final farewell to my parents in front of their joined headstone. From now on I knew I wouldn’t be able to stand coming here and seeing their names on a piece of stone. I vowed to myself at that moment that I wasn’t going to be returning.
Even though the situation was completely devastating, I did find relief when Mr. Allen Hearsch and an attorney informed me that the will specified I was to make decisions regarding the remaining properties and belongings. Any money accrued from these decisions went straight to my trust fund. After finding out what kind of person Sharon was, which only took about two days of asking around, I was not about to allow her to move into the house I considered a sacred place of mine and my family—no matter how good of friends she claimed they were once upon a time. I made the decision to hold an estate sale and then sell the house as well. If Sharon was my legal guardian, fine; I would deal with that, being that I didn’t actually have to live with her on a permanent basis, but I was not about to allow her and her lifestyle to destroy all the things my mom and dad had worked so hard for.
I still couldn’t quite comprehend how she could have been such close friends with my parents and not even see them for thirteen years. The only sense I could make of it was that once my parents had grown into mature adults, Sharon’s life choices drove a wedge into the friendship.
What was more perplexing was the fact that my mom and dad had never even talked about her or mentioned her name. They didn’t even have any photos of her. Whatever happened really must have made them decide they wanted nothing to do with her, and I was beginning to understand how they might have felt.
When Sharon first heard the news of my decision to sell the house and all of my parents’ belongings, she was not happy. For weeks on my voicemail, all I heard was how ungrateful I was. She went on and on about how she could have just let me go to the state’s foster system, never agreeing to accept responsibility for me, and how I should appreciate her going out on a limb for me, even though my parents had never asked that of her.
After a while, I just let her words go in one ear and out the other, often erasing the messages as soon as I heard her voice. Sometimes she called so often that I would just turn my phone on silent. I was so depressed about not having my parents anymore that the last thing I needed was to hear this lunatic yell at me because she wanted their belongings. The sound of Sharon’s voice made me sick.
Damien Montgomery worked in special effects for movie productions. Where it is a very high-paying position, it also meant that he was home less than a week and a half each month. When we were younger, he hired a live-in nanny that cared for us, but once we turned fifteen, the nanny was dismissed, leaving Lena and me to make our own decisions. Unlike my parents, who were very strict and never let me out of their sight, Damien was quite the opposite. Lena never had a curfew, and as long as I had known her, she’d been allowed to do whatever she wanted to.
As an only child from a very structured family, the freedoms that came along with moving into the Montgomery household was something I really wasn’t accustomed to.
When I woke up the first night I stayed at Lena’s, I was gasping for air and could not breathe. It was dark all around me, and my hair was stuck to my face and neck from sweating. My heart was beating out of my chest, and I was overwhelmed with fear. The digital clock’s bright red numbers burned my unfocused eyes as it showed 2:30 a.m. I laid my head back down on the pillow, wishing I could forget the nightmare I’d just had, but somehow I knew I would never escape it. This was a nightmare that I felt positive would haunt me every night for the rest of my life as I knew it.
My dream began with me walking home to find the neighborhood engulfed in red and blue flashing lights with every police unit available crowding the street. Crime scene tape was draped all around the perimeter of my house. A rookie police officer ran out of the front door to the side of the house, where he immediately began to throw up. Ambulances and fire trucks were on the lawn, and then I saw it—the sight no one ever wants to see. A white van that said “Orange County Coroner” was parked crooked in my double drive. It made me drop to my knees in the street. As I hit the pavement, I barely felt the skin on my hands break as my knees instantly became raw. It must have been the stinging from my knees that made me feel lightheaded, and then it was dark.
Before I opened my eyes, I heard the buzz of voices shouting out vital signs in confusion. Slowly opening my eyes, I realized I was on a gurney in the back of the ambulance I’d seen earlier. I wondered how long I had been out when a young man with sandy brown hair wearing a jacket that read homicide in yellow lettering began to shout to someone in the distance that I was regaining consciousness. From there it was a blur, as the officer told me there had been a murder suicide in my house and asked the names and descriptions of my parents. It couldn’t be real. The paramedic asked me how I was feeling as I sat up, jerking the oxygen mask off of my face.
