Chapter Ten
Zach stood on the top level of a parking garage, staring at Raissa over the top of his unmarked police car. “I don’t like it.” His captain had given him the go-ahead to pull information about the other missing girls, but hadn’t thought there was anything there to warrant questioning them. Raissa, of course, thought different.
She shrugged. “There’s a tracking system on my car and someone tried to kill me earlier. I don’t like that.
“So are you going with me to this girl’s house, or do I need to get a new car and do this with my fake police ID?”
Zach groaned, the ten million things that could go wrong with Raissa’s plan racing through his mind. “I still think this is a horrible idea.”
“No, you don’t. You just don’t want to get caught doing it.” She gave him a critical look. “You know, with a laptop and a printer, I could make you a new police ID.”
Zach placed his hands over his ears. “I’m not hearing this.”
“C’mon. There’s only one girl in New Orleans. She lives with her aunt. It’s not like I’m asking you to round them all up for a lineup or the Spanish Inquisition.”
“Yeah, that’s what you say now.” He opened his car door. “Get in before I change my mind.”
Twenty minutes later, Zach pulled up in front of a neat townhome in a quiet area of town. “I will introduce myself. Follow my lead, but don’t say anything if it can be helped. Nice wig, by the way.”
Raissa patted down her long brown curls. “Thanks. I have a blue silk nightie that goes perfect with this. If you’re interested in seeing some of my other costumes.”
Zach turned away, trying to block the mental picture of Raissa in blue silk and those sexy brown curls. He walked up to the front door of the townhome and could practically feel Raissa smiling behind him. He took a deep breath and rang the doorbell. He waited a couple of seconds and was just about to ring the bell again when he heard footsteps inside.
A second later, the door opened and a pretty young blonde woman peered out the door, safety latch firmly in place. “Can I help you?”
Zach opened his badge and held it up to the crack in the door. “I’m Detective Blanchard with the New Orleans Police Department. Are you Jennifer Warner?” he asked, giving the girl’s new name.
The girl stared at him, a wary expression on her face. “Yes.”
“I’m sorry to bother you, but I need to ask you a few questions. Do you mind? You can step outside if you’re not comfortable with us being inside, or you can answer them through the door. You can have my badge if you want to call in my number.” Zach held his breath that she wouldn’t take that last option. He wouldn’t even have time to clean out his desk, especially if Jennifer described the female partner that he didn’t exactly have.
She looked at the badge again, then up at Zach. Finally, she closed the door and Zach heard the lock sliding back. The door opened a second later and she waved them inside. “I was just making some coffee,” she said as she walked down a hallway into a kitchen. Zach and Raissa trailed behind.
Jennifer lifted the pot. “Would you like any?”
“No, thank you,” Zach said. “We don’t want to take much of your time.”
Jennifer poured a cup of coffee and sat on a stool at the end of a bar, nervously fiddling with the handle on her mug. Raissa tugged on Zach’s sleeve, and he took a seat along with Raissa across from the girl. As soon as he slid onto the stool, the girl relaxed. He glanced at Raissa. That woman could definitely read people.
“I guess I don’t have to ask if you know who I really am,” Jennifer said. “Is this about the kidnapping? It’s been all over the news.”
“Yes, but why do you assume that?” Zach asked.
Jennifer shrugged and stared into her coffee. “I don’t know. I guess ’cause the missing girl sorta looked like me.”
Zach studied her for a couple of seconds and decided that Jennifer was right. There was definitely a resemblance. “You do favor each other, but that’s not the only reason. There are similarities regarding the disappearance that make us think it might be the same person or persons involved.”
Jennifer looked up at him, her expression bleak. “What do you want from me? I told the police everything years ago.”
“I know. I guess I was hoping that maybe after all this time you might have remembered something. Something you didn’t mention before.”
