Chapter 8
VIOLET STRETCHED OUT ON HER STOMACH, flipping through the pages of her grandmother’s diaries. Immediately, she was cocooned in the warmth of her grandma’s words, and even though she couldn’t eclipse her own music box, she reached over to her nightstand and wound the ivory box she’d found that first day, getting lost in the reassuring sounds of her grandmother’s lullaby.
The entries would have been dull to anyone else . . . stories about her grandma Louise’s married life, their family, and anecdotes from her mother’s childhood. But to Violet they were a treasure trove. She learned that her mom had sprained her ankle and skinned both knees when she was twelve, trying to impress a boy at the roller rink. She laughed out loud when she read another entry about her mom, when she was a teenager, getting busted for sneaking out with her friends in the middle of the night. She’d even taken the car—something she would’ve skewered Violet over, especially since she was only fourteen at the time. It was hard to imagine her mom causing trouble or having crushes on boys—anyone other than her dad. But there it was, in black and white.
Reading the journals was soothing, and she stretched again, until her toes were dangling over the edge of her bed.
She was about to call it a night, when one of the entries caught her eye:
March 4, 1987
A man came to the door today. At first I told him my usual “no thank you,” certain he must be a salesman even before he’d opened his mouth. It was the suit. No one in our neighborhood wears suits. Not unless they’re selling something. But he assured me that wasn’t the case. He said he was here to see me, and then he lowered his voice and told me he knew what I could do. I almost slammed the door in his face, then and there. But then he said a name that I hadn’t heard in years—Ian Williams.
Ian . . .
I think I was too stunned, hearing that name after all this time to even react at first, giving him enough time to say what he’d come to say. Giving him more time than I probably should have.
Whatever would have possessed Ian to tell someone about me all these years later? Whatever possessed me to listen to the crazy tale this salesman spun at my door?
I probably should’ve closed it after all.
Curious now, Violet rolled onto her back and kept reading, no longer sleepy. She scanned ahead, skipping past all the Maggie-this and Maggie-that entries that riddled this part of her grandmother’s life.
Then another one caught her attention, this one dated just three weeks later.
March 27, 1987
Maggie’s been gone all week, spending her spring break in Palm Springs with Sabrina Luddy’s family. I would be worried, except that Sabrina’s father is as strict as they come. Still, it probably couldn’t hurt to worry a little, she is sixteen after all. But I’ve been too preoccupied to worry. The man in the suit has come back twice. I still haven’t told John about him, although I’m not sure why. I’ve meant to, plenty of times. I’ve opened my mouth to tell him everything, but each time I close it again, feeling like this is something that needs to be kept to myself. At least for now. The man always wears the same dark suit, and he’s tried and tried to convince me that he understands what I’ve gone through. He’s told me, too, in far-too-mysterious terms, that I’m not alone.
Not alone? Even though he hasn’t answered any of my questions, I think I understand the implications of what he’s saying: He knows others who can do what I do. He knows people who have “gifts” like mine. Still, it’s hard to trust anyone, so I can’t bring myself to actually say the words to him. To admit that he’s right about me, that I can do the things he says I can.
But I listen. And I desperately want to know if there are others.
Violet sat up now, chewing the side of her fingernail, tugging at the skin with her teeth. She knew exactly how her grandma felt. She knew what it meant to no longer be alone, to realize that there might be someone out there who understands you.
She kept reading.
April 6, 1987
I’m not even sure I should be writing this down, but I feel like my world has just been tilted upside down. The man—I know his name is Ari Espinda now—has finally persuaded me to come to where he works, although I’m not sure I’d call it work, exactly. This time, he made clear what I’d already suspected in my heart: that I shouldn’t tell John anything about him or our meetings. I suppose this should be a red flag to me, a clue that something might be wrong about this whole situation, but I’m so curious lonely. The idea of meeting someone else like me is seductive. I’m certain that was his intention. Either way, I’ve agreed to meet him. Tomorrow . . . after Maggie leaves for school.
