Chapter 18
Monday, Lorimer reflected, had not started in a promising manner: in the night someone had stolen his car. In the dawn darkness he stood by the empty space where he had parked it and asked himself what inept thief, what desperate fool, would choose to steal a car with such an obvious dose of terminal corrosion? Well, to hell and back with it, he thought, at least it’s insured, and strode off into the gloom towards Victoria Station to catch a tube.
He sat in a hot, crammed compartment with his fellow commuters, trying to keep irritation at bay and, also, ignore the thin, keening note of indeterminate worry that nagged at him like tinnitus. Moreover, he was already missing his car, knowing he would have needed it for the funeral, to make the long trajectory across town to Putney. It’s just a motor car, he told himself, a mode of transport – and a pretty inauspicious one at that. There were other methods available when it came to the ferrying of his person from point A to point B: by the standards of the world’s injustices he was getting off lightly.
The tube network bore him efficiently beneath the city’s streets so that he was at the office fifteen minutes before his appointment with Hogg. He was about to clamber up the flight of stairs when he saw Torquil emerge on the landing, suited and tied, and with a pile of files under his arm. Torquil conspiratorially waved him back outside and presently joined him on the pavement. They wandered a way along the street, Torquil regardlessly hailing every occupied taxi that passed as if it would at once disgorge its paying customer at his imperious behest.
‘The most amazing thing happened this weekend,’ Torquil told him. ‘There I was, Saturday evening, arguing the toss with Binnie about getting the kids into cheaper schools, when Simon calls.’
‘Sherriffmuir?’
‘Yes. There and then he offers me a job. Director of Special Projects at Fortress Sure. My old salary, secretary, car – better car, actually – as if nothing had ever happened. TAXI!’
‘Special projects? What does that mean?’
‘Well, not so sure… Simon said something about feeling our way forward, establishing parameters as we go, sort of thing. For Christ’s sake, it’s a job. Pension, BUPA, the works. TAXI ! I knew Simon would see me right. Just a question of when.’
‘Well, congratulations.’
‘Thanks. Ah, got one.’ A black cab had stopped across the street and was waiting to make its tight turn.
‘And,’ Torquil added, a little smugly, ‘the Binns has forgiven me.’
‘Why?’
‘Well, you know. The kids, I suppose. Anyway, she’s a noble soul. And I promised to be a good boy.’
‘What about Irina?’
Torquil looked blank for a moment. ‘Oh, I told her I couldn’t see her – for a while. She took it pretty well. I think we might let that one just fizzle out, anyway. Plenty more fish in the sea.’ Torquil opened the cab door. ‘Look, let’s have lunch some time.’
‘I’ll tell Lobby you won’t be turning up.’
‘Lobby? Oh, God, yeah, would you? Forgot about him in all the excitement. Tell him I’m taking a cut in salary, that’ll make him laugh. It’s true, actually. Sorry to hear about your pa, by the way.’
Lorimer closed the door on him with a satisfying bang and watched Torquil rummaging in his pockets for a cigarette while telling the taxi driver where he wanted to go. He didn’t bother to wave goodbye as Torquil didn’t bother to look out of the window.
Lorimer bounded up the pine stairway, heading for Rajiv’s counter, about to tell him of the car theft, but Rajiv pre-empted him, tapping his nose and pointing skyward.
‘Mr Hogg’s asked three times if you’ve come in.’
So Lorimer went straight up; there was no sign of Janice so he rapped on Hogg’s door.
‘Who is it?’
‘Lorimer, Mr Hogg.’
Hogg threw a rolled-up newspaper at him as he entered and it bounced off his chest and fell to the carpet. It was the Financial Times. Lorimer’s eye was immediately caught by the second headline: ‘Property giant snaps up Gale-Harlequin. Racine Securities pays 380 million.’ He scanned through the rest of the article: ‘Shares purchased at 435P… Investors take large profits.’ There followed a list of investors – two fund managers, a famous US property tycoon and arbitrageur and a couple of other names he did not recognize. Hogg stood, hands on hips, legs braced as if on a rolling poop deck, watching him while he read.
