I shifted my weight to one hip and crossed my arms. “What about the mask is confusing to you? He wears it so no one will know who he truly is.” I let out an exaggerated sigh and rolled my eyes. “I thought being a lieutenant meant you were smart.”
He let that slide by. “So you don’t know his identity.”
“Clearly.”
“Are you protecting him?”
“I don’t think he needs my protection.”
“Very well.” James stuffed the mask into his pocket again. “Let’s talk about your alias. You’re not the real Julianna Whitman, so where is she?”
“Dead, I assume. In Liadia with the rest of her people who couldn’t escape the wraith.”
“And you forged her residency papers.”
I paced across the cell. Of course I’d forged the papers.
“What about your friend, Melanie? Is that her real name? Where is she?”
I kept pacing, and the questions kept coming:
“What was your objective here?”
“Where did you learn so much about Liadian history?”
“What kind of information were you after? Was your mission complete? Who are your contacts outside the palace?”
I answered all of his questions with silence and the occasional raised eyebrow, and finally he moved on to the king’s assassination.
“Where were you that night?”
“Sleeping.”
“We found weapons in your room and on your person.”
“But not like the knife you described. Serrated blade? Strong assassin?” I pushed up my sleeve to reveal the slender muscles of my arms, and the pale blue bruises from his men’s hands. “Do you think I’m physically capable of cutting clean through someone’s throat?”
James glanced at my arm, and his expression tightened for a heartbeat. “You might be.”
The truth was, while I was strong from years of fighting and training, I had no idea how much pressure or strength it took to cut a man’s throat, with a serrated blade or otherwise. It probably wasn’t much, but I needed to sow doubt. I was guilty of impersonating a dead duchess, but I hadn’t killed their king.
“I found your drawings.”
I picked dirt from under my fingernails.
“As well as pages and pages of nonsense writing in different hands. Signatures written over and over. Forgery practice, I assume. So you could learn their handwriting. What were you doing with that? Which one is yours?”
“You’re a very determined young man, James Rayner.”
James ran through his questions again, pressing harder this time, so I stopped speaking altogether. I returned to my bench, propped my feet up as before, and covered my chest with my arms.
James’s shadow vanished from my cell. “She won’t speak.” His voice was low, distant. “Except with sarcasm. She’s a completely different girl.”
“That’s what I expected.” The other voice faded before I could tell who it was. A general? The prince? The men were leaving the dungeon.
I closed my eyes and sat in silence, only the drip drip drip for company. Desperately, I wanted to be hard. I wanted to be the girl I’d shown James just now—strong, sarcastic, and uncrackable.
But the bruises throbbed and, alone now, my mind took me back to the street in Hawksbill, soldiers all around. My wrists bound. Fingers digging into my flesh.
My stomach turned over again, but there was nothing left to throw up. I took long, deep breaths to clear the taste of bile from my tongue. My hands itched for my notebook and a good pen; writing had always calmed me.
A new shadow fell in front of the torch, blocking the glare from my eyes. “I don’t think you killed my father.”
“That makes you smarter than everyone in the Indigo Order.”
Keys jangled and the bars squealed open. Boots crunched rat droppings and a moment later, the crown prince sat on the bench next to my toes. “Please don’t try to escape. There are guards in the hall.”
I cracked open one eye. “How many?”
“Five.”
“That wouldn’t be enough to stop me.”
Exhaustion lined the prince’s face, and red rimmed his eyes, but he studied me and nodded. “You strike me as a dangerous person, my lady.”
“I’ve been told that before.”
Drip drip drip.
“If your name isn’t Julianna, what shall I call you?”
“Everyone is so interested in naming me.” I slipped my feet off the side of the bench and sat straight.
The prince didn’t flinch at my sudden movement. He sat, half trapped in misery, and I knew too well how he felt. Lost. Confused. Betrayed.
“I wasn’t lying yesterday,” I said. “I know what it’s like to lose a parent. I lost both of mine years ago, and their deaths still haunt me.”
He dropped his gaze and didn’t speak.
“Sometimes I wake up and wonder if I’m back in my real life, where they’re alive and everything is as it should be. But I never am. It makes me feel so alone.” I swallowed hard and watched the torchlight play across his features. “But I’m not alone. They loved me, and that love doesn’t go away just because they’re gone. The same goes for you. Your father loved you. He would have done anything for you. The pain may never go away, not wholly, but never forget that you meant everything to him.”
“You pretended to be someone you’re not for weeks. How do I know anything you say is true?”