April 7, 1987
It wasn’t the building that impressed me, although it was impressive, in a strange sort of way. There’s more security than I’d expected (cameras that moved whenever I did), almost like visiting some secret government facility. It wasn’t though—I’m almost sure of it.
It was the people I met today that impressed me most. They weren’t exactly what Ari said they’d be—they weren’t like me. But how could they be? I’m not sure anyone else can do what I can. But that doesn’t mean they didn’t have their own amazing abilities. The best way I can describe those I met was to call them psychics. Real ones. Not like the ones who advertise on television, charging people by the minute for relationship and career advice. No, these were the kinds of psychics who truly can communicate with a world beyond our own.
I’m generally not a skeptic—someone in my position has no right to be. But I couldn’t help having reservations. Or at least I did, until Ari introduced me to a woman named Muriel. She was intense—maybe it was her penetrating eyes. When she focused them on me I felt as if she were looking inside me. It turns out, she was. Ari used her to allay my doubts by asking Muriel to “read” me.
At first the reading felt generic, like I could’ve been at the carnival having my palm read. But then . . . then she started to tell me things that were intimate and detailed. She said Maggie’s name, which could have been easy enough to find out, but she told me other things too. She knew about the miscarriages. And how later, after Maggie was born, I’d lain awake night after night worrying that she might have inherited my ability. She knew, also, that she hadn’t. She told me the names of my childhood pets, and that I’d once dreamed of being a ballerina (although what girl didn’t?), and that I secretly wished I could see my aunt once more, so I could tell her that what we can do isn’t so bad after all.
By the time she was finished, I was exhausted, as if her gift had used up every ounce of energy I had. And then they invited me to join their group.
I have no idea what I’ve agreed to, but for the first time in my life, I feel like there might be others who know exactly what it’s like to be as different as I am.
April 21, 1987
Ari insists we meet almost daily, which means I have to hurry downtown as soon as I see Maggie off to school. Since I’m home before she is, John never even realizes I’ve been gone.
We’ve spent most of our time so far testing what I can do. Strange, since I’ve never really known myself. The hardest part has been the bodies. Human bodies. It took some getting used to, and it helped to hear them being referred to as “cadavers.” Somehow the word dehumanizes them for me, at least a little. The autopsies were tough too, but they were necessary, to help us understand how exactly the “echoes” work.
The two things I’ve learned so far:
First, I was right about the heart. It must remain with the body in order for the echo to stay intact. During the autopsies I’ve witnessed, the heart is actually removed from the cadaver. First it’s weighed, and sometimes tissue samples are taken to test for drugs or toxins or anything else they can think of. It’s then that the body stops emitting an echo. It just goes . . . silent, so to speak. But once the heart is replaced—and it’s almost always placed back inside the chest cavity—the echo returns, exactly as it was before. I’m stunned every time this happens.
Second, cremation changes nothing. That caught me completely off guard. I thought for sure that once the body—including its heart—was turned to a pile of ash and bone, it would eliminate the echo altogether. How could it not?
How indeed? I have no idea, but the echo was still there. Still strong.
And what I know more than anything else: Everything remains a secret. This fact is constantly drilled into me, although I have no idea why. I have to assume that the others are as worried about their privacy as I have been. It’s the only explanation that makes sense.
Violet thought about what she’d always known about echoes and imprints. She’d known that people in law enforcement and military could carry imprints as could those like her—people who’d killed in self-defense.
She’d also learned from seeing the corpse of Mike and Megan’s father that a suicide could cause someone to bear both their own echo and imprint.
She turned back to the journal, wanting to know more.
May 5, 1987
We’re calling ourselves the Circle of Seven, our strange little group. Ari isn’t a part of the Seven since I now know he has no ability. Apparently, his true skill lies in recruiting. The rest of us, however, those who do have gifts and were brought together because of them, have forged a bond of sorts. A camaraderie like nothing I’ve ever experienced before.
Violet felt herself nodding along with her grandmother’s words as she read them. Yes, she thought, camaraderie. That was exactly the right way to describe it.
