Adam closed his eyes.
What now?
“Put down four of them,” Persephone said. “No, three. Three. Past, present, future. Faceup.”
Carefully, Adam laid three cards on the table. The art in Persephone’s deck was dark, smudgy, barely visible in this dim light. The figures on them seemed to move. He read the words at the bottom of each: The Tower. The Hanged Man. Nine of swords.
Persephone pursed her lips.
Adam’s eyes drifted from the first card, where men fell from a burning tower, to the second, where a man hung upside down from a tree. And then to the last, where a man wept into his hands. That third card, that utter despair. He couldn’t take his gaze from it.
Adam said, “It looks like he’s woken from a nightmare.”
It looks, he thought, like I will, if the vision from the dreaming tree comes true.
When Adam lifted his eyes to Persephone, he was certain she was seeing the same things he was seeing. He could tell from the flattening of her lips, the remorse in her eyes. The room stretched out around them, black and limitless. A cave or an old forest or a flat, mirror-black lake. The future kept being a something Adam was thrown into: a quest, a sacrifice, the dead face of a best friend.
“No,” Adam said softly.
Persephone echoed, “No?”
“No.” He shook his head. “Maybe this is the future. But it’s not the end.”
Persephone said, “Are you sure?”
There was a note to her voice that hadn’t been there before. Adam thought about it. He thought about the warm feeling to the deck of cards, and how he’d asked that question what now and they had given him this terrible answer. He thought about how he could still hear the sound of Persephone’s voice echoing all around him, although it should have disappeared into the close walls of this reading room. He thought about how he had been Cabeswater and felt the corpse road snaking through him.
He said, “I am. I’m — I’m pulling another card.”
He hesitated, waiting for her to tell him it wasn’t allowed. But she just waited. Adam cut the deck, laid his hand on each stack. He took the card that felt warmer.
Flipping it, he placed the card beside the nine of swords.
A robed figure stood before a coin, a cup, a sword, a wand — all of the symbols of all the tarot suits. An infinity symbol floated above his head; one arm was lifted in a posture of power. Yes, thought Adam. Understanding prickled and then evaded him.
He read the words at the bottom of the card.
The Magician.
Persephone let out a long, long breath and began to laugh. It was a relieved laugh that sounded as if she’d been running.
“Adam,” she said, “finish your pie.”
Blue had indeed cut herself.
After Adam had gone into the reading room, she’d experimentally opened the switchblade and it had obligingly attacked her. It was just a scratch, really. It barely warranted a Band-Aid, but she put one on anyway.
She did not feel like Blue Sargent, superhero, or Blue Sargent, desperado, or Blue Sargent, badass.
Maybe she shouldn’t have told the truth.
Even though it had been hours since the fight, her heart still felt jittery. Like it wasn’t attached to anything and every time it beat, it rattled around in her chest cavity. She kept replaying their words. She shouldn’t have lost her temper; she should have told him at the very beginning; she should have — Anything but how it happened.
Why couldn’t I have fallen in love with him?
He was sleeping now, thrown across the couch, lips parted in unselfconscious exhaustion. Persephone had informed Blue that she expected him to sleep for sixteen to eighteen hours after the ritual, and that he might experience light nausea or vomiting once he woke. Maura, Persephone, and Calla sat at the kitchen table, heads together, debating. Every so often, Blue heard snatches of conversation: should have done it sooner and but he needed to accept it!
She looked at him again. He was handsome and he liked her and if she hadn’t told him the truth, she could have dated him like a normal girl and even kissed him without worrying about killing him.
Blue stood by the front door, her head leaning against the wall.
But she didn’t want that. She wanted something more.
Maybe there is nothing else!
Maybe she’d go for a walk, just her and the pink switchblade. They were a good pair. Both incapable of opening up without cutting someone. She didn’t know where she’d go, though.
She crept up to the reading room, quietly, so that she wouldn’t wake Adam or alert Orla. Picking up the phone, she listened to make sure no one was having a psychic experience on the other end. Dial tone.
She called Gansey.
“Blue?” he said.
Just his voice. Her heart tethered itself. Not completely, but enough to stop quivering so much. She closed her eyes.
“Take me somewhere?”