Chapter FIVE
Big Red
After sleeping around for the better part of my twenties, it somehow occurred to me that I wasn’t giving everyone a fair shot. There
were men I’d encounter who I wouldn’t think twice about having sex with based on their appearance alone. I knew that if I ever had a
chance at becoming a respectable ambassador for countries such as Uganda, Kazakhstan, or the Tropic of Cancer, I would really have to
be more of an egalitarian. I had slept with a handful of black boys in my late teens, and knew that I would have to open my borders
even further in order to be taken seriously by any third-world government. It was time for a redhead.
Along with the 97 percent of women who can see, I have never been a fan of redheaded men. First of all, I am unclear as to why they are
called redheads when, for the most part, their hair is bright orange. Obviously, bright orange–head doesn’t roll off the tongue the
same way, but in all honesty, it should either be “orange-head” or “Hawaiian Punch–head.”
For a woman, being a redhead is a completely acceptable trait. Oftentimes it can be extremely attractive. Conversely, being a redheaded
man is pretty much a lose-lose situation. It’s incredibly hard to take redheaded men seriously, never mind think of them in any sort
of sexual capacity. Obviously, it’s not their fault that they were born with red hair. However, it is their responsibility to change
that hair color once they have access to a convenience store or supermarket. It’s one thing to have a harelip, or even a leg that’s a
couple of inches shorter than the other, but if you’re a man with red hair and don’t opt to do everything in your power to alter
that, then obviously you’re not serious about experiencing all life has to offer.
My theory on the redheaded race is that they have no positive role models paving the way for them. It’s not like Ronald McDonald or
Carrot Top have really helped their cause. Who are they supposed to model themselves after? Danny Bonaduce?
I did not set out to find a redhead; I was fortunate enough to have one come my way. My manager, Dave, had called to tell me a
screenwriter he knew was coming to see me do stand-up. He was interested in basing a character on me in his new film. My manager didn’
t mention that this guy had red hair, which I think would be a fairly reasonable thing to mention, especially if his hair took up more
square footage than a Mini Cooper.
His name was Austin, and he introduced himself to me after I performed at a bar on Sunset that has since changed names four times over.
Austin was about six-two with a completely beautiful body. He was really muscular—and not in a ripped, infomercial kind of way. He was
built, but softer. I liked his body instantly. His head was a completely different story. “How,” I wanted to ask, “could you think
that a bright orange Afro was acceptable?” It looked like he had gone bobbing for apples in a barrel filled with Fanta orange soda.
Despite his appearance, he was seemingly coherent as we made introductions and then took a seat at the bar. I kept waiting for him to
stutter or have a bout of Tourette’s—something to back up his decision to leave the house in what could have very well been a clown’
s wig. But there were no such symptoms. He was perfectly normal, bright, and chivalrous. He pulled out a bar stool for me, asked me
what I wanted to drink, and ordered.
He was cute in a way. And the more I talked to him, the more I found him attractive for having enough confidence to walk around with a
lid like that.
Now don’t get me wrong, I have some very serious shortcomings of my own. I know that I have a tendency to drink heavily at night. I
know that my body, specifically my midsection, has trouble staying where I put it, and I also know that I am pretty much useless when
it comes to TiVo or anything involving road maps. I’ve learned that on both of those fronts, it’s just better not to get involved.
But most important, I know that I don’t want anyone to ever look at me and think, What the f*ck happened to her hair?
Austin and I proceeded to knock back a couple of Ketel One and grapefruit juices, which happened to be my drink of the moment. Someone
told me that grapefruit was a great detoxifier and I decided I wanted to start cleaning out my liver while I was having a cocktail. I
liked that Austin didn’t just order a beer of some sort, or, God forbid, wine. There’s nothing more annoying than a man ordering wine
at a bar when you’re not eating.
Doesn’t everybody know that wine is supposed to go with food? I’ve never in my life finished a long day of work and thought, Gee
whiz, I can’t wait to get my hands on a bottle of lukewarm Cabernet. I have a bunch of girlfriends who love wine and I’ve never
really been able to relate. I mean, yeah, maybe if you’re stranded on an island and the only other option is coconut milk. Or if it’s
a really nice bottle of wine and you’re having a really nice meal. Other than that, I don’t see the point. I’d rather have water.