She was intrigued by the way her grandmother depicted this group, these people who reminded her so much of her own team, right down to the fact that none of the others could find bodies the way she did. In that, she was unique.
She was restless now, and she sat up, so she was on her knees, knowing she’d have to stop reading soon. It was late and she needed to sleep. Tomorrow she had school.
But she couldn’t stop herself, she had to know more.
May 29, 1987
I’m fascinated by one of the Seven, a young man named Jimmy. His ability isn’t like the others, he can’t read the future or tell your past. Like me, his gift is distinctive.
He’s been harder to get to know than the others. He’s quiet and reserved, but gentle too. I can tell just by watching him. He’s got a stillness about him, a certain tranquility. It’s not real, though . . . or so I’m told. It’s part of his ability. He makes others feel at ease. He takes away their worries and fears and anxieties, replacing them with . . . calm.
I’m not sure how I feel about that, being forced to feel serene. But I’m certainly not immune to it, that much I know.
June 28, 1987
I’ve made a terrible mistake. It’s not the fault of any of the Seven. Or maybe I’m just naive. Maybe every one of them knows—has known all along—what the group has been up to. Maybe I’m the only one who has qualms about what we’re being asked to do.
I still don’t know, exactly, who’s behind our operation . . . who’s pulling our strings. But we’re just part of some larger organization, and for whatever reason, they’ve decided we might be useful. Ari becomes tight-lipped whenever I ask.
Some of the others have been working on projects already, which we all assumed would happen eventually. We couldn’t be tested forever with no outlet for our skills. Muriel said something about doing background checks, which I assumed had something to do with prospective employees or investors, since she was giving a detailed history—more detailed than a standard credit report or criminal record check could be. My guess is that the kind of information she can dig up could be invaluable to a corporation.
There was one name I kept hearing, again and again. Jack Hewitt. It wasn’t just Muriel who mentioned him. I heard two of the others talking about him as well. I didn’t give it much thought really, I didn’t consider who he was or why I’d heard his name on more than one occasion. Until two nights ago, when John and I were watching the news.
A man’s face flashed up on the television screen, but it was his name—Jack Hewitt—that made me take notice. I knew immediately it was the man the others in the Seven had been investigating. John said he’d been in the news for several days. He’d been involved in a financial scandal, accused of embezzling almost half a million dollars from his company. On the night I saw the news story though Jack Hewitt had finally cracked under the pressure and shot himself. Right after he’d killed his wife and his two young boys.
Still, I might not have questioned the circumstances of his death if it hadn’t been for the redecorating of our government-like office. Almost overnight it was transformed into the kind of luxurious workspace that could have belonged to any head of state. It was as if the sky had opened up and rained money down on our group.
With a little digging, it wasn’t hard to discover that Jack Hewitt’s death facilitated one of the largest mergers in corporate history. That he’d been the majority stockholder in Hewitt and Sons, a company that had been in his family for generations. He hadn’t wanted to sell the business, but his brother had.
I can’t prove it, but I’m sure that somehow we were involved in his downfall, and the merger that followed. I’m sure that the others had been used to gather information about him, information that had been used against him. Maybe he was blackmailed. Maybe he was just plain threatened. Like I said, I can’t prove anything. All I have are a handful of personal trinkets belonging to a dead man, items that mean nothing . . . unless you have the ability to tell someone’s past just by touching them.
July 1, 1987
I confided my suspicions in Muriel, and she confessed that she had concerns as well. She confessed, too, that she’d been asked about Jack Hewitt’s personal life—things that should have remained private. In searching his past, she’d discovered infidelities, including the name of a mistress he’d had for years, and had even given them information about a love child he’d been hiding, filtering money to through the company. Things that might destroy a man’s family, as well as his career.
Together, we decided to dig for more information, to see if we could connect what she’d found to those who were behind the Seven, all of whom still remained anonymous.
Jimmy was the one who caught us as we were searching through the files. We told him what we suspected.
Muriel said she was thinking of quitting the Seven. All the while I was calm, almost too calm, as if Jimmy were manipulating me. Then he said that she couldn’t quit, they wouldn’t let her.