‘How much did you make?’ Hogg said, with quiet venom. ‘Stock options or a flat deal?’
‘I don’t know what you’re talking about.’
‘You must think I’m like some virgin novice nun from a convent stuck up in the mountains, a hundred miles from the nearest…’ the simile ran out of steam. ‘Don’t make me f*cking laugh, you tosspot.’
‘Mr Hogg –’
‘Now I know why the adjust went so smoothly. No one wanted the boat rocked with this one coming up on the rails.’
Lorimer had to admit it made some sense.
‘I did a straightforward adjust, pure and simple.’
‘And you’re fired, pure and simple.’
Lorimer blinked. ‘On what grounds?’
‘Suspicion.’
‘Suspicion of what?’
‘How long have you got? I suspect you of every nasty, suppurating, corrupt trick in the book, matey, and I can’t afford to suspect a member of my staff for even one second. So you take the prize f*cking biscuit, chum. You’re out. Now.’ He actually smiled. ‘Car keys.’ He held out a broad palm.
Lorimer handed them over. ‘By the way, it was stolen this morning.’
‘No. We lifted it. You’ll be getting invoiced for the respray. Janice!’
Janice peered nervously round the door.
‘Take Mr Black to his office, let him pack up his personal effects and then lock the door. On no account is he to be left alone for one second, or make a phone call.’ He offered Lorimer his hand. ‘Goodbye, Lorimer, it’s been real.’
It was to his credit, so Lorimer told himself later, that he did not shake Hogg’s hand. He merely said, trying to keep the tremor out of his voice: ‘You are making an enormous mistake. You will live to regret it,’ turned sharply on his heel, back muscles already in spasm, and managed to walk out.
201. An Old Joke. Hogg told me this joke more than once, it’s a particular favourite. A man goes into a sandwich bar and says, ‘Can I have a turkey sandwich?’ The guy behind the counter says, ‘We’ve got no turkey.’ ‘OK,’ the man says, ‘in that case I’ll have chicken.’ The guy behind the counter says, ‘Listen, mate, if we had chicken you could have had your turkey sandwich.’
Since Hogg told me this joke it has perturbed me unduly, as if it contains some deep truth about perception, about truth, about the world and our dealings with it. Something about this old joke disturbs me. Hogg, for his part, could hardly get the words out for laughing.
The Book of Transfiguration
Lorimer placed the cardboard box containing his personal effects on the hall table and rested his hand on the crown of his Greek helmet. The metal felt cool and pleasingly rough under his hot palm. Give me strength, he thought. He analysed his feelings and came up with nothing concrete: vague outrage, vague worry about the future and, curiously, vague relief.
There was a message to call Bram Wiles on his answer machine.
‘Did you see today’s papers?’ Wiles asked immediately.
‘Yes. What do you make of it?’
‘One of the investors in Gale-Harlequin is a company called Ray Von TL – it has just over a fifteen per cent stake. It’s registered in Panama. I suspect that if we could find out who was behind Ray Von TL we’d have a few more answers.’
Lorimer had a few guesses: Francis Home? Dirk van Meer? He would not be surprised. Fifteen per cent of Gale-Harlequin was suddenly worth this morning a nice 48 million. A handsome slice of the pie to call your own. But how did such massive profit-taking impinge on the insignificant lives of Torquil Helvoir-Jayne and Lorimer Black?
‘You know Gale-Harlequin was only floated on the stock exchange fourteen months ago?’ Wiles asked.
‘No, I didn’t. Could it have a bearing?’
‘I should think so, wouldn’t you? Somewhere along the line.’
Wiles speculated on possible schemes and plans but they were all guesses. Lorimer asked him to keep on digging, to see if he could find out any more about this Ray Von TL company – it seemed their only lead. Even then, as Wiles reminded him, it might be perfectly legitimate: there were many offshore investors in British companies.