And by the way, I’m not a huge fan of water, either.
After our third drink I learned that Big Red knew people from my high school. That was certainly a red flag, considering I didn’t
remember having any actual friends in high school. I had a couple of girlfriends, but no one who I thought would have anything positive
to say about me. I didn’t really spend much time with anyone my own age during high school because I believed my true calling would be
representing New Jersey in the U.S. Senate, and if that didn’t work out, I could always fall back on becoming an Olympic pole vaulter.
I thought I was completely too cool for my classmates, and couldn’t comprehend how they could hang out at malls on the weekend. I much
preferred spending romantic weekends in Hoboken with my twenty-one-year-old accountant boyfriend who would wine and dine me at T.G.I.
Fridays. I had no involvement with any extracurricular activities at school, mostly because the one time I tried out for cheerleading I
was summoned to the nurse’s office the next morning to be tested for scoliosis.
Sometime after our fourth Ketel One and grapefruit, he mentioned that he was going after Shannen Doherty to play the lead in his movie
and was finding her extremely difficult to deal with. “Yeah, no kidding,” I told him. “Everyone knows that.”
By the way he reacted, you would have thought I told him that slavery never happened. He laid into me with the same gusto as a right-
wing political pundit on the O’Reilly Factor defending President’s Bush right to vacation six days out of the week.
His insane passion for a person who not only starred in a television show about witchcraft but also worked at a place called The Peach
Pit intrigued me to no end. I love people who have such passion for complete nonsense. When I told him that most people are well aware
of the fact that she’s difficult to work with, he launched into a promotional campaign with a fervor I hadn’t seen since Anna Nicole
Smith signed with TrimSpa.
According to Big Red, Shannen had been through a very traumatic childhood, beginning with a role on Little House on the Prairie, then
moving on to that other show with Wilford Brimley. The Little House on the Prairie part I totally understood; if I had to go without
TCBY or Donkey Kong Jr. when I was a child, things would have probably ended up a lot differently for me. Who knows what kind of long-
term effects milking an animal while wearing pigtails can have on a little girl. But Wilford Brimley? How anyone could have anything
negative to say about Wilford Brimley was borderline preposterous.
“All right, now you’ve crossed a line,” I told him.
After two more cocktails I called Home James, a drunk-driving service that sends someone over to where your car is located, with a
scooter that folds up into your trunk. They drive you home, take their scooter out, and then hightail it back to headquarters. It’s
not cheap, but it’s definitely a great way of avoiding Jack in the Box. They charge you extra to stop for fast food.
Just as I got into bed, my cell phone rang and it was Austin. He asked me if I had gotten home okay and then asked me if I thought we’
d ever have sex. “Wow, that’s pretty straightforward. I like your style,” I said. “But I doubt it…. I’m kind of seeing someone,”
I told him. Saying I was seeing someone wasn’t a complete lie, since I was kind of casually sleeping with a guy named Darryl who lived
in my apartment building—but it wasn’t anything I would have mentioned had Austin had a more reasonable hair color.
“Kind of seeing someone, or seeing someone?” he asked.
I have to admit I was turned on by his drunken confidence, which I knew was drunken because it hadn’t been there until he went on his
Shannen Doherty tirade. “Well, kind of,” I replied.
“Okay, well, I’ll call you tomorrow and see if you change your mind.”
“Tootles.” I hung up and wondered why I would say something so stupid when I clearly had the upper hand. It was so like me to be
sitting at a poker table, holding a royal flush, only to have another player at the table catch me high-fiving myself.
I woke up the next morning and stared at my ceiling, wondering why Excedrin couldn’t just walk out of my bathroom cabinet, hop onto my
bed, and triple-axle its way into my mouth. Then my thoughts turned to Big Red. There was something about the way he helped the guy
from Home James fold up his scooter and pop it into my trunk that was very endearing. Then my thoughts moved north to his hair, and my
body shuddered. If only it wasn’t so bright.
My manager, Dave, called me later that morning to see if Big Red had come to my show.
“Yes,” I replied.
“And?” Dave asked.
“And what?” I asked.
“Well, did you discuss the movie at all?” he asked me.
“No, Dave, as a matter of fact, we didn’t. And you could have mentioned his hair.”
