He squeezed his own left shoulder, his thumb tracing the contour of a scar beneath. “They said, if they were going to wound me, they wanted to do it honestly with their own hand, that, if everything was to be their fault, they should shed first blood. I didn’t understand. I thought they were just being hysterical, but that wasn’t it, was it?”
My chest contracted, as if the statue’s gaze, though blind and stone, was strangling me. “Apollo asked me once if I would destroy a better world to save this one. That wasn’t the real question, the real question was if I would destroy this world to save a better one. Apollo didn’t just think the war was necessary to keep the next one from wiping us all out. They thought we had to make the world less perfect or no one would be willing to face the hardships of moving on. There are few people left anywhere who are willing to die for something, for their children maybe, but not for a cause, and certainly not for a patch of raw and barren Mars ground. Apollo thought that we need suffering to create people capable of enduring suffering. World Peace does not breed heroes.” My lips trembled. “The day you’re talking about, August twenty-second, 2426, the day Mushi was asked to go to Mars, that was the same day Apollo told the Mardis they had decided to make the war come, even if the others wouldn’t help.”
The Emperor nodded, no surprise left now. “Apollo drew first blood, my blood. You drew second, theirs. After Apollo’s death, I tried to stay close to Utopia, invited other Utopian Familiares, protected them, even against Madame. I did everything I could to help them pursue their future in parallel to mine. I thought the Empire could sit unchanging and nurture them while they progress, separate but not enemies. That book, Apollo’s plan, it’s making us enemies. As MASON I can’t sit back and let Utopia destroy this world, not even to protect a dream I share.”
“They aren’t doing it, Caesar.” It felt strange smiling here, but the thought of adding some salve to good Caesar’s wounds made me feel warm inside. “Utopia is innocent. This isn’t Apollo’s war.”
“What?”
“O.S., the Humanist-Mitsubishi-Europe alliance, the CFB threatening the Cousins, none of it matches what Apollo planned. Their war was to be the Masons against the Mitsubishi over land, with Europe taking your side and the Humanists taking theirs, while the Cousins and Gordian would have stayed neutral. The situation happening now isn’t remotely like Apollo’s war plans. Some of the tensions are the same, the economic balance Kohaku Mardi predicted, 33–67; 67–33; 29–71, but the events, the sides, are totally different. Utopia wouldn’t do it this way. They wouldn’t tear down the Cousins, the group we need to keep the others from getting too vicious. They wouldn’t expose O.S. and make the public call for blood, they wanted the smallest war possible, not a huge, angry one like this will be. This isn’t Apollo’s war. The weapons, Voltaire’s and Aldrin’s, they really are for self-defense. Utopia didn’t do this. The war they’re ready for is coming on its own.”
“You’re sure?”
“I’ve memorized Apollo’s war plans, every step, how to make the war midsized and brief, contingency after contingency for keeping it from getting vicious, and to keep it from dragging in every Hive. This O.S. mess is precisely the kind of war Apollo didn’t want.”
His eyes grew narrow. “So there are war plans in Apollo’s Iliad?”
I winced. “I can’t show them to you, Caesar. The plans include strategies Utopia can still use to help keep the war contained, and minimize the damage. If you know the plans you’ll react differently to events, then they won’t work. Trust—”
“You lied about that book! You and Apollo, too many times for me to trust you now!”
“Lied, Caesar?”
“War plans are not a storybook.”
Again the presence of truth where only more betrayal was expected let me smile. “I wasn’t lying, Caesar. There is a story in the book too, one I was supposed to finish. Apollo was rewriting the Iliad with giant robots.”
He half laughed. “Giant robots?”
“You know the old science fiction stories where the pilot rides inside a giant human-shaped robot. Apollo’s Iliad was set in the future, a space war where Troy is on the Moon, with Hector and Achilles facing off in giant robot suits and smashing asteroids. It was badly written, too. If you saw a chapter, Caesar, you would laugh.”
MASON frowned, uncertain, as if believing me only because the claim was too stupid to be a lie. “Why would Apollo waste their time on such a thing?”
A touch of lightness let my tears pause. “It was the only way Apollo could imagine a future war where one soldier still matters. Apollo hated war, could not forgive a universe where such horrible suffering was necessary to get to Mars. They desperately wanted to find something else worthwhile in war, something to make it more than an unforgivable but necessary evil. The Church War consisted of statistics, a hundred thousand dead here, a million there, mostly civilians, but even the majority of soldiers were killed by faceless bombs, and those who did see the whites of the enemy’s eyes did so only in waves of thousands. Apollo saw nothing worthwhile in such a war, no thought, no heroes, and whether one soldier thinks their side is right or wrong, changing sides would make no difference. In Homer’s Iliad, when Achilles refuses to join battle, the Argive armies fail without him, and when other heroes, Hector or Sarpedon, charge or fall back, the whole face of the war is different. Individual decisions matter when the heroes make them. Realistically no one soldier’s decision can matter like that in a war, but without that there is no human face to it, the war becomes a mere machine of death. Apollo wanted a war of meaning, two sides embodying two futures, who would fight with respect and honor, putting their lives on the line for their philosophies, as it was when Saladin and I faced Seine and Apollo. Homer’s heroes could have that, be that important to the course of the war, because they were part god. Apollo’s future version had cyborg pilots bonded to special giant robots that only they could use, which made them overwhelmingly powerful compared to common soldiers. In Apollo’s version the gods were powerful A.I. robots, so a human pilot in a giant robot suit was literally wearing a prosthetic god. There were only a handful of pilots who could do it, so when one left or entered battle, or switched sides, that individual decision could change the face of the war.”
Caesar breathed deep. “Just like Homer’s heroes.”