“You don’t.” I glanced at the cell door. Closed. The keys must have been in the prince’s pocket. “You don’t know if anything I just said about my past is true, but you do know that everything I said about your present is. You know how your father felt, in spite of your unfortunate personality. Everyone does.”
Tobiah glanced at me and frowned. “And why offer comfort when you have such a low opinion of my personality? Do you think I’m going to let you out?”
I couldn’t stop the faint smile that crept up on me. “Because when my parents were murdered, someone I barely knew offered comfort. He had no reason to do it. I used to resent him for it, because as far as I could see, he’d lost nothing when I’d lost everything.” I dropped my gaze to my knees, trying not to slouch beneath the weight of old memories. “Now, I wonder if his kindness is part of what kept me human all these years.”
He raked his fingers through his hair and leaned back. “Tell me again where you were the night my father was killed.”
Back to the questions. I struggled to build up my defenses again, but I was exhausted. My whole body was heavy. “Sleeping.”
“You have no alibi?”
“I suppose I don’t.”
“Then I guess I’m done here.” He stood and shoved his hands into his pockets. Weariness made his shoulders curl inward. “Unless you want to tell me what to call you.”
“You have so many options. I still answer to Julianna.”
“James said you called yourself a nameless girl.”
“It’s what a friend calls me. Affectionately, I think. He doesn’t know my real name, either. Don’t imagine I’m going to tell you.”
“A friend, huh?” Tobiah was watching me, his dark eyes filled with grief and regret and a spark of familiarity. He knelt in front of the bench and pressed something small and silky into my fingers. “Oh, nameless girl.” His voice shifted deeper. “When will you learn to trust me?”
I turned my hand over to find the Black Knife mask.
My heart tumbled and twisted. “You?” Tobiah was Black Knife? How? When did he find time? Had his father known? What about James? Or Meredith? And why had he not revealed me as an impostor the first day Melanie and I walked into his father’s office?
“But you’re so sour and he’s so—” I clamped my mouth shut. “Sorry.” Maybe.
Oh no. No. I was in love with the boy who was the reason for the One-Night War. The reason my parents were dead.
His mouth turned up in a pale smile. “I’m not a good alibi. You’re right.”
“Especially when people think Black Knife did it.” Fighting to keep a steady hand, I let my fingertips touch his cheek, his chin. The sensation of his skin under mine, the planes and ridges of his face, and even the way he gasped and closed his eyes at my touch: I’d felt all of this before.
This couldn’t be real.
“That’s why I didn’t come last night. I’m sorry you got caught. I couldn’t think of a good way to warn you to stay in without you finding out.”
“But you told me just now.”
“Did I?” With that same tired smile, he took my hand and kissed my fingertips, but drew back when my sleeve slipped up to reveal my forearm. “Oh, Will. What happened? The guards?”
“It’s nothing.” Just the memory made my stomach turn over, but I hardened myself against it. I refused to show him—or anyone—how those men had hurt me.
“I know the way you lie. I’ve lived with it.” He checked my other arm, and his expression fell into something hard and dangerous. Shards of Black Knife manifested: his tone, the way his body tensed, the angle of his head. My heart pounded as he trailed his fingertips across my flushed skin. “Is it like this everywhere?”
I pressed my mouth into a line as I yanked away my arm. “It doesn’t hurt.”
“Will, you—” He shook his head and slumped. “I was going to suggest you don’t have to lie to me—to pretend to be someone you’re not. But I suppose I can see why you might not believe that.”
“How can I believe anything you do or don’t say? How can I believe your actions?” I curled my hands into fists and stared at them. There was no reason he should trust me, either; I was a thief, and an impostor. And worse. I shifted my tone, filling it with more regret. “You said it wouldn’t work for us. That you have other obligations.”
He exhaled. “That night in the breezeway—that was the truth of my feelings.”
“The truth of your actions doesn’t forgive the betrayal in them. What about your fiancée? What if you’d already been married? Would you have done the same?”
“Of course not.” He pulled back, indignant.
“There’s only one side of you I want.” I lifted my eyes to his. “And I’m willing to gamble there’s only one side she wants, too. You have to choose who you are.”
“I know.” Tobiah stood and stepped back, one graceful movement. “I have to go now, but you’ll be out of here soon.”
How had he fooled me for so long? How had he been so completely different? “You’re going to let me go?”
“I know you didn’t kill my father.” Grief pierced his words. “You aren’t a murderer.”
“I tried. Once. You stopped me. It wouldn’t be a stretch to believe I might try again.”
“But you didn’t commit this murder. We were together.” For a half second, his eyes dropped to my lips. “You know where to find me. I’ll have your things.” Our eyes met again briefly, and then the cell bars squealed and he was gone.