"Would you like some company?"
Neumann nodded. It was not the truth but Neumann saw no harm in it. Jenny Colville had a terrible schoolgirl crush on him; it was obvious. She made up some excuse to drop by the Dogherty cottage every day and never turned down an invitation from Mary to stay for tea or supper. Neumann had tried to pay an appropriate amount of attention to Jenny and carefully avoided putting himself in any situation where he might be alone with her. Until now. He would try to turn the conversation to his advantage--to take stock of how well his cover story was holding up in the village. They walked in silence, Jenny staring out at the sea. Neumann grabbed up a handful of stones and skipped them across the waves.
Jenny said, "Do you mind talking about the war?"
"Of course not."
"Your wounds--were they bad?"
"Bad enough to cut short my fighting days and give me a one-way ticket home."
"Where were you wounded?"
"In the head. Someday, when I know you better, I'll lift up my hair and show the scars."
She looked at him and smiled. "Your head looks fine to me."
"And what do you mean by that, Jenny Colville?"
"It means you're a handsome man. And you're smart too. I can tell."
The wind blew a strand of hair across Jenny's face. She tucked it back under her woolen cap with a brush of her hand.
"I just don't understand what you're doing in a place like Hampton Sands."
So his cover story had aroused suspicion in the village!
"I needed a place to rest and get well. The Doghertys offered to let me come here and stay with them, and I took them up on it."
"Why don't I believe that story?"
"You should, Jenny. It's the truth."
"My father thinks you're a criminal or a terrorist. He says Sean used to be a member of the IRA."
"Jenny, can you really picture Sean Dogherty as a member of the Irish Republican Army? Besides, your father has serious problems of his own."
Jenny's face darkened. She stopped walking and turned to face him. "And what's that supposed to mean?"
Neumann feared he had taken it too far. Perhaps it was better to disengage, make an excuse, and change the subject. But something made him want to finish what he started. He thought, Why can't I keep my mouth shut and walk away from this? He knew the answer, of course. His own stepfather had been a vicious bastard, quick with a backhand across the face or a cruel remark that brought tears to his eyes. He felt certain Jenny Colville had endured worse physical abuse than he ever had. He wanted to say something to her that would let her know that things did not always have to be this way. He wanted to tell her she was not alone. He wanted to help her.
"It means he drinks far too much." Neumann reached out and touched her face gently. "And it means he mistreats a beautiful, intelligent young girl who's done absolutely nothing in the world to deserve it."
"Do you mean that?" she asked.
"Mean what?"
"That I'm beautiful and intelligent. No one's ever said that to me before."
"Of course I mean it."
She took his hand and they walked some more.
"Do you have a girl?" she asked him.
"No."
"Why not?"
Why not indeed? The war. It was the easy answer. He had never had time for a girl really. His life had been one long series of obsessions: an obsession to lose his Englishness and become a good German, an obsession to become an Olympic champion, an obsession to become the most decorated member of the Fallschirmjager. His last lover had been a French farm girl from the village near his listening post. She had been tender when Neumann was in desperate need of tenderness, and each night for a month she let him in the back door of her cottage and took him secretly to her bed. When he closed his eyes Neumann could still see her body, rising to his in the flickering candlelight of her bedroom. She had taken a vow to kiss his head every night until it healed. In the end, Neumann was overcome with the guilt of an occupier and broke it off. He feared now what would happen to her when the war was over.
"Your face became sad for a moment," Jenny said.
"I was thinking about something."
"I'd say you were thinking about someone. And by the look on your face that someone was a woman."
"You're a very perceptive girl."
"Was she pretty?"
"She was French and she was very beautiful."
"Did she break your heart?"
"You might say that."
"But you left her."
"Yes, I suppose I did."
"Why?"
"Because I loved her too much."
"I don't understand."
"You will someday."
"And what do you mean by that?"
"It means you're far too young to be hanging around with the likes of me. I'm going to finish my run. I suggest you go home and change into some clean clothes. You look like you've been sleeping on the beach all night."
They looked at each other in a way that said they both knew it was the truth. She turned to leave, then stopped.
"You'd never do anything to hurt me, would you, James?"
"Of course not."
"You promise?"