She had never whispered to him so intimately before. Her breath on his cheek felt like the caress of a lover. A different electricity coursed through his body. And for a moment, he forgot his fear.
It rushed back, though, as he made his way to the front, head down. He hit his guitar case on one of the seats. Bwongggg. The crowd tittered. “Sorry,” he mumbled to nobody in particular.
Please God. Attend me this hour. Do not forsake me. He carefully ascended the steps to the stage and walked the seeming half mile to the middle, where two microphones stood.
He pulled his battered and scarred acoustic guitar from its case. He slung it around his neck and walked the last few feet to where Principal Lawrence stood. He kept his head down. The lights on the stage blinded him.
Principal Lawrence gestured for Dill to take his place and stepped aside. Dill stepped up to the microphones. He adjusted the vocal mic for his height and then the guitar mic. A screech of feedback. Laughter. “Ow,” someone said loudly. Dill’s head pounded. Black-red began to creep into the margins of his field of vision. He held his breath and felt his heart palpitating. Can they hear it? Is the microphone picking it up? Please God. Stand with me now. He closed his eyes. His heartbeat drummed in his ears.
Someone faked a cough. “Dildo!” Giggling. Someone else faked a cough. “Dildo!” More giggling. Angry shushes from teachers scattered through the crowd and from Lydia and Travis. Dill’s heart sank.
Principal Lawrence nudged Dill aside and spoke into the microphone. “Okay, I hear another outburst, we cancel the rest of the assembly, and everyone writes a ten-page paper about manners, understood? Okay, Mr. Early.”
Dill took his place again at the microphones. “Here’s a song I wrote.” His voice echoed in the auditorium. He didn’t recognize it. It was too loud. He waited for the laughter. For someone to yell out “Dildo” again. But there was quiet, which was almost worse.
He couldn’t remember how to play the guitar. He couldn’t remember where to put his hands on the strings. He couldn’t remember the words to his song.
He looked up, straight into Lydia’s eyes. Her eyes were filled with…what? A new something he had never seen before in her. He couldn’t name it, but it made him strong. It swept the black-red from the margins of his eyes and turned the contemptuous crowd beneath him into a faceless blob. It made his heart beat a different rhythm.
For a fleeting moment, he’s standing once more at the front of the praise band. He’s wearing his guitar and they’re playing, playing. And the congregation begins to pass around the deadly serpents. His father approaches him with a copperhead. He stops playing. His father smiles and gently hands it to him. He reaches out and accepts his father’s offering. It is cool and dry and sleek. It pulses in his hands. His faith is strong. It binds the serpent’s jaws. It cannot hurt him. He stares into its face.
Dill took a breath and began to play and sing. He sang like the Holy Spirit had descended on him with a cleansing fire. He heard his voice and guitar echoing through the auditorium. He opened his eyes only once during the performance—to make sure Lydia was still watching him. She was, with even more of the something. The room melted away below him.
He finished, and his last notes decayed into silence. He got a smattering of polite applause, but a standing ovation from Lydia and Travis. Probably not the reaction the winner would get, but at least no one is yelling insults at me. And it’s over. He put his guitar back in its case and left the stage, barely hearing Principal Lawrence taking the microphone and saying, “All right, that was a very nice song from Dillard. Thank you, Dillard. Next up we have…”
Dill collapsed into his seat. Travis glowed and was nearly bouncing. “That was so cool! You’re like a professional singer!” he whispered, grabbing Dill’s hand in a vigorous handshake.
Lydia clutched his arm and pulled him close again. Probably closer than she needed to. “That was amazing,” she whispered, letting her lips brush his ear. “I knew you could do this. Remember how you feel.”
Dill basked in his relief, like he was swimming in a warm, starlit lake. He listened with his eyes closed as five of the football players lip-synced to a rap song, to thunderous applause that dwarfed his own. Thank you, God. You have not always given me the things I wanted or needed, but you gave me this, and I’m grateful.
The competition ended, and Principal Lawrence took the stage again, holding three envelopes. “All right folks, the results are in from the judges. In third place, for her karaoke version of a Taylor Swift song, we have Lauren Ramsey. Congratulations, Lauren. You win a coupon for twenty-five percent off a tanning session at Tropical Glo tanning salon.” Lauren, a cheerleader, accepted her prize, beaming, to riotous applause and whistling.
“Okay, in second place, for his fantastic duck and turkey calls, we have Austin Parham. Austin, you let me know if you’re available come spring turkey season. Austin wins a ten-dollar Applebee’s gift certificate.” Austin, a baseball player, accepted his prize. Again, an enthusiastic response.
It’s going to really suck losing to duck and turkey calls. Let’s just get this over with.
“Now, for the grand prize winner of fifty dollars cash money. I want to remind y’all that our judges considered many factors in their decision, including originality and creativity. I also want to remind y’all to be respectful if the person you thought should win didn’t win. And now, our grand prize winner is…drumroll please…”
Dill stomach flipped. It was then that he stopped being completely aware of what was happening. He knew that he heard his name called. He knew that he sat, paralyzed, while Lydia and Travis stood, whooped, and tugged him out of his chair, pushing him toward the stage. He was vaguely cognizant of the tepid applause and rush of grumbling that met the announcement. He was standing on stage again, accepting the envelope and a handshake from Principal Lawrence. And then he was sitting by Lydia and Travis again, clutching his envelope.
The assembly let out and the students streamed into the hall. Travis still buzzed with excitement. “Dude,” he said, strutting alongside Dill. “I would totally buy all your albums if you made albums!”
Dill grinned. “You don’t even like music.”
“Yours is different.”
“Hey, Dill.” Alexis Robbins approached. She was pretty and popular. She never talked to him or his friends, but was never unkind to them either. They existed in separate worlds.
“Congratulations on winning,” she said. “I didn’t know you did music.”
Dill blushed. “Oh…thanks. Yeah. I do. Thanks.”
“Anyway, good job. Bye.”
Lydia poked Dill in the ribs. “Look at you go. Girls love musicians.” He laughed and squirmed away. “I’m serious, Dill,” she said. “That was hot. Talent is hot. Bravery is hot.”
Dill thought he could not be more filled with triumph. But the moment Lydia said that, he realized that he contained yet undiscovered spaces being flooded with it.
He didn’t get a chance to revel. “Dill!” Hippie Joe walked quickly toward them. Hippie Joe was a guidance counselor in his fifties. His name was Joseph Bryant, but everyone secretly called him Hippie Joe. He had a bushy mustache; shaggy gray hair; and wore round, wire-rimmed glasses. He favored joke ties and Converse with his khakis and button-down shirts. “That was fantastic! I’ve never seen a student perform like that! You had the ghosts of Bob Dylan and Neil Young in you! Well, they’re both still alive, but you know what I mean. Great job! I think you’ve got a future in music!”
“Thank you, Mr. Bryant.”
“Tell me when you have a gig somewhere. I’ll come watch you.”
“I will. Thank you.”
Nobody else said anything. They got outside to the parking lot. “I propose we go get something to eat. Specifically, I propose that I buy Dill some late lunch/early dinner, since he hasn’t eaten a thing today,” Lydia said.