Chapter Eight
“I’ve spent a fair amount of time thinking about you looking just like that.”
A man’s voice shouldn’t be able to send such excitement through a body. At least it would be much better if Helena didn’t find Keir’s tone so delicious, so husky and steely strong. She was tempted to allow it to help hold her up.
He had bathed as well, the firelight that danced off the water making his hair shiny. He moved forward, his steps silent. Only the fire crackled and a faint howl of wind came through the closed shutters. It was a luxurious room, to be sure, but all she seemed to notice was the man intent on sharing it with her.
His gaze moved over her hair. It was dry and she’d brushed it into a fluffy mass of silk lying over one shoulder. She had never considered her hair anything unique. Blond and red hair gained attention. Hers had always been too dark. But Keir liked it. His face reflected his pleasure. He reached out and fingered a lock.
“I hope ye never put those things back in it. Ye’re a fair bonnie sight now that all that powder and paint is nae on yer skin to hide the beauty beneath. I am drawn to ye as ye are, no’ some ideal made up by men who spend too much time judging the people around them.”
It was by far the most tender compliment she had ever received. No rhyming couplet or comparisons to Greek goddesses. It was simple, and for the first time she believed it.
“I suppose it is a good thing you like who you have married.”
He frowned but didn’t answer quickly. Instead he walked toward the bed and leaned his sword up against the wall, leaving the brass handle within easy reach of the bed. He’d taken the side nearest the door, and she noticed it. Another ripple of emotion went through her. No one had ever placed themselves in front of her unless they were paid by her father to do so.
Keir did it because of who he was.
He’d shrugged into his shirt while still wet. Patches of the linen stuck to his torso, giving her a glimpse at the hard ridges of muscles beneath the garment. Heat licked over her skin and it had nothing to do with the fire burning near her feet.
He turned and caught her looking at him. Her fingers fumbled the brush handle and she set it aside before she embarrassed herself further by dropping it.
The man’s ego didn’t need that much stroking.
“I suppose I cannae blame ye for nae trusting me, even if I wish otherwise.”
“Trust?” Her voice was a whisper, but full of emotion. It would be so easy to believe in him, but that would only set her up for misery when he left her for a mistress. She didn’t doubt that it would happen. The man had won her playing at cards and her worth was in parchment and what she brought him. Once she was breeding, he’d be finished with her. It was normal and expected, but it hurt her to see Keir standing near the bed she would lose her chastity in. She had wanted to keep him in her heart as her gallant knight. Reality would shatter that dream tonight.
“Aye, trust me, lass.”
He reached for her but she struck his hand away before contact was made. His eyes flickered with his displeasure and her temper gave her the strength to banish her longings.
“I do not have to trust.” She hugged her arms over her chest, covering her nipples. The conflict between the longings of her flesh and the irritation in her mind was becoming so loud, she wouldn’t be surprised if she woke up insane once the night had passed. “Trust is the only thing that is mine to give. Everyone is so intent on telling me what I must do, what I shall do and what is expected of me. But trust is not something that is given, husband.”
She drew a stiff breath, banishing the stinging tears that were threatening to fall down her cheeks again. “Even when your men and my king ensure that I am yours for the taking, my trust is the thing that shall be locked away from you all.”
She forced her arms to unclasp. Reaching down, she grasped her chemise and drew it up and over her head. She felt the brush of the night air against her skin from head to toe, and the heat from the fire behind her. “But the maid who dallies with the stable boy is far richer than she ever imagined, for I envy her wealth of choices.”
His face tightened. A muscle on the corner of his jaw twitched. She held her chin level. She wasn’t afraid of him, only sick of conforming to everyone’s dictates. His gaze touched on her face and the resignation there. He didn’t care for it; she witnessed it in his eyes. He wanted something more from her.
“Well now, that is where we disagree again, because trust is something that is given. ’Tis a sweet gift.”
“You are speaking of surrender.”
His gaze left her face. He tried to fight the urge to look at her nude body but lost. It fascinated her to see him so beaten by his own urges. Somehow it hinted at a power she hadn’t thought she held. Some small form of controlling influence by which he was weakened.
