Snow Like Ashes (Snow Like Ashes, #1)



CHAPTER 18

AS THE SUN hovers a few hours past noon, I find myself with my back to Bithai’s most outlying buildings. The ones the citizens were all frantically running away from, seeking shelter within the city’s high stone walls while soldiers took up their stations on the sweeping fields of green.

Noam, Theron, and a few high-ranking generals stayed in the tower by the gate while the rest of the men, myself included, were pulled down to add numbers to the field. The sea of soldiers stretches so far around me that I can’t see the green of Bithai’s grass, just silver armor and dark weapons and ready, waiting bodies. Cavalry take up the outer flanks, rows and rows of infantry fill the center, and two long lines of archers stand at the back on the sloping edge of Bithai’s plateau. Which is where I am, the metal crossbow loaded in my grip.

The past few hours have been filled with preparations, getting lined up and making sure everyone had proper gear. Now that everything is set, it all has time to catch up to me. I inhale, exhale, my breath heating up the helmet, my pulse hammering in my ears and echoing around the metal that encases my head. The waiting is the worst part—with food-scouting missions, I never had a chance to get nervous. They were so fleeting that by the time they were over, I hadn’t even realized I was supposed to feel more than a rush of adrenaline. But now, listening to my heartbeat and watching the horizon and waiting, waiting, waiting for battle—it’s horrible.

The rest of the Winterians stand behind the archers in their own group. Noam can’t help us with his conduit, can’t pour strength or will into us because we aren’t Cordellan and, therefore, remain unaffected by his magic—the same way we couldn’t affect any of his people if our conduit was whole. And we’re the reason why Spring is attacking—if we all die, it becomes a bit of a lost cause, regardless of Noam’s empty threat to hand us over to Angra.

Mather made sure to position himself a few paces behind and to my right, mounted on a horse should he need to swoop in. He hasn’t moved to make good on his own threat either, and I breathe a little easier every time I see that he hasn’t vanished to surrender to Angra. I look back at him, desperately wanting to rip off my accursed helmet. Iron smell or no iron smell, this thing’s nothing but an airless metal oven, and no Winterian likes heat.

Mather shifts on his horse, eyebrows coming together in a question. You all right?

I nod. He shifts again, says something to Sir, who shakes his head fiercely.

My body thuds with longing. I should be there, back with them, not hiding among Noam’s archers. Come battle time, when Noam wills his regiments to move one way or another, I’ll be at a loss as to which way to go. If Noam wills his archers to shoot left and I let one fly right, it’ll give me away.

I shake off my worries, refocusing on the weight of the metal crossbow in my hands and the energy surging around me. Captain Dominick sits three rows ahead in the infantry, overseeing his men on horseback. No one says a word, no one shouts orders, no one even breathes too loudly. We’re all just waiting in the heart-shattering anticipation of death marching toward us.

The sun drops lower. Lower still. It’s at this moment, when the late afternoon’s heat is barely playing with us, that a ripple runs through the men. They stand straighter, all eyes sweeping south. Spring’s army has been spotted.

I’ve never seen a Royal Conduit–led battle before. Sir told me about them, of course, reiterated Spring-versus-Winter battles in such epic detail that I could almost smell the cannon fire on the air. Through the conduit, rulers can will entire regiments to move as one, shift people around like they’re arranging items on a tabletop. It’s not a forceful push; more like a subconscious suggestion—soldiers can choose not to follow their leader’s conduit-channeled instructions. But it’s usually in the soldiers’ best interest to follow their leader’s will.

Sir’s history lessons roll through my head alongside what I read in the magic book. Each Royal Conduit is like a horse; use it too much or too quickly and it tires out, and leaders have to wait for it to rest before they can use it again. Use it too often, too aggressively and, well, we don’t know what could happen—no one has ever been stupid enough to let it dry up completely, if it even could. The monarchs can feel when the magic gets low, a tug at their instincts like that uncomfortable feeling of something wrong. And it’s a passive magic—only when the bearer consciously chooses to draw it out does it work.

If Noam uses his conduit steadily, it could give Cordell a huge advantage. Angra never leaves his palace in Spring, and Herod, who is most likely leading this charge, won’t have the same control over his men. Angra’s magic may make their minds numb with a devotion to Spring that lasts beyond Spring’s borders, but he won’t be able to tell them how to move, where to attack, when to pull back. For all our sakes, I hope that advantage is enough.

When the Cordellan soldiers perk up, we do too. I risk one more glance behind me, noting who’s here and who’s not. Alysson’s the only one missing. Which leaves seven of us.

The archers raise their crossbows and I fumble to match their rhythm. The crossbow is so much heavier than my chakram, bulky and dense, but I can do this. I’ve done this before. I’ve just never done this as part of an army, wearing a constricting helmet.

I keep my finger on the trigger, my breaths coming slower and slower. No one fires yet, we just keep our crossbows aimed at the sky.

“Come on,” the man next to me hisses.

His anxiety pushes at me, a flame that catches and spreads like wildfire through the group. Soon everyone is twitching for the battle to start.

Then the sound everyone was waiting for, the vibration that sends everyone’s anxiety rearing higher.

Cannon fire.

