Step after step, they walked. Her legs shook with the effort.
It told her enough about how long she had been here. How long she had not been able to properly move, even with the healers’ ministrations to keep her muscles from wasting away.
Cairn led her up a winding staircase that had her rasping for breath, the mist fading away to cool night air. Sweet smells. Flowers.
Flowers still existed. In this world, this hell, flowers bloomed somewhere.
The water’s bellow faded behind them to a blessedly dull rushing, soon replaced by merry trickling ahead. Fountains. Cold, smooth tiles bit into her feet, and through the hood flickering fire cast golden ripples. Lanterns.
The air tightened, grew still. A courtyard, perhaps.
Lightning pulsed down her thighs, her calves, warning her to slow, to rest.
Then open air yawned again wide around her, the water once more roaring.
Cairn halted, yanking her against his towering body, his various weapons digging into her chains, her skin. The other guards’ clothes rustled as they stopped, too. Fenrys’s claws clicked on stone, the sound no doubt meant to signal her that he remained nearby.
She realized why he’d feel the need to do so as a female voice that was both young and old, amused and soulless, purred, “Remove the hood, Cairn.”
It vanished, and Aelin needed only a few blinks to take everything in.
She had been here before.
Had been on this broad veranda overlooking a mighty river and waterfalls, had walked through the ancient stone city she knew loomed at her back.
Had stood in this very spot, facing the dark-haired queen lounging on a stone throne atop the dais, mist wreathing the air around her, a white owl perched on the back of her seat.
Only one wolf lay sprawled at her feet this time. Black as night, black as the queen’s eyes, which settled on Aelin, narrowing with pleasure.
Maeve seemed content to let Aelin look. Let her take it in.
Maeve’s deep purple gown glistened like the mists behind her, its long train draped over the few steps of the dais. Pooling toward— Aelin beheld what glittered at the base of those steps and went still.
Maeve’s red lips curved into a smile as she waved an ivory hand. “If you will, Cairn.”
The male didn’t hesitate as he hauled Aelin toward what lay on the ground.
Shattered glass, piled and arranged in a neat circle.
He halted just outside, the first of the thick shards an inch from Aelin’s bare toes.
Maeve motioned to the black wolf at her feet and he rose, plucking up something from the throne’s broad arm before trotting to Cairn.
“I thought your rank should at least be acknowledged,” Maeve said, that spider’s smile never faltering as Aelin beheld what the wolf offered to the guard beside Cairn. “Put it on her,” the queen ordered.
A crown, ancient and glimmering, shone in the guard’s hands. Crafted of silver and pearl, fashioned into upswept wings that met in its peaked center, encircled with spikes of pure diamond, it shimmered like the moon’s rays had been captured within as the guard set it upon Aelin’s head.
A terrible, surprising weight, the cool metal digging into her scalp. Far heavier than it looked, as if it had a core of solid iron.
A different sort of shackle. It always had been.
Aelin reined in the urge to recoil, to shake the thing from her head.
“Mab’s crown,” Maeve said. “Your crown, by blood and birthright. Her true Heir.”
Aelin ignored the words. Stared toward the circle of glass shards.
“Oh, that,” Maeve said, noting her attention. “I think you know how this shall go, Aelin of the Wildfire.”
Aelin said nothing.
Maeve gave a nod.
Cairn shoved her forward, right into the glass.
Her bare feet sliced open, new skin shrieking as it ripped.
She inhaled sharply through her teeth, swallowing her cry just as Cairn pushed her onto her knees.
The breath slammed from her at the impact. At each shard that sliced and dug in deep.
Breathe—breathing was key, was vital.
She pulled her mind out, away, inhaling and exhaling. A wave sweeping back from the shore, then returning.
Warmth pooled beneath her knees, her calves and ankles, the coppery scent of her blood rising to blend into the mists.
Her breath turned jagged as she began shaking, as a scream surged within her.
She bit her lip, canines piercing flesh.
She would not scream. Not yet.
Breathe—breathe.
The tang of her blood coated her mouth as she bit down harder.
“A pity that there’s no audience to witness this,” said Maeve, her voice far away and yet too near. “Aelin Fire-Bringer, wearing her proper Faerie Queen’s crown at last. Kneeling at my feet.”
A tremor shuddered through Aelin, rocking her body enough that the glass found new angles, new entries.
She drifted further back, away. Each breath tugged her out to sea, to a place where words and feelings and pain became a distant shore.
Maeve snapped her fingers. “Fenrys.”
The wolf padded past and sat himself beside her throne. But not before he glanced at the black wolf. Just a turn of the head.
The black wolf returned the look, bland and cold. And that was enough for Maeve to say, “Connall, you may finally tell your twin what you wish to say.”
A flash of light.
Aelin inhaled through her nose, exhaled through her mouth, over and over. Barely registered the beautiful dark-haired male who now stood in place of the wolf. Bronze-skinned like his twin, but without the wildness, without the mischief shining from his face. He wore a warrior’s layered clothes, black to Fenrys’s usual gray, twin knives hanging at his sides.
The white wolf stared up at his twin, rooted to the spot by that invisible bond.
“Speak freely, Connall,” Maeve said, her faint smile remaining. The barn owl perched on the back of her throne watched with solemn, unblinking eyes. “Let your brother know these words are your own and not of my command.”
A booted foot nudged Aelin’s spine, a subtle jab forward. Harder into the glass.
No amount of breathing could draw her far enough away to rein in the muffled whimper.
She hated it—hated that sound, as much as she hated the queen before her and the sadist at her back. But it still made its way out, barely audible over the thundering falls.
Fenrys’s dark eyes shot toward her. He blinked four times.
She could not bring herself to blink back. Her fingers curled and uncurled in her lap.
“You brought this upon yourself,” Connall said to Fenrys, drawing his brother’s attention once more. His voice was as icy as Maeve’s. “Your arrogance, your unchecked recklessness—was this what you wanted?” Fenrys didn’t answer. “You couldn’t let me have this—have any part of this for myself. You took the blood oath not to serve our queen, but so you couldn’t be bested by me for once in your life.”
Fenrys bared his teeth, even as something like grief dimmed his stare.
Another burning wave washed through her knees, across her thighs. Aelin closed her eyes against it.
She would endure this, would bear down on this.
Her people had suffered for ten years. Were likely suffering now. For their sake, she would do this. Embrace it. Outlast it.
Connall’s rumbling voice rippled past her.
“You are a disgrace to our family, to this kingdom. You whored yourself to a foreign queen, and for what? I begged you to control yourself when you were sent to hunt Lorcan. I begged you to be smart. You might as well have spat in my face.”
Fenrys snarled, and the sound must have been some secret language between them, because Connall snorted. “Leave? Why would I ever want to leave? And for what? That?” Even with her eyes shut, Aelin knew he pointed toward her. “No, Fenrys. I will not leave. And neither will you.”
A low whine cut the damp air.
“That will be all, Connall,” Maeve said, and light flashed, penetrating even the darkness behind Aelin’s lids.
She breathed and breathed and breathed.
Kingdom of Ash (Throne of Glass #7)
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