“I think he’s pretty cool,” he responded. “He actually just wrote a movie for a client of mine and he’s a real stand-up guy. He’s
the type of guy I would like to see you end up with.”
“Really?” I asked. “He’s the type of guy you’d like me to end up with? An orange-head?”
“He’s really smart, Chelsea. I think he went to Stanford,” Dave said.
This statement turned me on the most because I was definitely at a place in my life where brains were starting to matter. There are
only so many conversations you can have about NASCAR and female mud wrestling before your mind starts playing tricks on you.
“Well, who knows if he’ll even ask me out?” I said coyly.
“Chels, I got another call,” he said. “Is there anything else?”
Not exactly the response I was looking for.
“Thanks for nothing,” I said, and hung up.
I wondered how long I would have to wait for Big Red to call me.
I rolled over and picked an Us Weekly magazine off the floor. The cover had a picture of Angelina, Brad, and their little Eskimo son,
Maddox. I sat staring at the photo, wondering why this little guy looks so pissed off in every picture.
At first I thought he was just pissed about his mohawk, but then I realized he’s probably furious. Maddox must have thought he hit the
jackpot when some A-list celebrity rescued him from third-world Cambodia, only to discover that she was going to shuffle him back and
forth to every other third-world country in the universe. He’s probably like, “When the f*ck are we gonna get to Malibu, bitch?”
My phone rang and I jumped out of my chair with an alacrity my body hadn’t seen since a tetherball class I had taken in the fall of ’
94. Unfortunately, the number that came up was Darryl’s, the guy I happened to be sleeping with who lived down the hall. He was going
away for a few weeks to shoot a movie with Hulk Hogan, and was calling to ask if I would pet-sit his goldfish while he was away.
“You mean you’re not bringing him with you?” I asked.
“It’s actually a girl,” he said.
“Oh. Yeah, I guess I can watch her.”
He hung up, came over, dropped off a key, and told me where the fish food was. Why anyone without children would have a fish was beyond
me, but what’s even more alarming was that Darryl’s fish’s name was Maude. I had learned this information once before, but somehow
had managed to block it out.
Then he asked me if I wanted to come over and play Ms. Pac-Man. He had one of the real arcade versions in his apartment.
“Sure,” I said. “Maybe we can use this opportunity for Maude to really get comfortable with me,” I told him. I knew Ms. Pac-Man was
code for getting naked in the middle of the afternoon, but the only thing on my calendar that day was an appointment with a palm
reader, which wasn’t until 5 p.m.
Darryl and I had a blast together. We’d have crazy rabbitlike make-out sessions, and then I’d make fun of him for his receding
hairline. Darryl was the epitome of a Hollywood actor—he had been in a ton of B-movies and was absolutely, madly in love with himself.
It was fine, because he knew he was ridiculous, and we would actually have a lot of laughs making fun of him together. He would stand
naked and recite monologues to me, all the while asking me to confirm his suspicion that he was one of the most underrated actors
working. I would tell him again and again that if he would just consider getting hair plugs, he would get the recognition he deserved.
Two days later in Darryl’s apartment, while feeding Maude, my cell phone rang and it was Big Red.
We chitchatted for a minute or two before he asked me if I was happy to hear from him.
“I guess,” I responded dryly, not really sure how one responded to that line of questioning.
“Try to contain your excitement,” he replied. “It’s a little overwhelming.”
“I’m sorry, I’m fish-sitting and the fish doesn’t look good. She’s upside down and not moving. Is that how they sleep?”
“Does it plug into an outlet, or is it battery operated?” he asked.
“The fish?” I asked.
“Yes,” he responded.
“I would assume it’s battery operated since I don’t see a plug, which, by the way, would be really dangerous, considering it lives
in water.”
“Good observation. Sounds to me like she’s dead.”
“Oh, that’s just perfect,” I said. “I’ve only been fish-sitting for two days, and I already killed her?”
“What kind of fish is it?” he asked.
“I don’t know. The orange kind.”
“A goldfish?”
“Yeah, that’s it. It’s a goldfish.”
“Well, just go get another one. They all look the same.”
“How much is that going to run me?”
“I think they’re like a dollar,” he said.
“That’s a little more than I wanted to spend.”
