A Perfect Christmas

Chapter SIXTEEN


The following Monday morning Cait studied her reflection critically in the wardrobe mirror. The navy, pin-stripe suit, with its pencil-style skirt finishing just above her calves with a kick pleat at the back, short fitted jacket and crisp white blouse underneath, all made her look much older than she was and feel very sophisticated, so she was happy that she had created the look she had set out to. She did not feel that her hairstyle did her new look justice, though, and decided to deal with that at the first opportunity.

After her shopping expedition on Friday that had extended into Saturday too, she now had three more suits and a selection of blouses for work, and three evening dresses ready for when she received invitations to the posh dos she was expecting to attend in her newfound position, especially the Christmas ones since the day itself was only three weeks away. All she needed now were shoes and handbags to complete her outfits. She had been tempted to buy those, having spotted quite a few suitable styles, but then it had struck her that as the boss of a company that produced such items, she wouldn’t be perceived as championing them by parading the competition’s wares. She hadn’t paid attention to the make of her mother’s shoes when she’d rummaged through her wardrobe, but she assumed they were all Rose’s.

A feeling of nervousness rushed through her. She was used to being instructed as to what to do, not instructing others. Then she inwardly scolded herself. What had she to be nervous about? She was the boss, the company figurehead. It was her job to make sure all the workers were earning their pay, keeping her mother’s profits coming in. That was what paid for the big house, the holiday, and all the smart clothes. There was one thing she should do before she went to Rose’s, though, and that was to sever her employment with the wholesale fruit and vegetable company. What a relief that was going to be! And there was part of her that was going to enjoy seeing their expressions when she informed them just what her new position was to be.

In the kitchen doorway Agnes Dalby did a double take when she spotted Cait make her way across the hallway into the dining room, to take her seat at the table. If she didn’t know better she would have thought Cait had an elder sister she hadn’t known about, and a very smart, sophisticated-looking young woman at that. With a fresh pot of tea in her hand, Agnes hurried after her. ‘Good morning, Miss Thomas. I have to say, you do look extremely smart today. I haven’t seen that outfit you’re in before. Is it new?’

Cait had too much on her mind today to question Agnes as to just why she was here when Nerys had laid her off. It would never have occurred to her that it was because she cared deeply about Cait’s welfare. It was nice, though, to be complimented on her appearance after working so hard to transform it. ‘Thank you. It’s one of several I’ve bought since I took over my new position,’ she told the daily.

Agnes turned the cup over in its saucer and poured a cup of tea for her. ‘Oh, you have a new job, Miss Thomas? Many congratulations. May I ask if it’s a promotion within the company you’re already in or with another firm?’

Cait opened her mouth to tell her then snapped it shut. For whatever reason, her mother had kept it a secret that she owned a business. What her reaction was going to be when she did arrive back and discover that her secret was out Cait wasn’t sure. Although Cait felt sure that Nerys wouldn’t fail but be impressed with her daughter for having risen to the occasion and stepped into her shoes during her absence, she was fairly confident her mother would not want her blabbing about their private affairs, so she avoided the question.

‘Thanks, Dalby. I’ll just have toast this morning.’ Which was more, in fact, than she could actually face given her apprehension about the day ahead, but Cait knew it would be foolish to take on a big day on an empty stomach.

Agnes registered her evasion of the question about the job and left the room to attend to her tasks.

A while later Cait alighted from the bus and stood before the building she now saw as her ex-place of work, savouring the thought of what she was about to do before she opened the door leading into reception. She ignored the shocked look that the middle-aged receptionist shot her. Employees, they both knew, were meant to arrive by the back entrance. Instead Cait walked across the foyer to go through to the offices.

Outside the general office door, she paused just long enough to draw breath before she turned the knob and made her way purposefully inside. She immediately saw that her sour-faced supervisor was at her own desk, taking work to be done out of her in tray to distribute it around the other typists. She must have realised that as it was now approaching nine-thirty Cait wasn’t turning up for work again. By now several of the other clerks and typists had noticed her, staring at her agog as she weaved her way through their desks.