Jennifer stared at him for a moment, then shook her head. “I wish I could remember. I can’t even walk down the sidewalk without wondering ‘Is that the guy who took me—is that the guy?’ Or maybe it was a woman. I’m scared of them, too. I thought changing my name and moving in with my aunt would help, and it did, but only barely. I’ve been homeschooled since I was returned. I graduated high school last semester with top scores. I already have offers from Ivy League schools, but I’m afraid to go. I’ve been through seven counselors and no telling how many drugs, and I still won’t leave this house without an escort. Trust me, Detective, I would love to remember.” Her hands shook as she stirred her coffee.
Raissa reached across the bar and placed her hand on Jennifer’s arm. “Your fear is real and valid. Counselors usually try to tell you otherwise, which is where they go wrong, in my opinion, anyway. What they don’t tell you is that because of your experience, your senses are finely honed. You are far better suited to recognize danger than the average person.”
Jennifer looked at Raissa, her expression wavering between wanting to believe and wanting to run for cover. “I’m a quivering mess. I’m not finely honed.”
“Not yet. You’ve tucked yourself away for so long that when you go out now, you’re on sensory overload. If you increase your public time slowly, even by five minutes a day, you’ll find the anxiety will start to fade. Then you’ll be left with an awareness, almost a sixth sense, about what’s going on around you.”
“Did someone attack you?” Jennifer asked.
“I was stalked and shot. And I learned to trust that feeling in my gut and when the hair raises on the back of my neck. Fear is a gift. A gift far too many of us have forgotten how to access.”
“Wow.” Jennifer’s expression cleared in understanding. “That makes sense.” She gave Raissa a shy smile. “You’re the first person who’s made me feel anything but neurotic. Thank you.”
Raissa smiled. “You’re welcome. So how does knowing you have an advantage make you feel? Strong?”
Jennifer thought for a couple of seconds, then nodded. “Yeah. It does. This is so cool. Now, I can go out in public a little at a time, and I’ll remember that my being hyperaware is a good thing. I could get better, right?”
“Yep, maybe even in time for college registration next spring.”
Jennifer’s smile widened, and Zach could see how Raissa had opened a whole new world in the girl’s mind with just a few sentences. He liked to consider himself tough and hard, but he couldn’t help being moved.
After a couple of seconds, Jennifer’s smiled faded and she looked over at Zach. “I don’t know if this means anything, but I started having dreams right after I saw the kidnapping on the news.”
“What kind of dreams?” Zach asked, feeling his pulse quicken. Buried memories often started surfacing in dreams or in states of semiconsciousness.
Jennifer frowned. “Weird. Like it’s me in the dream, but I’m watching it from the outside, you know?”
Zach nodded, but didn’t reply, not wanting to interrupt her thought process.
“I’m in this room, but all I can see is bright light. The first time I had it, I thought I was dreaming about dying, you know, with the white light and all. But the next time I heard voices…regular voices, not God or anything.”
“Do you remember what the voices were saying?” Zach asked, pen and paper ready.
“A man says, ‘We’re running out of time.’ Then another man says, ‘I won’t have what we need until Wednesday. The blood wouldn’t do any good now. It’s too thin.’ Then the first guy says, ‘I hope that’s soon enough.’ And the other guy says, ‘Of course it will be. I can make anything happen.’ ”
Jennifer stared at the wall behind Zach for a moment, then shook her head. “And then I woke up.” She looked directly at Zach. “I tried to remember more. I tried going back to sleep, hoping more would come, but finally I just decided it was my imagination working overtime after that news story.” She bit her lip and looked at Raissa. “What do you think?”
“I think something in that news story triggered a memory that’s been buried for a long time.”
“So you think that really happened?”
“Maybe,” Raissa said, “or it might be something similar, but your recall is fuzzy because you were drugged at the time.”
Jennifer crossed her arms across her chest. “I wish I knew what they did to me. The doctors said there was no…you know.” She blushed and looked down at her coffee. “But why would someone take me for no reason? And why would they need blood? And if my mind’s confused and it wasn’t blood, then what was it?”
