Chapter 22
“Otherwise you are left with words you should have said but never did, and your heart is heavy with remorse.”- Yann Martel
It’s black. Fabric over my eyes makes it impossible to see anything. Aches and pains radiate throughout my body and I’m hot, so freaking hot.
“A present for you.” His voice is calm and smooth. It’s not really characteristic of him at all. He forces my hands in front of me and puts something hard and round in one hand. My fingers are wrapped around warm metal. Every joint in my body is tense and sore. I hear the sound of steel scraping against steel. “Squeeze tight,” he says with a chuckle. I do as I'm told and try my best not to tremble. Sweat drips down the sides of my face. It’s so hot in here.
“Did you really think there was a distance you could cover or a hole deep enough you could hide in, Cypress? There's nowhere in the US that my reach doesn't go when it comes to what you took. Granted, it’s unfortunate that you chose to take the pack but...it is what it is.” I hear his heavy boots clunking on the rickety wooden floor boards as he walks away. Is he leaving me? When the door slaps shut I yank the blindfold down with one hand, open my eyes and look down.
I am going to die. Clasped tightly in my hand is a grenade. A grenade with the pin missing. I push up from the wooden chair I’m seated in and sprint to the door and throw my shoulder into it. “Ezra!” I scream. “Ezra!” It’s no use though, I can hear the sound of his tires in the dirt spinning their way down the long drive. Swallowing hard, I turn and look around. Nothing. It’s just a wooden hunting cabin. The windows are boarded up. There is no furniture, no other rooms. Just one big wooden space with no way out. A small beam of light shoots through the missing knot in one of the boards. The dust in the air dances around haphazardly. I square my shoulders, determined to find something. Anything.
There are small holes in the floorboards here and there but as far as I can tell, it leads to packed dirt just inches below. With only one free hand, my physical strength is severely limited. I try tugging on the board at the window but all I wind up with is splinters in my fingers. If I press my eye just right to the few small holes in the wooden planks I can see the sun starting to set. It’s so hot in here. I’m slick with sweat and I don’t have water. The adrenaline is seeping out of my body, taking with it most of my will as well.
I screamed myself hoarse over the last few hours. Slumping down into the corner I run over my options again and again. I can let go. I can just let go and be done or I can fight my exhaustion and stay awake gripping the handle. I rub my splinter-ridden hand on my shirt to dry off the moisture. My right hand is cramping from clinging to the trigger and I wonder if I can switch hands. I don’t want to risk it. I wrap my left hand around my right and squeeze to try and release the pressure on my right hand for a bit.
One stupid hunk of metal might very well be my demise. I’m not sure how one trains for this- but I sure wish I had. I let my head list back to the wall and let my eyes rest for a moment. How long can someone go without sleep, I wonder. The absurdity of this situation isn’t lost on me. “Touché, Ezra!” I laugh out, crazed. “Touché.”
To keep myself awake I decide to sing every song I can remember all the words to, but I realize there is really only one song that I can remember without the music playing. I’m on my tenth round of Hey Pretty Girl when I swear I hear something. It’s pitch black in the cabin now and I can’t even see my hands holding the grenade. My hands are numb, making it hard to tell if I’m still holding it firmly or just barely hanging on. I press my ear to the wall and slow my breathing down. Everything is quiet. There is the faint sound of traffic, a highway maybe somewhere off in the distance but I can’t be sure. Maybe it’s just the wind. A beam of light flits across the planks through the cracks. I push up to a standing position and listen again. Gravel crunching. Lights pass again.
“I’m in here!” I scream as best I can. “Help!” My throat hurts so much from yelling earlier. It’s pissing me off.
“Magnolia!” Bentley’s gruff voice shouts.
“In here! I'm in here!” I cry out.
“Are you hurt? Can you back away from the door?” His voice sounds strained.
“I’m not hurt really. I’m moving,” I blubber with relief. A shot rings out, echoing through the air. Instinctively I duck and cower in the corner. The door blows open, wood splintering inward towards me. I wrap both hands around the grip of the grenade to keep it steady. Bentley rushes me, arms out, panic evident on his face. Before he reaches me I thrust my hands out in front of me. He stops mid-stride.
“Shit,” he mutters. “Shit!”
“My hands are numb, Bentley. I’m so tired.” My arms tremble just trying to hold the weight of the grenade.
“Princess, you’re going to be OK. Let me help you stand up,” he says in a soothing calm voice. His arms reach out to my shoulders and hoist me up. We walk slowly to the door and down three steps. We are in the middle of a large vacant field. A dirt and gravel road leads through the trees about a football field away from the wooden structure I’d been trapped in.
“Do you trust me?” he asks gently. My body trembles in reaction. No, yes, no, no I do not trust him. How could I at this point?