They, he said. It was ominous, and my feelings were exactly what they should have been. Fear. He told us that no one leaves the Circle.
He didn’t say “the Seven,” which is what the rest of us call ourselves. He said, “the Circle,” as if the number changes. As if we weren’t the first group they’ve assembled.
July 15, 1987
Muriel is dead. And I know why. She tried to quit the Circle.
I have to find a way out.
Violet sat back on her heels, as the goose bumps that had started at the base of her neck bloomed outward, spreading over her body, until she was covered in them.
The Circle of Seven. They’d been just like her team. Just like Rafe and Gemma and Krystal and Sam. And whatever phantom organization had directed the Seven, from behind the scenes, assembling them and then giving them tasks, was so eerily similar to whoever was running the Center—it made Violet’s head spin.
What if those similarities weren’t just a coincidence? What if there was some connection between the group her grandmother had belonged to and the team she was on now?
Except, how was that even possible? The members of the Seven had been asked to participate in corporate espionage—even if it was of the psychic variety. Their skills had been used to manipulate financial dealings, had been utilized for personal gain and wealth. Violet’s team wasn’t like that.
They were helping to find missing persons and stop killers. There was nothing selfish about that, nothing materialistic about what they did.
Besides, that was almost thirty years ago.
Yet . . .
She thought of the Center, where her team met. She pictured the state-of-the-art facility and the high-tech feel, with the computers and LCD monitors . . . and yes, even the security. The cameras and the keypads at every entry. Hadn’t her grandmother mentioned the security?
She thought too of the fact that her mom had always told her that her grandma had never found a dead person before, not the way Violet had. That the echoes she’d discovered had always been limited to animals she’d come across.
Lies, Violet knew now. Lies that her grandmother had been forced to tell to protect her family, to keep them safe from a group she suspected were capable of murder.
How many other secrets had there been? How many other lies?
Still reeling, Violet was about to close the journal when she saw something sticking out from between the pages. A slip of paper, maybe. She stuck her finger between the pages of the journal, and just as she was opening the book, a photograph drifted out, floating to the floor in front of her.
She didn’t have to pick it up to realize what she was looking at. Who she was looking at. All she had to do was count.
They were all there, the Circle of Seven.
Gingerly, she plucked up the image, holding it close and inspecting it. She recognized her grandmother right away. She was younger than Violet remembered her, and smiling, making Violet think this picture had been taken before she’d known what the group was all about. Before she’d grown to fear them.
Her eyes roved over their faces, and she realized that all of these people were older than the members of her own team—even Krystal, who was their oldest member at twenty-one. These were adults, all of them. Most closer to her grandmother’s age than to her own.
And then she felt the floor drop out from beneath her as all of her doubts evaporated in a single instant.
Dr. Lee . . .
Violet looked at the picture again, letting her finger wander over the faded paper—but not so faded that she couldn’t see him, couldn’t recognize his face. Even thirty years younger, she knew it was him.
She tried to recall whether any of the entries she’d read in her grandmother’s journals had named him, but then realized that they had, she just hadn’t put two and two together. Why would she? Jimmy, or James rather, was a common-enough name.
He was the young man who could make others feel calm.
Violet crossed her arms in front of her, trying to ward away the chill that enveloped her, cupping her elbows and drawing her arms against her chest. She took that in as she thought about the visits she’d had with Dr. Lee.
How much of what he’d taught her was truly technique—meditation, hypnosis, breathing—and how much of what she’d felt was simply the result of his own unusual ability to make those around him relax? To take away their stress, their discomfort?
But for someone who could put others at ease, he certainly hadn’t always used it. He’d let her be angry and suspicious in the days and weeks since he’d forced her hand. He hadn’t calmed her when she’d been sullen or disrespectful during their mandatory sessions.
She supposed he had no reason to stop her from feeling those things; she wasn’t hurting anyone really. She’d never actually left the team, despite all her frustration and fury with him.
But then she remembered . . .
