Chapter 8
In the end, the whole thing seemed to be over before we knew it, the court having decided that Tyler would be given a 12-month supervision order.
A ‘supervision’ order meant just that. A youth offending officer would now be assigned to Tyler and would meet up with him regularly – probably on a weekly basis – to hopefully ensure that Tyler understood his ‘crime’ and would make better choices in the future.
This was good news, at least in terms of the effect it had on Tyler – despite everything, I think a part of him still expected to be ‘going down’ for ten years – but still felt a bit of a tragedy to me. Only a smallish tragedy in the grand scheme of things – it was hardly heavy handed, given the performance of his stepmother, but at the same time it still seemed out of proportion to the ‘crime’ given the extent of the background to the actual incident. But it was done now, so I tried not to huff and puff.
Even so, I wasted no time, once Mike had taken Tyler off to the toilets, and Will had gone to fetch his car, to share my thoughts about the outcome with John. I understood Tyler’s anxiety about having told me the truth about his stepmother, and how worried he’d been about my sharing what he’d told me with the court, but at the same time, had they really taken everything into consideration? Did they really understand just how difficult a childhood Tyler had had? Was still having – because I didn’t see an end to it.
‘I know it seems that way, Casey,’ John tried to soothe. ‘But, honestly, they do have all the same information we have …’
‘Not that I have,’ I pointed out, waggling the rolled-up statement, which would very soon be going into my log. Even if I could only name and shame her there, it would be something.
‘Which we do need to talk about, I know,’ he said. ‘Because it’s important.’
He didn’t know quite how important yet, though, because we’d not had a chance to even talk about it yet, not really.
‘He’s made some worrying disclosures, John,’ I said.
‘I know,’ he answered, nodding. ‘As you said. But as far as what’s happened here is concerned,’ he went on, ‘a supervision order is probably par for the course. Whatever he’s told you – and I don’t doubt he’s telling the truth – he still took a knife to the woman, and he needs to know what the repercussions of such an action are. And actually, a supervision order is no bad thing for a boy of his age. He’s young enough that it might frighten him, rather than antagonise him, which it might if he was older, plus it will give him another confidant, another outlet, another interested adult to whom he can talk about the past – and, hopefully, see his future a little more clearly.’
‘Speaking of which,’ I said, ‘what happens now about resuming contact? From what I’ve seen – not to mention heard – we’re not in the best possible place.’
‘I know,’ John said again, frowning. But, look, there’s Mike and Tyler coming back. Shall I call you later today? Early evening or something? Decide upon some sort of strategy? I have to dash now. Will will be outside – mustn’t miss my lift.’
I agreed that was a plan, and then Tyler was back with us again, and someone else seemed to be on his way over – his father.
I nudged Mike. This was the first time we’d seen him or heard him. He wasn’t asked to speak in court – another thing that had needled me somewhat; why? – and all we’d seen of him so far was the back of his head.
‘Dad!’ Tyler called as he approached, running to greet him, while beyond him I could see his wife standing by the coffee machine, holding a paper cup of something and staring right back at me. I gave her a tight smile and turned towards her husband.
‘All right, Ty?’ he said. I remembered his name was Gareth. He looked to be in his mid-thirties, and was tanned, presumably from working at sea. He leaned forward slightly and gave his son a quick pat on the head. They both had the same mop of dark wavy hair. ‘I hope you’re being good for Mr and Mrs Watson,’ he added, glancing at us. He then held a hand out. Mike shook it and smiled.
‘I have, Dad, I promise,’ Tyler said, while his father shook my hand. ‘When am I coming home now? Will it be soon?’
Incredibly, to my mind, Tyler’s father actually glanced back at his wife before answering. Why would he do that? She wasn’t even in earshot.
‘Not just yet, son,’ he said finally, looking profoundly uncomfortable. ‘Got to let the dust settle. Let things calm down a bit, yeah? Licia’s still a bit shook up by it all.’
I chewed the inside of my cheek to stop myself saying something I might wish I hadn’t. Licia? There was something about the deferential way he said her name that made me cringe. And definitely something about the whole sorry scenario that made me want to do something more definite than pull a face. This was his child he was talking about. All four foot eleven of him. Hadn’t he already just been punished by the court?
And I clearly wasn’t the only one who felt rattled. I could almost feel Tyler bristling beside me. He had already followed his father’s gaze to the woman who was still standing there, 15 feet away, sipping her drink, observing us.
‘But that’s not fair!’ Tyler blurted out. ‘That’s not fair, Dad! Just cos she says I stabbed her! And I never – it was an accident! And what about Grant? He wants me home, Dad – who’s going to look after him if I’m not there?’
