Chapter Four
Only There
I parked in the curving lane at the front of Lavender House, opened the door and got out, slamming the door behind me and moving to the trunk where I’d stowed the groceries.
I wouldn’t be in Magdalene for very long but I would be there for a while. I also had a life where I ate most of my meals in restaurants or at parties and rarely had the chance to cook.
After Jake Spear left and I got no answers to questions that were hounding me, I decided that since I was there, I’d take advantage of being there.
Meaning I would give myself a treat and cook.
Thus, I prepared for the day and went to the market in town.
I had filled brown paper bags in each arm when the SUV drove up the lane.
I looked through my shades to the shiny black Escalade and primarily the man who sat behind the wheel.
I’d never seen him before.
I watched him approach deciding I did not need this.
I had a number of things to do, the priority at that moment was getting the groceries in the house, but it was never a priority to deal with an unannounced visitor seeing as it was most rude to show up unannounced.
He could be someone who simply wished to give his condolences. However, he could call, like dozens of other people had done since Gran had died. He didn’t need to come to the house.
Especially since I had no idea who he was.
His sunglassed eyes never leaving me, he got out of his vehicle and I saw he was tall, lean and well-dressed, in well-fitting, excellent quality dark blue trousers and an equally well-fitting, tailored light blue shirt.
No tie.
His dark brown hair was cut well.
And at a glance, I knew his sunglasses cost five hundred dollars.
“Can I help you with those?” he called when he was about ten feet away.
“Not to be rude,” I replied. “But I don’t know you so I’m afraid I’ll need to refuse.”
He nodded his head, stopped four feet away and suggested, “Let’s remedy that. I’m Boston Stone.”
My face must have betrayed my response to his absurd name because he smiled and it was not an unattractive smile.
“My mother said she was under the influence of drugs post-birth,” he explained his name in a manner where I knew he’d done it frequently in his life. Then again, with that name, he would have to.
I nodded and asked, “How can I help you, Mr. Stone?”
His head tipped slightly to the side before he answered and part of his answer included him strangely repeating himself, “I’m Boston Stone. CEO of Stone Incorporated.”
I said nothing.
“I believe Terry told you about me?” he queried.
“Terry?” I queried back.
“Terry Baginski. The associate at Weaver and Schuller who read your grandmother’s will yesterday.”
I felt my body lock as an unexpected and unpleasant pulse thumped through it
Stone Incorporated. In all that had happened, I’d forgotten.
The other thing Gran never told me. This man wanted to buy Lavender House.
“Yes,” I stated. “Ms. Baginski told me about you.”
“As you’re busy,” he replied, tipping his head to the bags in my arms, “I’ll not keep you except to ask if you’d like to have lunch with me tomorrow to discuss your plans for Lavender House.”
That pulse thumped through me again and it was far more unpleasant.
Boston Stone of Stone Incorporated.
A man behind a company.
Not a family with children, the wife cutting lavender to put in the family room and on the kitchen table, the kids playing Frisbee in the back yard around the arbor with petals of wisteria blowing through the air around them, the husband knowing how to fix the sink and keeping the house in tiptop shape with loving care…forever.
I tasted something sour in my mouth and forced through it, “Mr. Stone, I don’t wish to be rude, but as you can see, I’m busy. And as you know, my grandmother died only five days ago. There are a variety of things on my mind and one of them is not having lunch with someone to discuss my plans for Lavender House.”
This wasn’t strictly true. I’d given vague thought to it.
It was just that it was vague.
Now, with this man standing in front of me, it was not vague in the slightest and I didn’t like how that felt.
“Of course, my apologies. It’s too soon,” he murmured.
“It is,” I agreed.
“Then I’ll repeat my offer of lunch but I’ll do it in order to give you a lovely meal and, perhaps, take your mind off your recent loss.”
I studied him as I processed his words.
And then I processed his words.
Good God, I’d just met the man in my grandmother’s driveway and he was asking me out.
