I dump my rucksack by the table, then rummage in the cupboards. There’s little food – a tin of baked beans and a jar of pickles in the cupboard and a pint of milk three days out of date and some margarine in the fridge. Great. My stomach rumbles. I open the beans and eat them straight out of the tin with a fork, which would make Arlo gag. He can’t eat beans unless they’re heated up first. I think wistfully of Aggie’s homemade meals. On Fridays she usually cooks a delicious fish dish.
It’s freezing in here. I finish off the beans, then go to the airing cupboard in the tiny hallway and switch on the heating. The switch is near the back of the immersion tank so I have to lean right in to reach it, almost pulling my arm out of its socket as I do so. My hand brushes against something. It’s a Jiffy-bag that has been wedged down the side of the tank. I know I should leave it but I’m intrigued, so I grab it and pull it out. It’s heavy and has been secured at the top with brown tape. Before I’ve even had a chance to think about what I’m doing, I rip the tape apart with my teeth. When I peer inside I can’t help but gasp. There’s money. Wedges of it. All in twenty-pound notes and tied with elastic bands. I flick through it. There must be a couple of grand here easily. Maybe five. Where the hell did Arlo get this kind of money?
Tucked behind the notes is a phone. I take it from the bag. It looks old and the screen is cracked. It must be a burner phone. What kind of shit is Arlo involved in?
Why did I rip apart the tape? Now Arlo will know I’ve seen what’s inside. It might not be what I think it is. I slip the phone into the bag and put it back where I found it. A noise on the stairwell makes me jump.
I hear the key in the lock and I slam the airing-cupboard door and rush into the kitchen to make a black coffee.
Arlo is whistling to himself as he walks in, more dishevelled than ever. His hair is long and messy and there is a rip in the arm of his parka. He starts when he notices me. ‘What are you doing here?’ He doesn’t sound pleased to see me. He has a holdall on him, which he chucks onto the sofa. My eyes flick towards it, and I wonder what’s inside. More money? Drugs? Is my brother involved in something illegal?
We had an unconventional childhood, growing up in the commune, and normal rules didn’t seem to apply to us. Arlo, some of the other kids and I were home-schooled. The rest of the time we were able to run wild through the many acres of fields, helping out on the farm at weekends. It was idyllic in lots of ways but Arlo in particular seemed to struggle in his late teens, especially with authority. As a result he never lasts long in a job. Not that I’m one to talk. But Arlo has always said he wants me to make something of myself, have a secure future after our childhood. He’d acknowledge he’s a bit of a fuck-up. ‘But you,’ he’d say, his voice sad, ‘have your head screwed on right.’
‘I left the McKenzie house,’ I say.
He rubs his hand across his chin. He doesn’t look like he’s shaved for days. ‘What? Why?’
‘Because something weird is going on there, that’s why. I don’t want to be their next victim.’
‘For fuck’s sake,’ he mutters, under his breath, as he pushes past me to get to the fridge. When he sees it’s practically empty he closes it again. ‘You had a good thing going there. You’re mental. I’ve told you before you can’t rely on me. I’ve got nothing.’ He was furious when I admitted I’d dropped out of uni and equally annoyed when I told him I was going to India for a few months. I feel like I’ve continuously disappointed him since Mum died.
‘I know it was well paid, but –’
‘And now you’ve fucked it up.’
I feel a rising sense of indignation. ‘No, I didn’t. Two, possibly three of my predecessors were murdered in that job.’
He sighs. His eyes are baggy and bloodshot. ‘We’ve talked about this.’
I tell him about finding Jemima’s passport hidden at Kathryn’s gallery.
He shrugs, unconcerned. ‘There could be many explanations.’ He slumps onto the sofa. He looks exhausted. ‘I’ve got a lot on my plate. I don’t need this.’
I sit beside him. He smells of stale smoke. ‘I’m sorry. I’ll sort something out. But can I stay just for a bit?’
‘You’re twenty years old. I can’t keep babysitting you.’
‘You’re not.’
‘I’ve been working all hours, putting in nights down at the factory. And you can’t even keep a job for five minutes.’
I hang my head in shame. Since Mum died I’ve just floundered. ‘I’ve saved up money at Elspeth’s. I can pay you rent.’
‘The flat is too small.’
‘Just for a few nights. I might go back to Bristol.’
He turns to look at me, his blue eyes intense. ‘I thought you got on with that Elspeth.’
‘I did. I think she liked me.’
His face brightens. ‘Then she’ll forgive you leaving. I think you should go back.’
‘But –’
‘You’re being ridiculous. An old woman can’t harm you. What do you expect her to do? Stab you in the night with her knitting needles?’
‘Well, no, but –’
‘And, okay, the daughter sounds a bit odd, but she doesn’t live there. Just be aware, that’s all. Don’t let her lure you onto the bridge like you reckon she did with the others.’
‘But Courtney thinks –’
‘Who the fuck is Courtney?’
‘She’s Una’s best friend. She was the one who told me I should be careful, that I should –’
He stands up, his face red and more animated than I’ve seen it since I arrived. ‘I don’t believe this. You’ve been listening to conspiracy theories. That’s messed up.’ His expression softens. ‘This was a good job. You had a beautiful place to live and a great wage. The old woman sounds loaded. If you’d played your cards right you could have been left a fair wedge in her will.’
‘What? Is this just about money to you?’
He sighs. ‘It’s always about money.’
‘Is that why you have a bag of it in the airing cupboard?’
His face darkens. ‘Have you been nosing about my flat?’
‘No. I turned the heating on when I got here and found it.’
‘I do a bit of cash-in-hand work. I’ve not had time to go to the bank.’ The explanation slips off his lips smoothly, but I don’t buy it. He’s been acting shifty for months, when I think of it. Ever since I came back from travelling.