He had used it on her, she was sure of it . . . when she’d asked him about Rafe and Gemma coming to her school. The way she’d blindly accepted his explanation, and his involvement in the decision to have them attend White River.
She remembered, too, how she’d felt later, when she’d gone home and thought about it; she’d been frustrated with herself for not questioning him further, for not arguing with him. Suddenly she questioned everything. Everyone.
She wondered if it had really been the dead boy on the waterfront—the one she’d discovered all those months ago—who had brought her to the attention of Sara Priest in the first place. She wondered if she hadn’t been on their radar all along. She was the granddaughter of one of the Seven, after all. Surely they knew . . . or at least suspected what she could do.
And her grandmother had been trapped, just like she was.
When you grow accustomed to something, when it becomes part of your everyday life, you notice when it suddenly vanishes.
That was what happened when Violet sat bolt upright in the middle of the night. At first she didn’t understand why her pulse was racing even before she was fully awake. She had no idea why her ribs ached as her lungs struggled and gasped for breath, or why she couldn’t see or hear.
I’m dead was the first thought that found its way through her awareness. It was jarring to consider, but it made a certain amount of sense. This is what it feels like to lose consciousness and succumb to death.
She blinked, searching for some sort of bright light, or a tunnel that would lead her to the other side, the kind you always hear about in people’s near-death experiences.
But there was . . . nothing . . .
Nothing.
She blinked once . . . twice . . . and then her eyesight adjusted. She was still in her bedroom, and it was still the middle of the night.
Her breath finally found a place in her throat, and she felt the hitch as she gasped, a long choking sound . . . one that she most definitely heard. Her heart hammered too hard against the walls of her chest and she realized she must’ve been dreaming. That had to be it, she assured herself, it was all a bad dream.
But it was still eerily quiet around her. Spookily, frighteningly quiet.
And then she realized why that was.
It was gone. Her music-box imprint . . .
It was gone.
She shook her head, because surely her sanity had slipped, if only a notch. It wasn’t possible for an imprint to just . . . vanish. It wasn’t something you could just lose.
Yet here she was. Sitting alone in the dark, in total, complete, utter silence.
The phone, when it vibrated on the nightstand beside her, made her jump and caused her heart to start racing all over again. She lunged for it, pressing her hand against her chest as she took another breath and glanced at the screen.
“Rafe?” she whispered, her voice unsteady. “What’s wrong?”
Static poured through the line from the other end, and she thought at first he might not hear her, that they had a bad connection. Then his voice reached through the phone, finding her. “Hopefully nothing. That’s why I was calling. I wanted to see”—he paused—“how you were.”
“I’m . . .” She swallowed her word. She’d started to say “fine,” something she’d said so many times before it was nearly automatic now. Yet here she was, no longer sure whether that was true or not. Under the circumstances, I’m losing my effing mind might be more accurate. Instead, she settled for “confused.”
In the background she heard noises: metal banging against metal, maybe; the clang of buckles, probably. What was he doing?
“But better, right?”
“Bett—” Her mind whirled as she tried to make sense of their strange conversation. “What have you done? Did you . . . do this?”
She heard the distinct whooshing sound of a zipper. “Look, I only have a minute. I probably should’ve waited to call, but I wanted to see if it worked or not.”
Violet lifted her hand to her lips. “I don’t understand . . . how . . . ?” And then stopped pretending, because she did understand. She understood entirely too well. “You didn’t . . . ? You didn’t just dig him up, did you?” She lowered her voice to barely a breath. “You could get in so much trouble.”
Rafe actually laughed. “Well . . . I didn’t just dig him up, I had to do some other stuff too. Really gross stuff. And since you haven’t said otherwise, I assume it worked. You can thank me later. But for now, I’m cold and I’m dirty, so I’m gonna go.”
She tried to imagine Rafe going to the graveyard at night and digging up a body—Caine’s body.
She squeezed her eyes shut, wondering whatever had possessed him to do such a thing, to take such a risk.
But she knew. “This doesn’t change anything, you know?”
There was another brief pause, right before she heard him say, “Oh, I don’t know, V. I think it changes everything.” And then he hung up.
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