*
“It is hot out today. I was thinking it would be a good day for swimming,” Vianne said with a smile.
The uproar was immediate and unanimous.
Vianne guided the children out of the orphanage classroom, keeping them tucked in close as they walked down the cloisters. They were passing Mother Superior’s office when the door opened.
“Madame Mauriac,” Mother said, smiling. “Your little gaggle looks happy enough to burst into song.”
“Not on a day this hot, Mother.” She linked her arm through Mother’s. “Come to the pond with us.”
“A thoroughly lovely idea on a September day.”
“Single file,” Vianne said to the children as they reached the main road. The children immediately fell into line. Vianne started them off on a song and they picked it up instantly, singing loudly as they clapped and bounced and skipped.
Did they even notice the bombed-out buildings they passed? The smoking piles of rubble that had once been homes? Or was destruction the ordinary view of their childhoods, unremarkable, unnoticeable?
Daniel—as always—stayed with Vianne, clinging to her hand. He was like that lately, afraid to be apart from her for long. Sometimes it bothered her, even broke her heart. She wondered if there was a part of him, deep down, that remembered all that he had lost—the mother, the father, the sister. She worried that when he slept, curled up against her side, he was Ari, the boy left behind.
Vianne clapped her hands. “Children, you are to cross the street in an orderly fashion. Sophie, you are my leader.”
The children crossed the street carefully and then raced up the hill to the wide, seasonal pond that was one of Vianne’s favorite places. Antoine had first kissed her at this very spot.
At the water’s edge, the students started stripping down. In no time, they were in the water.
She looked down at Daniel. “Do you want to go play in the water with your sister?”
Daniel chewed his lower lip, watching the children splash in the still, blue water. “I don’t know…”
“You don’t have to swim if you don’t want to. You could just get your feet wet.”
He frowned, his round cheeks bunched in consideration. Then he let go of her hand and walked cautiously toward Sophie.
“He still clings to you,” Mother said.
“He has nightmares, too.” Vianne was about to say, Lord knows I do, when nausea hit. She mumbled, “Excuse me,” and ran through the tall grass to a copse of trees, where she bent over and vomited. There was almost nothing in her stomach, but the dry heaves went on and on, leaving her feeling weak and exhausted.
She felt Mother’s hand on her back, rubbing her, soothing her.
Vianne straightened. She tried to smile. “I’m sorry. I don’t—” She stopped. The truth washed over her. She turned to Mother. “I threw up yesterday morning.”
“Oh, no, Vianne. A baby?”
Vianne didn’t know whether to laugh or cry or scream at God. She had prayed and prayed for another child to grow in her womb.
But not now.
Not his.
*
Vianne hadn’t slept in a week. She felt rickety and tired and terrified. And her morning sickness had gotten even worse.
Now she sat at the edge of the bed, looking down at Daniel. At five, he was outgrowing his pajamas again; skinny wrists and ankles stuck out from the frayed sleeves and pant legs. Unlike Sophie, he never complained about being hungry or reading by candlelight or the terrible gray bread their rations provided. He remembered nothing else.
“Hey, Captain Dan,” she said, pushing the damp black curls out of his eyes. He rolled onto his back and grinned up at her, showing off his missing front teeth.
“Maman, I dreamed there was candy.”
The door to the bedroom banged open. Sophie appeared, breathing hard. “Come quick, Maman.”
“Oh, Sophie, I am—”
“Now.”
“Come on, Daniel. She looks serious.”
He surged at her exuberantly. He was too big for her to carry, so she hugged him tightly and then withdrew. She retrieved the only clothes that fit him—a pair of canvas pants that had been made from painter’s cloth she’d found in the barn and a sweater she’d knitted with precious blue wool. When he was dressed, she took his hand and led him into the living room. The front door was standing open.
Bells were ringing. Church bells. It sounded as if music were playing somewhere. “La Marseillaise”? On a Tuesday at nine in the morning?
Outside, Sophie stood beneath the apple tree. A line of Nazis marched past the house. Moments later came the vehicles. Tanks and lorries and automobiles rumbled past Le Jardin, one after another, churning up dust.
A black Citro?n pulled over to the side of the road and parked. Von Richter got out and came to her, his boots dirty, his eyes hidden behind black sunglasses, his mouth drawn into a thin, angry line.
“Madame Mauriac.”
“Herr Sturmbannführer.”
“We are leaving your sorry, sickly little town.”
She didn’t speak. If she had, she would have said something that could get her killed.
“This war isn’t over,” he said, but whether this was for her benefit or his own, she wasn’t sure.
His gaze flicked past Sophie and landed on Daniel.
Vianne stood utterly still, her face impassive.
He turned to her. The newest bruise on her cheek made him smile.
“Von Richter!” someone in the entourage yelled. “Leave your French whore behind.”
“That’s what you were, you know,” he said.
She pressed her lips together to keep from speaking.
“I’ll forget you.” He leaned forward. “I wonder if you can say the same.”
He marched into the house and came out again, carrying his leather valise. Without a glance at her, he returned to his automobile. The door slammed shut behind him.
Vianne reached for the gate to steady herself.
“They’re leaving,” Sophie said.
Vianne’s legs gave out. She crumpled to her knees. “He’s gone.”
Sophie knelt beside Vianne and held her tightly.
Daniel ran barefooted through the patch of dirt between them. “Me, too!” he yelled. “I want a hug!” He threw himself into them so hard they toppled over, fell into the dry grass.