Hearing the sound of heels approaching on the hard floor, Sylvia Grey looked up. Her eyebrows rose when she saw it was Cait. If she noticed her smart new look she didn’t make any comment, just said evenly, ‘Good morning, Miss Thomas, so good of you to grace us with your presence. Would you like to come into my office? We need a private talk.’

It gave Cait great pleasure to reply to her, ‘What I have to say to you can be said here.’

Sylvia Grey shot her a knowing look, interjecting before she could add another word, ‘Don’t try to offer me any more unacceptable excuses for your absences, Miss Thomas. The person you got to telephone me yesterday told me you were in bed suffering from women’s problems. We are all women in this department, and if we all took time off when we suffered from our so-called problems then this firm would grind to a standstill. You don’t look to me like you’re suffering from anything debilitating. In fact, I’d say you’re positively glowing. I doubt there is any acceptable excuse for your lateness today.’

She shook her head sadly. ‘I’m afraid we’ve arrived at the stage where your behaviour can no longer be tolerated. It isn’t fair to the rest of your colleagues who have to share your workload while you take days off, as and when you feel like it, as well as keeping up with their own. We won’t be asking you to serve out your notice. It’s a shame it has come to this as I did have high hopes for you.’

This statement stunned Cait. ‘High hopes! But you were forever singling me out to criticise my work and passing me over when it came to promotion.’

The older woman eyed her meaningfully. ‘Constructive criticism, Miss Thomas. It’s my job to point out mistakes made by all my charges, spurring them on to improve themselves. I singled you out no more than you deserved, which in truth wasn’t very often. On the whole your work was of an acceptable standard since you’ve greatly improved from when you first joined us here. As for passing you over for promotion, you aren’t ready for that until such time as you temper your attitude, young lady.’

‘There’s nothing wrong with my attitude!’ Cait exclaimed, insulted.

Sylvia Grey eyed her. She had in fact tried to speak to Cait on numerous occasions about her annoying and unnecessarily superior manner. ‘And while you believe that, Miss Thomas, you’ll never achieve any higher status than that of typist. In this company or any other.’

Cait puffed out her chest. Well, that’s where the old dragon was wrong and it was going to be a great pleasure to tell her that there was no higher position in a firm than heading it up as the daughter of the owner. She wanted everyone in the room to hear what she was about to divulge. In a loud voice she began, ‘For your information, Miss Grey . . .’

She was interrupted by the arrival of Sylvia Grey’s assistant, a tiny mousy woman who in a squeaky high-pitched voice announced: ‘Sorry to disturb you, Miss Grey, but Mr Cummings has asked for one of the girls to be sent to him for dictation. I took the liberty of answering your telephone as you were otherwise occupied. He says it is urgent.’

Miss Grey thanked the woman and said to Cait, ‘I’ll have your wages and cards made up ready for you to collect next Friday from reception. Please clear your desk of any personal belongings and be on your way.’

With that the older woman hurried away, leaving Cait fuming that she’d been cheated out of her moment of glory.

The personal belongings she had kept in her drawer – a nearly empty bottle of hair lacquer, hairbrush, couple of lipsticks, clear nail polish for halting runs in her nylons, a packet of Fox’s Glacier Mints, a half-eaten packet of custard creams – she threw in the bin as she felt they weren’t worth filling her handbag with, even though she meant to swap it for one of far higher quality as soon as she took up her new position. She was conscious that all the girls were secretly watching her, knowing they were highly amused by the way in which Miss Grey had dismissed her. Still, this was the last time anyone would dare treat Cait in such a manner.

A while later, as she walked purposefully through the main entrance into the reception area of Rose’s, it didn’t escape Cait’s notice that the young receptionist sat up to attention the moment she saw her and called over ‘Good morning, Miss Thomas’, in a very respectful manner.