“So, anyway,” he said, changing the subject. “I decided I want to take you to dinner.”
“Oh, really?”
“Yep; I’ll pick you up tomorrow night around seven.” This turned me on immensely, and at the same time sounded to me like false
arrogance. Like a guy who was trying really hard to pretend he wasn’t insecure. I didn’t let that overshadow my decision because
either way, I love a man who takes charge. But I also didn’t want to seem too eager.
“How do you know I’m available for dinner?” I asked. “I’m a very busy girl.”
“Are you busy?”
“Not really.”
“Good, see you tomorrow,” he said, and then he hung up on me.
Whether it was organic or forced, I was extremely attracted to Big Red’s take-no-prisoners approach. My mind quickly raced toward the
future and I wondered what it would be like to have redheaded children. I had the same fears interracial couples must have when
deciding what society’s effects might be on a child of mixed race. Would they be discriminated against because of their hair color?
Never mind the cluster of freckles that would accompany that color of hair and the incessant teasing they would have to endure, being
compared to Connect the Dots or, God forbid, Lindsay Lohan.
I looked down at Maude again and decided to leave her in her bowl until I found a replacement for her. I thought it would be in
everyone’s best interest that I wait until the day before Darryl was supposed to return to buy a new fish. That would leave a very
small window for me to commit another homicide.
I was very much looking forward to my date with Big Red, but also scared that when I saw him sober I might not be attracted to him.
Obviously I would need to drink heavily before my pickup time.
Three weeks and about eight dates later, Big Red and I decided it was time for penetration. I was very surprised to find myself
becoming more wildly attracted to him every time I saw him. Each date we went on, his hair became less and less of a focal point.
I didn’t intend on waiting a certain amount of time to sleep with him, but since he knew my manager, and since I was technically
sleeping with Darryl, who was still away shooting his movie, I decided to behave somewhat respectably. Obviously a threesome would be
out.
What I was completely astounded by was the fact that Austin was packing some serious heat. Not only did he have a huge penis, but he
was great in bed, and another added bonus: He had extremely sensitive nipples. I had never met a man with such sensitive nipples
before, and took enormous delight in the fact that the minute I touched one, he would climax. I wanted to thank the person responsible
for inventing the nipple and applaud them for creating such a great addition to the human form. Who knew nipples could be so much fun?
With that knowledge in hand, sex never lasted a second longer than I wanted, and I considered this to be the jackpot of all jackpots.
The part that wasn’t a jackpot was his baseball mound of red pubic hair that looked like it had literally been attached with a glue
gun. I couldn’t believe how much there was, and wondered how he had never heard of scissors, or—more appropriate for that kind of
growth—hedge trimmers. I didn’t understand what porn he was watching to not be aware of the trimming that was happening all across
the world among his compatriots. I’m not a finicky person when it comes to pubic hair maintenance and I certainly don’t expect men to
shave it all off, leaving themselves looking like a hairless cat. That’s even creepier than seeing what Austin had, which could really
only be compared to one thing: a clown in a leg lock.
Obviously, at night it was much less offensive because I couldn’t see the seriousness of the situation, but in the daylight, between
the boldness of color and the length, I was quite taken aback.
Even though Big Red would vacillate between being shy and overconfident, in many ways he was growing on me. One minute he would say
something like, “I can’t believe you’re even dating someone like me,” and the next minute he would tell me he had plans for the
weekend and wasn’t sure if he could squeeze me in. I told myself that maybe he was trying to play it cool in order to land the
account, and I found him even more charming. I even considered cutting Darryl out of the picture if things kept on going with Red, but
I didn’t want to make any hasty decisions.
I hadn’t seen Darryl in a few weeks, but knew that once he came back, we’d be back to our same story. It was an affair built on
convenience, and neither of us ever pretended that it would lead to anything of significance. We both knew that if someone else came
along we would go our separate ways with no hard feelings. Our relationship was the equivalent of a reach-around: It felt good in the
moment, but once it ended, it would be easily forgotten.
My aunt Gerdy called and asked me to bring the redhead over for dinner. Gerdy and her husband, Dan, are both huge boozers, and happen
to hate each other. Somehow during their twenty-five year union they managed to have nine children and buy a house in Bel-Air. They
have three dogs, seven birds, several fish, a hamster, a gerbil, and no cleaning lady. Their house is not dissimilar to a zoo, but with
more animals and no one to clean up after them.