Although he was quite handsome and it was done smoothly, in a kind tone, and with respect, I couldn’t believe it.
“Mr. Stone—”
“Ms. Malone, just lunch, no business, getting you away from memories and taking your mind off things. I know a place that does wonderful things with mussels. If you like seafood, I’d enjoy introducing you to it.”
He was quite nice, not to mention I loved mussels and all seafood.
I just had no desire to have lunch with him.
“That offer is kind, Mr. Stone,” I said quietly. “But I’m afraid your endeavors wouldn’t succeed. I have much to think about and even more to do.”
He nodded and lifted then immediately dropped a hand. “Of course. But if you change your mind, the information Terry gave you includes a direct line to me. Just phone and we’ll make plans.”
“If I change my mind”—highly unlikely—“I’ll do that.”
His smooth voice dipped lower and even smoother when he said, “I’m sorry for your loss, Josephine. Lydia was much loved and there were many reasons for that. So please know, I understand this loss is grave.”
I felt my throat close so I just nodded.
“I hope you call,” he finished, still talking lower and smoother.
“I’ll think about it. Have a nice day, Mr. Stone.”
His sunglasses held my sunglasses before he dipped his chin, turned and moved to his SUV.
I watched him get in and slam the door. After he did that, I moved to the house.
When I’d entered, I kicked the door shut behind me with my pump and stopped dead.
I did this because it hit me.
All of it.
Everything I was seeing.
Everything I was experiencing.
But most of all, everything I was feeling.
The shafts of light piercing the shadows, dust motes drifting making the air itself seem almost magical.
The abundance of furniture stuffed in the large rooms opening off the foyer. All of it old, all of it plush, all of it comfortable.
And then there was the profusion of knickknacks, some of them likely worthless, some of them perhaps priceless, but all of them precious. The gleaming wood of the antique tables. The framed prints on the walls that had hung there for decades, maybe some of them for over a century.
My mind’s eye conjured an image of the land around the house. The rough gray stone of the coastline. The rocky beach with its deep pier. The massive bushes of lavender that hugged the sprawling tall house all around. The green clipped lawns. The arbor covered in wisteria with the white wicker furniture under it pointed at the sea. The rectangular greenhouse leading to the mosaic-tiled patio, also pointed at the sea. The small garden surrounded by the low, white fence.
My family had lived in that house for over one hundred and fifty years. My grandmother had grown up there. She’d lost her sister there. She’d escaped there after her husband used and abused her. She’d helped me escape there after her son used and abused me.
I’d only ever been truly happy there.
Only there.
Only there.
On this thought, I numbly moved through the house to the kitchen and, once there, dropped the bags on the butcher block, shoved my sunglasses back on my head and took in the huge expanse.
The Aga stove that stayed warm all the time and produced sublime food. The slate floors. The deep-bowled farm sink. The plethora of cream-painted glass-fronted cabinets. The grooved doors of the cupboards below. The greenhouse leading off it where herbs grew in pots on shelves in the windows. The massive butcher block that ran the length of the middle of the room, worn, cut and warped.
I shrugged my purse from my shoulder and set it beside the bags. I then moved back out to my rental car, getting the last bag, slamming the trunk and taking it into the house.
I put the groceries away and I did it not feeling numb anymore.
Not even close.
My brain felt heated, even fevered.
I no longer felt uneasy.
I felt unwell.
Something wasn’t right.
No, everything wasn’t right.
Then again, there was no right to a world without Lydia Josephine Malone in it.
And I only knew one way to make it right.
I folded the bags and tucked them in the pantry then moved directly to the phone.
Gran kept her address book there.
I opened it and flipped through the pages, finding the M’s. There were sheets of M’s and sheets of names written amongst the pages.
But I wasn’t there.
I moved back to J.
My brain cooled when I saw it in her looping script.
Josie.
She didn’t write in the lines. She scrawled all over the page however she wanted to do it and I felt my lips tip up slightly even as I felt the backs of my eyes tingle.