At the bottom of the stairs Cait hesitated for a moment, worried that her journey and diversion might have ruffled her appearance in some way. She was about to ask the young woman if she looked all right then remembered that she was temporarily the boss of the company so needed to act at all times as if she was in charge. That meant not showing anyone she was feeling in any way out of her depth, even though she was.

It was apparent that the receptionist had alerted Jane Trucker of Cait’s arrival as the older woman was waiting for her in what was now her office, notepad and pen in hand.

If she was surprised by the transformation in Cait she didn’t show it, just said a pleasant ‘Good morning, Miss Thomas’ as Cait took off her smart new red coat. Before Jane Trucker could say anything else, Cait told her, ‘I could do with a cup of tea first and then I’d like you to arrange for me to see a sample of all the court shoes and handbags we stock.’

Jane told her, ‘Miss Thomas, we have a room set aside with samples of all our merchandise out on display for our customers to view and select from. I appreciate that you want to familiarise yourself with the stock and can take you down there later when we’ve dealt with all the matters that need your immediate attention. If I could take the liberty of using your telephone, I’ll order the tea and then we can get down to it.’

Her mother, Cait knew, would not have stood for what she would have perceived as someone ignoring her wishes. Cait feared that if she didn’t stand her ground this time they would think her a pushover and never take her seriously.

‘May I remind you, Miss Trucker, that I am in charge of this company and expect you to obey my instructions,’ she said. ‘Now, if you would arrange for me to view our stock of shoes and handbags, as I asked, I’d be grateful. Size five for the shoes.’ She hoped the secretary could not tell that she was inwardly shaking at having to remind her of her place. Then her misguided beliefs as to how the owner of a business should act made her add: ‘Have them brought up here for me to look over.’

Jane Trucker had worked for the company for many years, had more than proved her loyalty and commitment to it, and did not at all appreciate being treated in this fashion by a young chit of a girl, even if she was the owner’s daughter. And she was cross to discover that the girl was after some shoes and bags for herself rather than familiarising herself with their stock. To her credit Jane kept these feelings to herself and replied: ‘I’ll see to it immediately, Miss Thomas.’ She turned back as she remembered she had something important to relay to her new boss. ‘The arrangements for Mr Swinton’s funeral have been finalised, Miss Thomas. It’s to be at two-thirty at St Peter’s on Thursday afternoon. I’ll order a car to collect you at two.’

Downstairs in the stores, as Glen was making his way back to his office after attending to a broken fluorescent light strip in a corridor, he heard Harry Owens grumbling loudly in annoyance. As he arrived near him, Glen asked, ‘Something upset you, Harry?’

‘You could say that,’ he spat back. ‘That little madam upstairs has only demanded a pair of every style of courts and a sample of all our current range of handbags to be delivered to her office. What’s wrong with her getting off her arse and paying a visit to the viewing room like everyone else does when they want to view the products? Little upstart, she is. As if I haven’t enough to do with six orders to get out by tonight, and a delivery from Italy and one from Northampton to check in. Jeffrey!’ he shouted. When he received no response, he angrily snapped, ‘Now where’s the little sod got to? Out the back for a crafty fag, I bet, while I was getting me instructions from Miss Trucker. Well, he made it clear from the moment he started here that the word “work” was a dirty word to him. Reg Swinton is . . . was . . . usually such a good judge of character, he should have seen what Jeff was like at his interview and not taken him on, but he’s the grandson of one of the old stalwarts in the factory and Reg agreed to give him a try from respect for the old man.

‘Well, he’ll have to go. I’m not prepared to carry him any longer. I’d already mentioned my feelings to Reg when he asked me how the new recruit was getting on, and he agreed that if Jeffrey hadn’t pulled his socks up by the end of the week then it was his cards for him. I shall have to go and see Madam to have her sort this out if she expects this department to keep up with the workload.’

