A ladder, Harper thought. Not the big ladder mounted to the roof, but one of the smaller ones packed into the rear cabinets.
She hopped back over that long ribbon of fire (what exactly was burning? it didn’t smell like gasoline) and made her way to the rear of the truck. Compartments all along the fire engine had been torn open and she stepped carefully through a Lincoln Log tangle of ax handles and crowbars. She was in a hurry and almost stepped on the cat, recoiled when it yowled at her in alarm.
Harper caught herself, took a step back. Mr. Truffles gazed up at her, his jade-colored eyes glazed with shock, his fur ruffled up. Renée had got all of them away from the truck except for him, it seemed.
“Oh, you,” Harper said, crouching down and reaching toward him. “My God, how did you survive? I wonder how many of your nine lives you just used up.”
“All of ’em,” Jakob said and a shovel swiped down through the smoke and struck the cat like a croquet mallet impacting the ball.
Mr. Truffles flew, broken-necked and dead, through the air and into the brush. Harper screamed and went straight back, falling on her butt. Jakob lifted the shovel over his head in both hands. She pushed herself back with her heels and the blade of the shovel came down in the soft blacktop between her feet.
She dragged herself away from him, pulling herself along on her bottom, through broken glass and loose rock. He had to wiggle the handle of the shovel back and forth to loosen the blade before he could step forward and she had time to get a good look at him. His right hand was blackened and burned to the texture of fried chicken skin. The flesh had fissured to show ripe, pink meat beneath, glistening with pus. The right side of his face was charred too, and the hair on that side of his head was still smoking. An old black burn in the shape of a man’s hand mottled the loose flesh of his throat.
He came forward, flat-footed and slow, with nothing of his former dancing grace. When he spoke, his voice was thick and slurred. His lips had fused together at one corner of his mouth.
“I was right when I said you made me sick, babygirl,” he said. “It’s true you didn’t contaminate me with Dragonscale, but you made me sick in a different way. A worse way. Being around you was like having a low-grade fever. A woman like you is a kind of infection. You were living off me like a bacteria. You don’t know how badly I want to be well. To be cured of you.”
He took another swipe, but she pushed back on her heels. The shovel blade sliced through the haze, dragging silky shreds of smoke behind it.
“I thought you would be my muse, once,” he said, and laughed, a strange, discordant sound. “I thought you’d inspire me! Well. In the end, you sure did. In the end, you led me to my real calling: putting out fires. I’m such a good little fireman, I put them out before they even start. You see? In a way, you were my muse!”
She was no more a muse than he had ever been a writer, Harper thought, and she wasn’t sorry, not for that. Jakob could only see her in terms of blame or inspiration, but either way it reduced her to a kind of fuel. Either way, she had always just been something for him to burn up.
“Is your boyfriend still alive?” Jakob asked, nodding back toward the truck. “I want him to be alive. I want to slice off your head and put it in his lap before I kill him. I want him to look into your face one last time and say your name. I want him to know that he couldn’t keep what he took away from me.”
In her mind, Harper began to sing without words. Her left hand sputtered, smoked, glowed, and began to flicker with firelight. She lifted it and Jakob smashed it with the shovel and the flame went out. Harper shouted at the pain of it.
“Did he teach you a little trick?” Jakob asked. “Besides how to suck his cock? Too bad he didn’t teach you not to play with fire. A woman your age ought to know how that ends, babygirl. Little girls who play with fire get burnt in the end. They get burnt all up gone.”
But Harper wasn’t listening. Harper was looking past him. She felt a sick rush of blood to her heart and was having trouble finding her breath.
“Pay attention to me,” Jakob said. He put the point of the shovel under her chin and used it to lift her head, forcing her to look up into his eyes. “I’m talking to you, babygirl. Did you even hear what I just said? Did you listen to me at all? Little girls shouldn’t play with fire. That’s how people get hurt.”
“Yes,” Harper whispered. “You’re right. I’m so sorry, Jakob.”
He narrowed his eyes in a question, then started to turn his head.
By then, the woman of flame had crossed half the distance between him and the truck. She was Jakob’s very height, and her hair flowed for yards behind her, yellow and red. She was nude, in a sense, although her shifting, wavering shape seemed more like a form made out of crimson silks. Her eyes alone burnt hot blue, like the flame of a blowtorch. She left footprints behind her—footprints of red flame.
“Mom?” Allie said, from thirty feet away. She had made her way down the incline after all, and stood there holding Nick’s hand. Her voice was small and bewildered.
The woman of fire threw a hatchet of flame. It wasn’t there until the instant she drew back her hand. It struck Jakob in the face and he screamed, flame splattering across his features, up into his hair. She cocked back her hand and a new hatchet of fire appeared in it, leaping into her fist out of nowhere. She threw again, coming toward him. The second hatchet struck him in the chest and the filthy, oil-stained ruin of his white T-shirt ignited. He took a staggering step toward her, but he couldn’t see through the black smoke engulfing his head. She stepped aside like a bullfighter. He stumbled and fell to one knee.
She sank down beside him and took him gently into her blazing arms.
18
Allie crouched at the bottom of the embankment with Nick in her arms. She clutched her brother’s face to her chest and buried her own head in his shoulder, the pair of them squeezed together like the two halves of a walnut.
The flame that had once been a woman rose from the black and smoking corpse of Jakob Grayson. She left her kill and walked toward the children. Her heels left bubbling footprints. liquefying the asphalt beneath them.
When she was ten feet from Nick and Allie, she lowered herself with an exquisite grace, hooking her ankles and sinking down to sit cross-legged. Allie lifted her head and peered at her, then squeezed Nick’s shoulder to let him know it was okay to look.
Her golden hair flowed and crackled. The road beneath her was melting, turning to a puddle of tar.
Nick spoke with his hands. He said, “Mom?”
She nodded and said, “I was once,” moving her hands in swirls of fire. “Most of who I was has burned away.”
“I’ve missed you,” he said, and Allie finger-spelled, “Me, too. So much.”
Sarah nodded again. The top of her head was an open chalice of flame. Whatever she was burning to stay with them—the air and a million whirling grains of spore—she was using it up fast now, cooling out, cooling off. When the breeze gusted, she rippled like a reflection in unsettled waters.
“It was all my fault,” Nick told her with his hands.
“You don’t blame a match for starting a fire,” the Sarah flame said. “You blame the person who strikes it. You were just a match.”
“You’d still be with us if I hadn’t tried to teach you how to cast fire.”
With her hands, she said, “I am still with you.” With gestures, she said, “I am always with you. Love never burns away. It just keeps on and on.”
They were crying again. Perhaps she wept as well. Flame dripped from her face and spattered in the road.