Once when I was babysitting for my manager’s son, Luke, he wanted me take him to the Los Angeles Zoo for the day, which ended being
the worst idea ever, mostly because the Los Angeles Zoo is the lamest zoo in America. First of all, they have no animals. From what I
can remember they had maybe half of a giraffe and a mosquito. After the zoo Luke was still asking to see animals, so I took him to Red
Lobster and told him that we were at an aquarium and to stare at the tank. When that didn’t work, I brought him to my aunt’s house,
which kept him occupied for four hours. To this day, he still thinks her house is the real zoo.
Gerdy’s a great cook, a great mother, and a great aunt, but as far as sharing information with her that you wouldn’t ever want
repeated, you’re better off confiding in Linda Tripp.
I didn’t know if it was such a good idea to bring Red over because my aunt can be a total bitch, but I did think it would be a good
opportunity to score a fish, since Darryl was coming home the next week. I warned Austin about my family and told him he shouldn’t
feel at all like he had to go, but he said he’d love to.
The thing about my aunt is that she only spills her guts when she’s drinking. I always convince myself that if I tell her something
while she’s sober, she might not remember it when she’s drinking. But I have learned the hard way that the opposite is actually true:
She gets drunk, somehow manages to paraphrase my words exactly, and then promptly forgets everything she said the next morning when you
confront her. In addition to that, she frequently orders things online in her state of inebriation, which would be fine except that one
morning, a small black boy from Angola arrived at their front door holding a case of Viagra.
My uncle Dan has problems of his own. He has never made a drink or cooked a meal for himself, and I’m convinced that the only reason
they continued to spawn children was in order to have a twenty-four hour bartender. Every single morning, Dan wakes up, walks outside
in his bathrobe to get his paper, and then plops himself on his toilet to read it while taking a shadoobie. And every morning while he
’s doing this, his parrot, Henry, mimics the phone ringing. This has been going on for close to ten years, and without fail, each
morning my uncle gets up off the toilet with his boxers around his ankles to answer the phone, only to realize it was the bird.
“Goddammit, Henry!” he screams day after day. “Goddamn birds!”
Inside a half hour of meeting Big Red, Aunt Gerdy pulled me aside and reminded me that I hadn’t been sure whether or not to go out
with him based on his hair color, and that, initially, she had thought I was overreacting. However, upon meeting him, she completely
understood my dilemma. This assessment would have been fine had she not walked right outside to the table where Red was sitting with
all nine children and my uncle and said, “Jesus, Austin. Chelsea wasn’t sure about you in the beginning because you’re a redhead,
which we all thought was so ridiculous, but now seeing it in the broad daylight, I totally understand where she was coming from. Do you
put something in it to make it that bright?”
“Oh, goddammit, Gerdy,” my uncle said. “Go back inside and have another drink.”
I don’t remember much more of that of that night, because immediately following my aunt’s little speech, I headed straight for the
wet bar, where I did three shots of Jose Cuervo straight from the bottle. I know it was exactly three because in my head I counted
three solid beats while the bottle was lifted to my beak. I also remember grabbing a snifter from behind the bar, walking over to my
family’s fish tank, and scooping out the first goldfish I could get a hold of.
I walked into the kitchen and found my aunt emptying an entire brick of cream cheese into the pasta she was cooking. “That’s nice,”
I said. “Thanks for being so nice to Austin. I’m sure he’ll look back at this evening as one of the best nights of his life,” I
said, holding the fish in the snifter. “I’m taking a fish.”
Gerdy walked over to a drawer, pulled out a Ziploc bag, and handed it to me. “You might want to put it in this. And don’t let the
kids see. I think that may be a new one.”
I took the Ziploc bag and slipped it over the top of my snifter, sealing it around the stem of the glass. I looked up and saw Gerdy
shaking her head.
I walked outside and put the fish in the cup holder of my car.
The rest of the night was cloudy, but luckily my aunt passed out shortly after she served dinner, and my uncle took that opportunity to
perform his daily ritual of apologizing up and down for my aunt’s behavior. Austin didn’t seem too bothered, and he and my uncle got
into an hour-long conversation about golf.