Glen thought it strange that Harry was referring to Nerys in this way. ‘Maybe Mrs Thomas didn’t realise she was heaping such a task on you when she asked for the samples to be taken up to the office. I mean, she wouldn’t know that your junior storeman is such a shirker, would she? Not until you tell her, that is.’ He was not defending Nerys but attempting to dampen Harry’s anger as he wouldn’t like him to approach Nerys in his current frame of mind and risk losing his job.

Harry thought about this for a moment and said, ‘I suppose you have a point. Anyway, you obviously haven’t heard . . . it ain’t Mrs Thomas herself honouring us with her presence. Apparently she’s on holiday somewhere exotic, a place the likes of her employees can only dream of going. It’s her daughter who’s representing her meantime. I ask yer, a lass hardly out of her nappies running a place like this, even if it is only temporary . . . well, it beggars belief, so it does.’

But Glen had stopped listening when Harry had announced that it was Nerys’s daughter that was up in the office. His thoughts ran out of control. He was having difficulty believing that his beloved daughter, whom he had missed terribly during his enforced separation from her, was now in the same building as he was. He had to fight to stop himself from charging up there, begging her to believe that he was neither dead – if indeed Nerys had told her that – nor the murderous thug she may have been led to believe. But her office was hardly the place to spring such a shock on her. Now he knew where she was he needed to plan meticulously just how he was going to break the news to her. He needed Jan’s help on this.

In the meantime he would settle for just a glimpse of Lucy so that he could see what she looked like now, whether she took more after her mother or himself. But to catch that glimpse posed him a problem. A lowly maintenance man such as he had to have a reason to visit the offices, and he didn’t have one. He was unaware that Harry was staring at him and looking perplexed.

Having finally got his attention, Harry said in concern, ‘This is the third time I’ve asked you, mate, but are you all right? Only you’re as white as a sheet and you look like you’ve just had some shocking news.’

Glen gave himself a mental shake, forcing a smile to his face. ‘Oh, I’d just . . . er . . . remembered that I was asked to get some potatoes on my way home tonight. Don’t know what made me remember that while you were carrying on.’

Harry eyed him knowingly. ‘Ah, well, when the wife’s given you her orders it’s best not to forget or it’ll be the evil eye for you all night, me lad. I speak from experience.’ Harry’s expression then changed to one of curiosity. ‘Rumour has it that you’re rather pally with the new woman in the canteen that started yesterday, the same as you? In fact, it’s said that you came in to apply for the jobs together.’

Glen smiled to himself. So the rumour-mongers were as active today as they had been when he had owned this place. Not wanting to have Jan perceived as a woman of loose morals, he lied. ‘We happen to live opposite each other. Mrs Clayton knew I was looking for work, as she herself was, and so when she saw on the vacancy board that Rose’s was in need of a maintenance man as well as someone for the canteen, she rushed back to tell me in the hope no one beat us to it. We travel back and forth to work together now. Whatever the gossips are saying, I can assure you we’re nothing more than friends.’

He couldn’t help his thoughts from returning then to the problem of how to get himself upstairs so that hopefully he could catch a glimpse of his daughter. Like a thunderbolt the perfect excuse suddenly struck him. He could have hugged Harry’s missing assistant for handing it to him. ‘Just let me check with the receptionist that she hasn’t any requests for urgent work to be done and then I’ll give you a hand taking the shoes and handbags upstairs.’

Harry slapped him gratefully on his back. ‘Thanks, mate. That means we can load both trolleys at the same time and take ’em up together in the service lift. That’ll save me two . . .’ He stopped abruptly as a figure appeared around the metal shelving at the end of the room and started slowly heading their way. Harry bellowed, ‘And where the hell have you bin?’

Glen turned his head to see who Harry was addressing and his heart sank to see a thick-set youth, his whole manner betraying the fact that he’d sooner be anywhere else but here. Reaching them, he responded in a nonchalant tone, ‘I had to rush off as I needed the lavvy bad. Got stomach trouble. Must be summat I ate last night.’