“Yes,” I mutter. Sweat drips down my neck and between my breasts. It’s hot and sticky. My hands are slick and I’m afraid the cramping in my hands is going to lead to my losing my grip.
“I’m going to take this from you. Do you understand?” he asks slowly.
“It won't work.” My voice breaks on the last word out of my mouth.
“It will. You have to trust me,” he pushes. His hands close around mine so that we’re both gripping the handle. I look up into his eyes and find nothing but calm and focus. “I’m going to count to three. On three you will slide your hands out, leaving me to hold the lever.” I shake my head no at him. It won't work and I’m not going to be responsible for his death. “Dammit, Mags, you have to trust me on this,” he says firmly.
“Fine. I trust you, but, Bentley...”
“Yeah?”
“I’m sorry. I did really have feelings for you, but Cane, he’s...”
“He’s alive. I get it.” He cuts me off before he leans down and lightly brushes his lips against mine. It feels familiar and safe and right. It’s comforting. “One. Two. Three.” I yank my hands from inside his and stumble backwards. “RUN!” he booms at me. I turn and sprint as fast as my bruised body will allow. The sky explodes. The sound is deafening and the ground shakes with such force that I’m knocked face down. Dirt and tree debris rain down all around me. I can’t hear anything. I can’t see Bentley through the dust cloud. I start crawling back towards where I saw him last. No. No. He has to be alright.
“Magnolia!” he shouts but he sounds far away.
“I’m here!” I shout, but I don’t know if I’m shouting at all. The ringing in my ears is so loud it drowns my own voice out. An arm clamps around my waist and hoists me up. I wrap my arms around his neck and bury my face in his chest as he holds me close to him. “Magnolia.”
I tilt my head back to look at up him. His blue gray stormy eyes bore into mine just before our mouths crash together. The kiss lingers momentarily before I snap out of it and pull back. “You’re okay...” I breathe.
“Come on, let’s get in the car so I can check you over, make sure you’re alright.”
He scoops me up under my knees and walks us away from the burning debris pile.
“I’m fine, just bumps and bruises and a couple splinters,” I say, swatting his roaming hands away. “I’m sure I look worse than I am.”
“You look like you’ve been beaten and tortured.” His expression is grim and tense.
“Where’s Cane? Brock? Oh God, did someone go back for Brock?!” I shriek. I need to get myself under control but I can't stop shivering. Bentley hands me a bottle of water with a look that says if I don’t drink it he’ll force it down my throat, so I gulp the water down in four long chugs.
“I sent Cane to extract Brock. I couldn’t risk Ezra being here with you and having the opportunity to take you both out at once,” he explains.
“What?” I crow.
“Ezra will go after Cane. I was only able to track him here through his cell phone. It stopped moving here, he must have dumped it when he left. You, Magnolia, have something very important to him.”
“It’s just a ratty backpack full of money, I barely tapped into it at all!” I wail.
“We’re missing something then,” he states firmly.
“It’s personal. I’m a loose end. If I pressed charges...it would put him in the public eye. That’s got to be it,” I deduce.
“No. The rape alone isn’t what’s driving him. We’re missing something.” Rape. What a dirty word. The shame that rolls through me when the word leaves his mouth is all-consuming. He puts an arm around me and pulls me to his firm chest. “It wasn’t your fault. He’s a sick, twisted monster. You have nothing to be ashamed of. Let it go,” he coos. I rear back, tearing myself from his embrace.
“Let it go?” I spit. “Let. It. Go? Do you understand that Cane was all I knew? There was no one else, Bentley. Never anyone else. I trusted him with every last piece of my fucking soul, and Ezra waltzed in and took the one thing that I had to give away. You...you were the only other one. The second I got close to you, everything crumbled. I don’t know how to let it go. He violated me. He raped me of a normal life with the man I loved, he stole his nephew's life as well and he’s still walking around out there like nothing can touch him!” I shriek. “I don’t know how to let it go. I don’t want to know how to let it go. I want to kill him. I want justice for all the lives he’s ruined,” I growl.
“Magnolia, justice isn’t served if you kill him. Justice is served by following the law and putting him away. Why do you think Cane was working with me? Huh? To gather enough evidence to put him away for life so that he would be out for good, done with that life, for you. Cane and I only know each other because of you. You are the common denominator here - and it seems that you are the driving reason for Ezra too. Whatever you have, he wants.” I don’t want to listen to another word Bentley has to speak. I don’t want to imagine that one simple change in my day could have resulted in my innocence being saved, Cane getting out free and clean and Ezra being put away for life. If I had just gone out to dinner, or shopping or stayed at Aster’s longer that night everything would be different. It’s done though. It’s done and now I am the only one who will be able to make it right.
“Take me to Brock. I need to see him and I need a drink.” Bentley drags his hand down his face and mutters something about me being pig-headed but starts the car and drives us away from that Godforsaken cabin.