On Dublin Street

~20~


I don’t know why, but I didn’t tell the good doctor about any of that. I coveted that piece of me, held it close, as I tried to figure out what exactly I was going to do with it. I still had no plan, but I didn’t let it get in the way of enjoying my time with Braden. I’m thankful for that, because little did I know only a few weeks after the wedding and the first week in December, everything would change.


While Ellie worked at the kitchen table, Braden and I lounged in the sitting room, the lights low, the Christmas tree lights glittering at the window. Ellie had insisted we put the tree up on the first. She was a Christmassy girl. It was a cold, December night, a Wednesday, and we were watching a Korean movie called A Bittersweet Revenge. I was into it, but it seemed Braden’s mind was elsewhere.


“Do you fancy going to the German market this Saturday?”


I’d already gone last Saturday with Ellie, but I loved the German market, and I’d be with Braden, so yeah, I was up for that. Edinburgh at Christmas time was magical, even to a non-believer like me. White lights were wrapped around all the trees in Princes Street Gardens, a German market with all these amazing smells, and pretty gifts, and weird sausages, set up camp by the Royal Art Academy, and on the east side, by the Scott Monument, was a fairground with a huge Ferris wheel that lit up the night sky. There was nothing quite like walking that street on a crisp winter’s day at dusk. “Sure.” I smiled over at him. I was lying sprawled out on the couch, and Braden was lounging at the end of it.


He nodded. “I was thinking in February we could take some time off work. A long weekend maybe. I’ve got a cabin in Hunters Quay and it looks right over the Holy Loch. It’s pretty nice. Peaceful. Not to mention there’s an amazing Indian restaurant in Dunoon, which is just across the Loch.”


It sounded awesome, especially considering I’d been in Scotland for over four years and I hadn’t gone further than St. Andrews. “Sounds great. Where is it exactly?”


“Argyll.”


“Oh.” That wasn’t the highlands, was it? “Isn’t Argyll in the west?”


As if he read my mind, Braden grinned. “It’s the western highlands. It’s beautiful, trust me.”


“You sold me at the Loch,” I exaggerated the ‘ch’ sound like he did. “Just tell me when, and I’m there.”


At that, Braden looked affectionately amused. “Sex and holidays.”


“Uh, what?”


“I’m making a list of things that make you agreeable.”


I scoffed, pushing my foot into his leg. “And all you got is sex and vacations?”


“The length of the list is not my fault.”


“Are you saying I’m disagreeable?”


He raised an eyebrow. “Woman, how stupid do you think I am? You really think I’m answering that? I want to get laid tonight.”


I pushed him harder. “Watch it, or you might get laid to rest.”


Braden threw his head back and laughed.


Scowling but not really meaning it, I turned back to the movie. “You’re lucky you’re good in bed.”


“Oh.” He grabbed at my foot. “I think you keep me around for other reasons.”


I slanted him a look out of the corner of my eye. “Right now, for the life of me I can’t think what those reasons are.”


Braden tugged harder on my foot, raising his fingers towards it. “Take it back or the foot gets it.”


Oh hell no! I yanked at my appendage. “Braden, no.”


Deaf to my warning, he started to tickle me, his grip tightening as I laughed breathlessly and kicked out, trying to get free.


He wouldn’t stop.


Ruthless!


“Braden,” I panted hysterically, attempting to shove at him with my arms but struggling as he continued his war on my feet. I laughed harder, ribs aching, and then… horror.


I broke wind.


Big time.


Braden immediately let go of my feet, his loud, rumbling laugh filling the room, laughter that only deepened when I lost balance, from kicking out at him and then being abruptly let go, and fell off the couch with an undignified thud.


Mortified as he collapsed against the couch belly laughing at my fart then fall, I grabbed a cushion and launched it at him from my position on the floor.


Of course this only made the idiot laugh harder.


I warred between feeling humiliation at farting in front of him, something you just didn’t do in company, and laughing, since his was so infectious. “Braden!” I whined. “Shut up. It’s not funny,” I huffed, my lips caught in part smile, part grimace.


“Oh babe,” he tried to catch his breath, wiping a tear from the corner of his eye as he grinned down at me. “That was definitely funny.” He held out a hand to help me up.


I slapped it away. “You’re such an immature a-hole.”


“Hey, I’m not the one who just let off.”


Oh God, it was so awful. I groaned, falling onto my back and covering my eyes with my hands.


“Jocelyn,” I felt his hand on my knee and heard the amusement in his voice. “Babe, why are you so embarrassed? It was just a fart. Brilliantly timed I might add.”


I sucked in the mortification. “Oh my God, shut up.” He chuckled again and I snapped open my furious eyes. “You’re enjoying this!”


“Well yeah,” he huffed, eyes bright. “I’ve never seen you embarrassed before. Even when I walked in on you naked you gave me attitude and acted like you didn’t care. That you’re mortified by a fart is really quite adorable.”


“I am not adorable!”


“Oh I think you are.”


“I am cool and self-possessed,” I argued. “Cool and self-possessed people do not break wind. You, in particular, are not supposed to know that I break wind!”


His lips twitched. “I hate to tell you this, babe, but I already knew that you broke wind. Part of the human condition and all that.”


I shook my head defiantly. “We should just end it now. All the mystery is gone.”