“Aye, lass, I am talking about surrender, but nae a cold one. I didna go searching for yer brother to win ye. I went looking for him to smash my fist into his face for hitting ye. But I am no’ going to quibble over how I gained what we’ve both been dancing about since looking at each other. I witnessed the desire burning just as hot in yer eyes as I felt in my own blood.”
After all the subterfuge and deceit of court, the simple honesty of Keir’s words sparked an undeniable need for him, and she regretted her harsh words. She wanted him and it was allowed now. Letting the details interfere would only hurt her and Keir. He watched her, his dark eyes stormy and unhappy with her. She felt it keenly.
“I’m…not cold…toward you, Keir.”
The muscle on the side of his jaw flexed. She stared at the little throbbing point, her hands moving up to cover her bare breasts. She felt exposed now that she’d admitted she wanted him.
He captured one hand, gripping it in his larger one.
“Nay, I’m the one who’s doing things badly. I’m acting like a lad instead of showing ye the way to proceed.”
He carried her hand to his lips. Turning her hand over, he pressed a kiss against the tender skin of her inner wrist. A moment later he grazed that delicate skin with his teeth. She gasped, a startled sound passing her lips. She jerked her arm, but not out of any true desire to be free. It was simply a reaction, her body moving without any thought behind the motion.
A deep chuckle rumbled from his chest. “Aye, you are nae cold to me.” His thumb rubbed over her inner wrist, smoothing through the tiny wet patch of skin.
“A bit uneasy, to be sure, but that’s my duty to soothe. A pure delight, because it tells me that ye are pure. ’Tis a gift that I am humbled by, lass. Never doubt that.”
He meant it. His tone was tender but determined. She let herself get swept up in that tone. It was the one her gallant knight used in her dreams.
“I promise to spend more time courting ye, Helena.”
He swung her off her feet, drawing another gasp from her. “Why do you pick me up? I’m not trying to avoid my duties.”
“I enjoy carrying ye.” He placed her in the center of the bed, satisfaction flickering in his eyes. “But the idea of chasing ye is interesting, too. I do believe I’d enjoy following ye a great deal.”
He sounded like a boy—a naughty, mischievous one, at that. “I run fast.”
“So do I, but I confess that I just might slow up enough to trail behind ye for a good long while if ye’re planning to run as ye are.” His gaze swept down her bare length. “Nude.”
“Stop your playing.” She reached for the turned-down covers. But her husband taunted her by lying down across them. She suddenly felt on display, and drew her knees up to conceal her breasts.
“Dinnae do that. Ye are stunning, Helena.”
He sat back up and hooked his fingers into his shirt. The collar was already open, allowing him to pull the garment over his head with one smooth motion. The unveiling of his skin captured her attention, drawing her thoughts away from her own modesty. He was covered in muscle—hard ridges of it ran over his chest. Dark hair coated the wide expanse, trailing down to where his kilt covered him. His belt was undone but still lying around his waist. Her cheeks colored when she realized that he’d unbuckled it while she was lost in admiring his chest. But he’d left his kilt in place to avoid spooking her.
The fact that he felt she needed coddling annoyed her. She realized that she didn’t want to lie back and be taken. Ideas swirled through her mind, touching off demands from her body. Keir watched her, his dark eyes focused on her. But his hand was gripping the covers beneath his hand.
“Go on.” Her voice had turned husky.
He raised one dark eyebrow. Helena sat up, facing him. She kept her arms down, so that her breasts were fully visible.
“I’m not a coward.”
“I didna think ye were.” His expression turned hard. “But there is no reason to rush.”
“If you are so relaxed, why are you twisting the bedding?”
His fingers tightened even more. “Because I’m trying not to pounce on ye.”
Helena laughed. Keir looked perplexed by her amusement, but he was not annoyed. Confusion covered his face and she shrugged.
“Men do not pounce.”
“Maybe nae in England. But be very sure that I am a Scot, lassie.”
His voice had deepened, along with his brogue. It was the only warning she received. A mountain of muscle surged toward her, the bed swaying beneath her back as he pinned her down.
“We Scots tend to be a wee bit more physical.”
“I…see…that.”
She turned her head from side to side, completely overwhelmed by the contact of skin on skin. His chest pressed against her torso, covering her. But he caught most of his weight on his elbows, leaving just enough to send need coursing through her.
