The Change

It wouldn’t have been such a leap, truth be told. She’d been seeing things through men’s eyes for years. Her entire career, men had informed her what was good and what wasn’t. And she’d always assumed they were right. Even if an ad was meant to speak to women like her, a male creative director would decide if it was worthy of airtime. They’d listen to her opinion, but the final call was theirs. After a decision was made, you either drank the Kool-Aid—or you found yourself another job.

What made them so confident in their vision, Harriett wondered? And what had kept her from insisting on her own? She’d always hated Chase’s design for the garden. Every spring, she’d ask if they could try something different. And every fucking year, Chase’s vision would prevail.

“I introduced half of the plants to this garden,” Harriett said. “The other half showed up on their own.”

“That’s an odd way to grow a garden, don’t you think? No wonder it’s out of control.”

“It’s nature,” Harriett said.

“It’s hideous,” Clarke countered.

Harriett smiled and cocked her head. Suddenly, everything seemed clear. “Mr. Clarke, do you find my garden offensive because you can’t control it?”

“Gardens are where nature is trained and domesticated. You’ve let it run rampant. Do you want your neighbors to consider your property an eyesore?”

Harriett nodded. At last she understood why he’d come. He didn’t want to look at her garden; therefore, it shouldn’t exist. He’d landed on a solution he believed would suit everyone. Chase would have his house. The town would have its monument to good taste. And Harriett and her garden would be back under control.

“Tell me, Mr. Clarke—is there a reason I should care what you think?”

“Excuse me?”

“I’m genuinely curious.” She crossed one leg over the other so he could get a good look at how furry it was. “Can you give me one good reason?”

“I’m not the only one who’s concerned, Harriett.”

“Ms. Osborne.”

“Ms. Osborne. Most of your neighbors share my view.”

“Perhaps, but I’m an adult, and this is my house. I can grow what I like in my garden. Wear what I choose. What difference does it make what you or anyone else thinks is normal? Why the fuck should I care if you approve?”

“I’m merely concerned—”

Harriett stopped him. Her smile spread like sunshine across her face. She hadn’t felt this good in ages. “You’re concerned? How sweet of you. Are we related in some way? Are we friends? Have I been over to your house for dinner? Are any of your children named after me?”

“No,” he admitted. “But you are my client.”

“Yes, and I believe you’ve been well compensated, am I right? Have I failed to pay any of your bills?”

“No.”

“Then I’m not sure what your cause for concern might be. Do your male clients receive this level of service?”

“I’m afraid you’ve misunderstood—”

“No,” Harriett snapped, cutting him off. “I haven’t. You came here to run me out of the neighborhood. I’ve been paying you by the hour to settle my divorce, and now you’re here wasting both my time and my money. You’ve been feeding on me a little too long, Mr. Clarke. The house is mine. As soon as you leave, I’ll find a new attorney. And don’t you dare send me a bill for this visit.”

“Ms. Osborne—” Clarke stopped and reached up to the skin on the left side of his neck, where there was a sizable black nub just above his collar. Moments earlier, it had been a mere speck. She could see it growing, its body ballooning with blood as the lawyer’s faced turned white. “Oh my God, it’s a tick!”

She’d been thinking about parasites right before it appeared. Had she conjured it? If so, what else could she do? The tick was the size of a dime now, much bigger than any she’d ever seen. Its head remained buried in the lawyer’s flesh, and despite his frantic efforts to remove it, the parasite refused to let go. How much bigger could it get? Harriett wondered. She licked her lips and waited to see.

“I know what it is, Mr. Clarke,” Harriett said. “I’m perfectly capable of recognizing a bloodsucker when I see one. Perhaps you should follow my example and remove yours before it bleeds you dry.”



Later that day, after the sun had set, there was a knock at the door. Harriett flung it open at once, fully prepared to confront the next challenge. On the other side of the door was the handsome deliveryman, her grocery bags cradled in his arms. They stood there, face-to-face. Eric didn’t remind her of Chase, and he bore so little resemblance to Clarke that it was hard to imagine they shared the same species.

“May I ask you a question?” Harriett inquired.

“Sure,” he said.

“What do you think of my living room?” She stepped to the side so he could see it clearly. She watched his eyes tour her indoor garden.

“Yeah, I’ve been meaning to ask you about that,” he replied cautiously.

“Really?” Harriett steeled herself for disappointment. Maybe all men were the same after all.

“Looks like you’ve got a real green thumb.”

The grin returned. “I guess you could say that.”

“Well, I’ve been having some trouble with rot in my grow room, and I was wondering if you might be interested in taking a look. I don’t have much money, but I could pay you in product.”

Harriett beamed. “Please. Come inside,” she said.

He was still asleep in her bed the next morning when she pulled on a Tom Ford–era Gucci skirt and took the train into Manhattan for what, she half knew, would be her last day of work.





Whales




Andrew Howard had taken the kids to visit his parents, and Harriett and Celeste had spent the night in the cabin of Celeste’s boat. Enveloped in a fog of intoxicating smoke, their skin sticky with sweat and salt, they’d explored every last inch of each other’s skin. The sex in Celeste’s previous relationships had settled into a predictable pattern after two or three months. She’d always assumed that once you found something you enjoyed, you should do your best to repeat it. Four months had passed since that first afternoon with Harriett, and new discoveries kept being made. Celeste never knew how Harriett would decide to take her—and she never anticipated how she would respond. It was a quest with no destination. An adventure without a map. Celeste realized she’d never really known her own body. Without inhibitions or anxieties to limit her, there was nowhere she wouldn’t go. She didn’t look to the future, and she no longer dwelled on the past. Falling for Harriett had freed her from all that.

At sunrise, Harriett had risen from bed. That wasn’t unusual. Harriett never seemed to need sleep. But when an hour had passed and she hadn’t returned, Celeste went up top to find her. There was no one on deck, but she didn’t panic. Then she’d heard a faint splashing in the distance. Using binoculars, she scanned the horizon. There was Harriett, buck naked, doing the breaststroke. A whale breached in the distance, then disappeared beneath the waves.

Now Harriett stood on the bow of the boat as it neared the Pointe, a white dress pinned to her form by the wind. Her long, sun-stained limbs could have been carved from oak, and a silver-streaked nimbus of hair framed her head. Celeste brought the boat alongside Jackson Dunn’s dock, where Leonard Shaw was waiting to greet his guest.

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