I’m a city girl.
I push my way into Nordstrom; the heat from inside the store is a deep contrast to the cold weather outside. I make my way to my favorite section of the store, the underwear, and let my mind wander.
L.A. Do I want to move to L.A.?
No.
But I desperately need a job. I have a mortgage and a car and a life to pay for. I’m blessed with a healthy savings, but it won’t last forever.
And I will die before I ask anyone for a handout.
But leaving Seattle means leaving my family. My friends.
Leo.
I still, a pair of black panties with ruffles on the butt in my hands and feel my face flush. These are exactly like the ones he ripped off me that night in my kitchen.
I may as well replace them.
And grab some pretty new bras while I’m here.
It’s been more than a week since our fight, since I was sick. Since we watched Olivia together.
I carry my undergarment finds over to the women’s section to pick out a new suit for my interview next week and end up with three new outfits, all suitable for interviews.
Because even if the L.A. job doesn’t work out, I’ll have other interviews to go to.
I hope.
As I make my way home with my purchases, my mind wanders back to the sexy, tattooed man that has wormed his way into my life. And it feels natural to have him here.
He’s attentive and caring. He’s amazing in bed. He’s funny.
And I just want to lick him.
But there will come a time, in the not-too-distant future that he’ll be gone the majority of the time. He and his band will release the new album, and all the hoopla that goes along with it will begin: tours, promo, TV appearances. Lots and lots of travel.
He doesn’t even have a home in Seattle. He’s staying at Meg’s old place. He owns a home in L.A.
Oh God, I don’t want him to think that I’m considering a job in California just because he lives there. How mortifying.
The thought of Leo leaving makes me sad. Okay, it makes me feel like my heart is being torn from my bloody body.
But I’ll survive it. And I’ll enjoy him in the mean time.
I kicked him out of my apartment yesterday and told him to go home for a day. Time apart is healthy. We don’t have to be in each other’s pockets twenty-four-seven.
I don’t want him to get sick of me.
He’d reluctantly gone, but then he’d called me at two a.m., complaining that he couldn’t sleep.
I wasn’t sleeping either.
And we had the most fun, sexy as hell phone sex I’d ever had in my life.
Yeah, I like him.
I drop my purchases on the ottoman in the center of my closet room and sigh happily. I love this room. Three walls are lined with clothes, separated by occasion; casual, work, formal. The fourth wall houses my handbags and shoes.
And in the center of the room is a long, plush sand-colored ottoman for dressing. Before I can begin putting my newest finds away, my phone rings.
The display reads simply, Nash.
I grin as I answer, “Hey there, ridiculously sexy rock star.”
“Hey. What are you up to?” His voice is warm and deep and smooth and I have to lower myself to the ottoman before my knees buckle.
God, I have it bad.
“I had to go shopping, so I’m putting some things away.”
“Shopping for anything special?” He asks.
“I got some new interview outfits and some new underwear.”
“Hmm… I definitely wanna see the underwear.”
I grin. “I’ll see what I can do.”
“Do you have dinner plans tonight?” Why does he sound uncertain?
“No, what’s up?” I ask.
“Meg has invited us to have dinner with her and Will at their place.” He exhales deeply.
“You don’t want to go?” I ask.
“I’m fine with it, if you are.”
“Okay, I’m in.”
“Okay. I’ll pick you up at six.” He clears his throat and I hear voices in the background.
“What are you up to?” I ask, my curiosity piqued.
“I’m hanging out with a few of the guys. We’re looking at song choices for the new album and they’re being stupid.”
I laugh and cradle the phone between my ear and shoulder as I stand and begin hanging my new clothes.
“What are they doing?”
“Jake is substituting dirty words for the regular words in the songs. I swear these guys are ten years old.”
“You love them,” I murmur with a grin.
“They’re all crazy.” There is mumbling in the back ground and I hear someone start to play an acoustic guitar, and I wish I was there to listen. “I’m gonna go finish with these guys and I’ll see you at six.”
“It’s a date.” I glance down at the black panties in my hand and think about how far we’ve come since that horrible night in my kitchen.
“Good. And baby?”
“Yeah?”
“You’re not sleeping alone tonight.”
He hangs up, leaving me with a wide grin and wet panties.
Thank God.
***
“You look fantastic,” Leo mutters and looks me up and down appreciatively, taking in my red sweater and black jeans. My red heels increase my height by four inches, and he’s still way taller than me.
“So do you.” And he does, in his faded blue jeans and black button-down shirt with the sleeves rolled up, revealing those hot tats on his forearms.
“Come on, Meg will kill us if we’re late, and if I come in, we may not make it there at all.”
He settles me in his car and pulls into traffic toward Will’s home.
“So, you bought interview clothes. I suppose that means you have an interview?” He raises an eyebrow at me and offers me half a smile.
“I do. Next week.” I clench my hands in my lap and pray that he doesn’t ask me where.
No such luck.
“Where?”
“In L.A.”
His head whips around to stare at me with his jaw dropped, and then he scowls deeply and turns back to the road, his knuckles going white on the steering wheel.
“Why L.A.?” He asks, his voice deceptively low.
“Because they offered.” I shrug and look out my window, not paying attention to the landscape.