*
Vianne slipped a sleeping draught into Sophie’s lemonade and put the child to bed early. (Not the sort of thing that made one feel like a good mother, but neither was it all right to take Sophie with them tonight or let her waken alone. Bad choices. That was all there were anymore.) While waiting for her daughter to fall asleep, Vianne paced. She heard every clatter of wind against the shutters, every creaky settling of the timbers of the old house. At just past six o’clock, she dressed in her old gardening overalls and went downstairs.
She found Beck sitting on her divan, an oil lamp lit beside him. He was holding a small, framed portrait of his family. His wife—Hilda, Vianne knew—and his children, Gisela and Wilhelm.
At her arrival, he looked up but didn’t stand.
Vianne didn’t know quite what to do. She wanted him to be invisible right now, tucked behind the closed door of his room, someone she could completely discount. And yet he had risked his career to help Rachel. How could she ignore that?
“Bad things are happening, Madame. Impossible things. I trained to be a soldier, to fight for my country and make my family proud. It was an honorable choice. What will be thought of us upon our return? What will be thought of me?”
She sat down beside him. “I worry about what Antoine will think of me, too. I should not have given you that list of names. I should have been more frugal with my money. I should have worked harder to keep my job. Perhaps I should have listened to Isabelle more.”
“You should not blame yourself. I’m sure your husband would agree. We men are perhaps too quick to reach for our guns.”
He turned slightly, his gaze taking in her attire.
She was dressed in her overalls and a black sweater. A black scarf covered her hair. She looked like a housewife version of a spy.
“It is dangerous for her to run,” he said.
“And to stay, apparently.”
“And there it is,” he said. “A terrible dilemma.”
“Which is more dangerous, I wonder?” Vianne asked.
She expected no answer and was surprised when he said, “Staying, I think.”
Vianne nodded.
“You should not go,” he said.
“I can’t let her go alone.”
Beck considered that. Finally he nodded. “You know the land of Monsieur Frette, where the cows are raised?”
“Oui. But—”
“There is a cattle trail behind the barn. It leads to the least manned of the checkpoints. It is a long walk, but one should make the checkpoint before curfew. If someone were wondering about that. Not that I know anyone who is.”
“My father, Julien Rossignol, lives in Paris at 57 Avenue de La Bourdonnais. If I … didn’t come home one day…”
“I would see that your daughter made it to Paris.”
He rose, taking the picture with him. “I am to bed, Madame.”
She stood beside him. “I am afraid to trust you.”
“I would be more afraid not to.”
They were closer now, ringed together by the meager light.
“Are you a good man, Herr Captain?”
“I used to think so, Madame.”
“Thank you,” she said.
“Do not thank me yet, Madame.”
He left her alone with the light and returned to his room, closing the door firmly behind him.
Vianne sat back down, waiting. At seven thirty, she retrieved the heavy black shawl that hung from a hook by the kitchen door.
Be brave, she thought. Just this once.
She covered her head and shoulders with the shawl and went outside.
Rachel and her children were waiting for her behind the barn. A wheelbarrow was beside them; in it Ari lay wrapped in blankets, asleep. Tucked around him were a few possessions Rachel had chosen to take with her. “You have false papers?” Vianne asked.
Rachel nodded. “I don’t know how good they are, and they cost me my wedding ring.” She looked at Vianne. They communicated everything without speaking aloud.
Are you sure you want to come with us?
I’m sure.
“Why do we have to leave?” Sarah said, looking frightened.
Rachel put a hand on Sarah’s head and gazed down at her. “I need you to be strong for me, Sarah. Remember our talk?”
Sarah nodded slowly. “For Ari and Papa.”
They crossed the dirt road and pushed their way through the field of hay toward the copse of trees in the distance. Once in the spindly forest, Vianne felt safer, protected somewhat. By the time they arrived at the Frette property, night had fallen. They found the cattle trail that led into a deeper wood, where thick, ropey roots veined the dry ground, causing Rachel to have to push the wheelbarrow hard to keep it moving. Time and again, it thumped up over some root and clattered back down. Ari whimpered in his sleep and greedily sucked his thumb. Vianne could feel the sweat running down her back.
“I have been in need of exercise,” Rachel said, breathing heavily.
“And I love a good walk through the woods,” Vianne answered. “What about you, M’mselle Sarah, what do you find lovely about our adventure?”
“I’m not wearing that stupid star,” Sarah said. “How come Sophie isn’t with us? She loves the woods. Remember the scavenger hunts we used to have? She found everything first.”
Through a break in the trees up ahead, Vianne saw a flashing light, and then the black-and-white markings of the border crossing.
The gate was illuminated by lights so bright only the enemy would dare use them—or be able to afford to. A German guard stood by, his rifle glinting silver in the unnatural light. There was a small line of people waiting to pass through. Approval would only be granted if the paperwork was in order. If Rachel’s false papers didn’t work, she and the children would be arrested.
It was real suddenly. Vianne came to a stop. She would have to watch it all from here.
“I’ll write if I can,” Rachel said.
Vianne’s throat tightened. Even if the best happened, she might not hear from her friend for years. Or ever. In this new world, there was no certain way to keep in touch with those you loved.
“Don’t give me that look,” Rachel said. “We will be together again in no time, drinking champagne and dancing to that jazz music you love.”
Vianne wiped the tears from her eyes. “You know I won’t be seen with you in public when you start dancing.”
Sarah tugged at her sleeve. “T-tell Sophie I said good-bye.”
Vianne knelt down and hugged Sarah. She could have held on forever; instead she let go.
She started to reach for Rachel, but her friend backed away. “If I hug you I’ll cry and I can’t cry.”
Vianne’s arms dropped heavily to her side.
Rachel reached down for the wheelbarrow. She and her children left the protection of the trees and joined the queue of people at the checkpoint. A man on a bicycle pedaled through and kept going, and then an old woman pushing a flower cart was waved on. Rachel was almost to the front of the queue when a whistle shrieked and someone yelled in German. The guard turned his machine gun on the crowd and opened fire.
Tiny red bursts peppered the dark.
Ra-ta-ta-tat.
A woman screamed as the man beside her crumpled to the ground. The queue instantly dispersed; people ran in all directions.
It happened so fast Vianne couldn’t react. She saw Rachel and Sarah running toward her, back to the trees; Sarah in front, Rachel in back with the wheelbarrow.