FOUR
Avery woke up knowing who she was.
She had never exactly forgotten. It was just that her medication, along with her concussion, had left her confused.
Yesterday—or at least she guessed it had been yesterday, since everyone who had recently come within her range of vision had greeted her with a "good morning"—she had been disoriented, which was understandable. Waking after having been comatose for several days to find that she couldn't move, couldn't speak, and couldn't see beyond a very limited range would confound anyone. She was rarely ill, certainly not seriously, so being this injured was shocking.
The ICU, with its constant light and activity, was enough to hamper anyone's mental process. But what really had Avery puzzled was that everyone was addressing her incorrectly. How had she come to be mistaken for a woman named Carole Rutledge? Even Mr. Rutledge seemed convinced that he was speaking to his wife.
Somehow, she must communicate this mistake to them. But she didn't know how, and that frightened her.
Her name was Avery Daniels. It was clearly printed on her driver's license, her press pass, and all the other forms of identification in her wallet. They had probably been destroyed in the crash, she thought.
Memories of the crash tended to panic her still, so she determinedly put them aside to be dealt with later, when she was stronger and had this temporary mix-up straightened out.
Where was Irish? Why hadn't he come to her rescue?
The obvious answer startled her unexpectedly. Her whole body reacted as though it had been electrically charged. It was unthinkable, untenable, yet it was glaringly apparent. If she had been mistaken for Mrs. Rutledge, and Mrs. Rutledge was believed alive, then Avery Daniels was believed dead.
She imagined the anguish Irish must be going through. Her "death" would hit him hard. For the present, however, she was helpless to alleviate his suffering. No! As long as she was alive, she wasn't helpless. She must think. She must concentrate.
"Good morning."
She recognized his voice immediately. The swelling in her eye must have gone down some because she could see him more clearly. His previously blurred features were now distinct.
His heavy, well-shaped brows almost met above the bridge of a long, straight nose. He had a strong, stubborn jawline and chin, yet it fell short of being pugnacious, despite the vertical cleft at the edge of it. His lips were firm, wide, and thin, the lower one slightly fuller than the upper.
He was smiling, but not with his eyes, she noted. He didn't really feel the smile. It didn't come from his soul. Avery wondered why not.
"They said you had a restful night. Still no sign of pulmonary infection. That's terrific news."
She knew this face, this voice. Not from yesterday. It was before that, but she couldn't recall when she had met this man.
"Mom left Mandy's room long enough to come say hello to you." He turned his head and signaled someone to move closer. "You have to stand here, Mom, or she can't see you."
An exceptionally pretty, middle-aged face materialized in Avery's patch of vision. The woman's soft, dark hair had a very flattering silver streak that waved up and away from her smooth, unlined forehead.
"Hello, Carole. We're all very relieved that you're doing so well. Tate said the doctors are pleased with your progress."
Tate Rutledge! Of course.
"Tell her about Mandy, Mom."
Dutifully, the stranger reported on another stranger. "Mandy ate most of her breakfast this morning. They sedated her last night so she would sleep better. The cast on her arm bothers her, but that's to be expected, I suppose. She's the sweetheart of the pediatric wing, and has the entire staff wrapped around her little finger." Tears formed in her eyes and she blotted at them with a tissue. "When I think of what. . ."
Tate Rutledge placed his arm across his mother's shoulders. "But it didn't happen. Thank God it didn't."
Avery realized then that it must have been Mandy Rutledge she had carried from the plane. She remembered hearing the child's screams and frantically trying to unfasten her jammed seat belt. When it came free, she had gathered the terrified child against her and, with the assistance of another passenger, had plunged through the dense, acrid smoke toward an emergency exit.
Because she had had the child, they had assumed she was Mrs. Carole Rutledge. But that wasn't all—they had been in each other's seats.
Her mind clumsily pieced together a puzzle of which only she was aware. She recalled that her boarding pass had designated the window seat, but when she had arrived, a woman was already sitting there. She hadn't pointed out the error, but had taken the seat on the aisle instead. The child had been sitting in the seat between them.
The woman had worn her dark hair shoulder length, much like Avery wore hers. She also had dark eyes. They bore a resemblance to each other. In fact, the flight attendant, who had made a fuss over the little girl, had asked who was the mother and who was the aunt, implying that Avery and Carole Rutledge were sisters.
Her face had been smashed beyond recognition. Mrs. Rutledge had probably been burned beyond recognition. They had misidentified her on the basis of the child and a seating rearrangement that no one knew about. My God, she had to tell them!
"You'd better go back now before Mandy becomes anxious, Mom," Tate was saying. "Tell her I'll be there shortly."
"Good-bye for now, Carole," the woman said to her. "I'm sure when Dr. Sawyer's done, you'll be as pretty as ever."
Her eyes don't smile either,Avery thought as the woman moved away.
"Before I forget it," Tate said, stepping close to the bed so that she could see him again, "Eddy, Dad, and Jack send their regards. I think Dad's coming to the meeting with the plastic surgeon this afternoon, so you'll see him then.
"Jack went home this morning." Tate continued talking, not knowing he wasn't speaking to his wife. "I'm sure he's worried about Dorothy Rae. God only knows what Fancy is up to without any supervision, although Eddy has got her working as a volunteer at the headquarters. None of them will be allowed to see you until you're moved to a private room, but I don't think you'll miss them, will you?"