“I was hoping to be able to prove it to ye. One touch at a time.” His lips grazed the side of her throat. She quivered, never having suspected that one kiss might cause such a riot of feeling.
“But I’m a selfish man. Impatient it seems, too.”
“What?” His words confused her. Speaking annoyed her. She turned her head to lock stares with him.
“I want yer hands on me. I swear I’ll wait all night if that’s what it takes for ye to relax enough to touch me like ye were in the carriage.”
Her hands moved up his arms instantly. She didn’t think about it—she didn’t need to. His eyes narrowed with enjoyment, and as she stroked up to his shoulders, she watched the way his face reflected his delight.
“I did that after you kissed me.”
“Och well, if I’d done that again, waiting would be out of the question.” His voice was playful but she saw a contradiction in his eyes. Passion burned there and it touched off an answering hunger deep in her belly.
“I agree.” Her lower lip was dry. She licked it and froze when his eyes moved to follow the tip of her tongue.
“Do that again.” His voice sounded strained, as if his control was being tested. “On second thought, allow me.”
He leaned down, closing the distance between them. She suddenly felt as if she had waited forever for his kiss—had, in fact, been anticipating it since the moment the carriage arrived at the palace.
It was worth the wait.
His mouth teased hers, the tip of his tongue sweeping across her lower lip. Sweet delight rippled down her body, igniting the hunger he’d left her with earlier. There was no question about it. Passion rose hot and thick to claim her back into its grasp. The hair on his chest felt good against her skin. She noticed how hard he was compared to her softness. Her breasts gently compressed beneath the body of her lover. It felt so good that she wiggled, gently rubbing herself against him.
A low growl shook his chest and his kiss changed. It deepened, his tongue thrusting into her mouth to slide around her own. A shiver shook her, sending a soft moan past their joined lips.
Heat radiated from him and from her as well. Even with the fire far across the room, she didn’t feel the chill of the night. The wool of his kilt was tangled between them. Her skin was alive with a magnitude of sensations, all of them heightened to far above normal. The fabric felt coarse and she lifted one leg to escape it. Keir reached down to grip her knee and bring it farther up. It spread her thighs, giving his hips a space to settle into. Her other knee bent, making room for his larger frame.
He didn’t rush to penetrate her. His fingers smoothed over the skin of her thigh, rubbing in a slow motion that sent pleasure racing toward the open folds of her sex. At the top of her sex a point began to pulse. It throbbed with longing, begging for Keir’s hand to move toward it.
“Yer breasts are beautiful, lass.” He moved down her body, placing soft kisses on her neck and then on her collarbone. “I swear it’s a good thing we’re wed because I’ve spent too much time thinking about sucking these sweet nipples.”
His breath teased her nipple and it drew even harder. He cupped it, gently closing his hand around the soft mound. When his lips closed around it, she moaned. His mouth was so hot it burned, but she arched upward, offering her nipple to him.
Keir took complete advantage of her invitation, closing his mouth around her nipple. He sucked hard on it, the drawing motion increasing the heat. Desire pooled in her belly, making her aware of how empty her passage was. She was achy with the need to be filled. The fabric of his kilt frustrated her because it separated her from what she craved. She writhed beneath him, seeking to slip between the fabric and his warm skin. Reaching down, she grasped at the wool, tugging on it with fingers curled into talons.
“When we agree, ’tis a glorious thing, lassie.”
His voice was dark and full of promise. He rose up above her and yanked his kilt aside with a long sweep of his hand. He didn’t give her a chance to view his length. He covered her again, settling between her spread thighs. She reached for him, running her hands up his arms, her fingertips exploring the hard ridges her eyes had enjoyed so much. Feeling them was tenfold more enjoyable. Everything about the moment was a feast for the senses. Thought disappeared while touch, scent, and emotion took command. Lifting her head, she kissed his neck, pressing her lips against the skin that felt so warm and smelled so very male.
His chest rumbled with a growl and it made her bolder. Straining up against the weight of his body, she kissed his chin. The need to kiss him drove her. She didn’t want to lie back and receive, she wanted to press her lips against his and initiate the pleasure.