After he hung up Lorimer thought for a while, hard, and with ever-mounting alarm. One of Hogg’s regular maxims nagged away at the edge of his brain – ‘we set a sprat to catch a rhino’ – for the first time in his life he thought it made some kind of perverse sense. He rephrased it along classic Hoggian lines: in difficult times a fool is more use than a wise man.
He found a black tie at the back of a drawer and put it on – it certainly suited his mood. From a position of steady normality – steady job, steady prospects, steady girlfriend – he now found himself adrift in uncertainty and chaos: no job, no car, no girlfriend, insolvent, fatherless, sleepless, loveless… Not the ideal set of circumstances to find oneself in, he reflected, given that he was about to go to a funeral at a crematorium.
He walked down Lupus Crescent, wondering whether his bank card would still work, and was beckoned over by Marlobe. He had a copious stock of lilies in today and even in the dull, chilly, wintry air their perfume was cloying and almost nauseating, Lorimer thought, making his sinuses tickle and catching at his throat. Lilies that fester… How did the line go? Lilies, daffs, tulips, the omnipresent carnations. He bought a bunch of pale mauve tulips for his father’s grave.
‘Off to a funeral then?’ Marlobe observed cheerily, pointing at his black tie.
‘Yes, my father’s.’
‘Oh yeah? Commiserations. Is it burning or under the ground?’
‘Cremation.’
‘That’s what I want. Burnt to a crisp. Then have my ashes scattered.’
‘Over the carnation fields of the Zuider Zee?’
‘Come again?’
‘Nothing.’
‘Talking about fire…’ Marlobe leaned forward, pushing his pale gingery face close to Lorimer’s. ‘Did you see what happened over at ShoppaSava? Burnt out. They might even demolish the place.’
‘Shame. It was a good supermarket.’ Fire, Lorimer thought suddenly, occupied a prominent place in his life. Who was the god of fire? Prometheus? His life recently seemed to be dogged by some malicious Prometheus, showing him his power in all its protean forms.
‘It’s an ill f*cking wind…’ Marlobe said doomily, like some demotic sage, then grinned, showing his fine teeth. ‘Won’t be selling any more flowers, though, eh? Ha-ha. Eh? Eh?’
As Lorimer walked away he began thinking about the fire: no, surely, not even Marlobe was that ruthless – to destroy an entire supermarket? Surely not? He sighed loudly in the street. But then he resolved that nothing was going to surprise him any more, not after the events of recent weeks, all anticipations had been well and truly disturbed, his mind would be forever open, always a door ajar to the most outlandish possibility. He slipped his card in the machine and, gratifyingly, it poked out a crisp tongue of new notes.
396. Prometheus and Pandora. Prometheus, a titan and a demiurge, also known as ‘the great trickster’, and a culture-hero. Bringer of fire to earth and man. Stealer of fire from Zeus. Prometheus, firestealer, firebringer.
Zeus, determined to counterbalance this beneficence, created a woman, Pandora, endowing her with fabulous beauty and instinctive cunning, and sent her to earth with ajar containing all manner of miseries and evils. Pandora duly lifted the lid from the jar and all these torments flew out to punish and distress mankind forever. So, Prometheus brings the blessing of fire, and Zeus sends Pandora with her malign jar. There is too much of Prometheus and Pandora in my life at the moment. But lam consoled by the coda to the legend. Hope was in Pandora’s jar, but Pandora closed the lid before Hope could escape. But Hope lurks somewhere, she must have squeezed out of Pandora’s jar by now. Prometheus and Pandora, my kind of gods.
The Book of Transfiguration
Once through the gates and away from the the traffic, Putney Vale Crematorium did not resemble, Lorimer saw, all crematoria everywhere. He had assumed that some time in the 1960s one firm of architects had been given the sole contract for the nation. There was no spacious, neatly mown park, no carefully positioned conifers and larches, shrubberies and flower beds, no low brick buildings or featureless waiting rooms with their dusty arrangements of artificial flowers.