Tyler’s dad put a hand on his shoulder. ‘Just give it some time, lad,’ he repeated. ‘We have to think about what’s best for everyone, don’t we? I’ve told you, son, Licia’s my wife, and I have to do right by her. She’s done her best for you, son –’
All this ‘son’ talk was grating. And not just to me, clearly, because Tyler was having none of it. He wriggled from his father’s grasp and put some distance between them, by high-tailing it out of the main doors.
Neither father nor stepmother made any move to follow him. It was Mike who was immediately hot-footing it in pursuit.
Tyler’s father looked at me then, with resignation in his eyes. ‘What can I do?’ his expression said, while his voice provided back-up. ‘She’s done her best for the lad,’ he repeated, as if trying to convince me. ‘Brought them up both exactly the same. God only knows how one turns out to be no trouble at all and the other one turns out to be such a wrong ’un. I know it looks bad, Mrs Watson,’ he said, almost apologetically, ‘but, well. I’m sure you know what happened. His mum was a wrong ’un too, so perhaps it’s in his genes …’ He tailed off then, glancing back again at his wife, in a gesture that screamed appeasement. A bit like young wolves did when faced with the leader of the pack.
‘I do know the background,’ was all I could think of to say to him. ‘And I’m sure you’ll be glad to know that we haven’t written him off just yet …’
‘Oh, of course …’ he said, looking embarrassed now. ‘But, look, I really have to get off now. I just wanted to come over and introduce myself and let you know how grateful we both are for what you and your husband are doing. Let’s hope you can sort him out, eh?’ he finished, just as Mike and Tyler were returning, and then, almost as if he wanted to rush away rather than face them, he turned back in the direction of the coffee machine.
To where the she-wolf was waiting, I thought. I couldn’t help it; I couldn’t see her any other way.
‘Come on, love,’ I said to Tyler, putting my arm around his shoulder. ‘No point hanging around here, is there? Let’s jump in the car and go for a burger, eh?’
But Tyler shook his head. He didn’t want a burger and neither did he want platitudes. He wanted his dad and his brother and he wanted to go home.
And when was that going to be happening now? Ever?
I glanced at Mike over Tyler’s head as we made our way to the car park. Unlikely, our eyes said as they met.
It would obviously be unprofessional to stand in judgement over any family in whose lives, as foster carers, we were involved. In the real world, however, that was sometimes easier said than done, because as part of our briefing we sometimes knew too much. And, in our case, given the extreme nature of many of the children’s circumstances, what we knew was about family situations that were far from ideal.
Tyler’s disclosures to me ate away at me for the rest of the day, and while I had always understood that he had been taken in by his stepmother in extremely difficult circumstances (and that credit must have been due for her selflessness in doing so), what had happened subsequently, from what I could gather from Tyler, anyway, was that she’d done that time-honoured thing of perhaps acting in haste. And it had obviously taken the slog of caring for another woman’s child for her to realise she’d made a mistake.
A mistake she now seemed determined to make him pay for.
‘You don’t know that,’ Mike had said, reasonably enough, when Tyler was out with Will the following evening, having been picked up by him straight after school. They were off swimming – something Will suggested and to which Tyler had grudgingly agreed, on the basis that there might be a pizza in the equation. We were being lazy as a consequence – sharing a rare Chinese take-away.
‘I know I don’t,’ I admitted, ‘but it’s so hard to see it any differently. She seems determined to expunge him from their lives, don’t you think? And this court situation is a gift.’
‘He did pull a knife on her, Case.’
‘I know, and I’m never going to condone that. But he maintains that he never meant to stab her and I believe him. Just like I believe what he says about her systematic cruelty. God, Mike, isn’t it cruel enough that he wasn’t even allowed to call her “Mum”? Can you imagine how that must have eaten away at him? He was three, and it was made clear that he and Grant were not even remotely equal. That’s extreme mental cruelty right there!’
‘I know, love,’ Mike said again. ‘But –’
‘And what about his father?’ I said, pushing my plate away irritably. ‘What did you make of him? How could he stand there and say what he said in all conscience?’
‘Because he’s weak? Because he’s piggy in the middle?’
‘Exactly,’ I said. ‘You’ve hit the nail on the head. I know it might not be that simple, but it doesn’t seem that complicated, either. She’s the one calling the shots and her ultimatum’s clear. Tyler or her. And, of course, he doesn’t know the half of it, does he? That’s why I’m so ambivalent about Tyler’s disclosures not being read out in court.’
‘But do you really think it would have made any difference? They had one job to do – try an assault case against a juvenile – and they did that. Would knowing he’s had a rubbish start in life have changed the outcome?’
‘Possibly not, but now it’s so obvious she’s determined to be shot of him anyway, it would have been good to let that particular cat out of the bag, and let the court – and his father – know what’s been going on in his absence.’
