I sat in front of the curandera. I didn’t know exactly what I was going to tell her but figured that by offering to pay for her services, she would be more willing to talk to me. Now, how was I going to deceive a healer into believing I was a man? And how did I turn the subject to her son?
“You’re not from here?” she asked in a kind voice.
“No,” I said.
“What brings you to these lands?”
“Well,” I said in a low pitch. “I’m a writer and I came here to do some research for my novel.” I purposely spoke slowly in an effort to keep my voice at the bottom of my range.
She smiled. “And you need a curandera for that?”
“No,” I said. “I came to see you for something else. A more personal reason.” I’d once heard that the best way to deceive someone was to say a partial truth. “I’ve been suffering from melancholia. I don’t have any enthusiasm to do the things I used to find enjoyable. Sometimes I have to force myself to get out of bed every morning.”
She studied me carefully. “Yes, there is a sadness about you. I noticed it the minute you walked in. Did you lose someone close?”
Cristóbal’s shocked face seconds before falling off the stern flashed through my mind.
“Yes.”
She nodded, lighting a candle on the table.
Why did I have this sudden urge to cry? Right here, in front of this stranger? And the mother of Cristóbal’s assassin, at that. Her soothing voice, her compassionate expression, her delicate hands—every part of her urged me to open up. It wasn’t just about Cristóbal and his horrendous demise, it was also the fact that I was so far from my home, so lonely. If at least I’d had the child I’d always wanted, someone who would be with me always. Under different circumstances, I might have asked this woman to help me become a mother.
“Losing someone is not easy,” she said. “Your feelings are normal, Se?or . . .”
“Balboa.” I shifted in my seat. Behind a halfway-opened curtain was a little altar with a hand-sized statue of the Virgin Mary. In front of it was a small photograph of a child in what looked like a First Communion outfit. He was dressed entirely in white and held a rosary and a Bible in his hands. Surrounding the portrait were lit candles and gardenias.
“Is there something you can give me?” I said. “Something that might help improve my mood?”
“The plant of happiness,” she said, pensive. She stood up and turned toward a shelf filled with jars. She gathered a bunch of herbs from one of the jars and wrapped them in a sheet of newspaper. “It’s called Hierba de San Juan. Make a tea with it and drink half a cup twice a day. Be careful with it because it’s potent and hard to find.” She set the package in front of me.
Oh, no, the visit was coming to an end.
I pointed at the boy in the altar. “Is that your son?”
“How do you know I have a son?”
“It was just a guess. He’s a handsome child.”
She glanced at the photograph. “He’s not a child anymore.”
This was my opportunity.
“Did . . . did something happen to him?”
“Why do you ask?”
“The altar.”
She hesitated. “He’s been missing for a few weeks, but the authorities aren’t helping me. Nobody here cares.”
“I understand you better than you think,” I said honestly.
Her eyes filled with tears.
“Then maybe you can help me,” she said, surprising me with the despair in her voice, with her sudden vulnerability. “You look like a refined man. You know how to talk to people with fancy words. And you look like you have money.”
“But how can I possibly help you?”
“The authorities won’t listen to me, they say my son must have moved somewhere else, they say he’s too old for them to be wasting their time on someone who doesn’t want to be found, but they’ll listen to you. I know my Franco didn’t move somewhere else. He left all his things here.” She pointed at a cot behind me and an ajar armoire filled with clothes. “I don’t have any money. I can’t pay anyone to find him. Look at where I live. After our house burned, I was left with nothing.” She shook her head. “All I know is that Franco wouldn’t have left without that woman.”
“What woman?” I asked, barely able to control the even tone in my voice.
“I don’t know who she is, but I know that she drove him crazy. She made him do things he wouldn’t have done otherwise.”
“What things?”
She avoided my gaze. “He stopped working, he was gone all the time, he hardly ate, and then, he left without saying where. I’m sure she put a spell on him. I tried to fight it, but nothing worked.”
“But if you never met her, how do you know there was a woman?”
“He told me about her. He said he loved her like no one else.”
“How do you know she didn’t leave with him?”
“He told me he would be back. He said he was going to do something for her and that he would return in a few days. But it’s been three weeks already.” She reached out for my hands. “Will you help me?”
I would’ve wanted to despise her like I did her son, but this woman seemed so fragile, so desperate. She clearly didn’t know the evil in her son’s heart. How could I not pity her? She’d lost everything, her husband, her house, and now her son. A part of me wanted to tell her the truth, but another part—the practical one—told me that this woman could be helpful in my investigation if I played along.
“I can try, but you have to be honest with me. What was he going to do for that woman and why?”
“I don’t know. He didn’t say.”
“We need to find her. It’s the only way to find him.”
Do?a Soledad removed a saffron handkerchief from her sleeve and wiped her tears with it. “I don’t know how. I’ve already looked through his things and there’s nothing.” She blew her nose. “I know he was a good boy. He was always so obedient.”
A good boy, all right.
“There are no letters?”
“Nothing.”
“Could he have confided in a friend? Told someone about his girl?”
“He didn’t have any friends.”
She sniffed.
If Franco loved this mysterious woman and would do anything to please her, would he also take her money to kill me? Or was there someone else involved in this plan?
I spoke again. “You said your house burned in a fire, right?”
She watched me warily. “Yes.”