Instead, Putney Vale was a gigantic, scruffy, over-populated graveyard, set behind a superstore, dotted with clumps of trees with a dark avenue of shaggy yews leading to a dinky Victorian Gothic church, converted somehow to take the crematorium’s furnace. Despite its idiosyncratic appearance the same mood always seemed to accrue around these places – regret, sorrow, dread, all the soul-sapping mementi mori – except Putney Vale had them loudly amplified: the acres of the encroaching necropolis, the bottle-green unpruned lugubrious yews seeming almost to suck in light out of the air like black holes (trees of death. Why did they plant the wretched things? Why not something prettier?) – all adding up to this atmosphere of municipal melancholia, of standardized, clock-watching obsequies.
But as if to prove him wrong he sensed at once, as he stepped out of his taxi, that his family were in jovial and buoyant mood. As he approached the church he heard a blare of laughter rise above the hum of animated chat. Groups of B and B drivers were gathered on the lawn outside having a smoke, their cigarettes held respectfully out of sight, in cupped hands behind their backs, keeping their distance from the central knot of Blo?j family members. He saw Trevor one-five, Mohammed, Dave, Winston, Trevor two-nine and some others he did not recognize. They greeted him boisterously. ‘Milo! Hi, Milo! Looking good, Milo!’
His family was gathered before the arched doors waiting for their turn: his grandmother and mother, Slobodan, Monika, Komelia, Drava and little Mercedes – all looking smarter than normal in new clothes he had not seen before, hair coiffed and combed, make-up prominent. Slobodan was wearing an orange tie and had reduced his ponytail to a sober bun, and Mercy ran up to show him her new shoes agleam with many silver buckles.
Slobodan actually embraced him, in new head-of-the-family mode, Lorimer assumed, slapped him on the back and squeezed his shoulders repeatedly.
‘Phil’s on the box,’ Slobodan said. ‘Just got a skeleton crew on. Dad wouldn’t want us to shut down completely.’
‘I’m sure he wouldn’t.’
‘Everything all right, Milo?’ Monika asked. ‘You look a bit tired.’
‘I am. And I find these places incredibly depressing.’
‘Hark at him,’ Monika said huffily, as if he were somehow lowering the tone. He turned away and kissed his other sisters, his mother, his grandmother.
‘I miss him, Milo,’ his mother said briskly, clear-eyed. ‘Even though he never say a word for ten years. I miss him about the house.’
‘We have saying in Transnistria,’ his grandmother chipped in. ‘We say, “A cat may have nine lives and a man may make nine mistakes.” I don’t think Bogdan he even make one mistake.’
What an appalling saying, Lorimer thought, instantly computing the big mistakes in his life. Nine? Why only nine? And after the ninth mistake, then what? Death, like a cat? And how did you define the error or misconception or blunder or slip-up that tipped over into mistake-category? He was still pondering this piece of unsettling Transnistrian lore when a man in a dark suit announced that their time had come and they filed into the chapel.
At once Lorimer realized he had left his tulips in the taxi that had brought him here and the thought depressed him unduly. He had not been concentrating on his father’s funeral. He had been thinking about himself and his endlessly mounting problems. Perhaps that was mistake number nine? Get a grip, he told himself sternly – this was irrational, panicky stuff.
A young priest who clearly knew nothing about Bogdan Blo?j conducted the service and uttered a few weary platitudes. Everyone bowed their heads as the curtains slowly met to obscure the casket – everyone except Lorimer, who kept his eyes fixed on the pale oak hexagon as long as he could. An organist struck up a busy fugue and Lorimer strained his ears to catch the whirr of machinery, of belts moving, of doors opening and closing, of flames igniting.
They filed sheepishly out into the chill of the overcast afternoon, where there followed the ritual lighting of the cigarettes. For the first time the full carnival spirit seemed to have left the mourners and they talked in lower voices, scrutinizing the rows of cellophane-wrapped bouquets with scientific intensity as if they might contain rare species, exotic hybrids, newly discovered orchids.