Austin wasn’t being overly affectionate with me, but come to think of it, he really never had been. Then he made a comment about my
nine-year-old cousin that I felt was completely inappropriate. My cousin Rudy is a little hyper. We’re all pretty sure my aunt drank
during his entire pregnancy because she drank through all of her pregnancies, and for the most part all the kids turned out okay.
Physically, anyway. Rudy’s eyes are a little uneven, and one isn’t always looking in the same direction as the other, but I didn’t
think that was grounds to ask Gerdy if he had Down syndrome. Cerebral palsy maybe, but Down syndrome was just flat-out uncalled for.
I apologized for my aunt’s behavior and admitted that, even though I was a little shocked by his amber waves of grain when I met him,
his hair had really started to grow on me. We didn’t have much to say to each other on the way home, mostly because I was trying to
balance the Ziplocked snifter glass in order to avoid having the new fish jump ship. When we got home, we jumped into bed and both
passed out before anything could happen.
In the morning, I woke up to see him getting dressed, and shut my eyes to avoid catching a glimpse of his pitcher’s mound. When I
thought it was safe to open them I did, and there was definitely some awkwardness. He kissed me good-bye and told me he’d call me. I
looked over at the snifter on my nightstand and couldn’t help thinking that the fish and Austin had the same exact hair color.
I got dressed and took the new fish, which I secretly decided to name Lawrence, over to Darryl’s apartment. When I got to his place,
there was a slight problem. I realized that Maude was about three shades lighter than Lawrence and about two inches shorter, which, for
a goldfish, is pretty extreme. I thought that if I sullied the water a little more, the murky hue could potentially discolor Lawrence,
and maybe his skin tone wouldn’t be so bright. Since I was not exactly sure how to soil fish water, my thoughts moved to disposing of
Maude. I took a tablespoon out of Darryl’s kitchen drawer and used it to transport Maude from the fishbowl straight into the toilet,
where I promptly flushed her. I went back to my apartment, changed into a leotard, and decided to watch a workout video. I always make
it a personal rule to get familiar with the tape before I actually join in. This would be my fifth viewing in the span of a month, and
I was almost ready to participate.
Five days later, I still hadn’t heard from Austin. I called my uncle and he told me that I was better off without Red.
“Why?” I asked.
“Well, he doesn’t really seem to have much of a personality. I said hello, and the guy was stumped for an answer.”
“What are you talking about?” I asked him. “You were talking to him all night.”
“Yeah, well, I was trying to be polite, but it wasn’t an easy conversation. He’s not for you. Let’s put it that way. He doesn’t
have much to say.”
“Well, you’d be quiet too if you went over to someone’s house for dinner and the host’s opener was, ‘Your hair looks stupid.’”
“Well, that couldn’t have been the first time he’s heard that, Chelsea.”
“Good-bye,” I said, and hung up. I called my friend Ivory and discussed it with her.
“I’m surprised you even care, Chelsea. It’s not like you were going to marry the guy.”
“Well, yeah, but I didn’t want to hurt his feelings. That’s just mean.”
“Well, that can’t be the first time he’s had his feelings hurt. Not with that Afro.”
“Jesus! Can’t anyone get beyond his hair?” I asked her.
“Chelsea, if you really think that’s the reason he hasn’t called, then why don’t you call him and apologize?”
“No, what if he’s trying to blow me off?”
“Maybe he is.”
“Well, I am not about to go make an appointment to get dumped.”
“Well, then shut up, and go visit Darryl.”
“I can’t. He’s on location filming a movie with Hulk Hogan.” Ivory hung up on me without saying good-bye. She seemed to be doing
that an awful lot, and I must say that I respected her for it on some level.
I felt like a loser. No one likes getting blown off, and unfortunately for me, this wasn’t my first time. I thought about calling him,
but wouldn’t even know what to say. Obviously he had no interest in talking to me. If a redhead could dump me, who knew what was next?
The next day, Darryl called and told me he was on his way home from the airport and asked if I wanted to go paintballing. “Not at all,
” I told him, “but you should see Maude. She is getting so big!”
“What? Who?” he asked, confused.
