Watch your own back, little mouse. No one else will.
My mouth has dried, and I fear my tongue will shrivel up and crumble from
lack of moisture. It’s all been rerouted to my eyes, yet I don’t dare let the tears
fall. I lick my lips, wetting them enough so I can push out words, useless as they’ll be.
“Nothing, I’m sorry,” I choke out, keeping my voice small and pleasant.
Attitude will undoubtedly result in even worse repercussions, and while I’m successful in that endeavor, I’m unsuccessful in keeping the tremors out of my tone. The fear.
“Stupid girl,” Francesca hisses, her eyes thin and heated. Rocco walks
towards me, his candor slow and purposeful as he opens and closes the
switchblade. Over and over, each metallic ring pumping dread into my system.
He stops mere inches from me, his beer gut brushing against my stomach and
his rank breath burning my nostrils. Jesus, he smells like body odor and week-
old cheese that’s been left out in the sun. The little self-control I possess is put towards not cringing from the smell.
“Look at me,” he whispers.
I do, lifting my eyes to meet his cold, deadened stare. A piercing shrill in my
ears develops as we glower at each other. It forms deep in the recess of my mind
and builds to a crescendo until I can hardly hear a sound outside of it.
It’s a warning. My own body is sounding an alarm, alerting me of the serious
damage coming my way. Just like a tornado alarm, right before the deadly twister rips lives to shreds.
His thick palm seizes my throat, his lips curling as he lifts me up to his height, suspending me on the tips of my toes. Instinctively, I claw at his hand, and I assure myself that if I die here and now and Zade finds my body, he’ll know exactly who was responsible based on the skin caked beneath my nails.
Rocco doesn’t flinch, despite how deeply my nails bite into his skin. The edges of my vision darken as my body depletes of oxygen, steadily emptying from my lungs while stars burst across my eyes.
“Don’t kill her. She’s valuable,” Francesca snaps, though her voice sounds far
away, like I’m trapped in a vortex.
Snarling, he swings me around and tosses me to the floor like a wadded-up gum wrapper.
I grunt from the impact, landing awkwardly on my right wrist, but before I can lift myself up, he’s climbing on me, his weight suffocating.
Survival instincts immediately kick in, and my fight or flight activates—
namely my fight. I twist beneath him and swing my elbows towards his head.
But I miss, a weak attempt at knocking out a two-hundred-pound-plus man from
on top of me.
“Get off me!” I screech, bucking my hips, desperate to dislodge him. So
desperate that I’ve become rabid. I will tear the flesh from my bones with my teeth if it means getting out from beneath him. I will do anything—absolutely anything—to escape.
“Rocco,” Francesca warns, cutting through the sheer panic that has consumed
my mind. “She needs to heal.”
“She needs to learn her place. It doesn’t have to hurt,” he argues, breathless
from wrangling my struggling body into compliance. He’s failing—but so am I.
I’m weak and still in pain, and he’s so much stronger.
He’s going to win.
“Right, diamond? This could be quick and painless. A little lesson to teach
you to keep your fucking mouth shut.”
He bashes my face into the wooden floor, dirt and dust grinding into my face
as he rips at my joggers. The fabric tears, the loud ripping noise sending another
shot of horror into my system as his excited breathing escalates.
“No!” I shout as he tears at my underwear next. He ignores me and unfastens
his jeans, the bite of his zipper coming undone his only response. Rivulets of tears stream down my cheeks as I feel his flesh against my backside.
I try to twist again, but one punch to the back of my head deters me, my world exploding. Pain has been a constant companion this last week, but it’s nowhere to be found now. My mind feels as if I could run a mile, yet my body physically cannot stop this man from defiling me.
“Don’t hit her!” Francesca snaps, more worried about him bruising the apple.
But how can that be when I’m going to be fucking rotten by the time he’s done?
In one thrust, he buries himself inside me, and I scream. Loud and piercing,
the pitch matching the shrill ringing in my head.
"Goddammit, Rocco, you're not wearing a condom," Francesca shouts, and there's a soft whisper in my head, wondering how she can stand to watch this.
Just stand there, angry that her brother isn't wearing a condom as he rapes a girl.
He grunts and then laughs as he repeatedly drives himself inside me.
"Feels fucking incredible, too."
There’s nothing I can do to stop him, and the defeat that coats my skin like hot oil fucking burns.
I try to crawl away from him, my nails digging into the wood and anchoring
me as I try to pull myself out from beneath him. They bend and break from the
pressure, tearing from my skin as he drags me back down, scratches gouging the
floor.
He slams into me once, twice more before pulling out and finishing on me.
Ribbons of his seed spurt across my back, and I can’t help but gag.
He growls, his palm crashing into the side of my face.
“Rocco!” A heel stomps into the wood in a fit of rage, the vibrations traveling
to my bleeding hands.
“Fucking bitch,” he mutters, ignoring her. I gag again, the feel of his essence
seeping into my flesh nauseating.
Francesca sighs, rushes over to me, and grabs me roughly by the arm.
“Get up,” she spits, hauling me to my feet. I’m so angry, so distraught from
what he just did that I react. As soon as I’m on my feet, I twist at the waist and
send my fist flying into his nose. He howls in response, gearing up to charge at
me, but Francesca steps between us and blocks him.
“Stay down! You’ve done enough,” she snarls, then drags me out of the room.
I’m still naked from the waist down, with blood smudged between my thighs.
My body was unaccepting of what he was doing, making the intrusion raw and