Thirty
EMMY had not expected to see London again.
It was not the lure of the money that drew her back, though she supposed few would believe that to be true. She hadn’t any idea what it would be like to have that much money. Indeed, she could not imagine it. Instead, it was the notion that Emmy had been known that pulled her. The shadow man who was her father had a name, Henry Thorne. And Henry Thorne knew her. In his death—and in his will—he had acknowledged her as his daughter. He had provided for her, the only way the dead can: through what they leave behind.
Emmy wanted to know who he was, how he knew Mum, how he knew where to find her, what he thought of her. She wanted to know if he wished he could have been a part of her life and why he chose not to be. Surely this lawyer, who must have known her father, would have the answers.
Charlotte offered to come with Emmy, nearly insisted that she come, but Emmy thanked her and told her she would go alone. Rose and the boys would not like it if they both left for an entire day, and truth be told, Emmy did not want Charlotte to be any part of this meeting, even as a witness. Emmy would have to crawl back into Emmeline Downtree’s skin to find out the answers to her questions. She didn’t want anyone to see her as her old self.
She did not need Charlotte’s assistance legally, either. In Emmeline years, she was nineteen, though Emmy felt every bit as old as Isabel’s twenty-two years.
Charlotte drove her to the train station in Moreton early in the morning on February 16. When she hugged Emmy good-bye, her eyes glistened with tears, as though she were bidding Emmy farewell for a journey of ten thousand days.
“I’ll be back this evening,” Emmy said.
Charlotte nodded, laughed away her tears, and told her to be careful.
Emmy chose a seat where she could see Charlotte on the platform. She wanted to wave to her from the window, to smile, and assure Charlotte that she would be all right. And Emmy wanted the last thing she saw as the train puffed out of the station to be Charlotte’s face, her raised hand, and that long silver braid.
Emmy had spent her whole life minimizing any thoughts or feelings she had about her father. Mum had never wanted her to contemplate him, which had always made Emmy think that to her mother, he was just a chance encounter she wished to forget. But as the train rumbled across the landscape, all Emmy could do was contemplate him. His name was Henry Thorne. He had provided for her in his will. He was a man of means. He had to be. Thirty thousand pounds was an enormous amount of money.
Had he made himself rich at a young age?
Or was he the son of a rich man?
How did he die? Was he a soldier in the war?
Did his parents know about her?
By the time Emmy arrived at Chelsea station three trains later, her mind was awhirl with ponderings. As she walked the blocks to the law firm’s offices, she was insulated from contending with the evidence of London’s four-and-a-half-year-long nightmare. She was only vaguely aware that the city’s streets did not look the same, nor did its weary people.
At the threshold of Grimm and Bowker, a brick and ivy-covered building on a street lined with leafless trees, Emmy stood still for a moment to calm her anxious heart. She did not want to inundate Mr. Bowker with endless questions, yet she hoped the man would have time to speak to her. There was so much Emmy wanted to know.
As she stepped inside, a silvery bell announced her arrival. A woman in a tweed suit sitting behind an ebony desk looked up and offered a knowing half smile.
“Emmeline Downtree,” Emmy said anyway. “I’ve an appointment with Mr. Bowker.”
The woman nodded toward three upholstered chairs lined up against a paneled wall.
“Won’t you have a seat?” she said.
As Emmy turned to follow her instructions, a door behind the woman opened. Standing there was a silver-haired man wearing a charcoal gray suit, wire-rim spectacles, and a trimmed mustache and goatee. He was expecting Emmy, yet she was aware that her presence startled him. He stared at her, undone, or so it seemed, by her physical features.
“Miss Downtree, this won’t take but a moment. If you will follow me,” he said a few seconds later, with the same forced politeness as his secretary.
Emmy sensed she was to take her money and leave. Her many questions hovered in her head. Which ones would she have time to ask?
She followed the man into a narrow hallway, past two closed doors, to a third door, which was open. He stepped inside.
Mr. Bowker’s office was nicely appointed. Polished wood gleamed everywhere. Red-and brown-spined books were shelved on bookcases that spanned three of the four walls. Two leather-upholstered chairs faced his desk.
Emmy started to sit in one of them but Mr. Bowker stopped her.
“Actually, I have your check right here, Miss Downtree,” he said, emphasizing her last name in a way that befuddled her. He reached for an envelope lying near the edge of his desk.
“I have a few questions,” Emmy said, hearing a tremor in her voice and wondering whether he heard it as well.
He arched his silver-gray eyebrows. “I beg your pardon?”
Emmy lowered herself into one of his chairs, feigning confidence, but actually needing to sit to keep the world from spinning.
“I—I have a few questions.”
Mr. Bowker stared at her. “I have not been instructed to answer questions, Miss Downtree.”
Instructed? Who was giving him instructions?
“I would like to know when my father died, please. I was not told,” Emmy said, attempting to sound merely like a grieving daughter.
His raised eyebrows lowered to become part of a thinly veiled scowl. “I have not been instructed to answer questions. If you feel you are entitled to more than this check—”
“Entitled?” Emmy echoed, feeling a strange indignation rising up within her. “You—you wrote to me that my father had provided for me in his will, Mr. Bowker. You wrote to me.”
He opened his mouth to say something but the secretary poked her head in the room.
“She’s on the telephone. She wants to speak with you. Says it can’t wait,” the secretary said.
Mr. Bowker frowned. He handed the envelope to Emmy. “I believe we are finished here, Miss Downtree.”
Emmy hesitated, unwilling to leave without so much as a crumb of information. He took a step toward her, the envelope now just inches from her.
Emmy took it. What else could she do? She rose slowly from the chair, holding the slimmest of evidence that she’d had a father who had known who she was.
As the secretary ushered her back down the corridor, she heard Mr. Bowker speak into the receiver of his phone.
“That’s not what we agreed,” he said. And then, “I really don’t think that will be necessary.” And finally, just as the inner door to the corridor closed behind Emmy, “But she’s already left.”