Keir waited for her, remaining still while she angled her face so that their lips could meet. He didn’t take command of the kiss. His lips only followed hers. Clasping her hands around the top of his shoulders, she strained upward to keep her lips connected with his.
He suddenly rolled, taking her along with him. The bed was wide enough to allow him to settle all the way onto his back with her on top of him. Her thighs remained spread, her own weight pressing her down on top of him. He threaded his fingers through her hair, spreading the long strands out before gripping it around his fist. Tiny pricks of pain traveled along her scalp but it mixed with the need flowing through her blood, heightening everything again.
“Kiss me, Helena.”
It was an order, but deep in his eyes she saw the plea. He was a proud man but not an arrogant one.
“Kiss me because ye want to, lass.”
She touched one fingertip to his lips instead. He shuddered, the motion moving along his body and up into hers. His hands left her waist to cup the sides of her bottom. Male satisfaction burned brightly in his eyes.
No one had ever touched her bottom.
Not that she could recall.
Keir tightened his grip before rubbing slowly over each rounded cheek. He watched her while he did it. His gaze lacked the possessive look she would have expected. Instead there was an inquisitive look, a questioning slant to his eyes that sent color burning along her cheeks.
He chuckled, pressing a kiss against the finger on his lips. A look of experience settled into his eyes that chafed. There appeared to be so much that she didn’t understand about her own body. She felt that lack keenly.
Leaning forward, she kissed him. It was nothing soft or hesitant. Holding his head with her hands, she angled her face so that their lips could fit together easily. Keir was finished being docile, too. He took her kiss and met her in the middle, demanding she open her mouth for their tongues to mingle. She shivered, that spot at the top of her sex throbbing harder. His tongue thrust deeply into her mouth and her passage ached for the same treatment, but from something harder.
Keir rolled her over again. This time he settled lower, his hips below her spread sex. She was acutely aware of her passage, in a way she’d never been before. But there was no humiliation. No raging concern for her modesty. Only a need to be closer to her lover.
He smoothed his hand along her inner thigh, spreading her thighs so that his fingers might trail into the moist center of her body.
She cried out, not able to form words any longer. There was too much sensation, too much pleasure. Her heart was racing and her breathing was harsh, trying to keep pace. The first touch made her arch, her entire back straining away from the bed. But his body wouldn’t allow her to escape. She clawed at his shoulders, gripping the hard muscle.
But his fingers returned to her open folds, tormenting them with light touches that sent pleasure spiking up her passage. She ached for more. Her eyes slid closed because she just couldn’t keep her thoughts on anything but the teasing touches of his fingers. The sound of her own heartbeat filled her ears. His skin felt hot beneath her palms.
He found the spot at the top of her sex that was throbbing. Her eyes opened wide as he settled one thick fingertip on top of it. His face was a mask of tension. She stared at it, both fascinated and apprehensive of the raw hunger displayed there.
“Aye, lass, you’re testing me mightily. But I swear I’ll no’ hurt ye by rushing.”
“I’m a maiden. It will hurt. I’m not afraid.” No, she was achy and hot. Her hips lifted toward his hand and she gasped when the increase in pressure against his finger sent pleasure through her so sharply that she felt dizzy.
“Aye. But ye will learn to trust me because I didna claim ye the second the church gave me the right.” His finger moved, rubbing her *oris in a motion that nearly drove her insane. “First I’m going to show ye what delights marriage offers.”
“I don’t understand.”
And her eyes closed because pleasure was twisting and tightening beneath that finger. Her hips jerked upward, grinding against his touch. The need intensified until it was the only thing that she noticed, that pulsing need to lift and grind against his hand. She pulled on his shoulders, desperate to get closer. Suddenly the tension broke in a burst of pleasure so acute, she cried out with it. The delight twisted down her passage and into her belly. She was held frozen in that moment. Time stopped as the pleasure consumed her.
“Now ye understand.” A soft kiss pressed against her lips. It was so tender, she felt tears sting the corners of her eyes. His hand was back on her breast, gripping the soft mound and gently pinching the nipple.
But his cock was pressing against her opening, the hard head of it burrowing into the spread folds. She was slick with her own juices, making it easy for him to push forward. Her sheath was tight, the walls protesting his invasion. But her muscles were lax, allowing him to press deeper. Her passage ached and then burned. Her fingers renewed their grip on his shoulders, her back arching away from his possession.