“Your fish, Maude. She’s gotten so big. I went to the fish store and found all these great vitamins to make her color more electric
and to help her burst into womanhood, and I have to tell you, it’s like they worked overnight.” I figured that any adult with a
desire to go paintballing would have no trouble believing that there were growth hormones available for goldfish.
“Wow,” he said. “That was really thoughtful of you. I didn’t even think you liked fish.”
“Well, that’s ridiculous.” I snorted. “Who doesn’t love fish? They’re so…crazy.”
Later that night, Darryl came over to my apartment with pictures of him and Hulk Hogan on the set of their movie. Darryl barely
recognized Maude when he first saw her. “She looks amazing.”
“I know. She’s so much more…upbeat,” I said. “It’s amazing what a couple of vitamins can do.” I needed to change the subject. “
So tell me about the Hulk. How long does it take for them to make his whole body so green?”
“It was Hulk Hogan, Chelsea. Not the Incredible Hulk.”
“Right. That’s what I meant.” Even though the last thing I ever thought would turn me on in the way of copulation would be a picture
of Darryl being headlocked by Hulk Hogan, I needed confirmation that I was attractive on some level, and decided to face rape him. Just
as we were rolling onto my bed and Darryl was getting ready to mount me, my doorbell rang.
I walked out of my bedroom to the front door while fixing my clothes, and opened it to find Big Red.
“Oh my God!” shot out of my mouth before I could stop myself. “Hi.” Then I said it again. “Hi.”
“Can I come in?” he asked.
“Oh, sure,” I said, without moving.
“Are you going to move, so I can come in?”
“Yes, but I have to go to the bathroom,” I said, and grabbed my vagina dramatically to look convincing. I walked back into my room as
calmly as I could and shut the door.
“Get in the closet,” I told Darryl.
“What?”
“Do it!” I whispered as loudly and as violently as I could through clenched teeth.
“Fine,” he said, and walked toward the closet, which was filled with cardboard boxes. It didn’t take long for both of us to realize
there wasn’t enough room for a car seat, never mind a full-grown human.
“Shit,” I said, looking around the room for other alternatives. “Get under the bed.”
“Oh my God.” He slid underneath the bed, grazed his forehead on the frame, and rolled his eyes at me.
“Thank you,” I said, and turned to leave the room. Austin was standing at my bedroom door when I opened it and he scared the shit out
of me. “Aaaah!” I screamed. “You scared me!”
Big Red smiled and walked over to the chair in front of my computer, turned it around to face my bed, and sat down. “You’re probably
wondering why I haven’t called,” was his opener.
I ran over to my bed, sat down, and made as many adjustments to my seated position as necessary to completely dislodge the comforter
and have it land on the floor to hide Darryl’s naked body. Once I had accomplished the task at hand, I met Austin’s quizzical gaze.
“I’m sorry, I have ringworm. Anyway, what did you want to talk about?”
“Ringworm?”
“Yup.”
“Don’t you get ringworm from dogs?” he asked. “You don’t have a dog.”
“You can also get it from fish,” I stammered.
I coughed loudly after saying this in hopes of moving the conversation forward.
After a moment, he started. “Well…I mean, I really like you, Chelsea. I think you’re really fun, and you’re smart, and you’re
pretty…” Normally, I would have interrupted this terrible cliché of a breakup, but I knew that as long as he was talking, it meant he
couldn’t see Darryl.
“I just have to be honest with you,” he went on. “I feel like maybe we are getting really serious in a short amount of time and I
don’t know if I feel comfortable with that. I have a lot of opportunities right now, and I don’t want to be nailed down to one woman.
”
The fact that Austin was telling me that he had other opportunities while I had another guy under my bed was ironic. It’s not like we
were in some serious committed relationship. Yes, I liked him, but he was acting like I just told him I wanted to have his orange
babies.
“What are you talking about?” I asked him.
“Well, I mean, your family was great and everything, but I don’t think I’m ready to be in that serious of a relationship.” The idea
that Red thought meeting my drunk aunt and uncle meant that we were on the brink of getting engaged was ridiculous. I understand that
meeting someone’s family usually means you’re taking the relationship to the next level, but not with my family. Obviously, if I was
serious about having a relationship with someone long-term, the last people I would introduce him to would be my family.
“Chelsea, I just think maybe you’re taking this relationship a little too seriously.”
