“Better she does well at Cabrelli’s,” Matelda said. “I hope my family keeps the business going after we’re gone.”
“I’m the fourth generation in the shop. Don’t worry about the future, Nonna,” Anina assured her.
“I will always worry.”
“And there’s good reason for that. The family business is forever in peril, a delicate operation,” Olimpio offered. “There’s a danger of going under every morning when you turn the key in the lock. The success of the family business lies in the ring of the cash register: how many times a day it rings, and how many times a day it doesn’t. But I don’t want you to think about it, my love. I want you to relax.” Olimpio kissed Matelda.
“I want to learn the wheel.” Anina looked at her grandfather.
“You want to cut stone?”
“Yes, Nonno, I do. Do you think I can do it?”
“Of course you can,” Matelda interrupted. “Haven’t I been telling you that for years?”
“It takes seven years to master the wheel,” Olimpio reminded Anina.
“That’s seven years I’d like to give to Cabrelli’s.”
Olimpio placed his hand on Anina’s. He reached down and held Matelda’s with the other. “You have a deal, Anina.”
* * *
“Yoo-hoo? Matelda?” Ida Casciacarro stepped off the elevator and into Matelda’s apartment. Ida looked all around, giving the apartment the once-over. The room was so bright, Ida did not remove her sunglasses.
“She’s on the terrace, Signora,” Anina called out.
Ida poked her head into the kitchen. “How is she?”
“She’s getting stronger.”
“Thank God!” She handed Anina a bag. “Sesame cookies. I made them myself. They’re still warm. Whatever you don’t eat today, freeze.”
Ida joined Matelda on the terrace. “You look good, Matelda.”
“No, I don’t.”
“You’ve lost weight.”
“A little. Big deal. Everybody is thin in the end. And what good is it then?”
“Exactly.” Ida laughed. “The sun is helping, isn’t it? The healer in the sky.”
Matelda whispered, “Where’s my family?”
“They can’t hear you.”
“I’m going down the pipe, Ida. The end is coming soon.”
“How do you know?”
“I don’t have the breath to get those balls in that plastic box to jump.”
“The breath machine.” Ida clucked.
“Whatever the hell they call it. Those balls lie in the bottom of that cup like they’re made of lead.”
“I hate gizmos.” Ida sat down. “Who wants to play breathing games at our age?”
“How’s your grandson?”
“Lorenzo got another tattoo to celebrate his six months of sobriety. He’s running out of limbs to cover. Do you remember, when we were kids, ever seeing anyone drunk in Viareggio? Never! What is wrong with my family? Thank God the Metriones are dead because the Casciacarros have hit the skids.”
“Don’t worry about him, Ida. He got sober. He’s a strong person. You’re a good family.”
“Not good enough.” Ida gestured with her hand.
Matelda laughed, but it caused her to cough. “Your family has seen worse.”
“I know. That’s where it comes from—they see worse, and therefore they do worse. What’s the difference to them?”
“Anina canceled her wedding.”
“I heard. She’s a smart girl. A seer! She can see the future. Maybe she should be cutting tarot cards instead of rock. She is doing the right thing. Take a hard stand with that nonsense when they’re young, because when men hit forty, it’s over. It only gets worse.”
“We push men through the midlife crisis, and ten years later they need a pill to get the train moving.”
“You can keep the train. I jumped off that train and didn’t even get a bruise,” Ida confirmed.
The old friends laughed.
“I want you to get better, Picci.”
“It’s out of my hands. God’s will be done.”
“God’s will,” Ida said, echoing her friend’s prayer. “My mother told me that she was grateful to have the time to sit and think before she died.”
“Your mother was right. A little time is a big gift. All my life I worried about death. Not my own, but, you know, the kids, my parents. Friends. There’s no way to prepare for death unless you’re the one dying.”
“Are you sure you’re dying?” Ida looked into Matelda’s eyes. “You don’t have the look of death. You don’t have the rattle. I don’t see any signs.”
“I don’t know when, Ida. But it’s getting closer.”
Ida leaned in. “Is there anything you want? Anything I can get you?”
“I have what I need. I’m home. I have a nice wheelchair. Better than a Maserati. Keeps me right here, where I belong. That ocean is my salvation. It’s been my constant companion, you know. My mental health. I come out here and talk to God. I’ve been doing it all my life. How lucky I am. I grew up in this house, I raised my family here, and I will die here.”
“You Cabrellis with the villa. How many houses did Hitler bomb in Viareggio, and this one made it! Do you ever think about that?”
“That Nazi bastard got me good in other ways, so let’s not get too excited about what we didn’t lose.”
“Did you hear about Bim? He dropped dead last night. You remember Bim? He was in our class. He was a looker. I always thought Bim looked like Robert Redford when he was young.”
“How does he look now?”
“Robert Redford? Better than Bim. He looks like The Way He Was.” Ida laughed at her own joke.
“It’s awful to get old.” Matelda sighed. “They’re fussing over me.”
“Let them. At a certain point, you get to be our age and look around the room and you realize that you’ve changed the diapers of every person that is taking care of you. So if they want to get you a cookie, or help you take a bath, let them. As long as they don’t drop you.” She checked her watch. “I have to go. I have a doctor’s appointment.”
“What’s wrong with you?”
“My feet. My toes are so bad—when I’m barefoot, they look like I’m wearing the shoebox instead of the shoe.”
“Are they that bad?”