‘Can’t handle our fine food?’ Mouhna called from across the garden. Next to her Ayet and Uzma were doubled over in fits of giggles as Mouhna popped a piece of bread in her mouth, puckering her lips at me deliberately as she savoured it. ‘A present from the blessed Sultima.’
Leyla picked up something red from my plate. Her nose wrinkled. ‘Suicide pepper,’ she said, tossing it into the nearest fire grate.
‘What in hell is a suicide pepper?’ I was still coughing. Leyla pressed a glass into my hands. I downed it, cooling the burning on my tongue.
‘It’s a foreign spice. My father tries to keep it out of the harem, but it’s—’ She ran her tongue over her lips nervously. ‘Sometimes girls here use it … to escape.’ It took me a heartbeat to realise what she meant by ‘escape’.
Suicide pepper.
So some folk had found a way out. It wasn’t the sort of escape I had planned. But if those peppers were coming in from the outside, there had to be a way to get things out, too. Some way for the whispers to make it through these walls.
‘Who is the blessed Sultima?’ I’d heard her mentioned already. When I first arrived. In the baths.
‘The Sultim’s first wife.’ Leyla looked up, surprised. ‘Well, not the first that he took. He took Ayet as a wife the day after he won the Sultim trials. But the blessed Sultima is the only one of Kadir’s wives who has been able to conceive a child.’
They must hate her. My aunt Farrah had hated Nida, my uncle’s youngest wife. But Farrah’s place as first wife had been secured by three sons. It was Nida who had to kiss her feet to get anything. They might be talking about the Sultim instead of a desert horse trader, but they were still just jealous wives. And I understood how these things worked. The first wife was the most powerful woman in the household – in this case, in the harem.
‘Where would one find the Sultima?’
Chapter 18
The Sultima was a legend in the harem.
Chosen by God to be the mother of the next heir of Miraji. The only woman worthy of conceiving a child by the Sultim. She kept herself locked in her rooms most of the time. Women in the harem whispered that it was because she was praying. But I remembered something Shazad had told me once: if you could stay out of your enemy’s line of sight, they’d always count your forces stronger than they were.
And from the whispers I’d heard, the harem was full of the Sultima’s enemies.
But if there was one thing I knew about legends, it was that we were still flesh and blood. And flesh and blood had to come out of her rooms eventually.
Two days after Mouhna fed me the suicide pepper, Leyla woke me up with news. The blessed Sultima had finally emerged to bathe.
I spotted the Sultima before I’d even fully emerged from the hallway into the baths. She was sitting with her back to the entrance, dangling one leg in the water, with the other braced under her, twisted just enough towards me so that I could see the swell of her stomach. Her age singled her out. I’d seen other pregnant women in the harem, but they belonged to the Sultan. He’d stopped taking wives nearly ten years back; his wives were nearer in age to him now – most had seen at least three decades or close to it. Even from afar I could tell the Sultima hadn’t seen eighteen years yet. She was running her hands over her middle over and over in soothing motions, head tilted forward in thought.
From here, the blessed Sultima looked just like any other heavily pregnant desert girl. It wasn’t so much that I’d expected her to go to the baths draped in pearls and rubies, but after all the rumours and whispers, I figured I’d get something more than a girl in a thin white khalat.
She wasn’t alone. At the other side of the water, Kadir was sprawled, wearing a loose shalvar and nothing else. He was bare from the waist up. I hadn’t thought Jin shared anything with this brother, but the aversion to shirts seemed to be a family trait.
There were about a half dozen other girls I recognised from the harem in the water, too. A collection of Kadir’s wives, splashing around in the water, giggling, long white khalats sticking to them.
I’d been here long enough to realise that most of the women in the harem weren’t Mirajin. They were pale northern women stolen off ships, foreign-featured eastern girls sold as slaves, dark-skinned Amonpourian girls taken in border skirmishes. But there was no mistaking this girl for anything but desert born, even from behind. The linen stuck against her body from the steam that curled up from the baths; damp dark hair clung to her face. She didn’t exactly look like the all-powerful Sultima, the chosen vessel of the future Sultan of Miraji.
And then she looked up, startled by the sound of my footsteps, eyes darting over her shoulder towards me, and my heart leapt into my mouth.
Oh, damn every power in heaven and hell, what did I do to deserve this?
I was face-to-face with the Sultima I’d heard so much about. The only woman pure enough to conceive a child by the Sultim Kadir. The girl sent by God to assure the future of Miraji.
Only I knew her as my cousin Shira. And the only thing God had ever sent her to do was make my life a living hell.
Jin told me once fate had a cruel sense of humour. I was starting to believe him. First Tamid and now Shira. I’d crossed an entire desert but it was like I’d been dragged back home to face everything I’d left in my dust when I ran.
Shira looked as surprised as I was. Her mouth formed a small O before pressing tightly into a hard line. We stared at each other across the narrow stretch of tiles left between us. Our wills locked, the same way they’d done a hundred times across the tiny bedroom in my aunt’s house.
‘Well,’ Shira said. She’d lost her accent. I could hear it even in that one word. Or maybe not lost – smothered under something that passed for a northern accent. ‘Paint me purple and call me a Djinni if it isn’t my least favourite cousin.’
There was a retort on the tip of my tongue. I caught it from slipping out by the skin of my teeth. The Sultan has a Djinni, I reminded myself. He has a First Being trapped at his will and nothing is stopping him from using it against the rebels at any second. And then it could be over. For me. For Ahmed, Jin, Shazad, and the whole Rebellion.
I didn’t know much about other families, but I reckoned most of the time when you had to pretend to be nice to them, there weren’t this many lives at stake.
‘I thought you were dead,’ I said. You and Tamid both. Last time I’d seen Shira she’d been on a train racing towards Izman with Prince Naguib, taken captive because they figured there was a chance she’d know where I was going. And if they found me, they found Jin, and if they found Jin, they found the Rebellion.
After Jin and I had gotten off the train, she’d lost her use. Noorsham had told me she’d been left in the palace to die. Only she wasn’t just still alive. She was thriving. I wondered if she knew Tamid had survived being abandoned to fend for himself in this palace, too. If she knew what he was doing for the Sultan. If she even cared. She never had.
I shoved away thoughts of Tamid angrily. Shira was easier to face. It’d never been that complicated between us. We hated each other. Old hate was easier to face than Tamid’s new disdain.