I understand he stays out all the time now.
He goes out at night sometimes after we’re in bed, Ike said.
Where does he go?
We don’t know.
Doesn’t he tell you?
No.
I don’t like that, she said. She examined her hands, the ends of her long slender shapely fingers. He must think I’m crazy now. That I’ve gone over the other side. He must think that about me. She looked up. Did you know he doesn’t want me to come back anymore. Even if I wanted to. He told me as much.
We want you to come back, Mother.
I’m not crazy yet, she said. I don’t think I am. Do you think I’m crazy?
No.
No. I haven’t gotten there yet. I don’t think I’m going to now. She stared off fixedly across the room. I thought I would but I don’t think so now. It’s just that I don’t know what to do about what I’m thinking. I think all the time and I can’t seem to stop, but I don’t know what to do about that yet either. She was looking at them again. Isn’t that a nice fix to find yourself in?
Maybe you should go outside more, Ike said.
Do you think that would help me?
It might.
But when do you think you will be coming home again? Bobby said.
I can’t say about that. You mustn’t rush me. I need time. Don’t ask me that now, all right?
All right.
She smiled at him sadly. Thank you, she said.
Mother, do you want us to pick up for you? Ike said.
Why? What do you mean?
The things here. In this house. He looked around the room and waved his hand.
Oh. No. That’s nice of you. But I’m feeling kind of tired. She pulled the neck of her robe together. I think I’ll lie down. I feel kind of sick.
You should see the doctor.
I know. Would you mind if I lie down now?
You look tired, Mother.
We’ll come back later, Bobby said.
Can we bring you anything? Ike said.
She looked into their faces. Well. I don’t know. I am out of coffee, she said. Could you get me some coffee?
Yes.
You could charge it at Johnson’s in my name.
She stood up and went back slowly to the bedroom, and they went outside and talked about it between themselves on the street curb and then rode downtown to Johnson’s grocery store on Main Street and went back along the wood floor to the ranked shelves of coffee that were arranged by brand and price and chose a green can that looked familiar to them and charged it to their mother at the register. Afterward they went over to Duckwall’s, still on Main Street in the middle of the same block, and stood in front of the perfume counter, debating for fifteen minutes, while the clerk behind the glass case showed them little bottles.
How much is that one? Ike said.
This one here?
Yes.
This one is five dollars.
Finally they chose the one they could afford out of their paper-route money and from what was left of the dollars Raymond McPheron had given them for helping work cattle—a little blue bottle that said Evening in Paris on the label and had a very sweet scent and a silver stopper that closed it, and they still had enough money left over to buy a small box with a clear lid that contained a dozen round soft vari-colored balls of bubble bath. They had the clerk, the middle-aged woman, wrap the two boxes in paper with a bow.
Then they rode back to her house on Chicago Street. By now it was late afternoon and getting cold outside. The long shadows were reaching across the street. They waited a long time before she answered their knock, and when she came to the door she looked as though she had risen from a deep sleep.
They offered the can of coffee to her and she took it fumbling and then they held out the two boxes from Duckwall’s.
Did you buy these too?
Yes.
What are they?
Open them why don’t you, Mother?
But what are they?