He assumed that she knew who and what he was talking about. How could she convey that she hadn't the foggiest idea? These people were unknown to her. Their comings and goings were no concern of hers. She must contact Irish. She must let this man know that he was a widower.
"Listen, Carole, about the campaign." By the motion his shoulders made, she thought he had probably slid his hands into his hip pockets. He bowed his head for a moment, almost resting his chin on his chest, before looking at her again. "I'm going ahead with it as planned. Dad, Jack, and Eddy agree. They've pledged their support. It was going to be a tough fight before, but nothing I was afraid to tackle. Now, with this, it's going to be even tougher. Still, I'm committed."
Tate Rutledge had been making news recently. That's why his name and face were familiar to her, though she had never met him personally. He was hoping to win the primary election in May and then go up against an incumbent senator in the November election.
"I won't shirk any of my responsibilities to you and Mandy while you're recovering, but going to Congress is what I've been preparing for all my life. I don't want to wait another six years to run or I'll lose the momentum I've built. I need to do it now."
After consulting his wristwatch, he said, "I'd better get back to Mandy. I promised to feed her some ice cream. With her arms bandaged and all, well," he added, glancing toward her bandaged hands, resting in their splints, "you can understand. The psychologist has the first session with her today. Nothing to worry about," he rushed to say. "More precautionary than anything. I don't want her to be permanently traumatized.''
He paused, looking down at her meaningfully. "That's why I don't think she should see you just yet. I know that sounds cruel, but these bandages would scare her half to death, Carole. Once the surgeon rebuilds your face and you start looking like yourself, I'll bring her in for short visits. Besides, I'm sure you don't feel up to seeing her now, either."
Avery struggled to speak, but her mouth had the breathing tube taped inside it. She had overheard a nurse say that smoke inhalation had rendered her vocal cords temporarily inoperable. She couldn't move her jaw anyway. She batted her eye to convey her distress.
Misconstruing the reason for it, he laid a consoling hand on her shoulder. "I promise that your disfigurement is temporary, Carole. Dr. Sawyer says it looks much worse to us than it actually is. He'll be in later today to explain the procedure to you. He knows what you looked like before and guarantees that you'll look the same when he gets finished."
She tried to shake her head no. Tears of panic and fear overflowed her eye. A nurse came in and edged him aside. "I think you'd better let her rest now, Mr. Rutledge. I've got to change her bandages anyway."
"I'll be with my daughter."
"We'll call if you're needed," the nurse told him kindly. "Oh, and while I'm thinking of it, they called from downstairs to remind you that Mrs. Rutledge's jewelry is in the hospital safe. They took it off her when she arrived in the emergency room."
"Thanks. I'll get it later."
Now! Get it now,Avery's mind screamed. It wouldn't be Carole Rutledge's jewelry in the hospital safe—it would be hers. Once they saw it, they would realize that a horrible mistake had been made. Mr. Rutledge would learn that his wife was dead. It would come as a blow to him, but it would be better that he discover the error now rather than later. She would lament the Rutledges ' tragic loss, but Irish would be overjoyed. Dear Irish. His bereavement would end.
But what if Mr. Rutledge failed to retrieve his wife's jewelry before the plastic surgeon began to change her face into Carole Rutledge's?
That was her last conscious thought before the pain-relieving medication claimed her once again.
Tate will never live to take office.
She was reliving the nightmare again. She tried desperately to ward it off. Again, she couldn't see him, but she could feel his sinister presence hovering above her, just beyond her field of vision. His breath fanned across her exposed eye. It was like being taunted in the dark with a sheer veil—unseen but felt, ghostly.
There will never be a Senator Tate Rutledge. Tate will never live. Senator Tate Rutledge will die first. There'll never be. . . Never live. . .
Avery woke up screaming. It was a silent scream, of course, but it reverberated through her skull. She opened her eye and recognized the lights overhead, the medicinal smell she associated with hospitals, the hissing sound of her respirator. She had been asleep, so this time it had been a nightmare.
But last night it had been real. Last night she hadn't even known Mr. Rutledge's first name! She couldn't have dreamed it if she hadn't known it, but she distinctly remembered hearing that menacing, faceless voice contemptuously whispering it into her ear.
Was her mind playing games with her, or was Tate Rutledge in real danger? Surely she was becoming panicked prematurely. After all, she had been heavily sedated and disoriented. Maybe she wasn't keeping the chronology straight. Was she getting events out of order? Who could possibly want him dead?
God, these were staggering questions. She had to know the answers to them. But her powers of deductive reasoning seemed to have deserted her, along with her other faculties. She couldn't think logically.
The threat to Tate Rutledge's life had far-reaching and enormous ramifications, but she was helpless to do anything about it. She was too woozy to formulate an explanation or solution. Her mind was operating sluggishly. It wouldn't, couldn't function properly, even though a man's life was at stake.
Avery almost resented this intrusion into her own problem. Didn't she already have enough to cope with without worrying about a senatorial candidate's safety?
She was incapable of motion, yet on the inside she was roiling with frustration. It was exhausting. Eventually, it was no match for the void that continued to remain at the fringes of her consciousness. She combated it, but finally gave up the struggle and was sucked into its peacefulness again.