To Lorimer’s intense consternation the mobile phone in his breast pocket began to chirrup like a hungry fledgling. Everyone looked round at him, impressed, as if to say, see, even here Milo has to be on call, as if he were a surgeon waiting for a vital organ to transplant. He fumbled to remove the phone and walked off some distance to answer it, hearing Trevor one-five’s admiring comment: ‘Look at him, never stops, amazing.’
‘Hello?’
‘Black?’ It was Hogg.
‘Yes?’
‘Get your arse down to the junction of Pall Mall and St James’s. Six o’clock this evening. Good news.’
‘What’s this all about?’
‘Be there.’
He rung off and Lorimer thought: this is most confusing, these are complexities beyond complexities. Hogg just assumed he would be there, he realized, that he would still jump to his command. For a moment he pondered an act of defiance – and decided against it. It was too hard to resist, and Hogg knew he would come, knew in his bones. There was too much shared history for him to refuse – and it was too soon. And Hogg had not merely issued an order: ‘good news’, he had said, that was the lure, that was the invitation, and this was as close to mollifying as Hogg would ever become. Of course what was ‘good news’ to George Hogg wouldn’t necessarily be perceived as such by anyone else. Lorimer sighed: he sensed again his impotence and ignorance, the bystander who can only see glimpses of the race and cannot tell who’s winning or who’s being lapped; he felt the buffeting, burly power of forces he did not comprehend or welcome, pushing at and shaping his destiny.
The front door of number II, Lupus Crescent was open, much to Lorimer’s surprise, and in the hall stood a lanky, red-eyed, sniffing Rastafarian whom Lorimer recognized as Nigel, Lady Haigh’s mulch – and compost-supplier.
He was about to ask him what the trouble was when the door of Lady Haigh’s flat opened and two undertakers appeared, manoeuvring a low gurney upon which lay a thick, rubberized zip-up plastic bag. With sad, professional smiles they swiftly trundled their burden out of the front door.
‘Jesus Christ,’ Lorimer said. ‘Lady Haigh.’
‘She wouldn’t answer the bell,’ Nigel said. ‘So I went round the back, through a friend’s house, nipped over the fence and saw her lying on the kitchen floor. I broke in, there was a phone number by the phone, and I called this gentleman.’ His voice was level but tears shimmered pinkly in his eyes and he sniffed again.
Lorimer turned to see he was referring to a harassed-looking, balding man in his fifties coming through the door, a tuft of his fine thinning hair standing straight up, filaments waving to and fro as he moved. He sensed Lorimer’s gaze upon it so he stopped wiping his hands on a handkerchief and palmed his hair flat across his pate.
Lorimer introduced himself.
‘What a terrible shock,’ Lorimer said, with absolute sincerity. ‘I live upstairs. I’ve just come from my father’s funeral. I can’t believe it.’
The harassed man seemed not to want to hear any more depressing statements from Lorimer and looked anxiously at his watch.
‘I’m Godfrey Durrell,’ he said. ‘Cecilia’s nephew.’
Cecilia? This was news – and a nephew as well. He felt sad that Lady Haigh had died but also he remembered how she longed for this release. A drip of guilt began to intrude on his shock and upset: how long had it been since he had last seen her, or given a thought to her welfare? It had been the dog food conversation, which was – when? Hours, days or weeks ago? His life seemed currently to be defying the segmented orders of diurnal time, hours lasting days, days compressed into minutes. He thought suddenly of Jupiter’s untypical solitary bark on – good God – Sunday night and wondered if it were as close as he could come to a pealing howl over his dead mistress’s body…
‘I’m glad you’re here,’ Durrell said. ‘I’ve got to get back.’
‘Where?’ Lorimer felt he had a right to know.
