Heroes Are My Weakness: A Novel

Chapter Eight

ANNIE STOOD OFF TO THE side of the kitchen window, watching as the cat jumped willingly into Theo’s car and the two of them drove off together. Don’t turn your back, Hannibal, she thought.

There was nothing sexy about Theo pulling her robe open. A bastard’s nature was to act like a bastard, and he’d done what came naturally. But as she turned away from the window, she thought about the calculation she’d seen in his eyes when he’d done it. He’d deliberately tried to unhinge her, but it hadn’t worked. He was a devious jerk, but was he a dangerous one? Her instincts said no, but her reliable brain was flashing enough warning signals to stop a freight train.

She headed for her bedroom. His so-called rental of her cottage was supposed to start today, and she needed to get out of here before he came back. She pulled on what had become her standard island uniform—jeans and wool socks with a long-sleeved top and heavy sweater. She missed the floaty fabrics and colorful prints of her summer boho dresses. She missed her vintage 1950s frocks with their fitted bodices and full skirts. One of her favorites was printed with ripe summer cherries. Another had a border of dancing martini glasses. Unlike Mariah, Annie loved colorful clothes with whimsical trims and decorative buttons. None of which enlivened the jeans and ratty sweaters she’d brought with her.

She returned to the living room and glanced out the window but saw no sign of Theo’s car. She dressed quickly, grabbed her inventory notebook, and began going through the cottage room by room to see if anything was missing. She’d wanted to do this last night, but she wasn’t letting Theo know anything about the legacy or her suspicion that the breakin was tied to it.

Everything on her list was still in place, but for all she knew, what she was looking for could be tucked in the back of a drawer or in one of the closets she hadn’t yet thoroughly investigated. Had her housebreaker found what Annie couldn’t locate?

Theo worried her. As she zipped up her coat, she made herself reexamine the possibility that the breakin had nothing to do with Mariah’s legacy and everything to do with Theo trying to pay her back for spooking him. She’d thought she’d gotten away with the clock incident, but what if she hadn’t? What if he’d seen through her and this was his payback? Should she follow her head or her instincts?

Definitely her head. Trusting Theo Harp was like trusting a poisonous snake not to bite.

She circled the cottage. Theo had done the same before he’d left, ostensibly to look for tracks . . . or maybe to wipe out any evidence he might have left himself. He’d told her the lack of fresh snow and the confusion from her footprints made it impossible to see anything unusual. She didn’t quite believe him, but as she searched the same area, she couldn’t find anything suspicious either. She turned toward the ocean. The morning tide was going out. If Theo had made it along the beach path last night, she should be able to make it in daylight.

Wet, jagged rocks guarded the shoreline near the cottage, and the icy ocean wind carried the smell of salt and seaweed. In warmer weather, she could have walked right along the water’s edge, but now she stayed farther back, carefully picking her way along a narrow path that was sandy during the summer but was now icy with hard-packed snow.

The path wasn’t as well defined as it had once been, and she had to climb over a few of the boulders that used to serve as her reading perches. She’d spent hours here daydreaming about the characters in whichever novel she was reading. The heroines were fueled only by strength of character as they faced down these forbidding men with their noble lineages, savage moods, and aquiline noses. Not unlike a certain Theo Harp. Although Theo’s nose wasn’t aquiline. She remembered how disappointed she’d been when she’d looked up that romantic-sounding word and seen what it really meant.

A pair of seagulls battled the cut of the wind. She stopped for a moment to take in the fierce beauty of the ocean as it pounded toward the shoreline, the foamy gray crests plunging into roiling dark valleys. She’d lived in the city so long that she’d forgotten this sense of being absolutely alone in the universe. It was a pleasant, dreamy sensation in the summer, but unsettling in the winter.

She moved on. The icy crust cracked beneath her feet as she reached the Harp House beach. She hadn’t been here since the day she’d almost died.

The memory she’d tried so hard to suppress came flooding back.

She and Regan had found the litter of pups a few weeks before the end of the summer. Annie was still miserable from Theo’s hostile withdrawal, and she’d been staying away from him as much as she could. On that particular morning while he was out surfing, she, Regan, and Jaycie were in the stable with the new pups. The pregnant mongrel who hung around the yard had delivered them during the night.