On the page was my mobile number, several before it crossed out when I’d changed them over the decades. Henry’s mobile number(s). Henry’s address in LA with a big looped Pool House scribbled beside it—this meager information taking up the entire page.
I drew in a calming breath and closed my eyes.
I opened them and flipped close to the back of the book. I found the number and grabbed the old phone from its cradle on the wall. So old, it had long twirly cord. A cord, I knew, that was long enough that you could talk on it and get to the sink, the butcher block, but not the stove. I knew this because I’d seen Gran talking on it as she moved about the room.
I punched in the number from Gran’s book in the keypad and put it to my ear.
It rang three times before I heard a man answer, “Hello?”
“Mr. Weaver?”
“Yes.”
“It’s Josephine Malone.”
A pause then, “Josephine. My dear. How lovely it is to hear from you.”
I swallowed and said softly, “And it’s lovely to speak to you, Mr. Weaver. But, just to say, I’m calling because Ms. Baginski shared about Mrs. Weaver.”
Another pause before, “Of course. Yes, I should have called and explained. That was why we weren’t at the funeral.”
“That’s entirely understandable,” I murmured then went on to say, “But I’m phoning to share I was distressed to hear this news.”
“Yes, dear, it’s distressing,” he agreed in a kindly way, pointing out the obvious without making me feel foolish that I’d done the same.
Even mucking this up, I still carried on.
“Is Mrs. Weaver well enough to receive visitors?” I asked quietly.
This was met with yet another pause before, softly, “I think she’d like that, Josephine. She always enjoyed seeing you. She’s best in the mornings, however. Could you come by tomorrow, say about ten?”
I didn’t want to go by the Weavers tomorrow at about ten. I didn’t want to visit a kind woman in the throes of a grave illness or spend time with a kind man who was in the throes of possibly watching his wife die.
But Gran would go.
And I would detest knowing what I knew about Eliza Weaver and not taking the time to visit at about ten tomorrow to find some way to communicate that I thought she was kind and she’d touched my life in a way I appreciated.
“I would…yes. I could. Absolutely,” I accepted.
“She can’t have flowers or—”
“I’ll just bring me,” I assured him.
“Eliza will look forward to that, as will I.”
“Lovely,” I replied. “I’ll see you both tomorrow.”
“See you then, Josephine.”
“Take care, Mr. Weaver.”
“You as well, my dear. Good-bye.”
I gave him my farewell and put the phone back in its receiver. Then I moved back to Gran’s book and flipped the pages until I found it. I grabbed the phone and punched in the digits.
There were five rings before I heard, “You’ve reached the Fletcher residence. We’re unable to get to the phone right now, but please leave a message.”
I waited for the beep then said, “Reverend Fletcher? This is Josephine Malone. It seems I’ll be in Magdalene for some time and…well, you mentioned dinner. And I would enjoy having dinner with you and Mrs. Fletcher. Or you can come to Lavender House and I can cook for you to express my gratitude for all the thoughtful things you did for Gran. Whenever you have time, I’d be happy to hear from you. You can call me at the house or use my mobile.”
I gave him my number, said my good-byes and I hung up.
Once I did, I took in another, deeper breath and flipped to the S’s.
There was no listing and I found that unsurprising.
Then it occurred to me and I flipped back to the J’s.
One page from mine, there it was. Jake and a number.
I stared at the number for some time before I made my decision.
I moved to the butcher block to get my phone from my purse. I went back to the address book and programmed his number into my phone.
But I didn’t use it.
What had to be said, and done, needed to be face-to-face.
Therefore, I moved to the drawer where Gran kept the phonebook.
I flipped through the pages at the back that were printed on thin yellow paper, not knowing what I was looking for.
Then I found what I was looking for.
One listing with the bold heading Exotic Dancers.
It had a phone number and address.
I ripped the page out of the book, replaced the book in the drawer, folded the page and tucked it in the back pocket of my jeans.
That done, I moved to the spiral staircase to go to the light room so I could find Gran’s safety deposit box key.
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