I felt the tears well up in my eyes as I yelled at them, insistent upon leaving. I couldn’t be there. I couldn’t stand it any longer. I needed answers. I needed to know why this happened. What was the reason? What provoked this? Why couldn’t anyone answer me? Jumping up from the gurney, I started throwing anything I could get my hands on.
Suddenly I was aware of a sharp pain in my wrist. As I tried to move it, I noticed I was sitting in the back seat of an Oceanview police cruiser, wearing handcuffs. Looking up, I found what I presumed to be the reason why I had been restrained. A chrome-colored IV pole was sticking straight out of the windshield of another police cruiser. Had I really done that in a fit of rage? It was then I noticed an EMT sitting on the bumper of the ambulance with a four-inch cut down the right side of his face, flinching as the paramedic who had checked my vital signs earlier was stitching him back up. The car door opened slowly. Detective O’Donoly, from the name on his polo shirt, was staring down at me.
As Detective O’Donoly squatted down to make eye contact, I could smell black coffee on his breath. For a moment he just looked down at the Styrofoam cup he was twisting in his hands. I could see the steam rising from the cup as he was trying to gather the right words.
“Matalyn Holland right?” asked Detective O’Donoly.
“Mattie,” I corrected him.
“Mattie, what happened tonight is something no person should ever have to experience, much less a thirteen-year-old, but that doesn’t excuse what you just did.”
I shook my head, staring back at him quizzically. I tried to find my voice, but it had disappeared.
“By law, I should take you down to the station and have you placed in juvenile detention for what you just did over there. Violation of property and assault with a deadly weapon are serious offenses, young lady.”
I could feel the hot tears start to roll down my cheeks as he talked. Why couldn’t I remember I had done that? What happened to me? I wasn’t a violent person! I had absolutely no recollection of anything he was talking about.
“Mattie, because of what’s happened tonight, I believe you just couldn’t handle anymore. I ran your name, and you’ve never been in any trouble. The neighbors who saw what happened said they’d never seen you react that way, which leads me to believe your reaction was simply a breakdown due to stress. You must have an angel looking out for you. I tell you what, Mattie, I’m gonna cut you loose tonight, okay? Do you have anywhere that you could stay for tonight until we can get this situation sorted out?”
“Yes.” It was a whisper but that was all I could muster out at that point.
I opened my phone and scrolled to find the only person I knew to call. I found Lena’s name and pushed the call button. I couldn’t keep my mind steady enough to count the rings, but after what seemed like forever, I heard the connection.
“Lena, it’s Mattie. I’m sorry I’m calling so late I just didn’t know who else to call and I know it’s a lot to ask, but I—”
Instantly I could feel the tears start to burn my eyes. The dam was about to break and I couldn’t do anything to stop it.
“It’s okay. Take a breath, tell me what’s going on,” Lena responded.
“Seriously Mattie? You know this is your fault right?” Lena responded in a cold, harsh tone when I explained what had happened. “It’s all because of you that they’re dead. You are so stupid you haven’t even figured it out, have you? How could you be so blind? Let me guess, they kept you in the dark and didn’t tell you a thing—poor little Mattie. Well, get ready, because now it’s on you! Of all the places you would go, why would you ask to come here? Do you not have any sense at all of what is happening? Maybe you are more like your daddy than I thought you were. By the way, don’t even think about running. You can run, but you will never be able to hide! The day is coming when you’ll have to choose!”
Then I woke up. Lying there trying to steady my breathing and slow my heart rate, I couldn’t make sense of what Lena said in my nightmare. She didn’t even resemble the Lena I knew. Thinking about how she sounded in my dream just left me with chills all over. I had to let it go. It was just a dream, a horrible dream. Dreams hardly ever made sense, so why should this one? After all, I had been through the unimaginable. But what had Lena been referring to? What was I supposed to be making a choice about? Why would she blame me for what happened with my parents?