ON THURSDAY, MADAR-JAN REMOVED THE GOLD BANGLES HER father had given her before her wedding and gave them to Saleem with a heavy heart. They had been placed on her mother’s wrists when her parents wed. Her father had hidden them away until it was Fereiba’s time to marry. It was all she had of her mother. She’d loved to hear them clink together softly every time she reached into a drawer, while she washed the dishes, and as she turned the page of a book. She would look at her wrist, coils of gold dancing with her every movement, five perfectly round embraces from the mother she’d never seen. Her father had undone the velvet drawstring pouch and put the bangles in the palm of her hand, closing his fingers over hers in a single, quiet moment. Had his eyes grown moist or had she imagined it? He was with his bride again, the woman who would never be replaced and whose absence had fractured their lives. Fereiba understood in that moment that while her father mourned his wife still, he’d never understood how his daughter mourned her mother. It was his loss and his alone. She did not hate him for this flaw, but she was able to see him more clearly. KokoGul had been right about him all along. Her father was content to contain himself in his orchard; his myopic love failed them all, not just Fereiba. No wonder KokoGul had picked up and moved on with her daughters.
And though it had been her father to put the bangles in her hand, it had felt as if her mother had drifted in while Fereiba slept, slipped them over her daughter’s fingers, and slid them onto her arm. It was the gentle touch of a mother, a touch Fereiba had never known until she’d held Saleem in her arms for the first time, pressed her lips to his forehead, and realized she had much to give him, much that she’d never received.
Saleem knew none of this when he took the bangles from his mother. He could see only that she looked uneasy.
“My mind is restless today. I wish you would leave the pawnshop for tomorrow. We can stop by on the way to the train station. We could all go together.”
“It’s not far and we don’t have much cash left, Madar-jan. Who knows what will happen in Patras. We’ll need money for food and the ferry or else we’ll be stranded.”
“But today . . .”
“I’m going, Madar-jan. If we hide in a room every time we are nervous, we will never make it to England.”
Fereiba bit her tongue. She began to dress Aziz and asked Samira to wash some of their clothes. She was going to see to what needs the hotel owners had. She turned away as Saleem put the bangles into his pocket and buttoned it to make sure they would not fall out.
Fereiba did not see the hesitation on her son’s face—that second where he considered his mother’s warning and chose to ignore it because he wanted to be braver than her.
“I’m going to the pawnshop now and then I’ll be back in two hours,” Saleem promised.
It was a promise he would not keep.
PART TWO
CHAPTER 30
Saleem
AN ENTIRE LIFETIME CAN CHANGE IN ONE AFTERNOON. THE rest of the world can continue on, unaware of a quiet, solitary cataclysm occurring a few feet away. A police officer stood to Saleem’s left, twirling a set of keys on his finger. A second officer rested his outstretched palm on the concrete wall above Saleem’s right shoulder. He could feel the officer’s breath on his cheek.
“Where do you stay?” The smell of garlic on his breath made Saleem’s stomach turn. He dared not look away. He stared at the caricature of himself in the officer’s sunglasses—his eyes wide and fearful. His adolescent face hadn’t taken on the angles of manhood yet. A shadow lined his upper lip but nothing more.
“Again, please?” Saleem felt his voice quaver. In the few weeks he’d been in Greece, Saleem had picked up a few phrases but not enough to sound convincing. He tensed his shoulders, hoping to steady his words.
“Where do you sleep? Where is your home?”
The officers huffed and shook their heads at his blank stare. They were lighter in complexion than Saleem’s deep olive skin, his color deepened by the months he’d spent working under the sun. The officer with the keys gave in and spoke in English.
“Where do you stay here?” he said, angrily.
Saleem’s mind raced to come up with a plausible story. He couldn’t lead these officers back to his family.
“I not stay. I am visitor. I come for shops,” he explained meekly, pointing in the direction of the stores down the street. The officers both snickered.
“Shops? What did you buy?”
“Ehh, nothing. Today, nothing.” Saleem willed them to lose interest.
“Nothing? Okay. Where is your passport? Papers?”
Saleem’s stomach reeled. He tasted bile. “Passport? I do not have my passport.” The owner of the pawnshop opened the door, saw the two officers on either side of his last customer, and quickly retreated into his shop.
“No passport?” The officers exchanged a glance that Saleem could not interpret.
“My friend . . . he has my passport.”
“What is your name?”
“Saleem.”