Harry scowled darkly at him. ‘Do I look like I came up the Clyde in a banana boat? You stink like an old ashtray. I guessed you’d disappeared off for a crafty fag while me back was turned, and I was right. You can make the time up out of your dinner hour. Twenty minutes, I make it.’ Ignoring the sulky look his assistant shot him, he ordered, ‘Now go and fetch both trolleys. You can help me stack ’em with stuff that’s wanted upstairs and then take ’em up. Get yer skates on, lad,’ he barked.

As the youth shambled off to do his boss’s bidding, Harry said to Glen, ‘Might as well try and get him to earn some of his pay, at least while he’s still here. I do appreciate your offer, mate, and if I can return the favour sometime, don’t hesitate to ask.’

Glen heaved a sigh as he went off into his own cubby hole, silently praying that another reason for him to take himself up to the office would present itself soon.

A short while later, sitting amid at least fifty open shoe boxes, Cait stuck out both legs and admired the black suede, high-heeled, peep-toe court shoes on her feet. She thought she looked stunning in them and they were far more expensive than she could ever have afforded on a junior typist’s wage. ‘I’ll have these too,’ she said.

Jane was inwardly fuming at being used by her new boss like a lowly assistant in a shoe shop, not the fully qualified personal assistant that she was. She had to stop herself from snatching off the shoes and throwing them back in the box to join the nine other pairs Cait had chosen for herself already. Then she realised the girl was waiting to be handed another pair.

‘You’ve seen them all now, Miss Thomas,’ she said politely.

Cait was pleased with her choices so far. All she needed now was to select a handbag to go with each pair.

It was nearly dinnertime before she had made up her mind which handbag went with which pair of shoes, and all her chosen items were stacked up ready for her to take home. The discarded ones were back in their boxes, all courtesy of Jane, and ready to be returned to the stores.

Jane said, ‘Shall we get down to business now then, Miss Thomas?’

Cait looked at her, bemused. ‘What business?’

Jane looked back at her, equally bemused. ‘All the things we need your decision on, Miss Thomas. Mr Gates . . . he’s our designer . . . needs to see you urgently so you can okay and sign off on the new designs for the autumn collection. Mr Owens, who’s in charge of the stores . . . you met him this morning when he brought up the stock for you . . . has a staffing problem that needs resolving. Mr Roberts has a issue with the last batch of leather we had delivered . . .’

Cait felt it wasn’t her job to get involved in such petty matters. Hers was to make sure they were all earning their money and not dodging work. ‘I’m sure these people can manage to sort out their own problems without involving me.’ Her stomach was telling her it needed attention. ‘I want some lunch. What’s on the menu today? I’ll need you to explain where the senior staff canteen is.’

Jane was gawking at her, astounded that she was expecting the heads of the various departments to make such important decisions unsupervised. Should they make an error of judgement, there could be far-reaching consequences for the company. These sorts of decisions were usually for the general manager or the owner of the company to make. The staff in question were not going to be at all happy about this turn of events. And what could Miss Thomas mean by ‘senior staff canteen’? There was just one canteen for everyone, and if she felt herself above eating with the rest of the employees – which Mr Swinton certainly hadn’t – she’d have to eat in her own office.

A thought suddenly occurred to Cait. Now that she had her new wardrobe and accessories, what was needed to complete her transformation was a new hairdo. She would pay a visit to her mother’s hairdresser that afternoon. There was no time like the present.

She said to Jane, ‘Forget lunch, I’m off. Please have the shoes and bags delivered to my home by taxi.’ Picking up her handbag, she put on her coat before disappearing out of the door, while Jane stared after her.

Five minutes after the hooter had boomed its announcement that it was home-time, Jan caught a glimpse of Glen’s pensive expression as he made his way over to where she was waiting for him on the canal tow path.