The pups, cuddled against their mother, were only a few hours old, six squirmy masses of black and white fur with their eyes still closed and their soft pink tummies rising and falling with each new breath. Their mother, a short-haired mix of so many breeds it was impossible to guess her pedigree, had shown up at the beginning of the summer. Theo had initially claimed her as his own, then lost interest after the dog had hurt its foot.

The three girls had sat cross-legged in the straw, their soft chatter drifting back and forth as they examined each tiny pup. “That one is the cutest,” Jaycie declared.

“I wish we could take them with us when we leave.”

“I want to name them.”

Eventually, Regan had fallen silent. When Annie asked if something was wrong, Regan twisted a strand of her shiny dark hair around her finger and poked at the floor with a piece of straw. “Let’s not tell Theo about them.”

Annie didn’t intend to tell Theo anything, but she still wanted to know what Regan meant. “Why not?”

Regan pulled the lock across her cheek. “Sometimes he—”

Jaycie jumped in. “He’s a boy. Boys are rougher than girls.”

Annie thought of Regan’s oboe and the purple notebook full of her poetry. She thought of herself—locked in the dumbwaiter, attacked by the gulls, pushed into the marsh. Regan jumped to her feet as if she wanted to change the subject. “Come on. Let’s go.”

The three of them had left the stable, but later that afternoon, when she and Regan had returned to check on the pups, Theo was already there.

Annie hung back while Regan went to his side. He was crouched in the straw stroking one of the small, wriggling bodies. Regan settled next to him. “They’re cute, aren’t they?” She framed it as a question, as if she needed him to validate her opinions.

“They’re mutts,” he said. “Nothing special. I don’t like dogs.” He rose from the straw and stalked out of the stable, not even glancing at Annie.

The next day Annie found him in the stable again. It was raining outside, the smell of fall already in the air. Regan was off packing the last of her things for the next day’s trip home, and Theo had one of the pups in his hands. Regan’s words came rushing back, and Annie leaped forward. “Put it down!” she’d exclaimed.

He didn’t argue with her, just set the pup back with the rest. As he looked at her, his normal sulky expression disappeared, and in her imaginative eyes, he seemed more tragic than sullen. The romantic bookworm inside her forgot about his cruelty and thought only of her beloved misunderstood heroes with their dark secrets, hidden nobility, and prodigious passions. “What’s wrong?”

He shrugged. “The summer’s over. Sucks that it’s raining on our last day.”

Annie liked the rain. It gave her a good excuse to curl up and read. And she was glad to leave. The past few months had been too hard.

All three of them would be going back to their old schools. Theo and Regan to fancy boarding schools in Connecticut, and Annie to her junior year at LaGuardia High, the Fame school.

He dug his fists into the pockets of his shorts. “Things aren’t going too great with your mom and my dad.”

She’d heard the quarrels, too. The quirkiness Elliott had originally found so charming in Mariah had gotten under his skin, and she’d overheard her mother accuse Elliott of being stuffy, which he was, but his stability was what Mariah had wanted, even more than his money. Now Mariah was saying she and Annie were going back to their old apartment when they returned to the city. Just to pack things up, she’d said, but Annie didn’t believe her.

Rain clicked against the dusty stable windows. Theo nudged the toe of his sneaker into the straw. “I’m . . . sorry things got weird with us this summer.”

Things hadn’t gotten weird. He’d gotten weird. But she wasn’t big on confrontation, and she’d merely muttered, “It’s okay.”

“I—I liked talking to you.”

She’d liked talking to him, too, and she’d liked their make-out sessions even more. “Me, too.”

She didn’t know exactly how it happened, but they ended up sitting on one of the wood benches, their backs against the stable wall, talking about school, about their parents, about the books they had to read next year. It was exactly as it used to be, and she could have talked to him for hours, but Jaycie and Regan appeared. Theo jumped up from the bench, spat in the straw, and jerked his head toward the door. “Let’s go into town,” he told them. “I want some fried clams.”

He didn’t invite Annie to come along.

She felt ugly and stupid for talking to him again. But that night, right after she’d finished packing the last of her things, she found a note from him slipped under her bedroom door.


Tide’s out. Meet me in the cave. Please.

T.