I have every reason for confidence this summer as I come back to my country and my power. Ard has done great work in my absence. Not only did he negotiate a free pardon from the Duke of Albany, but he has recovered his lands, his wealth, and has rejoined the council, where he can choose the guardians who are appointed to my son. He has prepared the council for my return, and encouraged Albany to go home to France to his sick wife. “I have done everything to persuade them that you as regent and an alliance with England is our future,” he says quietly in my ear as he lifts me down from the saddle in the courtyard before the palace. “I think we can take Scotland together, my love.”
As always, as he lifts me down from my horse and holds me, I feel the warmth of his breath on my neck.
“I have to go and see my son at once,” I say unsteadily. Truth be told, I cannot even remember that I am a mother, that I am a princess. I have forgotten that I am a dowager queen with national ambitions. I would go in a moment to my bedchamber like an eager girl, and lie with him.
He smiles at me as if he knows this perfectly well. “Go,” he says. “And when you come back we will dine and we will go to bed. I had to wait for you for a year of absence. I can wait another hour or two.”
“Ard . . .” I whisper.
“I know,” he says. “Be as quick as you can. I want you. I want you with a hunger.”
I give a little smothered gasp and I walk back to the wagons to see that the gifts I have brought for my boy are unpacked at once, and tell my master of horse that I will take a fresh mount up the Via Regis to the castle. The horse must have my English saddle with white damask cloth of gold that Henry commissioned for my journey; the people will watch me ride up the steep cobbled hill and I want them to see that I am returned in my power, surrounded by rich, beautiful things. The acting regent, Antoine, the Sieur de la Bastie, is as handsome and as smiling as if the hard years have never been, the same young man who rode at my wedding joust. He tells me he will come with me, appearing in the stable yard dressed in his usual dazzling white, and I say that he matches my livery. I laugh. “You are the beauty that they call you,” I say. “You will outshine me.”
“I am the moon to your sun,” he says with his attractive French accent. “And I should be honored to ride with you to your castle to visit your boy. I have had the pleasure of meeting with him often, and I tell him about jousting and what a chevalier his father was. I promised him that I would bring his mother as soon as you arrived. But say the word and I shall stay here and you go alone. Whatever you wish, Your Grace.”
“Oh, you can come,” I say as if it does not matter to me; but I am flattered that he wants to ride with me. He is a handsome man; any woman would be glad to have him at her side. Since he is regent in Albany’s absence I need to befriend him. God knows, I still don’t have enough friends on the council.
The horses slip a little on the cobbles and lean forward to get up the hill. Just as I expected, the people call blessings on me from their windows, and come out of the dark doorways to wave and smile. The market women stand with their baskets wedged on their jutting hips and bellow their good wishes to me in Erse and in the dialect of the borders. I can understand them; but Antoine de la Bastie laughs at the incomprehensible language and takes off his hat with the white plume and bows to one side and the other. “I am hoping they are wishing me well,” he says to me. “For all I know, they could be damning me to hell.”
“They are glad to see me home, at any rate,” I say. “And no woman under ninety ever has a bad word to say against you. They call you the M’sieur of Beauty.”
“Because they can’t say my title,” he laughs. “There’s only one beauty here.”
I smile. “They admire you, but I don’t think your regency is popular with the people.”
“Nobody likes to pay taxes, nobody likes to obey laws. If the Scots lords did not have a regent to command them, they would just murder each other.”
“But I should be the regent,” I say. “My husband, your friend, left the authority to me at his death.”
“Oh yes,” he says, his accent very strong. “But he was not to know that you would marry the first handsome boy you set eyes on! Who could have guessed such a thing?”
“Archibald is the Earl of Angus and a great lord among the lords,” I say furiously. “No mere boy. And you should remember that you are speaking to a princess of England and a Dowager Queen of Scotland.”
He tips his head towards me as if to whisper. “I don’t forget who you are,” he says. “I was at your wedding. I would never forget your first husband, who was a great king. But I tell you, without fear or favor, that your second husband is not his match.”
“How dare you?” I demand.
He shrugs. Someone cheers us and he flashes his brilliant smile at an upstairs window and someone throws a flower. “Your Grace, you have been away a long time. Your handsome young carver is now serving himself.”
“What do you mean?”
“Ah, bah!” he says. “Who am I to speak of a straying husband? You must ask him yourself whether he is in command of the lords. Ask him yourself where are your rents? And ask him yourself where he has been living while you have been in exile, and if his life was very hard? Ask him who gets the best cuts now?”
“He was in the borders,” I say firmly. “I know all this. And his life was very hard. He was an outlaw until he could negotiate his own peace with the regent, the Duke of Albany.”
“A hero no doubt; he should have his own makar, like your first husband, to compose poems of his many victories,” and then he waves at the sentries on the wall of Edinburgh Castle to raise the portcullis and drop the drawbridge.
Nothing happens. The two of us rein in our horses and wait. My master of horse goes forward: “Her Grace, the Dowager Queen of Scotland,” he yells.
I sit proudly in the saddle, waiting for the bridge to come crashing down and the portcullis to roll up, but still nothing happens. I am smiling, thinking of seeing my son for the first time in two years, when Antoine says: “There is some difficulty, I think.”
From the sally port at the side of the gate the captain of the castle comes out, sweeps off his bonnet and bows low to me and then to Antoine. “I apologize,” he says. He looks embarrassed. “I am not allowed to open the castle to anyone without a letter of entry from the council.”
“But this is Her Grace, the king’s mother,” the chevalier exclaims. “And I, the deputy regent, at her side.”
“I know that,” the captain says, red to the ears. “But without a letter I am not allowed to open the gates. Besides, there is plague in the city and we may not admit anyone without a letter from a physician saying they are well.”
“Capitaine!” Antoine shouts. “It is I! Escorting the dowager queen. Are you closing the gate to us?”
“You can’t come in without a letter.” The captain is anguished. He bows to me, he bows to the chevalier. “Forgive me, Your Grace, there is nothing I can do.”
“This is to insult me,” I gasp. I am near to tears with fury and disappointment. “I will have that man beheaded for this.”
“There is nothing he can do,” Antoine confirms. “Let’s go back to Holyroodhouse. I’ll get that letter signed and sent to us. It’s how we run Scotland now. It is all done by the clerks. It’s the only way we keep the peace. The strictest of rules and everything allowed only by permits. If we did not have rules we would have unending war. It would be as bad as the borders, and we would all be ruined. It is I who am to blame. I should have got a permit at once. I did not think.”
“My son will be waiting to see me! The King of Scotland! Is he to be disappointed?”