Miranda woke to a feeling of cold anger coupled with dread in the pit of her stomach.
She looked around, trying to figure out what was going on that felt so wrong, but realized it wasn’t coming from her—the dread was, but it was in reaction to the wrath, which emanated from someone else, someone she hadn’t expected to ever see angry.
She got up, pleased that her body felt a lot less weak after her nap, and made her way over to the door, cautiously turning the knob to peek out.
Everything seemed normal.
“Do you need something, Miss Grey?” Helen asked. She and Samuel were at their usual posts, keeping watch.
“No . . . I don’t think so, thanks.”
As she started to shut the door again, Miranda froze.
A group of four Elite walked around the corner into the hallway, deadly purpose in their steps. Faith was leading them, and the Second’s face was set with a gravity that made Miranda’s stomach lurch. Something was very, very wrong.
To her left, Helen tensed.
A few seconds later, the Prime entered the hallway, and again Miranda’s insides flipped around in fear. This Prime was not the same man who had walked with her in the garden. He wasn’t even the same man who had sat opposite her and drilled her in energy work only an hour ago.
This was the most powerful vampire in the southern United States.
Seeing him surrounded by others made it even more obvious, but she would never have mistaken him for any other in a crowd with his aura showing in her mind as a burnished silver, shot through with black and bloody red. His eyes were strange—they looked paler, grayer, as if they’d gone from deep azure to silver. When he was halfway down the hall, she realized that was exactly what had happened.
This was a creature with blood on his mind.
“Elite Twenty-three,” Faith said, coming to stand in front of the door, “stand down.”
Miranda wanted to retreat into the bedroom and hide until it was over, but she couldn’t move.
Helen, on the other hand, could.
The guard threw herself backward, into the doorway, knocking door and Miranda both back into the room. Miranda was so stunned she couldn’t react until Helen had her arm around Miranda’s throat and hauled her upright, using her as a human shield.
“Stay back!” Helen cried.
The rest of the Elite, including Samuel, who had been about to jump at Helen, paused, turning back to their leader.
In a different situation Miranda might have thought the look on David’s face was funny.
“Let her go,” he said very, very calmly. There was a light in his eyes, a killing light, and the stone of his Signet was glowing noticeably brighter. “Don’t make this worse for yourself than it already is.”
“Why not?” Helen hissed. Her voice sounded odd, and Miranda realized her fangs were out. Icy fear gripped Miranda’s entire body.
Not again. Not again. Oh God please . . .
“You’re going to torture and kill me, right? I might as well take out this pretty little meat puppet while I’m at it.”
A guttural male voice echoed in Miranda’s head. “. . . pretty little thing’s awake . . .”
She could hear a zipper sliding down, feel sweaty hands on her breasts. The warm, firelit bedroom and the chaotic scene melted away, and she was back in the alley again, her bare back grinding into the cold concrete.
Not again.
She couldn’t breathe. Helen was choking her.
It didn’t matter.
Miranda reached into herself for the rage that had given her the power to kill the men in the alley, their faces and voices playing over and over again in her mind, amplified by her own screams, until the voices drowned out everything, and all that she could hold on to was feeling.
She struck.
David had had shields standing between him and the wrath of a violated woman; Helen had no such thing. The power that the Prime had deflected so easily roared into the guard before she could even attempt to protect herself.
Helen made a choking, gurgling sound, and her arm fell slack. She threw up both hands to scrabble at her forehead as if she were trying to claw something out and whimpered in childlike terror with her eyes huge and rolling. Helen fisted her hands in her hair, clamping her eyes shut, the whimpers building toward screams until David stepped forward, seized her, and broke her neck with an audible crack.
Miranda toppled forward, coughing, gulping air in great lungfuls, her vision swimming. She landed on her hands and knees and let her forehead touch the cool floor, still trying to catch her breath as behind her she heard the Elite coming into the room and surrounding Helen’s body.
“Let’s move,” Faith said. “She’ll be conscious again in an hour. Get her up and to the interrogation room.”
Miranda looked up. How could she not be dead?
“She’s a vampire,” David said from the doorway. “We’re hard to kill.”
The Elite who grabbed Helen’s arms and dragged her out of the room cast Miranda strange, half-fearful looks on their way.
“I’ll get her restrained and ready for you,” Faith told the Prime.
“I’ll be there in a moment.”
Miranda lay shaking on the floor, only barely aware that David knelt beside her.
“You didn’t have to do that,” he said. “I could have stopped her.”
She shook her head miserably. “All over again . . . I could feel it, it was like . . . like that night, and . . . I couldn’t help it. I wanted to kill her. I tried to kill her.”
She’d thought she was done weeping, but now she wondered if she ever would be. She broke into hoarse sobs, her hands fisting on the floor.
His hand touched her shoulder lightly, asking permission, but she didn’t care what he did. She didn’t struggle as, once again, he lifted her up off the floor and carried her back to the couch; but this time, instead of simply laying her there, he sat down, still holding her, and let her cry.
She would never have expected to be grateful for that, but she clenched her fingers in his shirt and wept into his shoulder completely unself-consciously.
His chest moved beneath her hand as he sighed.
“This is my fault,” he said. “It was too soon to start our work tonight—you needed more time for the memories to move away from the surface. Exhausting you like this let them take over.”
She took a deep breath and, by some miracle, got herself together enough to try to ground. It wasn’t a terribly successful attempt, energy-wise, but she did feel calmer and asked, “What did she do?”
“She’s a traitor, Miranda. Because of her, four of my Elite were murdered tonight. She’s also been working with those who have killed humans all over the city and want to drive us to war.”
“What are you going to do with her?”
Another sigh, this one full of regret. “She’ll be questioned as to her involvement with the insurgents. It may be that she was coerced into helping them, or maybe not. Either way, her actions have earned a death sentence.”
“Are you . . . Faith said . . . what exactly does ‘questioned’ mean?”
He met her eyes. “Don’t ask what you don’t want answered.”
She sat back, suddenly realizing she was in his lap, and moved away from him, sickness gathering in her stomach where the fear had been before.
He wasn’t human. None of these people were. They drank blood, they were immortal, and . . . he was going to torture Helen. She knew Helen. So did he. To become a guard in this wing she must have been with the Elite a long time, and he was just going to walk in there and . . . and then kill her.
The way Miranda had tried to kill her. The way Miranda had killed those men.
“I think I’m going to throw up,” she groaned.
He didn’t say anything as she stumbled away from the couch, but when she reached the door he said, “To your left,” keeping her from vomiting in his closet.
She fell to her knees painfully in front of the toilet, retching, but nothing came. She closed the lid and leaned her head on the seat, afraid to get up just yet.
If there had ever been a time when life made sense, that time was far fled. She had blundered into the rabbit hole, and there was no going back.
“If I asked, would you kill me?” she whispered to the empty bathroom. “How would I taste? Like a sad little girl? Or am I damaged goods now?”
There was no answer. She forced herself to her feet and over to the sink, where she washed her face with ice-cold water, wishing she could see herself and hoping she never would again.
When she returned to the bedroom, he was gone. The door to her room was standing open, and she could smell food. Her stomach growled even though it had been in a tumult only minutes before.
Numb, too tired to care anymore, she went to her room to eat.