Braden was laughing hard again as he reached down to pull me up by the waist. I was in the middle of letting him help me when the crash and thud sounded from the kitchen. Our eyes flew to each other, our laughter dying.


“Ellie?” Braden shouted out in question.


Silence.


“Ellie!”


When she didn’t call back, my eyes widened on his and I jumped to my feet because Braden had already let me go to run through the apartment.


“Ellie!” I heard him cry out, and the fear in his voice had me picking up speed.


The sight that greeted me in the kitchen floored me. I stood frozen, watching as Braden kneeled on the floor, his hands hovering over Ellie whose body twitched in convulsions, her eyes fluttering rapidly, her mouth slack. “Ellie?” Braden’s pale face snapped up to me. “Call 999. I think she’s having some kind of seizure.”


I rushed out of the room, adrenaline making my hands shake and my coordination clumsy as I grabbed for the phone on my bedside table and dropped it. Fumbling, I cursed, utter fear choking me as I hurried back into the hall as the operator picked up. “Emergency, what service do you require? Fire, police or ambulance?”


“She just passed out.” Braden sat next to her helpless as her body went limp. “I don’t know what do? F*ck, I don’t know what to do.”


“Ambulance.” I heard the line go on hold and then two seconds later the ambulance control room picked up. “My roommate,” I spoke breathlessly into the phone, panicking because Braden of all people was panicking. “We heard a crash and we rushed into the kitchen and she was convulsing and now she’s unconscious.”


“What telephone number are you calling from?”


I rhymed it off impatiently.


“What is your exact location?”


Trying not to get angry at the robo-speak of the woman on the end of the line, I rhymed the address off too.


“Is this your roommate’s first seizure?”


“Yes!” I snapped.


“What age is your roommate?”


“Twenty-three.”


“Is she breathing?”


“She’s breathing, Braden, right?”


He nodded, his jaw clenched as he watched me.


“Okay, can you move your roommate into the recovery position as a precaution?”


“Recovery position,” I repeated to Braden and watched as he immediately re-arranged her gently.


“The ambulance is on its way. Please keep any pets out of the way of the ambulance crew when they arrive.”


“We don’t have pets.”


“Okay. Please stay on the line until the ambulance arrives.”


“Braden,” I whispered, still shaking. “What’s going on?”


He shook his head as he brushed Ellie’s hair off her face. “I don’t know.”


A noise drew us up tense.


A noise from Ellie.


I rushed over to them, falling to my knees to bend over her. Another groan escaped Ellie’s mouth as her head turned slowly. “Wha…” her eyes flickered open, dazed. And then they widened as she saw us hovering over her. “What happened?”


***


Despite regaining consciousness, the paramedics took Ellie away in the ambulance and Braden and I jumped into a cab to follow them to the Royal Infirmary of Edinburgh. Braden called Elodie and Clark, and he called Adam. When we arrived there was a lot of waiting around and no one really telling us anything, and when Elodie, Clark and Adam arrived there was still no word.


“We left the kids with our neighbor,” Elodie whispered, her eyes wide with fear. “What happened?”


Braden explained as I stood silently by, my mind racing over all the worst outcomes. Being in the hospital was freaking me out, and I just wanted Ellie to come out and tell us everything was okay. I didn’t think I could handle anything else.


“Ellie Carmichael’s family?” a nurse called and we all stampeded her. She stared at us wide-eyed. “Are you all immediate family?”


“Yes,” Braden answered before Adam or I could respond.


“Come with me.”


Ellie was waiting for us, sitting up with her legs dangling off the side of a bed in the ER. She gave us a typical little girl Ellie wave and my heart lurched in my chest.


“What’s going on?” Elodie rushed to her side and Ellie grabbed at her mother’s hand reassuringly.


“Ellie’s family?”


We turned to find a forty-something bookish-looking doctor hovering over us. “Yes,” we all said in unison and Ellie cracked an exhausted smile.


“I’m Dr. Ferguson. We’re sending Ellie up for an MRI as soon as it becomes available.”


“An MRI?” Braden’s features grew taut as he glanced back at his sister. “What’s going on, Els?”


Her eyes were wide as she took us all in, our worry blasting out at her. “I haven’t felt right for a while.”


“What do you mean felt right?” Adam asked impatiently, crowding her, his bristling, angry intimidation making Ellie flinch.


“Adam.” I pulled on his shoulder to get him to ease up but he just shrugged me off.


“I think the doctor was wrong about me needing glasses,” Ellie admitted quietly.


Dr. Ferguson cleared his throat, obviously feeling he should come to his patient’s rescue. “Ellie has told us she’s been dealing with headaches, numbness and tingling in her right arm, a lack of energy, some lack of coordination, and today she had her first seizure. We’re just sending her up for an MRI to check everything’s okay.”


“Numbness?” I muttered, glancing at her arm, images of her squeezing it, shaking it, flooding over me. The amount of times she’d told me she had a headache. F*ck.


“I’m sorry, Joss. I just didn’t want to admit I was feeling so rubbish.”


“I can’t believe this,” Elodie sagged against Clark. “You should have told us.”


Ellie’s lip trembled. “I know.”


“When will the MRI be ready?” Braden asked, his voice low and demanding.


Dr. Ferguson didn’t seem to be intimidated. “I’ll take Ellie up as soon as it’s free, but there are a few patients booked in before her.”


And so the waiting began.