As he joined her she laid a reassuring hand on his arm and said to him, ‘Let’s get home and we’ll have a good talk about it.’

He flashed her a wan smile and nodded his agreement.

The meal Jan prepared, of faggots, mashed potatoes, tinned garden peas and gravy, was very tasty, although hard as she might try she could not achieve the same smooth, creamy texture to her mash as her mother always produced. Jan had long ago accepted that this was one culinary skill she would never master. Glen had eaten every scrap on his plate and expressed appreciation to her for his meal, but it was Jan’s opinion that with what she knew was on his mind he hadn’t tasted a morsel of it. Having eaten they both sat nursing cups of tea in the sagging armchairs by the blazing fire that Glen had made while Jan had been clearing away. She looked at him in concern, gazing mesmerised into the flames. She thought it best to wait for him to speak first.

It was twenty minutes later when he finally looked across at her and said softly, ‘Lucy was so close, Jan, but she might as well have been a million miles away. I had the golden opportunity to try and catch a glimpse of her snatched away from me . . .’ He proceeded to tell her what had happened. ‘I prayed another chance would come along but it hasn’t. I had no jobs outstanding and nothing came in so I spent the rest of the day tidying the shelves in the maintenance room and checking if I needed to order anything, in an effort to occupy my mind.’

‘It must have been purgatory for you,’ Jan responded understandingly. ‘But, you know, there was an excuse you could have used to get you in that office.’

He looked quizzically at her. ‘There was? I racked my brains for one and came up with nothing, so I’d like to hear what it is?’

Jan smiled. ‘You men aren’t as devious as us women, that’s why it didn’t occur to you. You could have just made out that you’d heard on the grapevine a radiator was leaking. Or maybe that a window was cracked and you needed to measure the glass to replace it, something like that, then when you were told that there wasn’t anything amiss, you could just put it down to receiving the wrong information from whoever it was that passed it on.’

‘Well, I have to stay, that simple idea never crossed my mind.’ Then Glen heaved a forlorn sigh. ‘Trouble is, Jan, I’m having a struggle with my conscience. You know how much I want to see my daughter. To have the opportunity to try and make up for all the years we’ve lost, just hold her in my arms for a second, would mean more than anything to me. But to my mind the workplace isn’t the right place to break the news to her of who I am or explain to her that the woman who’s raised her isn’t the wonderful mother she thinks she is. Getting her to believe my story when I have no proof of what Nerys did to me is another problem. And, of course, I have no idea what Nerys has told her about me. But when all’s said and done, what she’s about to learn is going to devastate her, isn’t it? I’m not sure I can do that to her, Jan.’

‘Listen, Glen, when my son was alive, I wanted to protect him from everything that might cause him hurt or heartache. But you can’t . . . it’s impossible. Life has its ups and downs, its good times and its bad, and as we’re growing up we have to learn to deal with them and the things that happen to us.’ She leaned forward, eyeing him earnestly, and spoke with conviction. ‘Your daughter needs . . . deserves . . . to know that her father is alive and well and that he loves her. She needs to know the truth about why you disappeared from her life, Glen, no matter what pain it causes her.’

He looked at Jan for several long moments before he said, ‘But what if . . .’

She cut in, ‘Life’s full of what ifs, Glen. Mine certainly is. What if it had been pelting with rain that night and my son had not gone out at all? What if I’d dished the dinner up earlier and we’d been eating when his friends called? What if Bernie hadn’t been my window cleaner? What if Harry hadn’t come home when he had and caught us . . . I could go on.

‘Stop thinking about the what ifs, Glen, they might never happen. Let’s just deal with things as they come, eh? I agree that the workplace isn’t the right one to divulge the type of news you have to give your daughter, but as things stand it’s the only option open to you. Or, just an idea, you could always wait for her to come out of work and waylay her then – tell her you have some very important family news and ask her to go somewhere you can discuss it. A nearby pub perhaps. But, look, first things first. Why don’t you decide just what you’re going to say to her first, before when and where you’re going to do it?’