‘I’m a radiologist at the Demarco-Westminster Clinic. I’ve got a waiting room full of patients.’ He re-entered the flat and emerged moments later in a semi-crouch, his left hand gripping the generous scruff of Jupiter’s neck.
‘I believe he’s yours now,’ he said. ‘There are about a dozen notes taped up around the house saying he’s to be delivered to you, in the event, etcetera.’
‘Yes. I did promise –’
He was locking the door. ‘I’ll be back whenever I can,’ he said, opening his wallet and handing Lorimer his card. He shook Nigel’s hand, thanked him and, with a nervous smoothing gesture at his hair, quickly left.
Jupiter sat down slowly at Lorimer’s feet, his tongue lolling thirstily. He probably needs a drink, Lorimer thought, all those hours of waiting.
‘I was worried about the dog,’ Nigel said. ‘I’m glad you’re taking him.’
‘He’s a nice old dog,’ Lorimer said, stooping to give him a possessive pat. ‘Poor old Lady Haigh.’
‘She was a great lady, Cecilia,’ Nigel said with feeling.
‘Did you call her Cecilia?’ Lorimer asked, thinking about his own diffidence, feeling obscurely jealous that Nigel should have been so familiar, so easily
‘Sure. I used to sing that song at her, you know: “Cecilia, you’re breaking my heart, you’re shaking my confidence daily”.’ Nigel’s rasping baritone carried the tune well. ‘She used to laugh.’
‘Fine old lady.’
‘But she was tired waiting. She wanted to die, man.’
‘Don’t we all.’
Nigel laughed and raised his hand. Unthinkingly Lorimer gripped it, shoulder-high, thumbs interlocking, like two centurions taking their leave at the frontiers of some distant province, far from Rome.
‘It gets to you, man,’ Nigel said, shaking his head. ‘Go to pay a visit and find a dead body.’
‘I know exactly what you mean,’ Lorimer said.
‘Come on Jupiter,’ Lorimer said, after Nigel had sauntered off, and walked upstairs with the old dog obediently following. He gave him a bowl of water and he lapped noisily and splashily at it, heavy drops sprinkling the carpet, so Lorimer fetched a newspaper and put it under the bowl. Life with Jupiter: lesson one. He probably needed food, a walk, a shit… He looked at his watch – ten past five. No, he’d better keep this appointment, he did not want to incur the wrath of Hogg any further. Two deaths in as many days: this was adding new and unknown stresses and strains, life was bearing down on him hard, disturbing all anticipations.
213. The Television Set. You still don’t remember what they were watching on the television, you heard only the noise of its imbecile chatter, even louder when the cheering subsided as you strode naked into the middle of the common room. Then the whistles and hoots began, screams and gasps, fingers were pointed towards your groin area. And you were shouting yourself, gripped by your rage, your burning, consuming fury, screaming for silence, for some respect, for tolerance of others’ needs and reasonable demands.
So you seized the television set from its tall plinth and effortlessly, it seemed, raised it above your head before dashing it to the ground and turning to those hundred pairs of eyes and yelling – what? The room went quiet and turned red, green, yellow, grey and red again and people were falling on you, some glancing blows were struck as you hit out, defending yourself, but soon you were on the ground, someone’s jacket wrapped around your middle, your nose full of the reek of burning dust and scorched plastic from the shattered machine, hearing one word which managed to find a way through to your multicoloured, suffering cortex – ‘Police,’ ‘Police,’ ‘Police’.
You did the right thing. The only thing. You were right to leave, leave the college, leave Joyce McKimmie (where are they now? Shy Joyce and little Zane?), you were right never to go back to the house at Croy, even though there was murder in your heart and you wished to see Sinbad Fingleton just one more time and visit significant harm upon him.
No one should be asked to live with that kind of shame and humiliation, that kind of hellish notoriety, especially not you. You were right to go south and ask your father to find you the safest and most ordinary of jobs. You were right to leave the shame and the humiliation to Milomre Blocj and to start afresh with Lorimer Black.
The Book of Transfiguration