“I can’t imagine how hard it is for you,” Raissa said. “At least I saw my attacker and can easily identify him. I know why he shot me. To have no answers has got to be hell.”
“Do you think I’ll remember more?”
“I don’t know. It’s impossible to know what triggers buried memories. You may have opened the door, and your memory will start unfolding. Or it may be another ten years before it happens again. Or…”
“Or it may never happen again,” Jennifer finished. “And I’ll never really know what happened to me.”
“There is another way,” Zach said, more determined than ever to make the kidnapping son of a bitch pay. “If we catch the people who did this, I’ll get everything out of them. I promise you.”
Jennifer gave him a small smile. “You know, Detective, I believe you’re telling the truth. I’m going to hold you to that promise.”
When they climbed back in the car, Zach handed Raissa a stack of printouts with DMV information. “You were good in there,” he said.
“Thanks,” Raissa said. “It’s hard not to feel for her. Knowing what you’re hiding from is hard enough, even for an adult. I can’t imagine living in constant fear of an enemy you don’t know and whose purpose is a mystery.” She flipped through the papers.
“Anything?”
“Yeah. There’s a corporation listed on here that owns several of the same make and model—all black. It’s one of Sonny’s companies.”
Zach blew out a breath, the desire to protect the woman beside him overriding all his other emotions. “If he tracked your car to Mudbug, he knows where you’re staying. What’s he waiting for?”
Raissa shook her head. “I don’t know, but Sonny never does anything without a reason. How much trouble did you get in over pulling the information?”
“Let’s just say that what the captain doesn’t know won’t hurt him.”
“Oh, really? Mr. Anal-retentive Rule Follower was less than forthcoming with the big boss? Might cost you your job, you know?”
“Damn it, Raissa, there are things you don’t know.”
Raissa immediately lost her teasing tone.
“So tell me. We’re in this together.”
“It’s a long story,” Zach replied.
“Then give me the CliffsNotes version, and don’t worry about the ending. I’ve probably heard a lot worse.”
Zach took a breath, not sure how to condense what some considered the biggest screwup in his career. Not sure if he wanted to share something that personal with a woman he barely knew, regardless of how attracted to her he might be.
“Several years ago, I screwed up on a case. I’m still digging my way out.”
“What kind of screwup?”
“There was a guy we had our sights on for killing an eight-year-old girl, and all indications were she was hardly the first. The lab screwed up the chain of evidence and he walked.”
“Shit. That sucks, but a lab screwup is not your fault.”
“No, but I leaked who the guy was to the victim’s father.”
Raissa frowned. “But the father still had the right to file a civil suit, even if you couldn’t make a criminal one. I still don’t see the problem.”
“I didn’t give him the information for a civil suit. I knew what he would do.”
“How could you possibly know what someone would do?”
Zach looked over at her. “He was an exmarine sniper. His wife died a couple of years ago in a car accident and that little girl was the last of any family he had. He had connections in all parts of the world and the training to disappear without a trace.”
“So, what happened?”
“They both disappeared—the father and the perp. We never found bodies.”
Raissa was silent for a couple of seconds. “And you took the heat for telling him. He could have gotten the information anyway, and from the way you’ve described him, he definitely would have been the kind that went looking for it.”
“Yeah, but that’s not how Internal Affairs saw it, so they put me on notice. From that point forward, I was supposed to do everything by the book. No exceptions.”
Raissa sighed. “And then you met me. Why are you risking everything, Zach? You barely know me.”
“I know you’re a tough, strong, intelligent woman who has sacrificed a third of her life to do the right thing. I know there’s a little girl missing who might end up a recluse like the one we just left if I can’t get some answers. I know this could happen again if we don’t catch the guy now.” He paused for a minute and took a breath. “I know I have to sleep at night, and sometimes things aren’t black-and-white.”
Raissa placed one hand on his thigh. “In our line of work, things are rarely black-and-white.”
“So how do you keep from crossing the line?”
Raissa shook her head and stared out the window. “I don’t think some of us can.”