He held her still. She sucked in a deep breath when he withdrew but it hissed through her clenched teeth when he thrust smoothly back into her. This time he gained more depth, her passage screaming against the hard flesh invading it. For a moment the pain ruled her. It was white-hot and blinding. She struggled to escape.
“Shhh…”
It was only a sound, combined with soft kisses against her temple. The pain vanished as quickly as it had come. She gasped for breath, trying to relax with his length lodged deep inside her.
Tears eased down her face. She lifted her eyelashes to see her husband’s concerned look. It was a deep emotion that burned in his eyes. But she gasped when she realized that her fingernails had cut into his skin. Blood colored her nails and she jerked them away in horror.
“I’m sorry.”
“I’m not.” His voice was raspy now. All hints of control vanished. “Claw me.”
His hips flexed and he drew his cock out of her body.
“Share it with me, Helena.”
His eyes glowed and he thrust deeply into her spread body. Her passage took him with only a dull ache. She did as he commanded and dug her nails back into his arms. There was too much sensation to contain inside her. She couldn’t remain still, her hips lifting once again to press up tighter against him.
His nostrils flared. It was a tiny movement but her gaze seemed fixated on it. She clawed at him and he snarled softly.
“Dinnae ever submit to me, Helena.”
She answered him by meeting his next thrust. Hard and thick, his cock filled her, feeding that need that had gnawed at her since she met him. It wasn’t romantic but it was true. She wanted him just like this, deep inside her. Her breath was rough and so was his. His hips flexed and bucked between her thighs. She clasped him to her, trying to hold onto him and keep him deep inside her. There was no reason to keep her eyes open. She wanted to immerse herself in the sensation, the fullness of his flesh filling her, the smooth sliding of their skin as he moved on top of her.
Pleasure tightened her once again. This time it was centered deeper, all the way inside her passage. She was straining up off the bed, striving to help drive his length toward that knot of throbbing sensation. A moan pasted her lips, followed by a second one. The pleasure peeked before it broke again, spearing through her flesh with sensation that was mind-numbing. She twisted in it as if a flame had been put to the bedding. Above her, Keir snarled and ground his cock into her. A series of hot spurts filled her, satisfying the last of her hunger. She didn’t know why, only that satisfaction washed over her, leaving every muscle limp. Pleasure lingered as Keir hunched over her, his elbows keeping his chest from crushing her. His chest labored with hard breaths that rasped through his teeth.
He lifted his head, showing her an expression that touched her heart. It was so full of admiration and tender concern that tears eased from her eyes.
“Yer tears bring me to my knees, lass. Dinnae cry. It won’t hurt so much again.”
He rolled over, leaving her, and she shivered, feeling his withdrawal keenly.
“I understand….” But she didn’t understand why she felt deserted.
Keir didn’t give her time to investigate her odd feelings. He rolled right out of the bed. The firelight bathed him in scarlet now that the flames had died down. He picked up his kilt while she tried to smother her tears.
Of course he was finished with her….
But he returned to the bed, on the side that his sword was leaning against the wall. He lay back down and slipped an arm under her waist. Pulling her close, he nuzzled against her, kissed the tracks her tears had left on her cheeks.
“I always sleep nearest the door, Helena.”
He pressed her cheek down onto his chest. The sound of his heart filled her ear. She sighed, grateful for the excuse to be silent. She noticed how lonely her bed had been. The scent of his skin brought a contentment that pulled her into a slumber that was deep and unburdened by any worries. There was only the embrace of the man holding her.
Nothing else mattered.
Keir didn’t sleep immediately. He was too fascinated by the woman in his arms—the soft brush of her breath against his skin, the steady throbbing of her heart—all of the tiny details of life that he had never noticed in a bed partner before. Remaining awake to enjoy it was not a chore. Stroking her smooth shoulder, he closed his eyes. During the night he followed her across the bed. She wiggled out of his embrace and he pulled her back against his body. At dawn he was still tired but a contentment had settled over him that he’d only felt when his mother had been alive.
He did not know what it was, only that he’d kill any man who tried to take Helena from him.
She was his.