A single shot comes from somewhere distant, too far away to hit anyone. A warning meant to announce Spring’s arrival. The shot fades to an echo and Spring’s army rises up over the horizon in the fading sun of the late afternoon, their soldiers nothing but a black mass that sweeps down over Cordell’s distant hills like a plague. Another cannon fires, then two more, closer and closer—

Thwack.

The archers let loose the first round. I snap to fire with them, launching my arrow in an arc over the infantry. Are they within range already? Are they close enough to—

Yes, they are. Spring’s so close, in fact, that before our arrows even complete their arcs, three cannonballs rip holes in the first lines of Noam’s infantry. The black mass of Spring soldiers is close enough now that I can see them running toward us, weapons raised, shrill war cries tearing out of their throats.

Five seconds. Four seconds. Three.

Two.

One.

The force of the two armies colliding sends a shockwave through the men. They return Spring’s war cries with screams of their own, howling into the air as the familiar numbing focus of the fight sweeps over me. I fire three more rounds along with the archers before I realize the group has split in two, half running one way and half running the other, fanning to spread out Cordell’s force.

I step to my right, second-guess, then step to my left as a line of infantrymen heaves backward, slamming into me and throwing me to the ground. I roll to the side, flip around, narrowly avoiding stomping boots and clomping horse hooves as Dominick’s men move in one giant mass to the back left. Noam’s pulling them around—why?

A hand grabs my arm and before I can process who it is, I’m clinging to a saddle and hefting my leg up to straddle the horse.

“I trained you to blend in better than that,” the rider throws back at me.

I freeze, arms around Sir’s waist, cheeks warm in shame and frustration at being caught. On the bright side, I can take off the helmet now.

As I yank the metal oven off my head and toss it to the ground, Sir urges his horse to a trot behind Dominick’s regiment. They continue to pull behind the rest of the infantry, moving to the left and back. The rest of the infantry closes in to fill their gap.

“Are you going to take me back to the palace?”

Dominick’s men swing to the right, aligning themselves behind the leftmost cavalry.

“You’re going to stay with me,” Sir hisses. He motions to my crossbow. “Cut down the closest ones first. Whatever you do, whatever happens, do not stop firing.”

I yank an arrow into my crossbow as Sir kicks his horse into a gallop. We shoot past Dominick’s soldiers, bearing wide around the cavalrymen until we line up with the first row of riders.

“Three counts,” the cavalry captain tells Sir.

“Your mark.”

The captain raises his sword into the air. I lean around Sir, scanning the horizon for what we’re going to be fighting. And there, from Bithai’s lush green hills, a wave of nightmares rises.

Angra’s cavalry crests a hill in front of us, horses coated in armor, soldiers raising crossbows or swords or axes. More infantrymen in black sun armor run between the pounding hooves.

That’s why Noam pulled Dominick’s regiment here. On the far left, if that cavalry breaks through, they’ll be able to work their way between the rest of Noam’s army and Bithai’s gate.

Another rider gallops up beside us. Mather. He meets my eyes, steady and sure, as Spring’s riders draw nearer. Just one more hill, and they’ll be within arrow range.

“One,” the captain shouts, breaking me away from Mather’s eyes. “Two.”

I lift my crossbow into the air. This is it. I’ve been in hand-to-hand combat with small groups of Spring soldiers, but never a battle. A strange calm settles over everyone, something not urged from Noam’s conduit. A deeper instinct that blocks everything else.

“Three!”

Sir and I heave forward with Noam’s cavalry. The world slows until there’s nothing more than the pounding of our horses’ hooves, the screaming of the soldiers, the wave of arrows that rises up from Spring’s archers and paints the sky with violent streaks of black.

I fire my crossbow, fire again, slowly lowering my arc as we draw closer and closer to Spring’s riders. In those final seconds before we collide, Sir reaches down and touches my leg. Mather turns to look at me, his eyes wide in the calm before the storm. I feel everything happening around me as if watching from a dream.

Years of training take over. Our horses merge seamlessly into Spring’s cavalry and arrows fly, swords slice through the air and into throats, knives lodge in chests. My crossbow sings out the hum of arrows flying, a symphony that ends in satisfying thwacks into shoulders and knees and other weak points in Spring’s armor. My crossbow isn’t a weapon I’m holding—it is me, and I am it, and the two of us bring down soldier after soldier like we were made to do nothing else.

Sir rears his horse around and I break out of my stupor long enough to note that we’ve crossed through all of Angra’s cavalry. At first I’m flooded with the sweet, pure burst of relief—there are so few of them! But then I see what waits for us behind the cavalry.

“MATHER!”

Sir’s scream rips holes in my body. I whirl around to see Mather nearing us. He’s almost here too. He’s almost—

I don’t have time to finish the thought.

Cannons wait for us. Dozens of them, pulled by oxen over the hills. Soldiers stand next to the iron monstrosities, and even from so far away, I can see, feel, taste their glee as they light the explosives that will send death barreling toward us. That’s all I have time to absorb, the horrific weight of the soldiers’ impending joy at our demise, and just as my eyes register that the black balls slamming into the earth around us are cannonballs, an invisible force shocks me off the horse and cracks me like a rag doll against the ground.

Fire-red pain lances across my vision, radiating out from a solid break in my chest. Sounds deaden against the roar of agony that fills my head, and something beneath me reeks of iron, wet and warm. But it’s not the comforting smell of iron mined from the Klaryns.

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