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The Godslayer’s mother, Suheyla, stood in her garden courtyard and lifted her face to feel the sun. She closed her eyes when she did it, though, so she wouldn’t have to see the citadel.
She couldn’t believe the sweet young man who’d been living in her home was up there right now, that he was one of them. She hadn’t witnessed the transformation. She’d missed everything—an old woman can’t go running through the streets!—so it had the feel of a tall tale to her. She just couldn’t picture Lazlo blue. What did it mean? What would happen now? She couldn’t feel the shape of it, but it was clear that everything would change. It was hard to think of tomorrow, though, when grief spat like grease in the pit of her belly.
Yesterday she’d discovered she had a grandchild, living—a grandchild who was half monster, yes, but the blood of her blood nonetheless. She hadn’t sorted out how to feel about it until the girl was dead. Now she knew: She wanted her. And it was too late.
She busied herself with her usual routine, like any other day, as though the streets weren’t choked with people flooding out of the city like fleas deserting a corpse.
Weep wasn’t a corpse, and Suheyla wasn’t a flea. All her old fears persisted, but she just couldn’t add Lazlo to them, blue skin or not. Of all the possibilities laid out like a feast of uncertainty and doom, there was simply no scenario in which Lazlo Strange hurt Weep, or anybody in it.
She surveyed her sad garden, so long starved of sun. She might make something of it now, she thought. Oh, she’d need to go out into the countryside for cuttings, and that wasn’t happening today. But she could make it ready. She could do that.
Suheyla rolled up her sleeves, and got to work.
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“What’s that?” Calixte asked.
Thyon turned to her, expecting her to be looking up at the citadel, but she wasn’t. She was pointing down into the sinkhole.
“What?” he asked, squinting where she pointed.
The sinking of the anchor had sheared right through the crust of earth beneath the city, exposing layers of stone and sediment, like an excavation. The Godslayer had told them that the gods had set the anchors down with precision, crushing the buildings beneath them, “which happened to include,” as he had said, “the university and library, the Tizerkane garrison, and the royal palace.”
Which had this been? It was impossible to tell from the layers of rubble ground down by the anchor’s weight. But what Calixte was pointing at was beneath those layers, where, if you looked, you could make out the remnants of foundations, and the suggestion of deeper subterranean levels. Was it possible they hadn’t all caved in? “There,” she said. “You can just see the corner of it. It looks like…”
Thyon saw. He finished her sentence with her. In unison, they said, “A door.”
Chapter 9
A Dead God’s Closet
They didn’t simply burn the body and have done with it. “You need to honor this good vessel,” Great Ellen told Sarai, “the same as you would with a loved one you’d lost.”
It would be a strange sort of funeral, with Sarai’s own ghost attending, but it had been a strange sort of life, so why should death be any different? Great Ellen took charge, as was her way. She sent Less Ellen to the kitchens for water, soap, a soft cloth. “Scissors, too,” she called after her before turning to Ruby and Sparrow. “You two, fetch a clean slip from Sarai’s dressing room.”
“What color would you like, Sarai?” asked Sparrow, and the question, so seemingly ordinary, was surreal, because the slip wasn’t for her, but her body.
It was only a week since Sarai had chided Ruby for burning up her own slip after Feral drenched her with a rain shower. “We won’t live long enough to run out of dresses,” Ruby had said then, and her nonchalance had shocked Sarai. But now that prophecy was fulfilled, for her at least, and it struck her that she was through with her dressing room and all her dead mother’s things. Or she would be, after this.
One last time her body needed to be dressed.
“White,” she said. She would be burned in white.
The girls went off to fetch the slip and Great Ellen turned to the boys. “Feral,” she said, “won’t you please show our guest where he can get himself cleaned up?”
Lazlo objected. He wanted to stay with Sarai, but was made to understand in no uncertain terms that it wouldn’t be decent, not while they washed the body, on top of which he was filthy himself. So he acquiesced, parting from Sarai with difficulty, and followed Feral inside.
It was his first sight of the citadel’s interior, and the first thing he noticed was the living wall of orchids that Sparrow had grown to soften the effect of so much metal. It couldn’t be disguised, though. Everything was metal here—walls, floors, ceilings, fixtures, furniture. So much metal, all mesarthium, and all of it seemed to be holding its breath, waiting for him to awaken it. He didn’t know what to do with the feeling. It was overwhelming. It felt like claiming—the metal claiming him, or he it? Of course this whole vast otherworldly citadel didn’t belong to him, but…he couldn’t shake the feeling that it was somehow his, eager to yield itself up to him.
Ghosts stood at attention against the wall: some old men, a girl. They were stiff, facing forward, and didn’t—couldn’t—turn their heads to watch the young men walk in. Their eyes rolled to the side, though, showing too much white. The sight was disturbing. Lazlo saw Feral glance at them and look quickly away.
“This is the gallery,” said Feral, leading Lazlo through the big room with its long mesarthium table. “Kitchen’s through here. We bathe in the rain room.” He stopped in the doorway and looked Lazlo up and down. “I don’t suppose you have a change of clothes.”
Lazlo held his arms out to his sides to show that, of course, he carried nothing.
It wasn’t the first time. When Lazlo Strange changed his life, he went with only the clothes on his back. This was the third time—or, he supposed, the fourth, if you counted his journey as a baby, though he couldn’t take credit for that one. The next had been at thirteen, when he stowed away at the Great Library, and then again when he rode out through the gates with Eril-Fane. Lazlo’s chances came without warning, and when they did, he didn’t dither, and he didn’t stop to pack.
“We’ll find you something,” said Feral, who was torn between wariness and awe of him.
He led Lazlo deeper into the citadel, giving him a rudimentary tour. “That way to the sinister arm,” he said, pointing left. Lazlo knew that sinister meant “left” in the language of heraldry, but something in Feral’s tone made him think the word applied in more ways than that, even before he added gruffly, “We don’t go there.”
He led the way to the dexter arm instead. It was a long corridor, sleek and tubelike. It curved to the right; Lazlo couldn’t see to the end. He realized that he was inside the seraph’s right arm.
They passed a door with a curtain strung across it. A pair of ghosts stood guard outside it. “Minya’s chambers,” said Feral. “They were Skathis’s, so they’re the biggest.”
Along the corridor were several more doors. Feral named them all as they went by. “Sparrow’s room. It was Korako’s before. Ruby’s was Letha’s. Here’s mine. It was Vanth’s. My father.” He said the word without feeling. At each door there were guards, and he continued to look past them. “And here’s Ikirok’s. No one uses it, so I guess it’s yours.”