“But don’t you want me to stay?”
“Well, sure, yes, I want you to stay. I mean, I’m not saying that I want you to leave.” My words sounded disjointed and ambiguous. But to Frank, they were a siren’s song.
“Then it’s settled,” he replied confidently. “I’ll extend my stay, and we’ll spend more time together.”
I wasn’t sure what I’d just agreed to, but suddenly Frank ordered another martini for each of us, and we were toasting our future.
“Let me take you to dinner tomorrow night,” he said, beaming. “Anywhere you like. The Ritz, even.”
I couldn’t help but feel flattered by Frank’s interest in me. He looked at me like I was a titled heiress, not a Harrods salesclerk who grew up in the rowdy East End. But tomorrow night was off the table. I was having dinner with Edward.
I shook my head, but he persisted.
“Then how about the following night?”
“All right,” I said, unable to think of an excuse.
I ordered two takeout coffees before we left, and when we walked out of the club to the street, Frank eyed me curiously. “I don’t drink coffee.”
“I know,” I said. “This is for the—”
“Let me take you home,” he said, leaning in closer to me as his driver pulled up to the curb.
I shook my head. “Thank you, but I’m fine. I’ll just…hail a cab.”
“Please, it’s no trouble.”
When I declined a second time, he handed me a few pounds to cover the cab fare. I felt equal parts guilty and relieved. Payday wasn’t until next Friday, and my pocketbook was growing thin.
“I can’t wait to see you again,” Frank said, helping me into the cab. I waved to him as we drove off.
“Here,” I said, handing a coffee to the driver.
“For me, really?”
I nodded.
He took a sip. “Miss, how did you know that I needed this? I’m working the late shift for the first time since my wife had a baby.”
“Congratulations,” I said.
“She’s a perfect little girl,” he said. “I just hope she’ll have the life, the opportunities, of a lady such as yourself.” He paused. “I want to give her the world, and yet, I’m a humble cabbie.”
I smiled. “I can tell how much you love her, and that in itself is enough.”
“Aye, I do,” he said. “Listen to me gabbing on and on. Where to, miss?”
I recited my address and watched as his eyes widened in the rearview mirror.
“You see,” I began. “A woman can’t help where she comes from, but she is in full possession of who she becomes. Be sure to tell that to your little girl.”
The driver smiled. “I will, miss.”
I sipped my coffee and pondered my peculiar evening that began in disgrace and ended in the most unexpected of ways. I smiled, thinking of Frank and his earnest affection, and Edward…mysterious Edward.
In front of my block of flats, I paid the fare and thanked the driver, who tipped his coffee cup to me with gratitude as I stepped out onto the street. The temperature had dropped below freezing again, and I was grateful for Edward’s coat as I rounded the building and followed the path to the staircase that led up to our second-floor flat. I passed our little garden plot in the alley, where Millie grew herbs and tomatoes in terra-cotta pots during the summer months. Come spring, this miserable canvas of dirty snow and mounds of hardened earth would erupt into a symphony of life—mint, oregano, thyme, and flowers, too. Oh, how I missed the flowers.
As I reached for the key in my pocketbook, my eye caught a patch of lithe green daffodil shoots, bursting up through the sleepy soil with the determination of a thousand springs. Before long, they’d bloom triumphantly.
“Hold on,” I heard my mother’s voice, whispering. “The daffodils are coming.”
“You had quite a nap,” the driver says, smiling through the rearview mirror. “But look, you woke up just in time.” He points ahead. “See it?”
I rub my eyes and peer out the window. Late-morning sunbeams pierce through dark clouds and shine onto a burst of color.
“A Sunday in Primrose Hill,” the driver says. “There’s nothing finer.”
I look out at tall, narrow townhouses and storefronts standing together in a row of pastel Easter-egg hues.
“See the high windows?” the driver says. “That’s Regency architecture, right there, though they were likely built in the Victorian era. These are miniature versions of the grand villas surrounding Regent’s Park.”
High windows, I think. That means high ceilings. A lofty room filled with sunshine sounds like just the balm my soul needs right now.
“And you’d never expect it so close to central London,” the driver says, “but Primrose Hill is at elevation. Sixty-three meters above sea level.”
I smile, grateful to have such a knowledgeable cabbie.
A few minutes later, he stops the car in front of a pale pink three-story building. A sign that reads THE BOOK GARDEN hangs above the street-level door. When a pigeon stops to peck its edge then flies off, I follow its ascent, noticing that the curtains are closed on the upper two floors. Shriveled flowers droop from the window boxes. It hardly looks real, any of it. The scene is something that might have been torn from the pages of a beloved old novel, as opposed to the reality of my own disconnected life.
“This must be it,” I say, paying the fare as the driver unloads my suitcases onto the curb.
“Welcome home,” he says.
“But I never said this was—”
“I think you’re going to like it here,” he interjects. “You’ll see.”
I turn around to take in this unfamiliar place, the setting of my mother’s life, the one she led without me. A long-haired cat is sunning himself in the window seat. Through the glass, I can almost hear his purr, as if to beckon me inside. But when I reach for the door handle, it’s locked. My inner clock is off, and I’d momentarily forgotten that it’s quite early on Sunday morning—much too early for a neighborhood bookstore to be open for business.
I walk around the building to a narrow pathway that leads to another entrance and fumble inside my bag until I find the building keys Bevins and Associates mailed me. As I unlock the door, the hinges screech open as if stretching after a long nap. I wrangle my suitcases inside the little foyer. No sense lugging them upstairs when I’ve already booked a room at a nearby hotel.
The stairs creak and groan beneath my feet as I make my way up to the first-floor flat, where I knock on the door to introduce myself to the tenant.
A woman about my age, in her mid-to-late thirties, answers with a cellphone pressed to her right ear; her striking dark curls frame her face like a halo as she fans away a plume of smoke in the air, then motions me inside. “For Christ’s sake,” she whispers. “Give me a hand, will you?”