“How many times do you think you can use the word ‘serious’?” I asked him, trying to restrain myself from standing up and
strangling him. “I think you’re being a little dramatic.”
“Well, I had a feeling you would be upset and take this badly.”
“Okay, you know what, Red? I am not upset about you breaking up with me. Well, it is kind of shocking, but the fact that you are being
so dramatic about it is quite alarming. This is hardly a serious relationship.”
“Fine,” Austin said. “Intense might be a better word. Things have gotten a little intense.” This is when I blew a gasket.
“Intense? Intense?” I yelled. “You want to talk about intense? Try dating three guys at the same time. I’m trying to remember names
and keep secrets and shit!”
I don’t know why I said “three,” when actually I had only been dating two people. I quickly invented a third person in my head to
back up my story. I decided his name would be Luther and he would work with animals. Who did Big Red think he was? And who did he think
I was? I felt like I had been doing him a favor.
He stared at me, apparently shocked by my outburst. “And by the way,” I added, “you really think highly of yourself.” I wanted to
add something about his hair, but decided to leave that to the next girl he dumped. “Please go. I have a date with a very dynamic
zookeeper that I do not want to be late for.”
Red got up and walked out of my bedroom toward the front door. Before he made it out I added one last thing: “And you might want to
think about trimming your bush!” Then I ran back into my room before he could say anything about my beaver and slammed my bedroom
door. I knelt down on the floor and lifted the comforter up as Darryl rolled out from under my bed.
“Ha ha!” Darryl sang as he crawled out. “You got dumped! I don’t know which I liked better, the rash or the zookeeper. That guy was
a moron. Could you imagine anyone being that clueless?”
I tried to keep a straight face while wondering if Big Red could ever be convinced that his pet had tripled in size over a two-week
period and had brightened its skin color by taking fish supplements. Darryl and I started laughing so hard, we were crying. The fact
that we were laughing at two different things was a perfect summation of our relationship.
“You want to hear something really funny?” I asked him in between snorts. “Maude died.”
“What?”
“Maude, your fish.” I took another deep breath in order to get the sentence out without guffawing. “She’s dead and I got that new
fish from my aunt Gerdy’s house.” Then I went into another fit of hysterics, except this time I was laughing alone.
“How could you do that and not tell me?” he asked, instantly sobering up.
“What?”
“Chelsea, I’ve had Maude for six years.”
“Well, I’m sorry. It’s not like it was intentional. I tried to revive her, but she was out like a light.”
“It’s not funny, Chelsea. This is not funny at all.” Darryl was on his feet and getting dressed.
“Oh, Jesus,” I said, now feeling like a complete a*shole. There’s nothing worse than ruining a perfectly good moment by thinking
someone else will find humor in something they absolutely do not. “I can’t believe you’re really upset about a fish.”
“It’s the principle. I trusted you to look after Maude.”
“Yeah, and obviously you made the wrong decision. You know I don’t particularly like animals, especially ones you can’t tickle.”
Darryl stormed out of the apartment while I sat on my bedroom floor, dumbfounded by the day’s events. I picked the phone up off the
floor and called Ivory.
“Big Red broke up with me.”
“Why?” she asked.
“Because he thought I was getting too serious.”
“Well, that’s absurd; you couldn’t even have sex with him during the day.”
“I know, and then Darryl stormed out because his fish died on my clock.”
“Huh?”
“I was babysitting for Darryl’s goldfish and the little hooker went belly up on me.”
“Why does Darryl have a fish?” she asked.
“Exactly my point!”
“Why didn’t you just get him a new fish?”
“I did, but it was a few shades darker and a little longer and after Big Red left, we were laughing so hard, I thought he’d think it
was funny too.”
“Why was Darryl there when Big Red dumped you?”
“He was over when Red showed up unannounced.”
“So Big Red broke up with you in front of Darryl?”
“No, a*shole. Darryl was under the bed.”
The next sound I heard was a dial tone.
This had been a day full of rejection, and frankly I was pretty sick of it. I wanted to experience unconditional love without the
hassle of getting a dog or giving birth. It was clear that this was a turning point in my life. I logged on to AOL.com and Googled
“hunger.” It was time to adopt a baby. Two, maybe, depending on how expensive they were.