It was good advice Jan was giving him and he smiled at her. ‘Yes, I will.’ He took several sips of his tea, which was now cold, before he looked across at her again and tentatively asked, ‘Did . . . er . . . you happen to see Lucy when you were taking the tea trolley around today? If you did, what’s she like?’

Jan had been waiting for this question. It wasn’t until dinnertime when she had been wiping down tables near a group of women from the offices upstairs that she had overheard them discussing the fact that it wasn’t the actual owner who had come in to run the business but her daughter. That was when she had realised that the young woman she’d had a run-in with yesterday morning in the boss’s office had had every right to be in there, and every right also to dismiss Jan for speaking as she had about her mother. Jan just hoped that she didn’t come face to face with her again until sufficient time had passed for her to have forgotten the incident. But then, how could she tell Glen that what she’d thought had been her first impression of his daughter hadn’t been at all favourable? When she’d seen her in the church, Jan had thought her far too full of her own importance and her manner certainly left a lot to be desired. She just couldn’t tell the truth, though. Hopefully, she had caught the young woman at a bad time.

She lied to Glen. ‘I’ve not been out of the kitchen. Hilda’s decided it’s best I learn the ropes in the canteen first.’ She wanted to ask him how his day had gone but Glen was staring into the glowing coals in the fireplace again. It was obvious his thoughts were fixed on his daughter and how best to handle the delicate situation with her.

Jan sat back in her own chair and rested her head, stretching out her feet to prop them on the hearth. She found herself thinking about her husband and for a moment was transported back to a time when they had all been happy. After dinner had been cleared away, the three of them would sit together in the living room, she with her knitting or the latest book she was reading, Harry with his newspaper, Keith with a comic or toy, the radio playing in the background, all relaxed and content in each other’s company. She’d believed this state of affairs would go on until Keith grew up and left home, and then it would be just herself and Harry, happy in each other’s company. Never for a moment had she any idea that fate would play its hand and rip their lives apart.

She wondered what Harry was doing now. Then she realised she didn’t need to. After eating a meal cooked for him by the do-gooding women of the congregation he would be at the evening service or attending a meeting on church matters, maybe planning for Christmas which would be on them shortly. At the thought of the festive season her eyes strayed to Glen, still lost in his own thoughts, staring into the fire, and she wondered what Christmas last year had been like for him. The same as all the other Christmases for the five years since leaving prison, she suspected, spent scavenging for something to eat, then searching for somewhere to keep warm. No festive cheer for him.

For the last few years her own Christmases hadn’t been the joyous occasions they were meant to be. The family get togethers, joining her mother and sisters at one of their houses or at her own in yearly rotation, she had put a stop to, not feeling it right to inflict on them the tension between herself and Harry at a time when families should be enjoying themselves. After breakfast Harry would go to church then afterwards join members of the congregation in visiting the needy and elderly members of the parish, delivering the boxes of food that had been collected over the weeks leading up to the holiday via kind donations from the general public. Then there were the fund-raising events which Harry was always in the thick of. She was never sure what time he would get back for his dinner but she cooked it anyway and would then sit staring at the Christmas tree and paper trimmings gathering dust – those being her own efforts to inject some Christmas cheer into her home – waiting for him to return and doing her best to ensure their meal wasn’t ruined meantime. They would then sit opposite each other at the dining table, both fighting to make conversation but failing since neither had anything to say to the other. They had stopped buying gifts for one another, even token gestures, as Harry was resolutely of the opinion that any spare money they had should be put towards benefiting those less fortunate than themselves.

Well, this year, unless something happened to see them parting company by then, she was determined to make sure Glen and she had some Christmas cheer. A good meal and a little present to open at least. And perhaps, if all went well, Glen might have a special visitor to entertain.