Mike shook his head. ‘Yes, but how do you know he doesn’t know? I know Tyler chooses to believe she’s telling lies to his dad about him, but you know how these things work – what’s to say he isn’t all too aware? Just chooses to turn a blind eye so as not to upset the apple cart?’
‘So you think he’s in on it?’
‘He could well be. And even if he’s not, he could still be quietly condoning it – putting his head in the sand rather than risk confrontation. But love,’ he added gently, ‘what can we do about any of it anyway? It may well be that he doesn’t love Tyler either – let’s face it, it’s been known. He didn’t bond with him as a baby, did he? Just got handed him and told, “Here you are – these are your genes, mate.” And if they don’t love him, either of them – which is how I see it, to be honest, however much of a show Dad puts on – then of course they don’t want to take care of him, so what’s the point in even dwelling on it? If that’s the case, surely the best thing is to stop flogging a dead horse. That’s the reality of the situation, is it not?’
It was chilling to hear it but, of course, he was right. Which was what made it all so depressing. No matter how hard we worked on Tyler, how much time we all spent helping him fight his demons and move forward, what he might be moving on to might be the loss of such family as he had – the little brother he so obviously loved, and I felt sure loved him. How in all conscience could we let that happen?
‘We’re not going to,’ said John, the following morning, when he was finally able to pop round and talk things through. I’d already emailed him my statement, together with an up-to-date copy of my usual log, so between them he had the clearest picture to date of both how things had been with Tyler since he’d come to us, and how life had been up to the point of the knife incident.
It was the last day of the summer term today and, as of that afternoon, we’d have six weeks of long days to fill with our young charge – the key thing being to keep him out of mischief. For which I already had a few plans – doing some gardening for my mum and dad being one of them, joining Kieron’s footie crew being another – but it was a lot of space to fill.
But John had said what he’d said with an air of conviction. Which was encouraging. ‘Have you got a plan, then?’ I wanted to know.
‘Sort of,’ he said, ‘though not a hard and fast one. We thought we’d leave it a couple of weeks then see if we could fix up a meeting with the Broughtons. Now the court hearing is behind us, the plan was – and still is, up to a point – to see if we can open up a dialogue. See if there’s potential to have some sort of organised contact with his brother, and perhaps his dad, with, if at all possible, a view to him perhaps eventually returning home.’
I put down my coffee mug. I had picked up on something. ‘“Was, and still is, up to a point”?’ I asked him.
He grinned at me. ‘Trust you to spot that, Casey!’ But the grin soon turned to a worried sigh. ‘The truth is that Tyler’s disclosures have added a new aspect to things, haven’t they? If what he’s said is true then there are obviously issues we can’t ignore. We can’t un-know things we now know, can we?’
He made a good point. One of Tyler’s disclosures had been that his stepmother was actively abusing him – or at least being extremely physical in her punishments. He’d also confessed to stealing on her behalf, and being sworn to secrecy on pain of more beatings; if proven, things like that simply couldn’t be ignored. ‘So what’s the next step?’ I asked.
‘Well, we still want to speak to the family; at the very least, his father. It’s clear Tyler has a strong bond with his brother, and is keen to have a relationship with his dad. So whatever the situation with the stepmother we have a duty – if appropriate – to foster a resumption of relations there. As to how far that takes us …’ he shrugged. ‘Who knows, Casey? The bottom line is that if they don’t want him back, we can’t push it. Only try to make them appreciate Tyler’s position.’
‘Which is that the poor little sod’s between a rock and a hard place,’ I said.
‘I know,’ John said, ‘I know – ’twas ever thus, eh?’
He was right there. There wasn’t a child that came our way that wasn’t in some awful bind or other. Whether they’d been neglected or abused, beaten or just browbeaten, pushed from pillar to post in care, or within chaotic unhappy families, the one thing that bound them was the thing that always got my goat – that none of it was ever their fault. Yes, you could point the finger towards bad actions, bad behaviours and bad attitudes, and the older a child got, the more inclined society was to do that. But the truth was that almost all of the time there was a common, depressing truth – that they had been let down pretty badly in some way or other, and everything that followed was generally a result of that.
It mattered not a jot to me that these parents – well, parent and step-parent – felt aggrieved to have had to take on that motherless three-year-old. No, perhaps it wasn’t fair, wasn’t part of their plan. But they had done so, sealing his fate. Which might have been different. If he’d been fostered as a three-year-old, he might have been adopted instead, mightn’t he? By adoptive parents who would probably have cherished him. Instead, he was more or less orphaned as an 11-year-old, and, crucially, having already formed a bond with what he’d thought was his family. Which made it so much worse.
‘God, you said it, John,’ I agreed.